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Just got banned from a friend group after I stuck through some pretty low points with them all, especially with their pseudo-conservative faggy leader that has a tranny sister, unironically watches Murdoch Murdoch while drunk as fuck (I seriously pulled all nighters with that hockey loving asshole watching, and acting like, absolute nonsense, simply because he wanted a "brother" to watch stuff with him and I legit cant say no to people that actually tolerate my presence).

Two years there and I got banned for telling their leader jokingly to "calm his tits" when he got mad I brought up body types when he was announced he would go back to streaming next year. I admit that wasnt nice of me but holy shit, straight up banning me was a bit far. No one there wanted to stand up me

"I don't have anything else to say. I don't ever feel good about throwing people out and I'm sorry to see this situation, but there's not much else I can say. I don't know what to tell you. This isn't an easy thing and I can't have confidence in any of it. I hope you can forgive me for not being much of a help, there just isn't anything I can say as it stands."

"Yes, but another part of my belief is that it would be wrong to do things against anyone's conscience, and if 'x' wants not to have contact then it would be better to respect that than to have to go through someone to get to him. It's just an irritating thing to do, and I don't want to advocate for that type of desparation"



And thats coming from the "christian spiritual" member of the group, loves talking the talk but never walking the walk. I told him that a big part of christian belief is to give others a chance to prove their desire for redemption and I still got a door slammed on my face and I stood up for others but they clearly werent ready to do the same for me.

And now Im stuck with no friends around my age and like minded. 2 years of my fucking life, wasted like that, meaning nothing. Idk what to do or where to go anymore.

So yes, I unironically feel like this.



I want to go into more detail and maybe I will (barring P.L/doxxing shit, Im smarter/above that) for the sake of "letting it all out" but not now. Just want to let this black pill out of my system first, with the harsh lesson your friends can and will turn on you sooner or later.

Others will never care about you the same way you care about them.
 
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The handsome tard said:
I want to go into more detail and maybe I will (barring P.L/doxxing shit, Im smarter/above that) for the sake of "letting it all out" but not now. Just want to let this black pill out of my system first, with the harsh lesson your friends can and will turn on you sooner or later.

Others will never care about you the same way you care about them.
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My status I've had for pretty much this whole year( though jokey kinda wording tied to my pfp gimmick) has been tied to going through a similar thing but it was basically this:
a guy i knew for a good few more years than the guy you listed who wasn't even trying to frame himself as religious or anything out of fucking nowhere went through a scary fast process of randomly banning kicking and blocking me from anything I could contact him on and then acting like we were still gonna be hanging out but just not in every fucking vidya thing we would play together to our mutuals. Rambled about this before in this thread or some other one similar once or twice.

A few months back I finally got a message through in one of the few places I could still contact him and then he waited till I was offline to leave a huge accusatory screed about how I did this to myself or some shit and how it was a long time coming and then he convinced like two other people that had nothing to do with it to follow him and drop me somehow during that point.

Still able to contact pretty much everyone else but it's difficult because I literally cannot join any vidya he's playing (everyone else still tries being friendly together) and I have no Idea what other people's schedules are like now because everyone's overworked or mentally exhausted constantly save for spurts of energy every few days.

People have become legitimate fucking skinwalker demons man it's freaky. Just know you aren't alone in this kind of specific brand of Bullshit.
 
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Just really bummed right now I guess. I don’t know exactly what, since I’m pretty clueless when it comes to this sorta technical stuff, but something something Donald Trump and now healthcare has to be paid out of pocket. We’ve always been well off, and I’d like to think we still are. I mean, the lights are still on, the waters still running. But I can tell my mom has to work twice as hard now, and it’s showing. She’s a lot more cranky and I just have been avoiding talking to her now cause she’s more prone to blowing up. Which is understandable, she’s working twice as hard now. We have an old relative that she’s taking care of, and I’ve noticed it’s gotten harder for her to and it’s scary. Scary as in, I’ve been watching him and how he’s doing and it’s like. Holy shit. Why can humans just decay alive like this? I thought rotting began when you were in the ground. I knew things like dementia and complications existed but I always just. I don’t even know, man. I didn’t know they were this real. I just am struggling to comprehend the idea that the universe decided that this slow rotting of your brain is acceptable for humans to go through. Everytime I have to correct a hallucination or false memory, I get this deep sinking fear in my stomach. Not even in a “Oh no this will happen to me some day” way, but just horrified at the idea that this… Happens.

Like I’m just pondering my mortality now, and how fragile human beings are as a species. Idek, man. Very scary shit. And I’m worried.
 
Muskie said:
At this point I'm starting to think its just baked into who I am so there's no use into trying to "fix" it. I hate not being able to enjoy myself around others.
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You will learn how to give yourself permission and approval instead of seeking it from others. You will value your own opinion enough that it will calm your nerves and give you certainty. You won't be nervous in social situations because you judge yourself sound and trust your judgement. You are no longer trying to suss out how everyone feels about you - which is good, because that is an impossible task, and impossible tasks cause anxiety.

