How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Endless Blabbery]

I was getting a lot of gas, heartburn, bit of trouble sleeping, bit of constipation, only started after I started taking Citrate. I stopped taking it a couple days ago and the symptoms have been fading, drinking a lot of water to try and clear things out. I get alright levels of potassium in my diet, but it's not an easy RDI to hit with just food and any eye towards balance.

I completely disregarded my excessive farting as a happenstance. As for sleep, constipation and heartburn, I thankfully didn't struggle with any of that. I sometimes felt like my heart was overreacting, as my mind tends to do anyway. I deal with a "funny feeling" in my chest at the end of countless nights, so it is hard to tell whether it is from KCit or my every-day stress.
In regards to RDI and so on, I was thinking about the micro-nutrients I consume. Even if I take magnesium (I also take thiamine), I would also need potassium; and then sodium; and then calcium; it just never ends.
If anybody cares, a reasonable source of calcium is the calcium carbonate from eggshells: you can remove that one disgusting organic peel, and then grind the shell into a fine powder; then heat in the oven or however else you wish to ensure all bacteria die. And then you just drink the powder: CaCO3 (s) + 2 HCl (aq) →CaCl2 (aq) + H2O (l) + CO2 (g)

 

[Robert w'E'd Leef]

Sometimes, I miss the days when I could come home from a shitty day at work and not have to deal with anyone and could spend the evening in solitary silence.

 

[More AWS-8Q Than You]

I completely disregarded my excessive farting as a happenstance. As for sleep, constipation and heartburn, I thankfully didn't struggle with any of that. I sometimes felt like my heart was overreacting, as my mind tends to do anyway. I deal with a "funny feeling" in my chest at the end of countless nights, so it is hard to tell whether it is from KCit or my every-day stress.
In regards to RDI and so on, I was thinking about the micro-nutrients I consume. Even if I take magnesium (I also take thiamine), I would also need potassium; and then sodium; and then calcium; it just never ends.

That's kinda where I am, started adding thiamine, a B-complex, and magnesium and going from there, I've been using Cronometer to track the daily stuff. I can sympathize with the heart overreacting, mine does occasionally usually when I'm trying to sleep, but I've always had bad circulation and such. Last time was earlier in the week when the KCit stuff also started, but that's also when I started feeling sick with what feels like a cold. Never anything too bad, not like heart exploding levels, just sometimes like work out levels and I also haven't been giving myself as much rest and recovery time as I should be. It get close to a goal and get stubborn about hitting it and it's not the first time I've hurt myself going too hard. Gave myself tennis elbow a year and a half ago and that's only just healed. I should probably get checked out just to be sure, just have to find the time.

 

[Endless Blabbery]

That's kinda where I am, started adding thiamine, a B-complex, and magnesium and going from there, I've been using Cronometer to track the daily stuff. I can sympathize with the heart overreacting, mine does occasionally usually when I'm trying to sleep, but I've always had bad circulation and such. Last time was earlier in the week when the KCit stuff also started, but that's also when I started feeling sick with what feels like a cold. Never anything too bad, not like heart exploding levels, just sometimes like work out levels and I also haven't been giving myself as much rest and recovery time as I should be. It get close to a goal and get stubborn about hitting it and it's not the first time I've hurt myself going too hard. Gave myself tennis elbow a year and a half ago and that's only just healed. I should probably get checked out just to be sure, just have to find the time.

I am weirded out by how similar your story is to mine. I also gave myself tennis elbow, on both elbows however. Every time I work out they feel iffy the next day, so I only work out like four days a week instead of, say, every day.
Bad-circulation-wise, Veronica won't shut up about how raising your legs so your lymph fluid drains from your lower body is the best thing you could ever do. Still, jumping up and down should also do it. I don't know.
I did get a cold a few days ago, but that only happens to me when I sleep like shit, which I did.
I stopped taking the B-complex because that unfortunately did jack shit for me. But maybe, now that I take thiamine, I'd have to buy some again...

as a dog owner with a very vocal dog, I totally get it. I hate it when my dog barks, too, and I've actively tried to train her to reduce her barking in the last 10 years with little to no results.
my dog in general just makes a lot of noises, like she'll scream her head off when she sees people she loves. She's impossible to shut up and it's actually really embarrassing.

I once went to a girl's place to study and she had a dog. That motherfucker would not shut up. I ended up raising my voice at the goddamn dog, as any reasonable human would do, but she was like "Oh my God don't yell at him." Sure.
I still think about that interaction several years later, thinking to myself "Wow, she cared more about her dog barking and being a nuisance overall, not letting us study jack shit, making me waste my time, than to tell her dog to skedaddle."

