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Yeah, what kind of loser goes to a pub alone in their 30s, but if I met a woman who did the same, I'd immediately want to talk to them. I avoid social spaces because 'what kind of loser would need to actively search out new friends'? Me
Telling yourself you're a loser for that instead of using the occasion to find new acquaintances or simply enjoying some nice talk with strangers is the real loser mentality IMO.

Would you feel equally bad if you had friends but was forced to go alone anyway because they're not the types of going to pubs?
 
God just fucking shoot me already. I'm so fucking done with this job hunting shit.
Just remember to hold onto your standards. I’ve made a mistake of grabbing onto the first job offer I got because I’d been unemployed for literally over a month and it sucked so bad I used to think about deliberately wrecking my car as an excuse not to go in (they didn’t allow sick days even with a doctor’s note, I’d seen people get canned for it more than once). Surviving on government subsidies for a little while is better than enduring a shit job for years on end.
 
Have you tried omeprazole? They have it in stores too under some other name. I had really bad gastritis and I took those and its not really a thing for me anymore.
Oh i know

Last year mom had a very bad case of gastritis. Took her to the hospital several times, thankfully all exams ruled out anything that might be worrysome. For about one month i had to skip some compromises i had because i'm the only person around to take care of her

I had to crack some books too, so i could make her a whole diet focusing on healing and preventing stomach issues. In the end what helped her was some abhorrent gruel i ended up making, a dairy-less potato-carrot-zucchini mash with no seasoning. Made my best for it to look appealing, but with only water you can do so much

It eventually went away, but now it's happening to me. I just woke up and first thing i did was to brew coffee

I'm a stomachal lolcow
 
Congrats on outing yourself as a gay boy 😊👍💐

I'm a chick, lol.

Anyway, I only found out about it through friends considering I'm not even in that group any more. Sorry to disappoint your obvious wishes to have hot gay boys to lust over I guess.

In fact, I'm the only woman who wrote with him, so maybe that's why he lost interest. I wasn't a gay guy he could perv over.

Have you tried omeprazole? They have it in stores too under some other name. I had really bad gastritis and I took those and its not really a thing for me anymore.

I used to take it for Acid Reflux and it was a godsend to take.
 
I understand why people doom-circlejerk.
It seems nowadays things are really shitty for everyone everywhere. Even the ones doing good haver their reasons to be concerned. If anything when i am looking at dudes my age at least i am glad i am not going through a divorce.


That's what the doc said to me when he was scolding me

You're drinking HOW MANY coffee cups a day?!

Hey fuck you doc, at least it ain't crack


Yeah... If i don't have my coffee, i get migraines, if i get migraines i get angry, and i'm very very nasty when i'm angry


The caffeine itself is problem. It stimulates stomach acid production
You should really try coconut juice. Its a miracle for gastric issues. I swear by it over any pharmaceutical.
 
Learning a lot at school, but its hard because I'm studying in a foreign language that I only started to learn in my 30s. Still, making progress and its fun.

Working out consistently. Really happy to finally have gotten over the hump of not doing shit and sitting on my ass.

Sadly not able to practice guitar daily like I want to but might be able to shuffle some stuff around to have time for it.

All in all things are good
 
Turns out you lose unemployment benefits if you quit twice in a year, so even if I find another job before august, I'll lose the safety net. So basically, either I wait for my old job back, which I won't get fired from, but then I'd have to work it for a year to get unemployment back- or I wait til august and risk nothing but my sanity.

Or yknow, I quietly quit. Beg my boss to kick me out. Jesus christ, I really need to get into a complete "who cares" doomer mindset to survive this.
 
My head feels like it did on the regular when I was prescribed adderall - brain fuzz/zaps. I hate it. Thankfully, it's not a common feeling anymore, unlike when I was on adderall but I can't narrow down whether it's because I took my meds later than I normally would or if it's simply "one of those days".
I used to have these when my blood pressure was high. Like a whoosh-whoosh feeling in my head whenever I moved my head too quickly. Not sure if this is what you’re experiencing but it doesn’t hurt to get your pressure measured if it’s been a while.

Thread tax: my mood is going down again. I saw a dead adolescent seagull laying on the sidewalk and it ruined my day. I have a Lindt Creme Brûlée chocolate bar from Christmas I’m trying to get through and I’m having my first diet soda of the week.
 
