Eh. It doesn’t get better. Your options narrow and it gets worse
have had a succession of windfalls. Every one, frankly, has made me unhappier and less stable.
That does suck but you HAVE made a breakthrough - you say you’ve realised that you were using can’t afford it as an excuse. Sit on the money. Think hard.
I daydream about having money but actually, only one or two things would be solve-able. I cannot go back in time. I cannot change certain things and I cannot make someone love me. No money on earth can give me the life I wanted.
So what’s left? I guess that’s what you have to think about, and it’s hard to do that. One constraint (cash) is removed. Others remain. What can you do to make yourself happier? The answer will be more painful than simple ‘if I had money’ things, it may be something deeper.
They do say to not make any big choices soon after a windfall. Sit on it, think, and perhaps the world will show you a new path.
Thankfully my turkey and ham came out great
That’s great.
As for the family … You can’t choose family, and I think it’s a rare family who have nobody insane or difficult (mine is certainly not immune!) You’re allowed to put yourself first at the moment.
Just saw your post - that’s a disappointing thing to hear. You sure they aren’t out of radio contact for the holidays?
Probably not a smart idea to drink hard liquor with a gaping, bloody hole in my maw
Well, it’s disinfectant, so it’s medicinal. Give yourself a break .
I hope the universe lands you a new, better job, and from what I’ve read a nasty root canal infection is better cleaned out and pulled in many cases. Swill a bit of ethanol round it, at least it’ll nuke any infection.