 

[More AWS-8Q Than You]

I am weirded out by how similar your story is to mine. I also gave myself tennis elbow, on both elbows however.
Bad-circulation-wise, Veronica won't shut up about how raising your legs so your lymph fluid drains from your lower body is the best thing you could ever do. Still, jumping up and down should also do it. I don't know.
I did get a cold a few days ago, but that only happens to me when I sleep like shit, which I did.
I stopped taking the B-complex because that unfortunately did jack shit for me. But maybe, now that I take thiamine, I'd have to buy some again...

It is a bit, you didn't find out by doing dumbell curls did you? Because that wasn't fun, just doing a curl and having my elbow just say no. I've been doing large numbers of calf raises, daily planking, and have been adding bodyweight squats in, as kind of a daily think, but pushed way too hard on the squats. The esoteric health Twitter guy I get my Thiamine advice from recommends it, just because pushing one B vitamin can push hard on the rest. I use the Dr. Clark Store Super B100, but I was just looking to get out of a bit of a energy slump, not go too hardcore.

I don't know that I fully buy in to the Peaters and such, but I'm always willing to listen and try crazy health and diet stuff at least once. But getting older might need me to tone it down a bit.

 

[Endless Blabbery]

It is a bit, you didn't find out by doing dumbell curls did you? Because that wasn't fun, just doing a curl and having my elbow just say no. I've been doing large numbers of calf raises, daily planking, and have been adding bodyweight squats in, as kind of a daily think, but pushed way too hard on the squats. The esoteric health Twitter guy I get my Thiamine advice from recommends it, just because pushing one B vitamin can push hard on the rest. I use the Dr. Clark Store Super B100, but I was just looking to get out of a bit of a energy slump, not go too hardcore.

I don't know that I fully buy in to the Peaters and such, but I'm always willing to listen and try crazy health and diet stuff at least once. But getting older might need me to tone it down a bit.

I fucking hate you. There's no fucking way.
Yes, it was from dumbbell curls. My retarded ass kept going despite my elbows vaguely saying no. It was a dull ache across my forearm, actually, which is why I deluded myself into chronic discomfort and/or pain.
I try to do wall sits but that shit's too hard. My fat ass spends way too much time in front of the 'puter so I need to get accustomed to it still.
And yes, I do follow TakeThiamine. I unfortunately cannot afford the modified thiamine forms, I just take like 75 mg Thiamine·HCl per day. It's not a mega-dose, but it is a high dose indeed. Still, as soon as I pee after taking it, my pee smells like thiamine.
I love the alt-medicine world because it's highly defiant to the status quo in ways that, in a way, seems reasonable enough. Someone has to push the boundaries of science and if a bunch of RW Xitter fellas is what it's gonna take, then so be it.

 

[PetiteFeet]

I once went to a girl's place to study and she had a dog. That motherfucker would not shut up. I ended up raising my voice at the goddamn dog, as any reasonable human would do, but she was like "Oh my God don't yell at him." Sure.
I still think about that interaction several years later, thinking to myself "Wow, she cared more about her dog barking and being a nuisance overall, not letting us study jack shit, making me waste my time, than to tell her dog to skedaddle."

To be fair, I'd get mad at you if you yelled at my dog, too. Only because she's a former rescue and can quickly become the very timid little lady she once was. That said, I'd also make her bugger off because I have a line when it comes to how bossy I let her be with me. I don't tolerate her being a nuisance if I'm trying to get something done, or I'm playing a game or whatever.
But most dog owners take offence to strangers trying to correct their pets. What you should have done, was ask her "hey, can you please calm down your dog or I'm going home".
Same reason I don't try to parent someone elses kid, and I will tell them "hey, sorry, I'm gonna go because I can't be in this kind of environment," but I would argue that parents get more upset when you say their kids are annoying than most pet owners would.

 

[Delirium Trigger]

Being a caregiver in a crumbling infrastructure is wearing on me. It seems like there's always some delay, some reason to deny this or that part of her care plan. I know she's in a lot of pain so of course I'm patient with her and I do everything I can.

But also part of me is like, "Raise your voice at me again, bitch. I will roundhouse kick your walker out from underneath you so fucking fast." Obviously I won't, she's just pissy cause she's in pain. It's not terminal, so they won't just dose the fuck out of her with morphine or anything else good. It just sucks when the pharmacy faggots fuck up and can't refill her mid ass pills for a min and there's a lapse in her mild relief.

On a lulzier note it reminds me of the jokes about women getting abused by men in wheelchairs. And their friends are like... Girl, just push him out of his wheelchair. Get out of smackin' range. WTF are you doing?

