How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[AnOminous]

The main sporting activity I've ever engaged in is downhill skiing. Perhaps as a geriatric geezer, I should get back into that and possibly die doing it. I'm very good at it. I have a lot of fun at it. Perhaps I should seek out extremely dangerous ways of doing it.

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

I hate insomnia

Man same. Yesterday i got up after 4 hours of sleep but at least i had stuff to do all day, today/tonight i got even less and also got fuck all to do now. 6:50AM and i can't manage to go back to sleep.

Weirdly enough my insomnia flares up every time i get back into exercising, the sleep quality of what little sleep i get is also notably worse. I am not even on an extremely strenous regimen where i could say i maybe overdid it and that could be the reason. Probably gonna crash in a couple of hours again, which will also fuck with me because every time i take daytime naps i feel like a truck rolled over me afterwards. I just want to grill sleep, goddamnit.

Well, that explains why they were possessive.

Never looked at it from this perspective, it actually makes a lot of sense for some of them now. I don't want to make this sound too self-deprecating, but man, they must've been down bad if i (at least at those times) were the best they could do I mean, it went both ways with some of them, but still

I don't know if I'd call it misophonia but goddamn, I hate barking

Same. Visisted an aquaintance yesterday who has a small, adorable mutt who i love very dearly and who generally isn't badly behaved but she goes absolutely mental when the door bell rings and she has a high-pitched and very loud bark (i swear you can feel it in your bones when she barks). Like, he lives on the second floor of an apartment building and you can hear the barking from the ground floor after you enter the building. I'd go absolutely crazy if he was my neighbour.

But most dog owners take offence to strangers trying to correct their pets. What you should have done, was ask her "hey, can you please calm down your dog or I'm going home".

I have to say i rather enjoy the comedy of watching a 2m tall, crazy Arab shouting at his small dog in a mix of arabic and german and the dog not giving a shit and continuing to bark. It's high-key hilarious even after the millionth time. Yesterday the dog climbed on my lap (dog loves me as much as i love it) and after five minutes my aquaintance got up and took her from me to place her on his lap, i went "Ohhhhh, [aquaintaince's name] is getting jealous!" to my girlfriend and he got all huffy "No, i am not, i don't want her to bother you", trying to play it off. Like i said, pure comedy.

 

[Banquet Meal]

Doctor: "yes you have no history of abusing prescription pills and you have multiple issues which cause insomnia but for your own good I can't prescribe you sleeping pills."
"But I can't sleep"
"It's for your own good."
"By the way I take double amount of gravol I probably should be
"I cannot recommend you do that either and stop it immediately"
"Too bad"

Die in a fire. I'm good getting drunk

i use gravol for car sickness, or when i get motion sickness from video games...how did he find out you were abusing pills anyway, that is a secret i wouldve taken to the grave! i myself am bad about running out early
that said, drs dont like prescribing anything for sleep it seems...i have horrible sleep issues, and all i get is a lecture on "sleep hygiene", which is retarded, honestly...that said, i found out that sleep study drs are the ones who will prescribe actual sleep medication. im almost 100 percent sure this works.

I felt all the blankets pulled off me, it felt so real.

oh FUCK THAT, i cant even imagine!!!

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

that said, drs dont like prescribing anything for sleep it seems

That is most likely because legit hypnotics, contrary to some bullshit "sleep inducing" anti-depressants like Mirtazapine or Trimipramine (which are their whole own can of worms regarding side effects), are highly addictive and mess brutally with your brain chemistry.

 

[NSJAP]

In my dreams, there's a quite often theme of me unable to do some simple task for some bullshit reasons, or failing to reach some destination. Today was one of those dreams.


>I'm in some huge skyscraper
>Some woman and I need to get to a long-abandoned office on the top floor (I'm only going with her out of some formality)
>We go up to the floor (the door to the floor was partially blocked by the staircase, so we had to squeeze through), everything looks like backrooms/liminal shit, there's mold everywhere, and for some reason there's also an barbershop there.
>There's some another woman that wants us to do our thing quick and leave.
>I like the vibe of this place, the sunlight from the windows makes it look cool, I want to take a photo.
>For some reason, I can't. The woman who wants us to leave is starting to pester me.
>The sunlight is changing, I missed my opportunity.
>I finally figured out how to take a photo, but the result are immediately getting slopified by the AI.
>I'm trying to turn this AI shit off in the settings, cant find it.
>I wake up.

 

[Otterly]

They don’t prescribe for long term sleep issues because it does more harm than good. If you need three nights of being knocked out after a traumatic event that’s different and they will do it. But all sleep meds are habit forming and you get used to them really quickly and end up with a problem.
The only way is, sadly, to fix WHY you don’t sleep. That’s easier said than done. I have bad sleep issues so I’m saying this from a position of experience

I feel a bit weird at the moment.

 

[Norwegian Trailer Trash]

I feel a bit weird at the moment.

Most normal way to feel in 2026.

