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JustStopDude said:
Highly recommend getting a USB-C powered monitor. I got one for work and it's a life saver. I don't need a separate power cable which at times, isn't an option got me. The thing is light as hell .
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I'm just taking my little 34 inch widescreen. When I used to travel for work I would often use my iPad as a second display since I had it with me anyway to use for media consumption while on planes.
 
JosephStalin said:
When I wear a hat also am told I look younger than my actual age of almost 71, have few wrinkles on the face/forehead. Hey, whatever. Have seen people ten-plus years younger than myself who look much older than their age.
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Wow, you're about Michael Gira's age! He's the main man running the band Swans. He's a hat enthusiast and I think he looks really cool in a hat.
I need to find myself a light colored hat with a really wide brim for the coming summer...
 
Joan Crawford's birthday was yesterday, yet I still had to work. It should be a holiday in my eyes.

Anyway, my job is currently mandating overtime based on increased call volume. I swear, I feel these customers get ruder and more demanding while declaring ignorance on basic company policy.
 
I don't have anything to look forward to for the foreseeable future. Everything is either far off or vague and it doesn't seem like I'm making much progress in achieving these goals.
 
My progress after downgrading my phone has been a bit sobering. My usual routine for a while has been wake up -> grab phone -> fuck around on it until I need to go to work -> go home -> use phone until I pass out. Now, I wake up with my skin crawling, and I fight the same feeling until I fall asleep, where I will then wake up multiple times a night. Cursory internet searches say it's just the withdrawal, but idk. Even as a teenager pre-smartphone (I got one pretty late in life) I remember being this way, maybe to an even worse degree. I would get such an inner feeling of restlessness and what I can only describe as dysphoria (in the traditional meaning of the word) I would pace around my room endlessly, thrash around my bed, anything to try and curb that feeling. It was like there was something inside me and that if I could rip into my skin and dig it out I would feel better. I'm not trying to blame my issues on "phone bad" but I do think I never really developed a healthy way to cope with those feelings, I just masked them with the addictive overpriced piece of shit in my pocket. There are some positives I have observed since ditching my smartphone but I'm crawling up the wall right now, I couldn't name them. Like being itchy but on the inside of your skin. Maybe I'll go for a run and I'll think a little more clearly.
 
>petting female cat
>tell her "I love you"
>jumps off my lap and zooms towards the living room immediately after hearing that

Im truly an incel aren't I?
 
Forgot my phone at my parents place last night. I have no other way of contacting my parents, so I wrote my mother an email.
I don't think she's checked her email.

I'm not super dependant on my phone except for calls and texts, it's just annoying. Oh well. I can't remember what time I had an appointment tomorrow.
 
I thought it would be hard to get to a certain grocery store without crossing busy roads, but it actually wasn't because there's a pedestrian underpass I didn't know about. This is a big development because I really like that grocery store and they even have a really good membership thing.

I bought a whole foccacia loaf in celebration. I walked to a park where I am now eating a chunk of bread like a happy peasant. Really nice day. I can't wait until there's leaves on the trees.
 
PetiteFeet said:
but currently my body image is keeping me from joining a gym
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No one joins the gym with a hot body... If you're fat, the gym is the place you're supposed to be

And this "people will judge me for being fat at the gym" thing just doesn't happen. On the contrary, it's really nice to see people trying to get in shape, and plenty will help you

Just do it
 
On the verge of absolutely losing my shit.

Nearly three weeks ago, my hot water heater exploded, which leaked into my bedroom, causing the carpet to be ruined and half the molding in the room to get pulled out.

Since then, I've had to deal with 1. getting the heater replaced (juuuuuuuust out of warranty), 2. getting insurance in and them telling me they can't replace the heater ($7k out of pocket) and finally 3. getting someone to replace the damn carpet, which, then got pushed off a full day, and then finally, today, the carpeters tell me they have to push my job past the window they were going to arrive (after 5 pm, which means it will practically be bedtime before they're done).

And yes, I fucking Karened out and told them they had better do the damn job tonight because my time is as fucking valuable as anyone else's. But because my contract says if I cancel because THEY can't get their shit together, they keep the fucking deposit.

And that's not the only customer service hangup I've had this week. I also had to deal with an ISP/phone service provider that ported my number. I was on their customer service for over 45 minutes because (long fucking story later...) the instructions on their website were insufficient to the exact problem I was having.

And if THAT weren't enough, I've been arguing with dentists for over 20 years to get my wisdom teeth removed. You see, they cause pockets in the back of my mouth where food and bacteria can build up because of how they're spaced with my back teeth. Guess what happened at the appointment last week? A second wisdom tooth has to be removed because it was not only rotting, it was taking another back tooth with it. So who do I fucking sue for multiple dentists telling me they can't take out my wisdom teeth ("let's just wait and see"), but I have to pay out of pocket for a crown ($1K) that I wouldn't have needed if they had just removed that fucking tooth twenty fucking years ago?

All this while still holding down a 40-hour-a-week job.

People tell me I need to learn how to relax, but when you have virtually all of the responsibilities of being an adult and pretty much none of the rewards, and nobody to give you anything resembling a break, you might live your life as if peace isn't an option, too.
 
