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I'm a misanthrope, because it seems every single group of people--whether it be based on class, political alignment, ethnicity, race, etc--have really annoying traits.
There's too much tribalism in today's society and political climate. I'm just an individual with individual opinions that doesn't swear allegiance to one creed. What happened to all of the other people like that?
Even with my friends, I feel like I have to censor or hide away certain parts of my personality just so I can remain amicable with everyone in the group. It's so tiresome.
I just want to be me--uniquely myself. But, it seems, no one is willing to accept me for who I am. I always have to appease others' sensibilities.

But, I actually don't want to be a misanthropic person; being a misanthrope isn't a badge of honor to wear proudly.
But, what am I to do? Just constantly put on a performance for others so I don't make others uncomfortable? Until the day I die?
I'm too left for the righties, and too right for the lefties; and, being moderate is apparently bad because "silence is violence" or some bullshit like that. But I wouldn't even call myself moderate. Fuck these labels.
I play video games. But since it's not sports-ball or gun-game 2025, I have nothing to play with anyone I know personally. Then I try to make friends online who like the sort of games I do, only to discover that these people already have established cliques and don't care to invite anyone else in, and/or they're extremely liberal/woke, and/or they're a generation apart.
I like anime. But, some people think all anime is gay. Then there's the anime fans who say "Anime is cool. OH, BUT NOT THAT ONE! LOOK AT THAT DRAWING'S PROPORTIONS! GO TO PRISON!" Why not just find a different hobby instead of trying to change mine?

I just so much want to belong, somewhere. But, where can I even belong? If one holds one opinion atypical to the tribe they belong to, they are then ostracized.
I feel so alienated and demoralized.
 
Aero Soul said:
I'm a misanthrope, because it seems every single group of people--whether it be based on class, political alignment, ethnicity, race, etc--have really annoying traits.
There's too much tribalism in today's society and political climate. I'm just an individual with individual opinions that doesn't swear allegiance to one creed. What happened to all of the other people like that?
Even with my friends, I feel like I have to censor or hide away certain parts of my personality just so I can remain amicable with everyone in the group. It's so tiresome.
I just want to be me--uniquely myself. But, it seems, no one is willing to accept me for who I am. I always have to appease others' sensibilities.

But, I actually don't want to be a misanthropic person; being a misanthrope isn't a badge of honor to wear proudly.
But, what am I to do? Just constantly put on a performance for others so I don't make others uncomfortable? Until the day I die?
I'm too left for the righties, and too right for the lefties; and, being moderate is apparently bad because "silence is violence" or some bullshit like that. But I wouldn't even call myself moderate. Fuck these labels.
I play video games. But since it's not sports-ball or gun-game 2025, I have nothing to play with anyone I know personally. Then I try to make friends online who like the sort of games I do, only to discover that these people already have established cliques and don't care to invite anyone else in, and/or they're extremely liberal/woke, and/or they're a generation apart.
I like anime. But, some people think all anime is gay. Then there's the anime fans who say "Anime is cool. OH, BUT NOT THAT ONE! LOOK AT THAT DRAWING'S PROPORTIONS! GO TO PRISON!" Why not just find a different hobby instead of trying to change mine?

I just so much want to belong, somewhere. But, where can I even belong? If one holds one opinion atypical to the tribe they belong to, they are then ostracized.
I feel so alienated and demoralized.
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You picked a very odd site to join if you want to avoid political extremes and anime hate.
 
Found out I was apart of the Conduent data breach, 2 months after they announced it. And the announcement was 10 months after they learned of the breach, but it's ok! I get a free year of credit reporting. Fucking hell I hate the modern tech world and all this constant sharing of any fucking data these jewish rats can sell for a shekel.
 
@Endless Torment I can't quote your post for some reason.
It's not that I want to avoid political extremes, it's just that each political group thinks I don't fit in enough. I have radical and extreme views in today's day and age; I just don't like labels.
As far as anime goes, I really don't get the hate. I can understand indifference, but why the hate? If someone doesn't like a particular medium, I don't understand why those people can't just say "this isn't my cup of tea?"
But maybe you can enlighten me on that.
 
