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[PlapPlapPlapPlapPlap]

In the last four days I think I've coughed up enough yellow blobs to fill up a pickle jar.

 

[piombo]

currently safe and with electricity still working (no tap water whatsoever though), but for the unaware, in these two days an hurricane or whatever the fuck it is has graced the italian islands, my town's near the seaside and well....

and to make matters worse, this is the good side of town, i've heard the opposite part of it is completely and utterly gone

e:
i've had recieved a video of just the entrance of the "bad" side of town

second e: we've got a name, and his name's harry, harry's one hell of a cunt really

https://newsbook.com.mt/en/cyclone-harry-batters-sicily-as-strong-winds-force-evacuations-and-flight-chaos/

https://en.ilsole24ore.com/art/bad-weather-cyclone-harry-south-red-alert-sardinia-sicily-and-calabria-AIk1iKx

third and final e: water's back

 

[Outer Space Traveller]

currently safe and with electricity still working (no tap water whatsoever though), but for the unaware, in these two days an hurricane or whatever the fuck it is has graced the italian islands, my town's near the seaside and well....

b.mp4

a.mp4

and to make matters worse, this is the good side of town, i've heard the opposite part of it is completely and utterly gone

Damn man, at least you are okay.

 

[Banquet Meal]

currently safe and with electricity still working (no tap water whatsoever though), but for the unaware, in these two days an hurricane or whatever the fuck it is has graced the italian islands, my town's near the seaside and well....

b.mp4

a.mp4

and to make matters worse, this is the good side of town, i've heard the opposite part of it is completely and utterly gone

e:
i've had recieved a video of just the entrance of the "bad" side of town


e.mp4

stay safe, that looks absolutely terrifying!

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

I do agree that trying weird new things out of your comfort zone is a good idea, even if sometimes all you learn at the end of it is that you really hate doing that thing.

Solid advice. I struggle with going out of my comfort zone to this day, at least to some degree, doing stuff you don't like to do helps build resilience and mental fortitude. The more often you do it, the more normal it becomes. I do stuff now in my 30's without batting an eye where i legit would've lost sleep over in my 20's (latest example being the art gig last friday) just thinking about doing. Some "confront your fears" kind of deal.

and when I told her "I put my husband first but I don't neglect anyone" it led to her saying "you're up your husband's ass and you have abandoned me".

Man, what the fuck? Is she thinking you are her mother? Good riddance, this is some real immature bullshit.

I "prioritize dick" over her, "dick" meaning, my husband of ten years

I would've lost my composure at this point.

it irritates me when someone tells me to "lol just go on Amazon"

My Zoomer brother once said to me "lol you still go analog shopping?" without any hint of irony after i told him that i was out buying some new clothes. Fucking kids these days...

 

[Otterly]

I used to be gripped by the compulsion that if I just explain better, maybe people will understand.

As someone who suffers from this myself, o have come to realise that most people don’t even listen. They don’t want to listen, the don’t care what someone says they just want your submission to their point of view.
If you can find someone similarly earnest who will listen to you, hold them close

 

[Brenda Holiday]

I went to a crisis center a while ago because I couldn't take the panic attacks anymore. For some reason I was and still am hesitant to admit to myself that's what has been happening. I left after about five hours after talking to a nurse, they think I have PPD/PPA and want me to get on meds. I've been considering getting on meds for my anxiety anyways recently, but doing that after being anti-meds for so long is really hard to swallow. One part of me feels like a failure, that I couldn't improve without meds, another part of me acknowledges that maybe after decades of trying to overcome it maybe I do need meds... I just can't take the panic attacks anymore, it's terrifying and when it's over I'm in pure fear of when the next one will happen. It's one of the most terrifying things I've ever felt and I understand why someone would kill themselves from having to live with it.

 

[long waters]

Solid advice. I struggle with going out of my comfort zone to this day, at least to some degree, doing stuff you don't like to do helps build resilience and mental fortitude. The more often you do it, the more normal it becomes. I do stuff now in my 30's without batting an eye where i legit would've lost sleep over in my 20's (latest example being the art gig last friday) just thinking about doing. Some "confront your fears" kind of deal.