 

[More AWS-8Q Than You]

I fucking hate you. There's no fucking way.
Yes, it was from dumbbell curls. My retarded ass kept going despite my elbows vaguely saying no. It was a dull ache across my forearm, actually, which is why I deluded myself into chronic discomfort and/or pain.
I try to do wall sits but that shit's too hard. My fat ass spends way too much time in front of the 'puter so I need to get accustomed to it still.
And yes, I do follow TakeThiamine. I unfortunately cannot afford the modified thiamine forms, I just take like 75 mg Thiamine·HCl per day. It's not a mega-dose, but it is a high dose indeed. Still, as soon as I pee after taking it, my pee smells like thiamine.
I love the alt-medicine world because it's highly defiant to the status quo in ways that, in a way, seems reasonable enough. Someone has to push the boundaries of science and if a bunch of RW Xitter fellas is what it's gonna take, then so be it.

To be fair, it was a hammer curl, but it completely threw my routine off. Things were going well, but as usual I got overconfident and pushed too hard too fast. I'm thinking about adding in wall sits, I've heard they're good for blood pressure and mine is higher than I'd like, but it is work and the plank stuff is part of what caused me to overdo it this around.

I take the Dr Clark B1, which isn't modified, I didn't think I really needed it, but yeah my pee smelled for a bit, but as time's gone on I've noticed it not do that or the bright yellow color. I assume I'm doing something right, since I've generally felt better than I have in a long time. My mother's always been vaguely crunchy and into alt-health stuff, a try to filter a bit better than she does, but my parents are both almost 80 and in pretty good health. But I won't lie, some of my pushing a bit hard on this is watching them get older.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

but I don't even know what I'm supposedly doing wrong

It sounds as though they did tell you some things. And if they've sat you down for that talk that means it's enough of a concern that multiple people have mentioned it - and they don't see your interest or engagement. Companies will bend over backward for people who aren't great but are trying. So this talk is meant to be a very big wakeup call. In your shoes I'd have followup conversations with your manager and other senior people and ask for candid aadvice about what you can do differently. And then keep going back to them, putting scenarios in front of them and asking for help dealing with challenges - and letting them know frequently about what you've been doing differently.

That said, based on what I think you've said about your job, I might consider whether you really do want to be there. Also you should be aware that negative attitudes or work (whatever is the issue) are not always as subtle as we might think. And if you are not stellar at either the work or your perceived approach to it, then you don't really have any protection.

nobody can keep a job these days other than those who're so ingrained in the culture through knowing coworkers, knowing superiors, knowing the fucking cake list by heart and generally just being around.

Yes, those are pretty much basics. Who is going to vouch for you when others are asking?

 

[WhatInTheActualFuck]

You don't know how half of them looked

Well, that explains why they were possessive.

 

[AnOminous]

Mildly happy. Detected a troon on a normie forum, threw out some bait only a troon would recognize, numerous troons started screeching and throwing a tantrum, then got called raving lunatics by the normies. I pretended to have no idea what they were talking about.

 

[Endless Blabbery]

Mildly happy. Detected a troon on a normie forum, threw out some bait only a troon would recognize, numerous troons started screeching and throwing a tantrum, then got called raving lunatics by the normies. I pretended to have no idea what they were talking about.

OMG, could you elaborate, you'd make my night

 

[AnOminous]

OMG, could you elaborate, you'd make my night

Sorry, no. Wish I could.

 

[Dfackt0]

My old houses plumbing has trolled me
a friend visited me, she disposed of a feminine hygiene product by flushing it down my toilet and it clogged my line to the sewer
and by the time i had caught a whiff of sewage bubbling up from a hellmouth drain in my basement, hours had passed and i had run showers and the dishwasher
after using lye, sulfuric acid and finally renting an augar to clear the minuscule blockage, i was left with a sewage slurry in my basement
i spent the following day bleaching, using more lye, hauling sewage out in utility trash cans and incinerating it, scrubbing and disinfecting half of my basement, which thankfully is the utility half, not my workshop
However, this extremely shitty experience has finally granted a proper name to my workshop
"The Hellmouth" is a sign i have finished engraving tonight and it will hang above the portal to my basement

 

[souschef]

Mildly happy. Detected a troon on a normie forum, threw out some bait only a troon would recognize, numerous troons started screeching and throwing a tantrum, then got called raving lunatics by the normies. I pretended to have no idea what they were talking about.

Certified Body Snatchers moment

 

[Sergeant Major Buzzkill]

was depressed today after being informed of a relative getting hospitalized. it made it hard to focus on work & other tasks. tomorrow will be better.

 

[Motherf*cker]

Why won't doctors help me sleep? I fucking hate doctors and I hate insomnia. I just want to sleep God fucking damn it. Why can you not help me sleep? Why are you the one choosing to doom me to day/nights, I am not doing well and I want to fucking sleep and I want to fucking die

 

[Drive-by Farts]

Any of you deal with elderly pets?

