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[The Repeated Meme]

Fucking terrible. Why even have hope in the first place. I knew this shit was going to happen. My job is gone for good and the union can't do shit. I'm so fucking angry and depressed right now. Useless union.

 

[Banquet Meal]

I have not, they're an America-only thing, I think.
I really like Monster Rehab, it's basically just ice tea with a hint of energy drink without being awful sugary swill but I also have a relatively high sugary swill-tolerance.

i feel that, i live off of coke. im supposed to not drink regular pop anymore, but its so hard, its like my one major vice...i do like the monster juices though, i tried one a while back, and it didnt have that weird aftertaste

 

[WhoBusTank69]

My job is gone for good and the union can't do shit. I'm so fucking angry and depressed right now. Useless union.

Fuckass unions like to harken back to the times where people got bullied by the Pinkertons to justify their existence but they can't keep good people employed. They suck.

 

[john5433]

good

 

[Mother Gooseberry]

Currently going through what feels like my monthly mental health crisis where I convince myself I have the symptoms of a thousand different cancers and other ailments and have been stressing myself out to the max the last couple of days. Can’t focus on anything, can’t enjoy anything, can’t sleep, glued to my phone almost every second of the day googling different symptoms…
Legit feel like I’m going insane.
I feel like I really should get on some sort of anxiety medication but taking SSRI’s has become a meme at this point and it seems like the negatives outweigh any positives they can provide…
I just don’t know anymore. Rawdogging life really sucks.

 

[Motherf*cker]

Dog went and proved me right
When I came home the other day, mother was entertaining friends and had left a tray of human sweets on a low coffee table. They reassured me that my dog had left it alone and I said that I knew that my dog is swift and I would feel more comfortable with the tray elsewhere.
Dog has been doing her own raw feeding and stealing a chicken wing from my dinner,
So the tray with the sweets was turned into this thing where I was a fucking asshole for politely asking it to be moved.

Today mother put her newly plated dinner on a low coffee table and then leaves my dog alone with it, so of course my dog ate a plate of tuna pasta salad. I don't know how many times I tell mother not to be so casual with her food but she always is and then is newly surprised each and every time.

I missed my appointment to change medications for sleep. It was a phone call and it would have literally taken five minutes but my sleepy ass forgot that my ringer was still on DND from the other day.

Tomorrow. Things for tomorrow.

 

[Quijibo69]

Passed my eye test, good for another year.

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

had a Monster because I'm a weirdo who actually like the taste of energy drinks.

I swear they put Crack in those. For most of my life i only drank water, coffee and beers, i had a coke or some other sweet soft drink maybe once per month. About two years ago i picked up my first Monster Peachy Keen and ever since i am hopelessly addicted. I go grocery shopping almost every day and the first thing i am looking for is if they have Monster on sale, which both the Lidl and the other super market i go to regularly have. Peachy Keen, The Doctor (it's some kind of mandarin orange flavour) and the ginger one are my favorites. Rockstar has some Blueberry Acai berry mix flavor that is also pretty good. I get cravings for a Monster just typing this.

 

[long waters]

i do like the monster juices though, i tried one a while back, and it didnt have that weird aftertaste

I swear they put Crack in those. For most of my life i only drank water, coffee and beers, i had a coke or some other sweet soft drink maybe once per month. About two years ago i picked up my first Monster Peachy Keen and ever since i am hopelessly addicted.

Ah, it's almost triggering my addiction reading these I think it's been 3 weeks or so since I last had a Monster.
Lately I have been thinking about investing in a fancy espresso machine instead. I like coffee, but I don't like how pricy good coffee is at any café place, so I rarely ever have it. However I'm not yet convinced, depending how fancy a machine I'm looking at it would still be a few years to recoup the cost in what I'd save by not going to a café. And as lame as it may sound, I suppose a café does provide an opportunity for meeting new people. Maybe one day I could rizz a nice barista lady there or something

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

Ah, it's almost triggering my addiction reading these I think it's been 3 weeks or so since I last had a Monster.
Lately I have been thinking about investing in a fancy espresso machine instead. I like coffee, but I don't like how pricy good coffee is at any café place, so I rarely ever have it. However I'm not yet convinced, depending how fancy a machine I'm looking at it would still be a few years to recoup the cost in what I'd save by not going to a café. And as lame as it may sound, I suppose a café does provide an opportunity for meeting new people. Maybe one day I could rizz a nice barista lady there or something

You don't even need to go that fancy to make great coffee at home. I hardly drink coffee these days but i used to be an insufferable coffee snob in the past, the best tasting coffee for me was brewed in one of these:

30€, virtually indestructible (our last one held for ~25 years, then the handle broke off), easy to clean. Bialetti is the best brand, you'll find one of these in practically any italian household.