One trick I recently discovered related to this - if you have anxiety about going some place you've never been to before, like a doctor's office or whatnot, try going there before your actual appointment without necessarily stepping into the building. I find that familiarizing myself beforehand with the area makes me more comfortable with it.

I think the logic behind it is something like this: going to a new place and doing something new can be scary, but being familiar with the surrounding area gives it a sense of safety. Since the surrounding area is no longer completely unfamiliar, it's like having a safe buffer zone you could theoretically retreat to so your brain is less terrified about going there.

I imagine this could be similarly applied if you have anxieties about leaving the house at all. You could try first going just out into the yard. Then after a few days going on short walks down the block. Then later exploring further than the block, etc. Basically slowly expanding your familiar explored territory until you feel safe going further and further.

I guess I'm just describing exposure therapy here aren't I?

 

[Banquet Meal]

spiteful asshole

do you think shes jealous because shes not married?? i dont blame you for not wanting to deal with that level of bullshit.

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

One trick I recently discovered related to this - if you have anxiety about going some place you've never been to before, like a doctor's office or whatnot, try going there before your actual appointment without necessarily stepping into the building. I find that familiarizing myself beforehand with the area makes me more comfortable with it.

I did this many, many times as a young man and it did indeed work very well for me. Takes the edge off, so to speak.

I guess I'm just describing exposure therapy here aren't I?

While i have become very anti-therapy and anti-psych after my wasted years in the system this is actually one of the few forms of therapy that worked really well for me. So much stuff that bothered me in the past does not even register as a problem anymore. These days i bitch about it but then i just do it.

 

[Motherf*cker]

Oh hey.

 

[Caddo Cobgang]

While i have become very anti-therapy and anti-psych after my wasted years in the system this is actually one of the few forms of therapy that worked really well for me

for me personally the best form of therapy is adopting a “don’t tell me what to do” mindset i try to pay as little attention to the news of the world anymore, even on mundane non-political matters i find there’s always a negative bias or nitpick, I do not particularly feel therapy works for someone with a life as uneventful as mine, so it’s more about finding what i want to avoid and building up mental willpower to avoid the thing rather then talking things out

 

[PetiteFeet]

Today was "productive". I broke half of my sofa because I forgot the "leg" near where the sofa halves connect isn't an actual functional leg, merely just for show, and my fat ass is too fat. Now I have zero excuse to just get rid of it since I can't sell it now.
After my social worker left, I got melancholic af for no reason other than "oh, I'm gonna die alone, time to cry."
Slept for most of the day except when I walked the dog. Made somewhat healthy dinner, but caved on my "no caffeine" attempt and had a Monster because I'm a weirdo who actually like the taste of energy drinks.
Also made cookies because I can.

I'm seeing the Swan Lake ballet on Sunday with my mother, which I am actually excited for. I can't remember the last time we did something together, just the two of us. It must've been before 2020 because she wasn't suffering from arthritis according to my memory.

 

[Banquet Meal]

Today was "productive". I broke half of my sofa because I forgot the "leg" near where the sofa halves connect isn't an actual functional leg, merely just for show, and my fat ass is too fat. Now I have zero excuse to just get rid of it since I can't sell it now.
After my social worker left, I got melancholic af for no reason other than "oh, I'm gonna die alone, time to cry."
Slept for most of the day except when I walked the dog. Made somewhat healthy dinner, but caved on my "no caffeine" attempt and had a Monster because I'm a weirdo who actually like the taste of energy drinks.
Also made cookies because I can.

I'm seeing the Swan Lake ballet on Sunday with my mother, which I am actually excited for. I can't remember the last time we did something together, just the two of us. It must've been before 2020 because she wasn't suffering from arthritis according to my memory.

do you like those c4 drinks? my daughter drinks them...i never liked the taste of energy drinks before, but these taste almost like peach nehi or something.
also, im jealous! ive always wanted to see swan lake in real life myself, i hope you have a great time!!

