How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Agarathium1066]

I guess the concept always made me paranoid, but the way it’s described here sounds quite nice actually. Maybe I should try it one day, but as of right now I still feel a certain way about using a gas stove. Not sure what’s up with me and fire. It took me a lot longer than most other kids to stop being genuinely scared of stoves.

Be sure your fireplace is a proper one rather than just for show but that's fairly simple. You might be able to get some firewood at a gas station (or really depends on where you live, sorry that's vague). A lot of big box stores like a wal-mart or what have you will also have a firestarting log. It's basically a compressed log of kindling that lights easily to help the wood catch fire.

Get that and a few pieces of firewood and start it out. Or if you want to skip the money entirely scrounge up some dry kindling, pine needles, whatever might be around if there is any. It takes practice to be able to easily start a fire especially if the wood isn't super dry. I'm sure there's some decent videos on youtube that can give you a way more in depth rundown on things.

 

[DavidS877]

Be sure your fireplace is a proper one rather than just for show but that's fairly simple.

If it hasn't been used in a while(or ever) it's best to get someone to inspect it and clean the flue as there's no telling what the previous owners/tenants did or didn't do as far as maintenance.

 

[AnOminous]

I guess the concept always made me paranoid, but the way it’s described here sounds quite nice actually. Maybe I should try it one day, but as of right now I still feel a certain way about using a gas stove. Not sure what’s up with me and fire. It took me a lot longer than most other kids to stop being genuinely scared of stoves.

All I have to say at this point is GET HELP!

 

[Dizzyuntildeath]

Nah, she was right. Oops.

 

[Lingering butter taste]

All I have to say at this point is GET HELP!

Did I say something? I thought we were talking about fireplaces

 

[Super Mario Brothers]

Some people need to be ignored to get a message across. Anyway I'm going to binge on sweets while dissociating and/or crying. (Also I have to work tomorrow.)

 

[PetiteFeet]

Some people should seriously not ever work in health care or social services (or law enforcement for that matter). If you hate other humans that much, fucking learn to code. I'm sorry you had to deal with that.

The funniest/shittiest/most absurd thing about my three years of seeing her is she's allegedly worked in psychiatry for 25+ years. When I've been in a better spot mentally, I can have easy, carefree and understanding conversations with her. Maybe it's because my brain is literally turning to goop and I've slowly lost my ability to be articulate, I genuinely can't tell if I'm losing my faculties like a type of early onset dementia at this point in time.

All I can do is throw my hands up in frustration and then hope that the referal will get me a step further towards help, and take a deep breath through my nose. My tendency to ruminate and carry grudges is one of my biggest personality flaws, so I'm not looking forward to my next follow up with her, but I will endeavour to avoid letting it cloud my judgment. For my own sanity's sake.

ETA: and now I hope Christmas Eve is cold enough for me to start the fireplace up at my parents' house. I love a good fire but I'm not allowed to have a firepit in my garden, neighbours and shiet.
Time to put on fireplace.mp3 with fire.gif

 

[John Badman's wife]

I have PMDD

 

[Arbiter]

Feeling very Grinch/Scrooge-like. I have holiday fatigue and it's not even Christmas Eve yet. I try my best to enjoy Christmas time, but deep down I'm really forcing it. It's a lot. Having to get gifts for everyone you know, the wrapping, decorating, cooking, family dinners, the incredibly mid and corny music and movies. I miss Halloween. I'm also sick so that's probably not helping.

 

[Super Mario Brothers]

I think I'm going to try again to see what homeless shelters are around. Maybe it's a bad time but I'm going to try for a while, I don't want to keep having panic attacks when I see my mother each time I fall sick.

 

[Squanto Airi]

Take Vtubers, I’ve quite literally never had an interest in them or known anything about them but they’ve always just been some genre of content to me. On par with “let’s play”s or “Get ready with me”s. You come to KF and they’re ALSO synonymous with pedophile. And it’s like, I never would’ve known this unless I went to KF.

Nigga you just deal with it. I got called a pedo (by a pedo apologist) for having a cutesy vtuber pfp. You're caring way too much about what online autists say about you.

As a tax, the past two months have drained me for some reason. I sucked at following the Nativity fast, the diseases and death in my family, friends spiraling into despair due to the winter season. I just feel like I'm barely hanging on to sanity.