Bought my girlfriend the fancy new version for her last birthday, love the design. The hinge of the cover is a bit too flimsy for my liking and i am always extra careful when cleaning it:

Was like 50€ i think, the taste is as good as in the standard version.

If you want to go fancier you can get one of these, it's around 130€ and it makes excellent tasting coffee, don't even need to buy some absurdly expensive coffee beans, the result is pretty good even with cheap ones:

DeLonghi is the brand to get, i think they still produce their machines in Italy and haven't outsourced production to China like so many other, previously quality brands.

My cousin has one of the ultra expensive, top of the line DeLonghi machines, think he paid over a 1000€ for it. While the coffee it brews is great (it also got an integrated grinder and whatnot) i think it is absolutely not worth its price. You get similar tasting coffee if you use good beans from the cheap models i posted above.

 

[long waters]

DeLonghi is the brand to get, i think they still produce their machines in Italy and haven't outsourced production to China like so many other, previously quality brands.

The lady at the small tea-shop where I buy my teas also said the same! She also sells coffee there and I asked her about it.

Cheers for all the info!

 

[Motherf*cker]

I love expresso makers, they're so good. I usually use a French Press, which make a good cup because the oils don't get taken out. Online, they seem to be pricey but I found all mine for under $20

 

[Frag Tag Mini 3]

I swear to God I just want to kill everyone black and older than 50 at my work place. I hate very one of them. Honestly I've come to hate blacks and boomers in almost all circumstances but it's really bad at work.

My job (and their job) is very important. As in, if we dont do our job, the death toll can easily hit anywhere from 4 to 7 digits. So, something you shouldnt fuck around about. But because of the need for diversity, and the old faggots refusing to retire, they hang around and fuck everything up.

The black guys are barely literate and have mjor difficulties communicating because they barely do more than mumble. And when they do speak clearly, its only for complaning. I'm not saying only super men can do this job. But for fucks sake, do we need to hire based on skin color in our postion?

And the baby boomers. I don't consider them people anymore. I used to before I worked with them. But now that I've been in a working enviroment with them for longer than 40 hours? They are walking bags of meat attatched to a flesh computer programmed with less personality than Neuro Sama. Sure, they can do the job right. But not before a half hour conversation about either a sports team or some utterly pointless camping trip.

Fred, all I needed was to update the inventory report so we could order more supplies. You know what I get? An unending story about a botched ice fishing trip.

Them: "It was so cold, that when we drilled a hole to go ice fishing it froze over in just a few minutes."
Me: Oh so like you gave up or stayed viga-
Them: So we drilled another hole
Me: oh so the first one was a fluke
Them: And that one froze over too.
Me: uhhhhh.......
Them: And so we drilled another one and that froze over too
Me: So you stopped drilling holes right?
Them: So we had to drill another one, and then another one. And they all froze over
Me: WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME THIS?
them: But we couldnt just give up
Me: WHY NOT?!?!?
Them: so we kept drilling holes
Me: I NEED THE INVENTORY REPORT FRED!!!!!!!!!


I am just so fucking tired of it. Everything is crumbling down around me and it's like watching someone who was lobotomized just blunder their way throgh the collapse.

 

[Banquet Meal]

I usually use a French Press,

i want to buy one of those giant silver tea urns, with the teapot on top..they look super dramatic, and i drink a lot of tea, so it would be kind of worth it

 

[M3xus]

Had some medical stuff I was afraid would be expensive enough to dip into savings, but they turned out to not be a big deal. Doc did give me the "you need to drink more water and cut caffeine and alcohol" talk, though. I guess it's time to admit I'm not young anymore.