I had a very fat cat get dementia, bless her soul she was batshit crazy but very active until one day she literally just dropped dead. I have no advice other than let your crazy cat rock on. If your pet dies suddenly, that’s usually an easier end for them than a long, drawn out slow decline.

this is exactly it..its awful, isnt it?? and again, for YEARS i didnt want to say anything to my dr, because on the face of it, it sounds insane, but apparently its your brain malfunctioning when you are going into deeper sleep. the other night i was almost asleep, and i heard this random beeping noise, totally not real but still scared me all the way awake...and the sleep paralysis thing is awful too, but ive only had that sporadically...a few weeks ago, i felt like i was awake, but i couldnt move or breath, or yell for help, and i swear it was like some shadowy figure was trying to pull me out of bed...of course that wasnt it at all, but it was SO real.

I once had a touch hallucination sleep paralysis! It was terrifying. I felt all the blankets pulled off me, it felt so real.

Tried to kill myself today, didn't have the courage. But it's gonna happen soon.

Maybe try figuring out what is worth dying for? Maybe it sounds silly but there’s a lot wrong with our world and fixing it will take some risks. Dudes getting beat down on the regular out here trying to expose fraud or preach the gospel.

Currently going through what feels like my monthly mental health crisis where I convince myself I have the symptoms of a thousand different cancers and other ailments and have been stressing myself out to the max the last couple of days. Can’t focus on anything, can’t enjoy anything, can’t sleep, glued to my phone almost every second of the day googling different symptoms…
Legit feel like I’m going insane.
I feel like I really should get on some sort of anxiety medication but taking SSRI’s has become a meme at this point and it seems like the negatives outweigh any positives they can provide…
I just don’t know anymore. Rawdogging life really sucks.

I was raised by a hypochondriac. It transferred onto me a bit. My best advice is to get control over your thoughts. If You catch yourself thinking you are sick or starting to google symptoms, replace that with a solid 10 minutes of repeating “I always turn out fine, I’m perfectly healthy” or whatever works for you. SSRIs do a number on brain chemistry, they are an absolute last resort. You can change your own thoughts, your brain is very plastic, it just takes work.

Why won't doctors help me sleep? I fucking hate doctors and I hate insomnia. I just want to sleep God fucking damn it. Why can you not help me sleep? Why are you the one choosing to doom me to day/nights, I am not doing well and I want to fucking sleep and I want to fucking die

Have you tried glycine? This worked better than melatonin for me. I put it in some decaf tea in the afternoon, sleep decently at night most nights. Something to look into. Doctors are really hit-or-miss these days and most of us would do well to learn basic herbal medicine and supplements because they always prescribe shit that is worse than the disease itself.


Speaking of which… I got hit by the influenza a. This shit SUCKS, I felt like I got hit by a bus, which then backed up and rolled over me again. But my recovery has been remarkably fast, thanks to a very helpful concoction of yarrow and elderflower tea I made, plus lots of vitamin c and zinc. I was only bedridden for a day.

 

[⋖ cørdion ⋗]

It sounds as though they did tell you some things. And if they've sat you down for that talk that means it's enough of a concern that multiple people have mentioned it - and they don't see your interest or engagement. Companies will bend over backward for people who aren't great but are trying. So this talk is meant to be a very big wakeup call. In your shoes I'd have followup conversations with your manager and other senior people and ask for candid aadvice about what you can do differently. And then keep going back to them, putting scenarios in front of them and asking for help dealing with challenges - and letting them know frequently about what you've been doing differently.

We're two people doing the same job and a semi-superior doing something completely different, unaware of most of what we do or how we do it. Nobody else is exposed to our work. That already means it's difficult to take them seriously because what they do mention is literally down to "You wrote these 3 paragraphs; this one word sounds stern". Then other times it's "why do you act so apologetic?" if I try to correct myself and now accommodate the stupid requests that they themselves would bad mouth as examples of idiocy.

What ticked me off the most is the fact they said "We should've had this talk long ago- or you should've asked for it", and I'm like, I have to act on behalf of someone else about an issue I thought we already smoothed out? I could prepare fucking questions for lunch and put in effort to socializing and what not, but it's just contradiction upon contradiction, so I don't know what they actually want me to be like. I like the job and I can imagine it being good, but yeah, when a superior finds every little reason to belittle me, big surprise, I'd lose interest. They basically cycle out people after a year from what I assume is people finding better work, and the fact the returning coworker has been here for 2 says she's probably on board with this shitty behavior.

We got relocated after 1.5 months, previously sat around in a bigger office with people from different fields. Twice, from two different people pulled me aside and said they didn't appreciate how my now two current coworkers spoke to me. Instead of describing an issue and what I should change, they'd ask me "What do you think about this? Why did you do it like that? Do you think that is an issue?", literally 5 minutes of dragging both the issue, the explanation and the solution out of me. Over a god damn sentence in an email. If other people can spot this issue just from being near me within a few weeks, I'd like to think I'm not entirely in the wrong.