 

[WASR96]

Was up until 5am sick to my stomach. Finally quit and was able to fall asleep until the hospice intake team showed up. No time wasted thankfully, they got all the info they needed and immediately asked what I needed. They came back a few hours later with nausea meds, fentenyl patches, liquid morphine, and anxiety meds for some reason. I broke down when I had to explain my prognosis so I guess they could see that I've been trying to keep it all together. Going to do my best to sleep throughout tonight so I don't become a burden to my family on Christmas Eve. I really don't think I'll be able to spend all day walking around tomorrow like they want to, but I'm hoping I can at least try so I'm not the one who ruined everyone's plans.

 

[Quijibo69]

Today was the last day of work, my 5 days holiday fun is here!

 

[JanuaryViolet]

but the words she chose while talking to me triggered me something fierce, and even my tard wrangler got stern with her.

Can you get a different one? She sounds hard to deal with.
Also, you have a wrangler? How the hell did you accomplish that? I feel like I need a wrangler occasionally to judiciously kick my ass when my assorted 'traits' are being a problem.
You can't possibly be in the US, are you? Because here mental health providers don't even notice unless you do something actually illegal or potentially fatal and someone else informs them on your behalf. And maybe not even then. If you are at all functional, they just keep sending you back to the front lines to cope on your own.
Seriously, though, please take full advantage of any opportunity they offer. Sometimes it takes being stubborn.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

I guess the concept always made me paranoid, but the way it’s described here sounds quite nice actually. Maybe I should try it one day, but as of right now I still feel a certain way about using a gas stove. Not sure what’s up with me and fire. It took me a lot longer than most other kids to stop being genuinely scared of stoves.

Lol fires are great. I have 3 wood-burning fireplaces and have never had anything close to a dangerous moment.

Tt: still haven't gone Christmas shopping yet. Tomorrow going to be fun, and I'm committed to an early dinner so I'm going to have to get running early. ... Yet another Christmas I'm late and dumb, even though I started quasi-planning months ago. I always lose the weeks between Thanksgiving and Christmas, thinking there's so much time and always getting jammed up.

 

[Nick Bockwinkel's Belt]

I broke down when I had to explain my prognosis

This alone will probably make you feel better. Stress is a major contributor to pain and illness that's often overlooked, and that whole "be a man" "stiff upper lip" bullshit ends up making things more uncomfortable.

 

[FattyMcFatterson]

I caught a cold a couple days ago so Merry Christmas to me! Husband is making a bunch of Gingerbread, including some with THC Butter, and everyone knows that Ginger helps fight off illness! Going to the store to buy Orange Juice and stuff, before my options are severely limited for two days when mostly everything is closed, but for now Im enjoying lying in bed with a cup of Coffee and listening to my dog snore... Why is it so cute when a dog makes sleeping, eating or drinking noises but if a human does it I want to jam a Qtip in till it busts my eardrum?

Happy Festivus!

 

[⋖ cørdion ⋗]

You come to KF and find out it’s synonymous with “pedophile” and that’s alarming

I fucking wish. Vtubers are western early-20s girlies masking as asians. They're so fabricated that seeing 6 of them playing Peak together feels genuinely wrong. Six cults rubbing on each other hoping to gain more fans than they lose.

I watched one normal-ass girl with a webcam and very animated and iconic mug opt to become a vtuber. I quit watching her and then a year later heard her pop up on another stream with that trademark nassal forced voice. Fucking why? You were already ahead by being on cam.

If you wanna watch tubers, watch a japanese one. This copycat cringe western take of girlies acting like besties, eager to backstab each other. THAT'S gay.

The funniest/shittiest/most absurd thing about my three years of seeing her is she's allegedly worked in psychiatry for 25+ years.

One of the staff toilets at the psych had a "the psych ward? Only the bravest nurses go there" toy story meme on the backside of the door. Never have i met a more bully2nurse pipeline environment. I genuinely believe 2/3 nurses become nurses to fish for a ceo who'd love to brag about being married to a nurse

 

[Banquet Meal]

Suicidal thoughts (not full on ideation or planning, just "I don't deserve to live"), general lethargy and inability to fully keep my home, and other things that have me spiraling

im so sorry you are dealing with this...i am too, in a similar way, and it is making everything very difficult. i hope you can manage to have a good christmas in spite of everything!!

might not be the most effective course of action.

i feel like a jerk for being semi rude to @

Lingering butter taste... ​

we had a great conversation about a zillion different subjects and we have various things in common, even. i will be careful when jumping to conclusions in future

 

[LinkinParkxNaruto[AMV]]

BPD girls are best girls. Just hit it already.

Nevermind, Its already over. I am too old for this anyway.