Oh i know

Last year mom had a very bad case of gastritis. Took her to the hospital several times, thankfully all exams ruled out anything that might be worrysome. For about one month i had to skip some compromises i had because i'm the only person around to take care of her

I had to crack some books too, so i could make her a whole diet focusing on healing and preventing stomach issues. In the end what helped her was some abhorrent gruel i ended up making, a dairy-less potato-carrot-zucchini mash with no seasoning. Made my best for it to look appealing, but with only water you can do so much

It eventually went away, but now it's happening to me. I just woke up and first thing i did was to brew coffee

I'm a stomachal lolcow
About ten years ago it all started going very wrong with my stomach, and there were fewer things I could eat.
I had to become my own doctor and with an elimination diet I learned what I was sensitive to, and I basically had to become my own doctor through trial and error. I figured out that I cannot eat sugar, wheat (sensitive to the pesticide) and histamines and diary (especially most aged cheeses which are high in histamines) . When I had acute gastritis and panicked and went into emerg. the doctors would be like good luck with your tummy ache, stop bugging us.

Along with GERD, I have malabsorption and IBS-M so my stomach always hurts, I'm always nauseous, chronically tired, and underweight.

Did the gastroenterologist a couple times and had both an endoscopy and colonoscopy twice and they could see that my stomach, and throat have been destroyed by stomach acid but they couldn't or wouldn't do anything about it. I tried some naturopaths and other health doctors and they were pretty much the same but they would have some herb for me to take.

I've finally found a doctor who will listen to me and he actually looked at my history and gave me a diagnosis along with putting me on a PPI (Pantoprazol) which is working terrifically
 
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I was in bed for 15 hours last night, took the morning off work (again). Actual sleep at points, so that's good, but I'm still about to break my teeth clenching my jaw, my neck feels like wood, and basically every muscle in my body is tensed. This has got to pass at some point, GOSH.
 
I used to have these when my blood pressure was high. Like a whoosh-whoosh feeling in my head whenever I moved my head too quickly. Not sure if this is what you’re experiencing but it doesn’t hurt to get your pressure measured if it’s been a while.
I do have semi-high blood pressure but it isn't something alarming, so I'll chalk it up to me being irregular with my medication. That's the fun part about SSRI's and shit, you sacrifice things like libido, a normal sense of hunger/satiation, being thin and being able to enjoy reading (when I was on adderall I completely lost the ability to enjoy reading for over a year after getting my ADD diagnosis changed) in exchange for being more stable moodwise and not being as suicidal, at least after the first couple of months! Yay!

Nevermind that you have an increased chance of being suicidal when you first start up on your medication, or if you go off them even if you wean off slowly.
Don't go straight to meds, children. It's a crutch that can help you heal but if your doctor doesn't know or doesn't care, and want you to stay on them for longer than 6 months? Don't. Just don't.
 
That's the fun part about SSRI's and shit, you sacrifice things like libido, a normal sense of hunger/satiation, being thin and being able to enjoy reading
When you say being able to enjoy reading, do you mean not being able to focus? I cannot get through a page of a fiction book without my mind drifting but I never associated that with the meds. I’m weaning off mine next week so I’m preparing for the brain zaps 🥲
 
When you say being able to enjoy reading, do you mean not being able to focus? I cannot get through a page of a fiction book without my mind drifting but I never associated that with the meds. I’m weaning off mine next week so I’m preparing for the brain zaps 🥲
yeah, not being able to focus due to brain zaps and in general having a hard time literally just reading. You know how you can sometimes read the same line over and over but you don't understand or it's because your eyes can't move on to the next line.
I don't know if you can get anhedonia as a side effect or if that just speaks to my general overstimulating my brain with "easy" entertainment.
 
Damn I feel like such shit over being afraid to put in my 2 week notice. Will be doing full time night training for an electrician gig at a big company starting in April and all I gotta do is tell my current work. I know they won't let me shrink my hours down so that I could do both my current job and the training but I also don't fucking want to. I've got this nagging fear that HR will still try to fit work into my new schedule even when this night school is gonna railroad into a new job. That's unreasonable yes but the idea of having no free time from 7:30 AM to 10:30 PM for 6 weeks just fills me with absolute dread. I'm waiting for Monday where I'm gonna go to a paper signing meeting for night school to finally put in my notice. The night school thankfully is treated like a job and I will be considered full time with pay for perfect attendance so I'm not worried about pay. I'm just fucking anxious as shit about a good opportunity coming my way like the zoomer I am kek.
 
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