Kiwi Farms Therapy Thread - When you (or others) wisely decided to use KF as your therapy center

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I am a man with a plan. The people will come to me for salvation! I have a hunch that somethings gonna happen; take this lolcow thread going right here, something very bad is gonna happen here. You ever meet the kind of people who come to these lolcow threads? These dudes have got energy to spare! We're talking guys who beat off 4 times a day! This is an epicenter of energy, man, but this lolcow they hate, he's an illusion, but in the new age, theres no fooling them, no sir: They wont be tricked by ilusions anymore! Whooo!!

Ha ha, now, Mr Internet Detective, I'm challenging you. I've created a new faith; I want you to find me; I'm waiting for you.
So whatcha say? If you dont find me... I won't have meaning.
So I'll be waiting for you.
 
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My name is Walter Hartwell White. I live at 308 Negra Arroyo Lane, Albuquerque, New Mexico, 87104. This is my confession. If you're watching this tape, I'm probably dead, murdered by my brother-in-law Hank Schrader. Hank has been building a meth empire for over a year now and using me as his chemist. Shortly after my 50th birthday, Hank came to me with a rather, shocking proposition. He asked that I use my chemistry knowledge to cook methamphetamine, which he would then sell using his connections in the drug world. Connections that he made through his career with the DEA. I was... astounded, I... I always thought that Hank was a very moral man and I was... thrown, confused, but I was also particularly vulnerable at the time, something he knew and took advantage of. I was reeling from a cancer diagnosis that was poised to bankrupt my family. Hank took me on a ride along, and showed me just how much money even a small meth operation could make. And I was weak. I didn't want my family to go into financial ruin so I agreed. Every day, I think back at that moment with regret. I quickly realized that I was in way over my head, and Hank had a partner, a man named Gustavo Fring, a businessman. Hank essentially sold me into servitude to this man, and when I tried to quit, Fring threatened my family. I didn't know where to turn. Eventually, Hank and Fring had a falling out. From what I can gather, Hank was always pushing for a greater share of the business, to which Fring flatly refused to give him, and things escalated. Fring was able to arrange, uh I guess I guess you call it a "hit" on my brother-in-law, and failed, but Hank was seriously injured, and I wound up paying his medical bills which amounted to a little over $177,000. Upon recovery, Hank was bent on revenge, working with a man named Hector Salamanca, he plotted to kill Fring, and did so. In fact, the bomb that he used was built by me, and he gave me no option in it. I have often contemplated suicide, but I'm a coward. I wanted to go to the police, but I was frightened. Hank had risen in the ranks to become the head of the Albuquerque DEA, and about that time, to keep me in line, he took my children from me. For 3 months he kept them. My wife, who up until that point, had no idea of my criminal activities, was horrified to learn what I had done, why Hank had taken our children. We were scared. I was in Hell, I hated myself for what I had brought upon my family. Recently, I tried once again to quit, to end this nightmare, and in response, he gave me this. I can't take this anymore. I live in fear every day that Hank will kill me, or worse, hurt my family. I... All I could think to do was to make this video in hope that the world will finally see this man, for what he really is.
 
I'll be sincere for a moment. If life has got you down and you need someone to talk to I've got time to hear you out.
 
i have a lot of anxiety that i am not going to be able to save the huwhite race with my current strategy. which consists wholly of laughing at coconut niggers and jeets on the internet who claim they are saving the huwhite race. yes i get to laugh a lot, and laughing is good for muh health, but i'm worried that i am putting my own ephemeral satisfaction above a future for white chilluns
 
Puppychan thread now has diaperfur art in her shitty artstyle and I need like, 30 therapists.
 
I'm Ikolthur Benoit and I don't get the message of this thread.

OP you had one fucking job... one... job...
 
I started going to therapy, and despite me thinking "muh mental health" shit is gay and retarded, I was having a hard time and felt like I needed to give it a try.

Over last summer I dated this girl that was amazing. She was fun, sweet, and everything I could possibly want in a woman. I started to fall in love with her so I ended things abruptly. I have realized I have this pattern with women and tried to figure out why I do this.

This ended up bringing alot of shit from my childhood that I never really dealt with. My therapist is actually pretty decent, he is a good listener but he's also brutally honest (in a professional way).

My dad was always a piece of shit, he always treated me like a burden to him. When I was struggling really bad one time in my 20s, I reached out to him for help and he interrupted me to tell me he was gay and liked to go to gay sex parties and dress like a woman. Needless to say, I don't talk to him anymore.

