🪦 Deceased Joe Winko - THE GAYMASTER/Lol-Bvll / Self admitted Gay Hawaiian Ricardo Milos Cosplayer/Uploaded his consciousness to the Sims/Ed Wood of Machinima

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So I wake up far too early for some reason, feeling like shit, and fire up the Farms to try distracting myself; only to find another one of my favorite spergs has gone. I've followed this thread since forever ago it seems like (which is how I found him), and watched some of his streams on YT from time to time. Often there were only 3-4 watching so I'd chime in to say hello, idly chat for a bit about nothing, but it felt like he genuinely appreciated it all the same.

The Sims things he did was always a hoot, and I caught him on a road adventure once, which was refreshing in this age of online degeneracy. Joe seemed to be a decent dood, and it was disheartening to hear how sad he often sounded; I always hoped the best for him. Actually watching his death isn't on my to-do list, the stills and breakdowns are enough. I just wish it had gone a little quicker for him. Sad. But I think I'll fire up the Sims today for the first time in years and try to load him up to my last neighborhood.

RIP Joe Winko
 
if you want someone else to go on suffering indefinitely just so you don't have to feel bad, you're the selfish one. A man's life is his own.
No I disagree with that. It’s not just about me feeling bad it’s about multiple people being hurt and the closest to them like their family having their life ruined.

My friend who killed himself didn’t just make me sad but also his many friends, and his parents and his sister now have to live with this horribleness in their lives, his family’s life will never be the same.

Things are hard but we aren’t unique to dealing with hardships. Our grandparents or great grandparents lived through WW2, the Great Depression, Communism if they lived outside the US, and many countries are dealing with famine and war yet there are many who are dealing with it.

There is no reason someone should end the gift of life because they are sad or things are too hard. We all deal with crap, whose to say that someone is more sad or their shortcomings worse than others.

Suicide is still tragic and horrible, but it’s objectively selfish. I’m not trying to be insensitive but defending the reasons for suicide only enables the idea of suicide further and causes others to think such an act is not that bad. I don’t think it’s coincidence suicide has become worse lately than it has in the past despite the past having much worse times, we have a culture that defends and justifies suicide way too much.
 
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Having watched the video I'm not fully convinced that he actually wanted to die. He thought he did, but you can see the regret both before and after taking the substance. He tried to get up and walk towards the end but he couldn't. This guy would've done okay if he had decent family and basic mental health services. It was only during his last breaths that he realised he actually wanted to live.
 
People, if you are dead set in committing suicide, make sure of 2 things first:
  • Is it really the only option?
    • Far too often we let negative emotions blind us to the fact everything eventually passes.
    • And even in the worst of times there are myriads of actions that can prevent, overcome or minimize the issue to the point it becomes bearable.
    • Even you are still sure, do yourself a favor and just sleep it over: there's a huge chance you'll think differently tomorrow.
  • Do you have people that care about you?
    • 99% chance you do.
    • Your death might ease your current pain, but it will create similar, permanent damage to each one of them.
Now, in the very unlikely event you honestly did all of the above and are still 1000% sure you'll go ahead with it,: make sure you know what you are doing!!
  • Most people who try to suicide fuck it up, and go through a looong, painful awful process where they have more than enough time to wish they could take it back (see this thread as an example)
  • Unless you're a doctor or nurse who has personally seen countless deaths, you probably don't really know 100% if it will work and how it will feel. Remember: people who write "how to kill yourself " tips are still alive and have no idea what they are talking about!
That's it, really. Hopefully everyone reading this is mature enough and thinks I'm being retarded and just stating the obvious. I'd be very glad if that's the case.
 
Having watched the video I'm not fully convinced that he actually wanted to die.
People who've attempted suicide will talk about having a moment of "oh shit" when they think it's happening. Ultimately, our brains are hard-wired for survival, so I don't doubt that he might've had a moment like that.

Poor guy. I actually realised that I watched some of his Sims 1 videos yonks ago. From the posts / videos from the past year it's not a surprise as they were getting increasingly obsessed with death and morbid stuff.
 
Also if you kill yourself you go to Hell
See this is the other extreme and as a Christian myself I don’t fully believe this.

We have a culture that nearly fetishes the idea of suicide, a culture without good male role models for young men, a social media environment that has made people more isolated than ever before, and a spiritually sick world.

I still stand by what I said earlier, but God is a loving God and only he can truly judge the heart and mental condition of those who took their own life.
 
Our grandparents or great grandparents lived through WW2, the Great Depression, Communism if they lived outside the US
I lived through the 90s. Absolutely get raped you subhuman piece of shit.