Look, I know it's mostly women's prerogative to get pissy over some minor fuckups in their relationships, but I am fucking done. I had a friend who seemed to be ok and even helped me a lot when shit was tough, but in the last year or so it went to absolute trash. I checked my phone yesterday and realized that I was the one calling his number for the last 6 months, never the other way around. When I had my birthday, I couldn't celebrate because of the job, I told him beforehand, then the day comes and what do I get? "Ooh, I bought meat, we can roast it. What, you have to work in the evening? Well, we've got a couple of hours. Oh, you're exhausted, why? Oh, yeah, you told me, yeah, ok, ok". Nevermind it was my birthday, so who cares what I want to do, right? And he never mentioned it since, even though he promised to do something on the weekend. I thought about calling it quits, but last week I called him, we had an ok conversation, I said "ok, I have a spot on Saturday, but I am busy this Sunday, maybe we can go somewhere? - Nah, I have teeth implant this Wednesday, I'll have to rest. - Oh, ok, next time then, get well." And what do you think? This fucking Sunday he sends me a message, "ok, we can go somewhere, what do you think?" I had to really try not to send him "I think, FUCK YOU". Not only turns out he was ok on Saturday, but he couldn't just go by himself, he had to rub it into my face. I am done. I am not going to message him ever again. What the fuck did I do wrong to deserve this treatment? I tried to be supportive, but every time I called him, I got "ok, what happened" like can't I call you once a week to ask how are you doing? No, seriously, he could not hear from me for over a month and be ok with it. Why every connection I've ever had in my life went to shit, something must be wrong with me, but I really can't point out something so bad I would've deserved this. Yes, I am not perfect, but why do major assholes like YanDev or Maldo don't have any meaningful connections in their lives, but people still strive to be with them for some reason, why? Am I that bad? And you know what's the kicker is? It was the last friend I had. Yes, that's it, 30 plus years, have no friends, bad luck, fistfuck! No one is going to miss me when I am dead, except my cat. And he brought me this cat, fuck, FUCK!!! I really don't care about sharing something like this, at this point I've got nowhere to go. It can only get worse, so why bother?
 
Second day of work went much better physically. No dehydration.

The district manager came in and it sort of triggered my bitch ass rejection sensitivity because he was super friendly with everyone else and the literal first thing he said to me was "hey you, take the cardboard boxes and the wood pallets out back"

Idk didn't make me feel super welcome.

Now I didn't want him to be friendly with me but at least tell me who you are so I don't weirded out by this random ass guy in normal clothes just coming in and barking orders and making sex jokes with the female staff.

Maybe I just expect something where I shouldn't. I hope the store manager is somewhat nicer.
 
DenseDeerFather said:
Second day of work went much better physically. No dehydration.

The district manager came in and it sort of triggered my bitch ass rejection sensitivity because he was super friendly with everyone else and the literal first thing he said to me was "hey you, take the cardboard boxes and the wood pallets out back"

Idk didn't make me feel super welcome.

Now I didn't want him to be friendly with me but at least tell me who you are so I don't weirded out by this random ass guy in normal clothes just coming in and barking orders and making sex jokes with the female staff.

Maybe I just expect something where I shouldn't. I hope the store manager is somewhat nicer.
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Sorry man. My very first job was a warehouse. 99% of the people above me were assholes. I had one supervisor the whole time there who rocked. Remember their behavior when you get to a position of authority yourself, so you know how not to treat the people under you. I've had a lot more success in my jobs reminding myself what it was like to be on the bottom rung and treating them like people instead of being an asshole.
 
Mike Patton Official said:
It's crazy how the world just keeps going like normal while my whole world is falling apart. How does one even cope with this
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We lost a similar aged cat this year. It’s awful, I feel for you. I tried to see it as he’d had a good innings, and about as good a life as a cat could have. I still felt intensely sad about it.
An animal you’ve had for that long is deeply loved and part of the family. What you’re feeling is grief, and grief is a facet of love, at loss of that and that just means you’re a decent human.
@Dizzyuntildeath i will as usual be covering the bastard in bacon, not basting it enough and swearing we will organise a goose next year. I like the American idea of deep frying it but that’s beyond my skill level
 
Mike Patton Official said:
We're not sure... she's going to the vet tomorrow but there's nothing they can do for her. She was born on valentine's day. She's my little baby. It's crazy how the world just keeps going like normal while my whole world is falling apart. How does one even cope with this
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It's hard to cope with having to put down a pet. We had to put our old frenchie down in the christmas holidays back in 2020, and I'm still not over it.
Be there for her, in her final moment. It's difficult and it fucking sucks, but I would regret it if I wasn't there for my own girlie when it's eventually her time.
She's your furbaby (as cringe as some find that word) and you love her like a cherished member of your family. You are allowed to grieve in whatever way you need to, for however long.

