How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[WASR96]

I had to walk through the casino section of this shit hole to get to the front desk

How many obnoxious, drunk assholes accosted you on your way to the desk for a smoke, more money, or to drink with them? We had to cut through the casino portion as well when we got sent to Reno for work, 5 days in that fucking place and I never made it out the door without one of these happening on a daily basis.

 

[missnaptime]

Barely sleeping, always working, still packing, and figuring shit out.

I need a drink.

 

[Squanto Airi]

Well, found out my cousin got his gf pregnant and is having a kid. Now I get to feel the pressure from my parents to try to find a gf and make babies with her.

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

I do too, and have successfully avoided it. Tell them. Tell them it makes you incredibly uncomfortable and it is very unlikely to have a good outcome.

Yeah, this. I did the same because i never saw the sense in group, i never related to other people when i was forced to attend group (only happened at the couple of times when i was forced to be in-patient in the first place) and i never "opened up" either, complete waste of time. I definitely relate to the "incredibly uncomfortable" part. Worst experience in group i had was witnessing some self-obsessed, probably some form of narc or BPD woman going on and on about her unbehaved kids while sitting next to another woman who was in-patient after attempting suicide because she lost her two toddler-aged kids in a car crash. Can't tell me that did anyone any good, i just got up and left and told my station doc i am not attending this shit ever again.

 

[WASR96]

Is this a new thing for insurance companies to try to save money by trying to make people do group therapy? I sought out therapy back in 2014 because I desperately needed help getting reacclimated to civilian life, and the worst that happened was they initially tried to cheap out by sending me to talk to a social worker. She was useless and I told my doc that I needed to see a real LPC and not someone pretending to be a counselor. Got sent to see an LPC after that and was actually given some useful coping skills and that was the end of it after about 4 months of seeing them. Doesn't surprise me to hear they've somehow become worse than trying to farm people out to social workers, not a chance in hell I would have participated in group therapy.

 

[Not A Bunny]

Is this a new thing for insurance companies to try to save money by trying to make people do group therapy?

I've been trying to parse the implications of this particular push for days. It didn't feel in any way organic.

I kind of wonder if this is the end result of everyone going nuts because oof COVID lockdowns: that there's an overwhelming amount of people that basically left the reservation so that the industry can't keep up AND that a new "mental health lockdown" would be just familiar enough to sound like a good idea.

It quite possibly explains why I've been getting told that one-on-one intensive counseling is a no-go with a lot of businesses.

Edit: I don't think I've felt as good in ages, when I reasoned that I wasn't so bad that I needed that kind of therapy I've described. What a difference a day makes.

 

[AnOminous]

Is this a new thing for insurance companies to try to save money by trying to make people do group therapy? I sought out therapy back in 2014 because I desperately needed help getting reacclimated to civilian life, and the worst that happened was they initially tried to cheap out by sending me to talk to a social worker.

Sounds like a great scam. Get your own customers to do the work they're paying you for.

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

Eleven fucking hours of therapy a week.

What the fuck? That seems more than excessive. I haven't been in any form of treatment in ages but back then it was one 1-hour session per week, no exceptions (as outpatient, in-patient was daily bullshit of course). Do these people realize that most people have a social life and a job?

 

[Not A Bunny]

What the fuck? That seems more than excessive. I haven't been in any form of treatment in ages but back then it was one 1-hour session per week, no exceptions (as outpatient, in-patient was daily bullshit of course). Do these people realize that most people have a social life and a job?

It's probably to curb your social life where there might be some bad habits or enablers. That's me being charitable.

 

[Sirius]

Psychologist recommended esketamine as a last resort of sorts for my lack of motivation/mUh DePreSsIon. Insurance covers it so I'll give it a shot. It's a big commitment; I have to go to a place for two hours twice a week, and I won't be able to drive back afterwards (I'll get picked up).

I just hope it works. I don't even find video games or TV shows enjoyable anymore. Seems really scary but I've heard good things about it.

 

[HandsomeDan]

I'm very tired, mentally and physically. I trust in the Lord but am very tired. Running a business really takes everything I have.

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

Psychologist recommended esketamine as a last resort of sorts for my lack of motivation/mUh DePreSsIon. Insurance covers it so I'll give it a shot. It's a big commitment; I have to go to a place for two hours twice a week, and I won't be able to drive back afterwards (I'll get picked up).

Enjoy the high. Not my cup of tea recreationally (i am assuming esketamine is like normal ket in its effect) but i read some stuff about its anti-depressant qualities and it sounds promising. I am all for the industry going down new roads regarding treatment because, not only in my own experience, SSRI/SNRI and the likes are clearly not cutting it. Psilocybin seems very promising, too and while again not my cup of tea i know two cases personally that successfully self-medicated with it to treat their depression.

 

[Lingering butter taste]

I may finally have a job, it’s a restaurant, but it has a lot of military types come in. I feel like there’s a certain way I gotta talk to them? I really wanna keep this job and I don’t wanna fuck up, any advice on how to respectfully approach these individuals?