My mom was always incredibly histrionic and overly emotional, and only dated piece of shit men after leaving my faggot father. Her romantic life made my upbringing very unstable. Whenever I approach her with anything difficult to talk about, she just blames herself, breaks down, etc, so I avoid talking to her about shit as well.

My shrink says I have CPTSD from my fucked up childhood, and I am usually the first to dismiss shit like that, because the people who often claim this diagnosis are insufferable and use it as a way to handwave their bad behavior.

Still, I think the guy might be on to something. One of my brothers has the exact same issue, and my other brother became a tranny. None of us are really doing well and have a hard time trusting people in general, and being vulnerable.

This site has brought me alot of joy but I can't help but wonder if it is feeding into my general dislike/distrust of people. I dislike and judge most everyone, I see most people as a collection of stereotypes and it's made it harder for me to want to connect with others.

I don't want to be this way, I want to see the good in people. I want to allow myself to care for others.

Has anyone else here dealt with something like this before?
 
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My shrink says I have CPTSD from my fucked up childhood, and I am usually the first to dismiss shit like that, because the people who often claim this diagnosis are insufferable and use it as a way to handwave their bad behavior.

Welcome to the phenomenon of someone saying some fake reason to dismiss their actions then you find out it's a real reason for you/someone you know who actually struggles with something. It's a real phenomenon and you're not alone in trying to grasp it or make peace with the fact that it's real and really affecting reality. I'm sure autists who were only diagnosed as adults and after they learned about Chris and other lolcows probably had one hell of a kick in the head from it. At the very least, you've had a rough upbringing affecting you in the now so you can consider it that if you don't want a label. If you're really curious, you can likely get a test later, IDK anything on CPTSD. It also means you can now pull out the "lmao I have that too but you don't see my ass being a jerk" on those who use it as an excuse.

No matter what happens to you or others, there will always be people will blame bad behavior on anything but themselves. Nick Reiketa and Jason Thor Hall are two of the most extreme types of these people, and the excuses range from the reasonable to the batshit. Take it in stride. The people who point to psychological disorders for every single action they have hurt other people who actually struggle yet take responsibility for their actions, and it blows, but you automatically aren't one of them as long as you take responsibility for things within your control. And you are!

This site has brought me alot of joy but I can't help but wonder if it is feeding into my general dislike/distrust of people. I dislike and judge most everyone, I see most people as a collection of stereotypes and it's made it harder for me to want to connect with others.
I unironically advocate for touching grass away from the farms. Hopefully, you can replace it with a different hobby to go to while bored.

Kiwi Farms is a site full of contrarians who can get very angry and only see the bad since almost al the news the site talks about is bad news. When all one submerges themselves in is lolcows, the worse our opinion of others can be. There are people who try to temper the doomers, but they can get to you and the sheer amount of stupidity of this small percent of the population really bites. Walking away for a while can and will help you. Touching grass means trying new hobbies and activities as well as connecting to people with a shared interest.

I'm trying to say it's ok to leave if you're not liking the effects of a website on yourself. You can always come back when you're in a better mental state, the door is never closed. :)
 
You ever give a lolcow advice, they react positively to it, they indicate they want to change based on your advice, they follow it, and then they just go right back to their old ways in like a week? Despite never expecting them to change, I still get disappointed. It feels like I'd been betrayed. Getting insulted on the internet doesn't hurt at all and it's like water off a duck's back, but this somehow gets to me. I'm definitely never doing that again. Tell me doc, just how much of a retarded faggot am I for caring about this at all?
 
The voices on the radio keep telling me there's a chip in my brain and the government's using it to upload deranged fetishes into my psyche.
Should I listen to them and use a claw hammer to get it out? I'm not sure since being brain chipped has kinda become a fetish of mine at this point.
 
Tell me doc, just how much of a retarded faggot am I for caring about this at all?
You were a human with empathy and you got burned. You rank low on the scale of retardation, just somewhat gullible.

Most kiwis don't wish for all cows to be terminally failures or dead. Sometimes you're a bit too optimistic, but trying once then learning you don't have to try again is natural. If you do it for a diffent cow, you now know you don't neex to get emotionally invested as you did.

Should I listen to them and use a claw hammer to get it out? I'm not sure since being brain chipped has kinda become a fetish of mine at this point.
Nah. They're telling you to use the wrong tool - use a drill instead. Or a saw and shout "BONESAW IS READY" before hacking away.
 
The voices on the radio keep telling me there's a chip in my brain and the government's using it to upload deranged fetishes into my psyche.
Should I listen to them and use a claw hammer to get it out? I'm not sure since being brain chipped has kinda become a fetish of mine at this point.
Use brain antena to stream 5g directo en vivo in yuor head. Dream en 4k
 
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