Actually, storytime so it'ld be worth a post.

My paternal grandma, when she was 14, touched thousands of dicks, for food.
She was a poor Russified Jew living in Belorussia. When Hitler invaded, her family sent her to Moscow to an aunt. Being a "dim yokel" (her expression), she got lost in the city, somehow found her way back to the train station, and got picked up there by a noblewoman who took her in as a live-in slave.

Food was scarce for "unemployed" civilians. She found out she could get trained as a nurse and sent to the front where the food situation was better; she pretended to be 16 and did it. The food situation was better indeed, because she saved several wounded soldiers, by dragging them off the battlefield. Was she scared? "Nah, I'd do that anytime. It's war, there's bullets, it's fine. Much better than--"

One of her routine jobs was examining soldiers for venereal diseases. The way it was done, soldiers lined up, took down their pants, and she had to examine each dick and balls and taint. "That was terrifying. I'd rather be shot at," she used to say.
The 90s were worse than that.
 
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Managed to get them under 200MB each with not too much loss, IMO.

Despite the numerous methods of suicide methods that have guides on the internet for, nothing is as swift and painless as a well-executed gun to the head or hanging. This guy spent his last 20 minutes on earth feeling his body scream in pain. I can understand the impulse of not leaving a horrific scene to remember you by, but death is death at the end of the day. Do everyone a favour and make it quick, near-painless, and relatively clean.
 
Despite the numerous methods of suicide methods that have guides on the internet for, nothing is as swift and painless as a well-executed gun to the head or hanging. This guy spent his last 20 minutes on earth feeling his body scream in pain. I can understand the impulse of not leaving a horrific scene to remember you by, but death is death at the end of the day. Do everyone a favour and make it quick, near-painless, and relatively clean.
Not to get too involved in this type of conversation but he may have had very valid reasons for not wanting to use a gun ranging from just not liking it to not wanting to give anyone who found his body PTSD for the next 20 years. I have heard that the scene after a gunshot suicide is absolutely terrible for parents/family, medics and police to deal with.

Given how forward thinking his whole thing was I cannot imagine there wasn't a reason why he didn't use a gun and used the method(s) that he used. Considering he had tried various times before and whatever method he used actually worked I would say he did his reading on all of this.
 
That's not true. The final stage of being evil is suicide. It's the will to self-negation, and despair itself is a sin because it's a lack of trust in God.


Mental illness is often a manifestation and consequence of evil. I'm not saying it is in all cases, but there's a justifying and enabling tendency we have to watch out for with this stuff. Everybody wants to have the sympathetic answer, but that's not the same as the empathetic answer. Empathy is knowing what's actually going on.
Please keep your sperging about religion to deepthoughts, this poor autist was harmless, do we even know he had family who cared about him?

His best buddy was a random farmer.

When your best bud is a random on kiwifarms, your life ain't so good.
Are you retarded or just really stupid? Have you googled junkie overdose statistics anytime in the last 10 years? And these are people with massive tolerances. Ok now google the stats of people going "oh oops I thought this was a random pill/cocaine" (eg. no opioid tolerance) and see how retardedly easy that is too.

1. Hospitals administer it in MICRO grams, in controlled timed doses, as EXPERTS, AS A LAST RESORT for people dying. If you personally right now went and bought a point of fentanyl on the street you would be dead. The end. "A fair amount" literally the entire point of fentanyl is it takes next to nothing for the effect

2. "Find a dealer" no find LITERALLY any homeless person. See back to the first line if you think you personally can't do it

3. People test purity to NOT die and to find out if fentanyl is mixed in stuff NOT FENTANYL. If you're specifically buying it, and want to die, why the fuck would you care? lmao

4. Being mixed IS EVEN WORSE than "pure fentanyl" because it's the cuts that make it WORSE. It's usually cut with benzos which is what even kills the experienced junkies. But you can mimic this yourself by easy getting xanax also, or just drinking when you take it. Not that it matters because if you load up a needle or snort $30 worth of whatever quality fentanyl you get on the street, you will 100% no exceptions be dead if you have no tolerance. Literally within 5 minutes you'll be blacked out on the ground and from then never wake up again. If you have a minimal tolerance that will still do it
There are definately easier and more fun ways, but perhaps this is what he wanted, for whatever mentall, disturbed reason he had.

If I had to assuredly die to prevent... whatever, the Giza Autism Array from firing, I would want to it to be metal.


