- Joined
- Jan 31, 2020
Tarl, may I ask you a sincere question about those leaked conversations with Sam? You know how in them you keep love bombing her, and she keeps trying to extract real money from you while also punishing you with the police when you step out of line (or she feels like it, she really does hate men)? In one of those messages your language changes that shows that you know that it isn't real love and this is all performative, this isn't word for word direct quote, but it was something like 'unless I am forced, I will do what I can to help you', but uh....who can stop you? As you have said, you are the puppet with cut strings, and you dance to no one's tune. So who can force you not to help the woman you profess to love more than anyone else, who you affectionately refer to as a faggot? This is where the disconnect is: it shows that you love the chaos she brings to your life and the pain she inflicts on you, and I suppose having a female that doesn't mind if you abuse her nearby is a perk to someone like you, but you don't love the person. You're willing to give her money and accept her abuse, but you aren't willing to actually sacrifice for love (or at least what you interpret to be love). You're pushing 40, and you're letting your mom and dad dictate who you can date? I could possibly understand the power dynamics, the Machiavellian playing of retarded women against each other, the pride and the surety that the ride only goes up and never down. But those days are long over, you're drinking yourself to death in a hovel and arguing with exactly how many BPD women in your own lolcow thread?
You don't win this fight, Ol Fagbeard the Pirate. You're outnumbered, outgunned, and while they can't outsmart you on their own, they don't have to, because you can't stop yourself from walking into the most blatantly obvious traps that a toddler would recognize them.
What's the game plan here? She's costing you more and more every time you interact with her, and you don't love each other. She's a source of dopamine and validation for you, and you're a source of money for her.