If it helps and you want to, please do share stories and pictures of her.
 
Otterly said:
I like the American idea of deep frying it but that’s beyond my skill level
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It's not too bad, if I can do it anyone can. Brine your turkey. Pat it down so it isn't wet before putting it in the deep fryer, and turn the deep fryer OFF before trying to drop a giant bird into the oil. That's usually the step my fellow Americans fuck up that leads to injuries and making it seem hard :) I'm doing a slow cooked brisket for Christmas since the ham/turkey combo started to get old when you have them at Thanksgiving and Christmas.
 
WASR96 said:
It's not too bad, if I can do it anyone can. Brine your turkey. Pat it down so it isn't wet before putting it in the deep fryer, and turn the deep fryer OFF before trying to drop a giant bird into the oil. That's usually the step my fellow Americans fuck up that leads to injuries and making it seem hard :) I'm doing a slow cooked brisket for Christmas since the ham/turkey combo started to get old when you have them at Thanksgiving and Christmas.
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You’d need a massive deep fryer! You guys cook them in oil drums or something? My oven is barely big enough for a big turkey (for some reason this sounds like a bad innuendo…)
Maybe I’ll do lamb instead…
And of course, I do Yorkshire puddings. Shame I can’t send some your way, they are fab with any roast.
 
Otterly said:
You’d need a massive deep fryer! You guys cook them in oil drums or something? My oven is barely big enough for a big turkey (for some reason this sounds like a bad innuendo…)
Maybe I’ll do lamb instead…
And of course, I do Yorkshire puddings. Shame I can’t send some your way, they are fab with any roast.
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They sell turkey fryers, giant container, giant burner, just provide the propane tank, some even come with the needed gallons of fry oil.

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If you're not in a restaurant they get done outside, away from anything flammable.
 
Otterly said:
You’d need a massive deep fryer! You guys cook them in oil drums or something? My oven is barely big enough for a big turkey (for some reason this sounds like a bad innuendo…)
Maybe I’ll do lamb instead…
And of course, I do Yorkshire puddings. Shame I can’t send some your way, they are fab with any roast.
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DavidS877 said:
They sell turkey fryers, giant container, giant burner, just provide the propane tank, some even come with the needed gallons of fry oil.

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If you're not in a restaurant they get done outside, away from anything flammable.
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Yeah, I have a setup that's pretty close to this. I've never been hurt making turkeys with this, but I did get splashed last summer when I made wings with it. Just a small drop that flew out and landed between my middle and ring finger on my right hand. Still hurt like a motherfucker for days after, but it was worth it. Those were some good wings :)

Thread tax: Halfway done with radiation. Oncologist believes it's working due to my side effects, he said the body was working to clean up the dead cells which is causing brain swelling. Not a lot of room for the brain to swell which is why I'm having the headaches, neck pain, vertigo, and nausea. He prescribed some steroids that are supposed to relieve the symptoms.
 
Aero Soul said:
I'm too left for the righties, and too right for the lefties; and, being moderate is apparently bad because "silence is violence" or some bullshit like that. But I wouldn't even call myself moderate. Fuck these labels.
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I just so much want to belong, somewhere. But, where can I even belong? If one holds one opinion atypical to the tribe they belong to, they are then ostracized.
I feel so alienated and demoralized.
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Balancing on the see-saw of the modern internet can be fun and I found that it didn't irritate me so much. Join multiple communities, be sociable and friendly but don't strictly adhere to things you disagree with because surely there's other reasons you're in that space. I know "safe edgy" is a shitty phrase but as they see you as more of a person than a username you can feel a tiny bit more comfortable as you form your place there.
Be that fringe weirdo that leans right against the boundary or whatever but nobody cares because you're managing your power level and you're still cool to talk to.
 
Got the flu and major heartburn, due to an anti nausea pill Ondansetron. Had to force myself to throw up like 7 times to finally get this alka seltzer type brew out of my stomach. Edit: 9 times now, thankfully it has gone away. I think the pill prevented me from feeling nausea without actually dealing with the issue so instead it was a massive dose of heartburn.
 
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