You don't need to prove your own thoughts have worth or look around for validation of your thoughts. If you doubt your thoughts you'll doubt all your proof too. Proof is not the solution. One day you just make a choice and a leap-of-faith. All you can do is keep track of whether your choices improve life or make it worse and change course based on that. We are too stupid to muddle through life any other way. Our greatest theologians and philosophers will tell you the same thing. Your friends never question it. Most don't even know it's a thing that can come into question. They just assume they are right and accept* when they are wrong. It's like null's mantra; optimism is the only logical course of action because it's the only one with a path to success.

When that happens, you'll find you get along better with other people and that they like you more because they worry about you less. If you're lucky, just reading this will be enough to flip the switch. I can't remember how this particular syndrome starts, but that's how it ends.

*well, if they're healthy.
 
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The handsome tard said:
Just got banned from a friend group
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The Lawgiver said:
randomly banning kicking and blocking me
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I went through a similar thing a few years ago, though in my case it didn't work out for the person trying to kick me out of the online friend group. He got himself a tranny "girl"friend, and was in private messages with other people attempting to turn them all against me. In the end it didn't work and he ended up leaving. Later the tranny broke up with him because that's what trannies do, so now he's all alone. Good.

Trannies can tell, even if you don't say anything. They know you can see who they really are, and they hate anyone they can't manipulate.
 
Panicking a bit. I had my first psychiatry session in a while like you all told me to. I could tell that she was a bit perplexed and disturbed by my issues but she was very respectful. What’s making me panic is that I thought I’d have a bit before I go on meds, but she said “Ok usually I don’t do meds in th first session, but because you’ve been on these before and judging by what you’ve described you’re currently very unstable, I’ll prescribe you some low doses”.

I’m not worried about my health or whatever, it’s that I’ve lurked a lot of the farms and SSRI’s are looked down upon. I’m going to look like a leftie dork on Prozac. “SSRI fried” as they call them. I’m very very scared to go pick it up, I don’t want to look like a loser dork who can’t manage her problems without the help of a pill. Though I guess judging by my earlier posts I am exactly that.
 
Lingering butter taste said:
I’m not worried about my health or whatever, it’s that I’ve lurked a lot of the farms and SSRI’s are looked down upon. I’m going to look like a leftie dork on Prozac. “SSRI fried” as they call them. I’m very very scared to go pick it up, I don’t want to look like a loser dork who can’t manage her problems without the help of a pill. Though I guess judging by my earlier posts I am exactly that.
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If you don't tell people, nobody will know you're on meds. It's like being a virgin, if you don't bitch about it from the rooftops, nobody can tell.

However, since you are very young as I recall, do make sure you check in with the doctor regularly and tell her if you experience any troubling side effects. Kids and young adults should be carefully monitored on those meds, they have a black box warning for a reason.
 
Oh I go in and out. Sometimes I feel confident with my life and sometimes it just like I don't know...

Do people really care about me? Value me? I work 40 hours, keep myself to myself and do my autistic shit on the internet.

I know I've had too many jobs because I can never find something that I like to do for more than a couple years.

The pandemic was a who's who of crazy and it's starting to show.

Right now I feel kind of hopeless, crying jags every once in awhile, empty and then I try to hide that I'm crying.

I have coping mechanisms and I'm very good at entertaining myself, I don't rely on people as a crutch, I don't do drugs or alcohol I don't do anything.

But you can only juggle the chainsaws for so long.

Honestly the most I want out of life is a good friend and a stable job that doesn't depress me.

If I had to pick two things in the world that I want the most it's one for both of those things and I think all things considered those are very reasonable and should be seemingly attainable things to have.

But of course I know the way the world works who knows so you never know how life will work out for you.

This is a good thread. Thanks

Squanto Airi said:
My mom just texted me that my paternal grandfather has Parkinson's.
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Oh, that's a nasty disease.

Especially at the end. My step grandfather had that and it's not good. I'm sorry.
 
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The Lawgiver said:
My status I've had for pretty much this whole year( though jokey kinda wording tied to my pfp gimmick) has been tied to going through a similar thing but it was basically this:
a guy i knew for a good few more years than the guy you listed who wasn't even trying to frame himself as religious or anything out of fucking nowhere went through a scary fast process of randomly banning kicking and blocking me from anything I could contact him on and then acting like we were still gonna be hanging out but just not in every fucking vidya thing we would play together to our mutuals. Rambled about this before in this thread or some other one similar once or twice.

A few months back I finally got a message through in one of the few places I could still contact him and then he waited till I was offline to leave a huge accusatory screed about how I did this to myself or some shit and how it was a long time coming and then he convinced like two other people that had nothing to do with it to follow him and drop me somehow during that point.

Still able to contact pretty much everyone else but it's difficult because I literally cannot join any vidya he's playing (everyone else still tries being friendly together) and I have no Idea what other people's schedules are like now because everyone's overworked or mentally exhausted constantly save for spurts of energy every few days.
People have become legitimate fucking skinwalker demons man it's freaky. Just know you aren't alone in this kind of specific brand of Bullshit.
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The worst part is that Im a very self conscious individual, I can understand when I do a mistake and I'll make an honest effort to make things right.

