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I wanted so bad to have a good day after I had a genuine conversation with my social worker but I've been down in the dumps all day.
Feeling really upset with myself and short of going to bed early (8:30PM) I don't really know what to do. It sucks to suck.
 
I decided to wear a new pair of jeans but i forgot to rip off one of the store stickers before i went outside. Now I'm humiliated! Now I want to end my life! I'm truly one of the most downtrodden members of this thread.
 
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I'm doing pretty well overall, but one of my oldest friends has become a fucking retard and we're basically through. And I feel kinda sad about that.

I've known this dude forever, but in the last 2 years, he got really into this very arbitrary and very specific gay fringe political cause. For the first 10+ years I knew him, he was mostly apolitical, maybe very slightly conservative. But since covid, he's been turning into the platonic ideal of a Reddit-American. His fixation on this one dumb political thing made his girlfriend dump him a year ago, and ever since, it's been an endless bitch-fest about her. Anything remotely related to dating or this political thing is treated as a springboard for him to start going off about how she was wrong to dump him; "she said it was because he did X, but her new man does X too, so it was Oh So Wrong of her to be dishonest to him!" And we are in our thirties. It has been over a fucking year. When they were together he was always talking about their political disagreements like she was wrong and her opinions were invalid. It didn't sit right with me then and it does not sit right with me now.

The other day, I got tired of tiptoeing around this constant ranting about how his ex is dumb and wrong in the guys' group text after he launched into another paragraph long rant about her. I told him he needs to move on from her, we've all met her so it's weird that he can't stop trash talking this woman we've all had opportunities to form our own opinions on, and that the idea of trying to debate her into dating him again is, to use a Latin term, fucking insane. The other guys were all in agreement, but he's really bought into the Xitter/Reddit mentality of "disagreeing with me is violence, you're a big meanie! If My Facts are right, I don't need to be civil to you, it's your obligation to agree with me."

He moved a few states away for work so it's not like any of us can pop over and either have a drink or smack some sense into him, which makes it especially frustrating.

This is purely me being an old curmudgeon, but part of me hopes he doesn't get over this poor woman, and gets smacked in the face with a restraining order. If people he's known for over a decade telling him to calm the fuck down hasn't helped, maybe that'll bring him back to reality.
 
Not too good, thanks for asking. My mega super fine girlfriend just called it quits on me and left last night after saying she cheated on me with her physically abusive ex. I knew it was coming, and I know her choices arent my fault. It still sucks though. maybe if i'd just been better, something something blaming myself here. idunno. it hurts remembering. but yeah i do need to stop being a mopey fag about it and carry the fuck on, theres no point refighting a lost battle. C'est la vie.
 
Hungry Fox said:
maybe if i'd just been better, something something blaming myself here
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Getting cheated on can never be your fault. If a partner is dissatisfied with something the correct thing to do is talk about it, and if things can't be resolved that way, then perhaps amicably ending the relationship is the way. But betraying someone by literally fucking around is vile.
 
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I just think the behavior reflects on their values and general ability to bring anything positive to my life.
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You know, this was just what I needed to read.

There are a few people in my life that I've known since we were all teens and early 20s. And now we're old enough that I'm kinda losing my sympathy. Obviously people can be broke for any reason etc etc etc. But it's different when you've known them since they were 18 and witnessed their lifestyles, their jobs, their life circumstances. Some of my friends are just choosing to live the perpetually broke lifestyle and I can't change it, but it kinda gets to a point where even hanging out with them feels like enabling their various addictions.

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I loudly laughed through Avatar.
I love the love/hate relationship with Spider, one minute they loved him and the next minute they were trying to kill him again.
The messaging of killing the bad humans killing all the natural lands was like a ham handed jerk off. At one point I thought Spider was going to have two dads, his dads Jake Sully and the marine dude's Avatar could have a domestic situation :gay:
The whole movie was beautiful and I loved all the war machines the humans the saccharine save the world shit was too much and I wanted to see more Avatars die.
Why is Jake Sully always close enough to watch devastation but can never make it before the killing starts? What the fuck is is always doing? Did his human need to empty the faucet? Why the fuck can this family not stop attaching themselves to clans and getting them all killed?
The end scene where they're all having an unusual tentacle orgy was awkward. I bet when they filmed Sigourney Weaver doing the tree meld scene as Kiri, she was moaning and shit, it was uncomfortable because I was uncomfortable. Did they really make Jack Champion kiss Sigourney Weaver, it must have tasted like cigarettes and sadness. Sam Worthington's accent kept going British and what the fuck did they do his face? I can't wait another three years for the next installment of a hot mess. If liberalism could have a bukkake, it would be this movie.

Husband has finished being nice and pretending that my existence isn't annoying him and is back to acting like a cunt. When he is nice, he holds gifts over my head but only gives them to me when he decides to and if I show too much interest, I get a verbal hand slap. When he's "nice" he goes out of his way to do things for me even when I don't want him to and if I tell him he's making me uncomfortable he gets angry at me.