I woke up at 5:30 this morning thinking that I wouldn't be able to fall back asleep and then slept in so the day started with trying to catch up and get back on schedule on a busy day.
When I got up, dad was in a tizzy because he couldn't open the door to get the newspaper but I was able to understand his indirect question.
My wedding Anniversary with husband is on Friday, celebrating 16 years but we're unable to leave the house for any length of time, which is kinda a bummer.
Today we went to see Project Hail Mary (very good 👍) and bought the ride seats which is always fun.

When I got home from the movie I took doggo on an extra long walk as compensation getting stuck inside and fortunately she did get a play with one of her best friends, and then afterwards we went on a meander and she seemed to enjoy it and I was really vibing to music.

Mother killed my good mood as soon as I re-entered the house--bleak vibes only.

Naturopaths are fucking leeches and the world seems full of them, so yet another a friend of a friend of mother's has learned of my condition and sees an opportunity to make money so for the third time, we have to waste both our time for a session I can't afford so that feelings don't get hurt.

This is how it goes:

What's going on with your stomach?
Have you had testing?
Do you know what you're sensitive to?
Have you heard of a LOW FODMAP diet?
Oooh you've chosen to go on a ARFID diet because doctors would not help and you've basically had to figure out what's wrong with your stomach yourself.
The additives, sugars and pesticides in foods have basically wrecked your stomach?
Did you know that you can eat more foods?

This time I can add that I've finally found a real medical doctor who took me seriously enough and put me on Pantoprazole for my acid reflux and I'm finally maintaining my weight simply by adding fiber.

I was able to impressed the last naturopath I was sent to with the infinite amount of bullshit which I had to learn and there was nothing she could do so she gave me some hippy mineral to take on a full moon only.

After ten years of living across the planet my sister has started getting anxiety about her poor fucking decision to move so far away from her elderly patents. It's not enough that I'm the one who is looking after them, I need to have monthly sessions with her, a little catch up on the shit show so that she can ease her anxiety and live her wonderful life taking little vacations all the time, and spa trips and whatever else while I have to wonder how the fuck am I survive another month. It wasn't enough that she was texting me so now she is also annoying my husband who is also managing this mess, putting up with me while also taking a ESL teaching certificate. He just had to write a particularly hard mid term which went to a large portion of his over all grade and I would appreciate if she did not distract him but it's about her.

So that's Tuesday.
 
I love having an interest in media! I saw some tweet saying that getting autistic over media was retarded so I'm now going to sperg about how much I love media and how much it's positively impacted my life.
Of course it has to be good media, though "good media" is very subjective and some things are for some people whilst they're not for others. It's sorta rare I really like something but when I do, it usually leaves like a big impact on my life in some way. My icon is from an anime from my childhood, School Rumble, I haven't watched it in years and tbh I forgot the plot but I have fond memories of sitting with my siblings as we all watched it. I really loved the theme song, I was a 4 year old who had no clue what Japanese was so I thought it was just a bunch of funny words.
A lot of TV shows and video games inspired me to begin art and writing and other creative stuff, and they inspire me to engage in even the more monotonous parts of life. Whenever I recount the story of how I was this close to failing high school until I locked in like crazy in the last few weeks, people ask "What inspired you?" and I sorta awkwardly tell them "Uh I played this video game and it had this speech about never giving up and that like really stuck with me."
Some people let it take over their lives and become hikikomoris , but words can't describe how positive of an impact a bunch of random 30 year old writers have had on my life.

Also Disturbia by Rihanna is stuck in my head, and I don't even rlly like the song.
souschef said:
No one joins the gym with a hot body... If you're fat, the gym is the place you're supposed to be

And this "people will judge me for being fat at the gym" thing just doesn't happen. On the contrary, it's really nice to see people trying to get in shape, and plenty will help you

Just do it
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What happened to the cat in your icon, that scared the shit out of me, damn near thought I was in a creepypasta.
 
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Getmeout said:
A lot of TV shows and video games inspired me to begin art and writing and other creative stuff, and they inspire me to engage in even the more monotonous parts of life. Whenever I recount the story of how I was this close to failing high school until I locked in like crazy in the last few weeks, people ask "What inspired you?" and I sorta awkwardly tell them "Uh I played this video game and it had this speech about never giving up and that like really stuck with me."
Some people let it take over their lives and become hikikomoris , but words can't describe how positive of an impact a bunch of random 30 year old writers have had on my life.
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I feel ya on this. As cringe as it may be considering I'm a middle aged moid, sometimes I do have shounen anime and stuff like Berserk or Vagabond on my mind when I work out.
Media can influence you for sure, so it's up to you to filter what you allow to influence you and try to be influenced by things that have good values. As lame and cringe as shounen anime may be in many ways, I think the general idea of "try hard and never give up" is a good message to spread and I think sometimes people need to be reminded of this at all ages.
 
Update on the guy that I have a crush on:
1. he has a girlfriend
2. he blocked me on instagram LMAOOOOO
Mind you I never spoke to him so idk why he did that :lol: :lol:
 
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