People, if you are dead set in committing suicide, make sure of 2 things first:
  • Is it really the only option?
    • Far too often we let negative emotions blind us to the fact everything eventually passes.
    • And even in the worst of times there are myriads of actions that can prevent, overcome or minimize the issue to the point it becomes bearable.
    • Even you are still sure, do yourself a favor and just sleep it over: there's a huge chance you'll think differently tomorrow.
  • Do you have people that care about you?
    • 99% chance you do.
    • Your death might ease your current pain, but it will create similar, permanent damage to each one of them.
Now, in the very unlikely event you honestly did all of the above and are still 1000% sure you'll go ahead with it,: make sure you know what you are doing!!
  • Most people who try to suicide fuck it up, and go through a looong, painful awful process where they have more than enough time to wish they could take it back (see this thread as an example)
  • Unless you're a doctor or nurse who has personally seen countless deaths, you probably don't really know 100% if it will work and how it will feel. Remember: people who write "how to kill yourself " tips are still alive and have no idea what they are talking about!
That's it, really. Hopefully everyone reading this is mature enough and thinks I'm being retarded and just stating the obvious. I'd be very glad if that's the case.

The world is getting shittier. The economy is in ruins, aociety is getting browner and dumber, the bread is old and there is little of it, the circus is unfunny and expensive.
Quality of life has dropped off rapidly thanks to wokery and coof shenanigans and Slomo tightening his Globohomo fist.

But at least you ain't Indian. Remember if Indians are right, you will be reincarnated as one with a high propability.

I had thought about death for half a decade now.
It fascinates and terrifies me, but I suffer from great nihilism.

But I got old parents and stuff to take care of, so the Emperor's Mercy is not due. My duty is not yet done.

For employment reasons I need to take benzos. How careful do you need to be with them if you like alcohol?

Ever since I watched a lot of family die, I can't sleep without them. If I can't sleep, I can't work. If I can't work, I don't eat and will die and be unable to send my parents what little excess my wagie hell of life rewards.

Life has no purpose save the one you give to it. You got no prospects, no happy ending in sight. Just enjoy the journey out of spite.

Family, hobby, even a good meal tomorrow, let that get you through.
There is a fine burger, a beer or an anime tiddy, a hilarious racist meme waiting for you tomorrow.

To quote the old Hungarian fascist farewell: Endure.
"All consuming is my blind hatred, it gives me life as it destroys you."

It is still popular, with even normies. Endure, even if there is no hope, endure out of spite. Let defiance hold you up. You may not have anything to live for, but your very existence hurts WEF. Burn a tyre in the backyard, post it at Greta.

I fully expect all the stickers, I am old and my autism is strong. May you never have to bury your child, and wish it not even on your most hated cow.
But it is sad to see old cows pass out, especially the harmless ones.
 
I really wish you posters would stop with the suicide seminar taglines.

I remember ours. "Suicide is a permanant solution to a temporary problem"
Even as a kid I thought that was some lame fucking shit. Life is not bumper stickers.

NOT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. IT DOESN'T ALWAYS GET BETTER.

Life sucks, then you die. Eat a bowl of cereal and cry.

Seriously, please do not spout that shit at someone who is actively considering. It's not the help you think it is.

As to the "I realized every problem I had was solveable except for that last step" is from "The Bridge" which is a documentary on the Golden Gate bridge suicides. If you are actively considering, I do NOT recommend watching that movie.

As to the mortal sin thing - I don't really agree with that. Some people are just ready to check out. But it got repeated to me so often I internalized it.

Fuck the church.
 
Not to get too involved in this type of conversation but he may have had very valid reasons for not wanting to use a gun ranging from just not liking it to not wanting to give anyone who found his body PTSD for the next 20 years. I have heard that the scene after a gunshot suicide is absolutely terrible for parents/family, medics and police to deal with.

Given how forward thinking his whole thing was I cannot imagine there wasn't a reason why he didn't use a gun and used the method(s) that he used. Considering he had tried various times before and whatever method he used actually worked I would say he did his reading on all of this.
I assume he didn't use a gun because of the mess, he staged his deathbed with a rose and a picture of family. And yet whoever finds his corpse will find it with vomited blood smeared all over himself and the bedsheets. There's no nice method. Just make it quick for yourself and somewhat okay for whoever finds it. No one leaves a pretty corpse.
 
I watched the video because he wanted me the viewer to appreciate how hurt he was and to show how terrible suicide is. I'm sorry people failed you, Joe. I hope you found peace. I don't want to believe we stop existing after death of the flesh.
 
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