Before we went to the movie I had fifteen minutes which I was looking forward to myself but no he had to buzz around me endlessly bugging me. Then he started getting fixated on leaving on time (he always does) and I had previously done everything I was supposed to do before the movie and was just about to put my shoes on but I wanted to get a pair of pants out of the dryer.
Suddenly I'm not getting ready, and I'm making him late and I never hear the fucking end of how I am making him late and we are not leaving on time. I was ready and out of the door exactly on time but at the last minute he has to grab some weed and I said "are you sure that we have time for that?" and then that opens another can of worms and the whole fucking way there, I have to hear about how I was still the one who was running behind and he will not drop it. He loves winding me up with bullshit and then gas lighting and rephrasing the whole situation where I started randomly yelling at him.

I know what he's doing, it's all done in a cyclical pattern but right now I am biding my time. Job hunting is a bust, the first job fell through and every shitty job I've applied to won't even give me a second and I feel as if he knows that I'm not getting hired and I'm stuck. Onwards.
 
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I feel like shit, I'm in some actual trouble, and I look like utter hell as the cherry on top of the Fuck My Life sundae the new year has brought. Wheeee.
 
Been exhausted at work for the past few days because my boss exposed himself as a groyper and jewsperg which as caused a Jewish co-worker to rage bait him into jewsperging and it's making everyone bash thier heads against their desks it's like going to the Thunderdome and seeing @Catch The Rainbow argue with a /pol/rapefugee.

Other than that I'm doing great. I've hit 176 pounds after being at 260 pounds a year and a half ago.
 
Dealing with some not so fun health issues and possibly facing a not so fun surgery.

But today I learned my boss's 8 month old baby was diagnosed with cancer. Kiwis...I don't even like kids but how I wish I could take on the diagnosis myself from the little one. Kids shouldn't suffer.

I know there is much beauty in the world, but today the world is wretched.
 
Gleam said:
For some reason my arm is numb but I can still move it. Going to see my doctor about it.
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Should note that my arm is doing better now, apparently it's some retarded neurological condition.
flaxseed said:
Dealing with some not so fun health issues and possibly facing a not so fun surgery.

But today I learned my boss's 8 month old baby was diagnosed with cancer. Kiwis...I don't even like kids but how I wish I could take on the diagnosis myself from the little one. Kids shouldn't suffer.

I know there is much beauty in the world, but today the world is wretched.
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The only thing we can do from here is hope that the baby is welcomed into Heaven and that they know their parents wanted them very much.
 
Motherf*cker said:
When he is nice, he holds gifts over my head but only gives them to me when he decides to
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tell him to get fucked, ASAP. like right now, get off the computer, go over to him and say "get fucked, ASSHOLE".
also, how can he give/not give presents if you are the one working anyway?? what a faggot, giving his wife presents with her own money...you deserve better out of life. im not gonna tell you to leave him, as i know how that isnt like something someone can just do, nor is it an instant fix, but you can demand to be treated better, unless he wants you to destroy him. seriously, dont let him get away with that shit. he sounds worthless :/
 
I think I've made a huge psychological breakthrough over the past couple of days. I feel like the fog clouding my mind over the past decade is rapidly dissipating now. I feel like I'm finally living my life and I can enjoy things without a barrage of negative thought...

...I guess I feel a lot of things right now. It's hard to explain. It's good, but it's a lot.
 
Neurotypical Mantis said:
these people eventually grow to hate me and kick me out but NEVER TELL ME WHY
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Something like that happened to me December of last year with an IRL creative writing group I was a part of. No posted rules at the beginning, when rules were finally posted they were clearly designed to clamp down on me. It wasn't registering in my mind I was doing anything wrong, and it doesn't help when nobody says a word about it at the meeting. The last three events I was a part of, we all had a good time, and I went out of my way to be nice because I was concerned I'd get kicked out if I so much as sneezed the wrong way.

The day after the last meeting, I was about to leave the house to drive to a used book store, and I got a nastygram text message kicking me out, though they were polite about it. I asked what specifically I did and that I wouldn't fight the decision, and someone else sent me a message about how it "disrupted the creative writing flow" among other things by not providing feedback on people's work at times, also noting "impatience" by trying to get people to read. There might be some sidebar issues I won't get into, but at the same time it seems like they wanted me gone for a long time and were waiting for an excuse, especially since I was removed on something which wasn't even part of the group rules - how do I know I'm doing something wrong when there are no rules posted?

I personally think some of it was how they didn't like how I wrote female characters as being "submissive" to male leads in stories, though there was no sexual content in them whatsoever nor sexualization of anything. By the time I was politely kicked out, it was just me and three women who regularly attended the meetings, though at this point I'm not going to complain or whine about this series of events for more reasons than one.
 
i found a new recycling facility in my locale to get scrap steel and copper for sculpting today and i ran into an old nemesis when i was scouting their inventory
theyre another metal artist and we used to be friends until i wronged him profoundly in a way he should never forgive me for
without getting into details, i destroyed something of his and he tried like mad to destroy me for it and lost a tooth in the conflict
He avoids me now and has been going to this other facility for a while because he does not want to encounter me
Now i dont know what he'll do, since ive invaded what im assuming is the only scrap yard left in town i didnt know about

I lament that i burned this bridge, hes mostly a good guy, does very unique intricate work and welds prettier than i may ever achieve, i learned a bit from him and could've learned much more had i not lost him due to my own foolishness
2 of his creations are in public places and i still visit them when its convenient, one of them is on the sidewalk right outside a business that has one of my pieces inside it
theres some beauty knowing that our creations will still be close to each other long after we're both dead
but perhaps thats just cope so i dont have to admit this is my fault
 
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