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

I may finally have a job, it’s a restaurant, but it has a lot of military types come in. I feel like there’s a certain way I gotta talk to them? I really wanna keep this job and I don’t wanna fuck up, any advice on how to respectfully approach these individuals?

Tell them the specials and ask if you can take their order. Or show them to a table, whatever, depending on the job.

They're just people.

 

[WASR96]

I may finally have a job, it’s a restaurant, but it has a lot of military types come in. I feel like there’s a certain way I gotta talk to them? I really wanna keep this job and I don’t wanna fuck up, any advice on how to respectfully approach these individuals?

You're not required to show any types of customs and courtesies since you're not military (besides the standard way you'd treat any other customer naturally.) Just show the same respect you'd show to any other customer, most military will appreciate the escape from the sir/ma'am/sergeant shit for the half an hour escape anyways. The only people who are usually douchebags are E-9s and any officer who made it past Major and thinks their shit doesn't stink anymore, but that is usually reserved for them being pricks to military who they outrank and not innocent restaurant staff. Congrats on your new job.

 

[MisterListerTheBlister]

Well, at least I'm moving in some direction now, I guess. I've practically got a fork in the road with so many branches it's enough to make your head spin. It's a better position mentally than what I was in before, so thank God for that at least.

Spoiler: fuck you it's a wall of text

I think I might actually have a real chance to help this area I'm stuck in, like do some real good work to help it not go to total shit functionally, and I think all it takes is understanding and bridging people together with my tech knowledge, ironically enough. The only issue is that I actually really fucking hate being stuck here, and I hate working in tech, I just like it as a hobby. That and, I've always been burned for "doing more than what I'm paid for" by reality, and this help I plan on doing is probably gonna end up needing me to do just that. The higher ups seem friendly, just thrown into a shitty position (someone higher up with all the knowledge just up and retired, leaving a know-nothing person in charge and said person having the assistant just take charge of everything when it should be delegated to more people... so now, more people are vying for that higher-up position and no-one knows if it's just gonna get shittier), but I've also been burned and exploited quite a bit by people who were just seemingly friendly and who I thought I could be loyal to. I'd think I would have learned better by now, but the fact that I'm still even considering helping people like this, shows me that I haven't, for better or worse.

At the same time though, I'm gonna be stuck here for at least a few more years, so my mindset is "you know, I might as well try to help the area I'm in be less shitty while I'm here. That and, the whole world is falling to shit, so there's a real chance I might not even get to move somewhere new and might as well keep what I have here since chances are it's shittier out there if you're a stranger".
I just wanna be able to fuck off to somewhere colder, and that's what I've been planning to do, even going full fastman if I've gotta or die trying. The only issue is, right now, I believe this spot I'm stuck in right now is the only way for me to network which really seems to be the only way to get a job that pays enough for the bills nowadays. So I guess my plan is to stick around, fix shit that needs fixing that only I know how to fix, and hopefully gain enough trust to get in a field that'll allow me to have enough funds to move somewhere else.
Though there's this nagging in the back of my head that keeps telling me to just not even bother with them since "this isn't how you're gonna be able to GTFO out of here dude".
Sorry if any of this is vague or autistic, trying to figure out how to word this rant without giving TMI here. Hope you all are doing/gonna get fine,

 

[Neighborhood Curmudgeon]

I've got the cold, been busy as fuck, and just eagerly awaiting my weekends and vacations. Other than that, alternating between hanging in there and doing good.

 

[Gorilla Man]

My dying company hired jeets
Jeets treated the final product like they treat their streets - they shat on it
I have to fix everything until the end of the month
I know I won't be able to

I started taking creatine and I've been listening to CIA GATEWAY tapes in the desperate hope that they will grant me superhuman focus, but I doesn't look like it will work
I hope my hair doesnt fall off
I hope putin starts WW3 so I dont have to deal with this shit anymore

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

I started taking creatine

Lol, it's effects for concentration are mild at best, it mostly helps with fatigue and sleep deprivation. Have you mistaken it for nicotine?

Anyway, I don't know what to think about my current predicament. On the one hand, I have a job and a place to stay, I can pay my bills, buy the stuff I need and even save up something, but at the same time I fucking hate this job, my coworker wants to quit just like me, I don't care about my job anymore since no one is remotely trying to give a fuck, it all goes downhill. With my mind I understand that the position I am in is not nearly as bad, I don't spend my days working non-stop and for 80% of the time it is not challenging at all, I should be grateful for that, yet with my body I feel exhausted, dried as a fucking raisin, I just went out of a vacation and I already want another one. If I could just have a memory loss after each shift, I think I would be happier. Maybe this is why people drink after work.

 

[Squanto Airi]

Woke up way too early since I got the closing shift, but couldn't go back to sleep, I've been cleaning.
Moved some stuff back indoors, and this reptilian decided to sneak in. Does anyone know which kind of reptile it is? (I did release it after getting the photos-my cat would have killed it senseless before the sun went down).

Spoiler: Photos

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