 

[Blanche Devereaux]

do you think shes jealous because shes not married?? i dont blame you for not wanting to deal with that level of bullshit.

100%, and she is one of those who doesn't understand that being married comes with its own set of expectations, responsibilities, difficulties, etc. It's childish. I hate people who idealize having a spouse and think it will solve their problems, it's shortsighted. Having a dependable partner is great and I highly recommend it but it's absurd and backwards to assume or believe someone has it easier than you because they are married. If you aren't happy single, you won't be happy in any relationship. Bet on that.

 

[Banquet Meal]

100%, and she is one of those who doesn't understand that being married comes with its own set of expectations, responsibilities, difficulties, etc. It's childish. I hate people who idealize having a spouse and think it will solve their problems, it's shortsighted. Having a dependable partner is great and I highly recommend it but it's absurd and backwards to assume or believe someone has it easier than you because they are married. If you aren't happy single, you won't be happy in any relationship. Bet on that.

absolutely. ive been married for 34 years, and on one hand, i love that i am never alone, and i always have someone here with me, but on the OTHER hand, it drives me crazy that im never alone and that i always have someone here with me no...idk. i would be so bored if i were alone. i got married when i was 17, so ive never experienced living by myself, so it would be too much i think.
maybe your friend will find someone, and pull the stick out of her ass! hopefully!

 

[Endless Blabbery]

No dietary changes. I'm touched with 'tism so keep a close eye on it.

Only lifestyle change is unemployment since I have a bunch of schooling to do this year. Normally a job forces me to reset sleep eventually, but I'm hoping to learn to do that under my own power without external factors. I've filled up the interim time with exercise and flirting and crafting and studying, so it's not like I'm vegging out.

Only real clue I have to go off of is I took some ritalin the other day (from my old med stash) and slept solid 10pm-8am that night.

Hey, I just came across this:

In the vivid/lucid dreams the epithalon or pinealon? Just started epithalon a few nights ago. Will wait 10d or so before adding pinealon. Husband finds he is waking 430/5am “supercharged” and connected. I haven’t noticed anything yet.

It knocks me tf out and yes legit feel like I get 8 hours of sleep on 4 lol I’m getting up earlier and not feeling groggy or tired. It’s such a trip.

Btw this is the number one thing I’ve ever taken that practically forces me to wake up early and get a normal circadian rhythm

When I take both I am forced to wake up by 8 AM at the latest

I literally can’t sleep in if I try

But obv you’ll feel off for a few days till normal

Check out his profile as well as his store website:


I unfortunately don't have any papers to provide as of yet. I didn't do any research... So beware.

 

[PetiteFeet]

do you like those c4 drinks? my daughter drinks them...i never liked the taste of energy drinks before, but these taste almost like peach nehi or something.

I have not, they're an America-only thing, I think.
I really like Monster Rehab, it's basically just ice tea with a hint of energy drink without being awful sugary swill but I also have a relatively high sugary swill-tolerance.

 

[Legalize Asbestos]

I unfortunately don't have any papers to provide as of yet. I didn't do any research... So beware.

I may look into it later, thanks. It's a hot market for rubes for sure.

For now I've cut my Iron intake and re-added a Vitamin E supplement and that's solved the problem. I must've run out of Vit E at some point and not noticed. My exam is tomorrow so once I've written that I'll add the Heme-Iron back in to see if it reliably causes the insomnia. If I'm fine, then it pinpoints the lack of Vit E as the cause, which is fruitful information.

 

[draggs]

flu that's been going around kicked my ass for the last two weeks. was so sick the first week i almost went to the hospital, instead i decided to let my water bill rape me and took 5-6 showers a day for that week, only thing that made me feel better. twice i thought it was going away and it said haha no im moving to fuck over some other part of your body. first was chills and body aches and congestion for a week, that stopped and it moved to my stomach and kept the congestion for a few days, that stopped and it moved to my chest and kept the congestion for a few days. it's all gone now except my nose and my face around it hurts. like someone punched it hurts. a couple days ago it was hurting really bad, i look in the mirror and i have two black eyes outta nowhere. damnedest thing never had an illness do that to me lol