 

[PetiteFeet]

she disposed of a feminine hygiene product by flushing it down my toilet

With the full force I can muster, your friend is fucking retarded.
I don't want to know just how many women actually think this is a viable and normal way to get rid of your tampons.
Shame, shame, shame.

 

[Rabbits]

i've gotten a second promotion within 6 months so feeling very accomplished. before i start in this new role i've been given a secondment opportunity to lead another team, so really looking forward to (and am feeling nervous about) get some formal management experience - and if i hate it at least it's only temporary.

In my dreams, there's a quite often theme of me unable to do some simple task for some bullshit reasons, or failing to reach some destination.

i hate having these kinds of dreams, they always make me feel really frustrated in them and then i feel that way when i wake up.

i've been having these recurring dreams lately of having to go back to my final year of school because, in my dream, it turns out i never graduated. but then in my dream i'm also able to recognise that i have actually graduated and i become equally as frustrated because i'm stuck there, aware this isn't reality, but unable to change or influence the dream to be something else.

 

[TotalNematodeDeath]

Well the doctor visit went fine I suppose, doctor thinks I have gastritis and has me on pills for that. Also have to get my thyroid checked out as they already checked for anemia before and I didn't have it. If it really as simple as a thyroid issue I'll be happy enough, didn't give me a quick fix cause I gotta wait a month for a follow up but at least there is a plan. Let's hope I don't fully black out while driving till then lol.

I don't quite think they are on the money with thyroid issue but hey if I'm wrong I'm wrong. My mom had a lot of the same issues but nothing really ever came of it when she started looking into her thyroid. I'm a young man, I doubt I have Hashimoto's disease lol

 

[Motherf*cker]

i use gravol for car sickness, or when i get motion sickness from video games...how did he find out you were abusing pills anyway, that is a secret i wouldve taken to the grave! i myself am bad about running out early
that said, drs dont like prescribing anything for sleep it seems...i have horrible sleep issues, and all i get is a lecture on "sleep hygiene", which is retarded, honestly...that said, i found out that sleep study drs are the ones who will prescribe actual sleep medication. im almost 100 percent sure this works.

I haven't had much choice, Two years ago I went to yet another gastroenterologist and I told him all about nausea which just won't go away and a bunch of other symptoms. He told me, cool story go on a low FODMAP diet and gave me a print out. The rub was, that I had already been on a low FODMAP/elimination diet for a few years beforehand and I had already figured foods which I'm sensitive to and I had all the information already for him. I did get a colonoscopy/endoscope on the same day and all it showed was that for years acid reflux has been destroying my esophagus.
My current GP wants to put me on a month trail of a new drug which is supposed to help with stomach acid but it won't help sleep. I guess I should be excited because he is finally listening to my stomach issue but I just wanted to sleep. Could I not have like a week of good sleep before trying this new shit?
I may have felt a little unheard again and I told him that I have been abusing gravol and I have no intentions of stopping..

I didn't sleep, I screamed in a closet, made tea and then rage cleaned the dishwasher at 2AM.
I found a channel which plays endless episodes of Intervention.

I don't know why my formatting is dumb but I don't want to edit it

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

I think I've fucked my ankle for good. I had this problem before when I got that muscle too cold and it was hurting so bad I had to crawl to the bathroom in the middle of the night, but after warming it well despite the pain it all came back to normal. Now it doesn't. I mean, I can step on it and even walk, but I am not happy. All I can do is taping and using creme, while it is not getting significantly better. I thought, after a weekend of doing nothing it will be fine, but it wasn't. I don't want it to be like this till the day I die.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

We're...

I think maybe after the sting and frustration of it has worn off a little might be a better time to step back and think strategically. Might be that now is not the time to jump to solutioning (sorry for the corporate-speak but it's efficient sometimes), but I hope you are able to get there.

And atm it's not a matter of who is in the wrong, but of how you can get out of a hole.

Eta: you've mentioned "questions for lunch" twice / what is that about??

 

[Banquet Meal]

I haven't had much choice, Two years ago I went to yet another gastroenterologist and I told him all about nausea which just won't go away and a bunch of other symptoms. He told me, cool story go on a low FODMAP diet and gave me a print out. The rub was, that I had already been on a low FODMAP/elimination diet for a few years beforehand and I had already figured foods which I'm sensitive to and I had all the information already for him. I did get a colonoscopy/endoscope on the same day and all it showed was that for years acid reflux has been destroying my esophagus.
My current GP wants to put me on a month trail of a new drug which is supposed to help with stomach acid but it won't help sleep. I guess I should be excited because he is finally listening to my stomach issue but I just wanted to sleep. Could I not have like a week of good sleep before trying this new shit?
I may have felt a little unheard again and I told him that I have been abusing gravol and I have no intentions of stopping..

I didn't sleep, I screamed in a closet, made tea and then rage cleaned the dishwasher at 2AM.
I found a channel which plays endless episodes of Intervention.

I don't know why my formatting is dumb but I don't want to edit it

get some carafate, i swear by it...when my stomach starts acting up and hurting really bad, i can take this and it goes away...apparently it coats your stomach or something, but its great.
i found a channel that is nothing but outdoor sheds being repossessed, and its amazing.