 

[nycifer]

I'm feeling moderate.

My rations are right now gradually depleting. That delayed citation coming in the way it did really threw a wrench in what financial momentum I had going. So now I'm just sitting here nervously checking my total rent and watching my pay to come next week in hopes the numbers are right where I have some money left over to temporarily patch up my resources. I had to reach out to a couple friends to help get some support but it's only used to help make up the difference of the withdraw of my PAL loan that's going to attack the next paycheck I'm going to have next week. Since, I had to dip into the savings and throw all I could at the citation so it would leave me alone.

I'm just glad also my right arm is functioning fully again. During my time off and the last day of work, I was developing a bad sore somewhere on the right side of my chest. Couldn't sleep right on the side it was on and got around to finally dealing with it tuesday morning. Summary was a gross experience I'd like to not deal with again, but it healed up and now I can move my arm around without restraint and can sleep once more.

Heres to another monotonous work week of trying to please foreign babblers who shop around blindly. Oh and I'm trying to actively get a couple niggers evicted because I heard them pipe their music up around 3 in the morning because, nigger behavior. Went on for 35 minutes, captured recordings, snapped a picture of where the source was. Sure enough it was this nigger couple. I had to evacuate my bedroom and pile everything into the living room portion of my apartment a month ago as a way to try and resolve this ongoing sound issue. So I'm paying nearly 900 for a third of an apartment size and then this kind of shit happens, fucking niggers.

My state is going to get raped by the cold dick of weather Friday, negatives all across the board all day and night. Wonderful...

 

[Mechanical Pencil]

I feel like I really should get on some sort of anxiety medication but taking SSRI’s has become a meme at this point and it seems like the negatives outweigh any positives they can provide…
I just don’t know anymore. Rawdogging life really sucks.

CBT has been shown to be very useful for massively reducing anxiety related to hypochondria/medical anxiety with good long term outcomes. If you are having a serious drop in QOL because of med anxiety then it's absolutely time to look into resources to help you function.

I'm sure there are free online workbooks you can make use of if you're willing to apply yourself to some self therapy. If need be, you can always seek out a professional to help guide you through the CBT but there's nothing stopping you from doing the work yourself and getting some much needed relief, all while avoiding pills.

 

[TotalNematodeDeath]

I just had to bite the bullet and finally drag my ass to the doctor later today, I'm tired of (what seems like POTS) this bullshit light headed every time I gotta heat up my car in the morning. Its just now I throw up at least one day a week after breakfast and the food isn't the common factor. I had to pull over in a closed dollar general and hurl in the garbage as the store opener watched with wide eyes. Fuck this shit i'm going to the doctor. Fuck Winter time.

I'm just so fucking tired of getting sick or my body hating me or both. I feel like such a god damn let down for not being able to suck it up

 

[Banquet Meal]

My state is going to get raped by the cold dick of weather Friday, negatives all across the board all day and night

same, and the heat in my car just died! ugh.
sorry about your arm though, that sounds horrifying. i hope you never have that happen again, for sure.

im having some weird..idk self doubt or something...im sure everyone has seen cyraxx all over twitter or whatever,

but i also noticed a lot of people talking about how boomer/gen x people wouldnt know who he was, were normies, etc etc and it made me wonder if i am really just getting too old for any of this? i dont want to be a massive cringy faggot that clings to the last vestiges of youth, which honestly this wouldnt be it if it were, but still. i feel out of place now, i guess. im so much older than everyone. kind of the "old person at the club feeling i guess.
its hard to articulate any of this properly, and its annoying.
*there is a huge divide in my internet activities, and those of my peers, and it seems to be widening as time goes on, and im just feeling whatever, i guess.

 

[fist_of_khonshu]

Still managing, doing well. I've had bits of time where I've been feeling down the last few weeks but I think I'm just tired from packing for my move. Got a new place, saving some money. It's a little scary to be on my own for the first time without people I know but Im trying to stay optimistic about it. Plan on budgeting more, but the best part is I have some wiggle room in my budget to start going to the gym.

The move hasn't been all that bad either, in fact it's helped me declutter and realize where I need to regroup my effort into consumption wise. So a lot of things I thought I was attached to have gone to donation bins or people I know who wanted it.