 

[Motherf*cker]

That is most likely because legit hypnotics, contrary to some bullshit "sleep inducing" anti-depressants like Mirtazapine or Trimipramine (which are their whole own can of worms regarding side effects), are highly addictive and mess brutally with your brain chemistry.

I sometimes take my mom's Zopiclone, it works so well

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

I sometimes take my mom's Zopiclone, it works so well

Probably don't need to tell you this but you should use that shit very sparingly. I got a low-dosed Diazepam solution in my medicine cabinet that i take on evenings where i absolutely can't sleep but absolutely need the sleep because i got important shit to do the next day. Luckily that does not happen often, maybe once every two months, if even that. After having met benzo addicts in rehab i am terrified of getting an addiction to that stuff, they were in a worse place than the heroin addicts. But yeah, that shit works well, scarily so.

 

[Banquet Meal]

After having met benzo addicts in rehab i am terrified of getting an addiction to that stuff, they were in a worse place than the heroin addicts.

my other dr gave me a prescription for klonopin, to help with panic attacks...

well, my primary dr found out and basically said that if you get addicted to benzos, you can die from the withdrawals, you can have seizures, etc..i stopped taking them that day. ive seen how difficult it is to cut back on opiates for some, so i cant even imagine that level of hell.

 

[⋖ cørdion ⋗]

I think maybe after the sting and frustration of it has worn off a little might be a better time to step back and think strategically. Might be that now is not the time to jump to solutioning (sorry for the corporate-speak but it's efficient sometimes), but I hope you are able to get there.

And atm it's not a matter of who is in the wrong, but of how you can get out of a hole.

Eta: you've mentioned "questions for lunch" twice / what is that about??

The typical "it's okay to be introverted" - "but start fucking talking" approach these so-called open minded people have. I sit with them, I nod along and I don't sit on my phone. How is that not being involved? I've even made well-received joking remarks.

Anyway: The bitch's in-law kicked the bucket so they left early, giving me and the temp time to rant about her. We agree on all the points I had about her and how much of a hypocrite she is, faulting both of us on shit like font choice or individual words, both of us having seen several times over that her 'flawless angel' that is returning from maternity leave in a week commits the exact same offenses. Shit, she herself does to. It really is like a film critic who never made a movie in their life dictating how one should be made to a director.

Either way, I put in effort and talking and asking questions seemed easier. I'll try to keep up face and ask her a few weeks from now if she feel like things are going forward. I've cozied up to our actual employer to the point I doubt he'd just blankly accept an attempt to get me fired. We'll see how it goes when the temp leaves and this supposed angel returns. Thank fuck it's friday. Very tempting to get hammered.

 

[General Disarray]

TL;DR: Anyone with experience with dental implants please reply thanks!

Had a problem molar pulled yesterday. This bastard broke in my mouth about 8ish years ago, and at that time I went to the clinic close to me which happens to also allow you to pay on a sliding scale, what with me being poor and all. Got a black dentist that proceeded to put two thin metal pins in my tooth and then cemented it.

Thing is, one of the two pins he put in went straight through the center of my tooth into my gum. Old Chinese dentist was like, "not good job, no" as he was shaking his head. Once yanked, both he and his assistant were jubilant. "WE GOT IT! YAY!" and assured me they'd show the sucker to me once they scraped some bone spicules and stitched me up.

All in all, I walked out with 4 stitches and the bill was only $350 or so. As an aside, the dentist that yanked my eyetooth (non-surgical, easy as heck), took a payment of approximately that amount AND THEN BILLED ME FOR OVER $600 MORE after submitting to my dental insurance. LMAO fuck off, I never paid it and never will.

After everything was done, they started talking about implants, which is something I wanted to consult on at the time as well (and the reason they did a CT scan in the first place). The doc that owns the practice told me last week my upper canine eyetooth is most important to get an implant for as it affects the shape of the face and would need a bone graft. I said, "If I get the molar extracted, what is the importance of that tooth?" and she replied, "Not very, not as important as the eyetooth."

After the extraction, that changed to, "Your teeth will shift over time so you'll need to look at an implant for that tooth as well."

SOOOO my question is to the fine folks here, does anyone have any experience with dental implants? Would it even be worth it if I don't go out much and am an older patient? I made a fakie for the eyetooth that is imperceptible when I put it in and works perfectly for cosmetic use, and the molar is furthest back in my mouth so I don't even care about it - I just want real information before plopping down ~$10K for grafts and implants. Plus the pain factor, like is it even really worth it? TYSM in advance and hope you are all staying warm and safe during this awful weather.

 

[Cemetery Support]

Had a productive day at work yesterday, and got home to discover that my girlfriend had cooked steak, mashed potatoes and gravy, and steamed broccoli. Had dinner with beer, helped her clean up the kitchen, got into some pajamas, and then swung my attention between listening to her call her family to get the scoop on family drama, and reading a book from the 1930s.