The thing is, Im being accused of being "terminally online". Now yes, thats not necessarily false (Im on this site afterall...tho it beats any other social media in my humble defense...) and that hockey loving prick did tell me once or twice (over two years mind you, so it was very rare) to tone "culture war" stuff down in a DM, and I'd do just that because I do not want to be a nuisance. I even made sure to watch which memes I sent as to make sure it wouldnt "go too far" (and this is a conservative leaning friend group, fyi).

And their leader reaaaally fucking loves Murdoch Murdoch while preaching to "take the western world back someday" and hates niggers and LGTBQ. He is a based dude but after this, idk, while he might be that indeed, he is just an unpleasant fellah...oh and he's a balding car salesman, a position only slightly above flipping hamburgers in terms of "I have no useful skill"*

But apparently, according to the "spiritual" friend (not the hockey loving prick), I was just "bringing everyone down" along with shit like this

"That sort of vitriolic culture war type stuff just isn't healthy. It's just a way to train the mind to get angry at the slightest instance of disagreement."
"I don't know the full story but I know that's at least partially what happened"
"I don't know what to say man, but dude it's probably in your best interest to cut back a bit on the internet if the kind of thing you keep getting exposed to is just more and more reasons to hate mankind"

Now, I'll make a few things perfectly clear.

1- Idk what this nigga is on about, at most Im passionate about clown world but I legit avoid bringing it out when not called for it. And even when I do, its on a jokey context.
2- I also dont know what he means I get angry at the slightest instance of disagreement, Im headstrong but I also seek to keep the peace. I just mostly post memes and talk about vidya and movies when I can.
3- This nigga also has no idea what he is talking about, acting like I go on "hating mankind" tirades. There is nothing worse than getting accused of doing and saying shit you have never actually done.
4- He claims to be an "spiritual" guy but he really doesnt want to put his money where his mouth is.
5- There is a channel dedicated to "rants" and oh boy, thats practically this dude's turf because he goes on long and long rants about literally everything, And yes, him complaining about my "vitriolic" is peak "pot calling the cattle black". I never minded his long rants and I even joined in some. God help you if its religion related. All the niggas on the server acting like we are all "brothers in Christ" but clearly nobody wants to act like it. I wish I still had access to them just to show some screenshots, shit was wild and he loved the sound of his own voice.

"But what about when 'x' blatantly told you to stop and you not only kept going but then proceeded to tell him to calm his tits? isn't that also kinda harsh?"

First off, I was trying to say it wasnt my intention to annoy anyone when I was told to stop and even changed the subject towards the UE5 being pretty shit (only to get a reply around the lines of "if you think this is any better, the brainrot has truly taken over" according to the hockey M.M watching tranny sister having prick)

What is up with people suddenly becoming scolding teachers or moral authorities in these situations? Im legit trying to fix things here and he doesnt want to help out? At least argue my case? And we got history of doing fun activities together, even riffing on bad movies and Im being tossed aside just like that.

I got a timeout at first and I took it in the chin, I know I messed up and was ready to move on, no personal feelings, when the time was right but it escalated into a full on banning, wtf.

"This is exactly the problem man, it is personal. 'x's server' isn't some depersonalized skeleton community where people don't care, and it isn't a land of free speech absolutism either, it's a friend group full of people who want to talk and have a good time"

Do people just begin to have a sick kick when they are in this kind of position? I swear to God I was not being obnoxious (like unironically throwing "literally 1984" at the first sign of criticism. Fuck that) And get this, we had bad eggs among us in the past but it was usually related to things like alcaholism but you know what I did? Not only I approached them on DMs and said I had their back (this guy did say he was aware he had a problem and was seeking help afterall. Pleasant dude beyond the alcaholism) and I would vote to allow him back in, he assured me I didnt have to do it as he would only try to go back when he felt he was "clean" enough. And I only knew this guy for like 1 month or something, the spiritual guy is someone I knew and considered a close friend for over TWO years!

Not even the "member thats friends to everyone" retard wanted to stand up for me

"I asked what happened and he gave me his side"

me: lay it out dude, I can handle it

"I'm not saying you can't handle it, but I feel like I'd be fanning the flames"

me: please, man, I got to know. I promise you aint doing that. You are being a very helpful friend

"I can't, 'me'. I don't want to get in between this any further."

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(...)

me: (explaining how I lost a friend group I stuck around for over 2 years, just like that and overall acting kind of depressed)

" 'me', I'd try to get some sleep. Look at it after a night's rest."

shockingly a night's rest didnt change shit, you fat retard.

And both of those just arent responding to my messages, even after I made it clear they're good friends and how "Im glad they at least tried" (they didnt but here I am still somewhat trying to salvage this)

They just dont want to adknowledge me anymore. Its over, just like that. Two years, several activities together and even me actively trying my best to stick with them through thick and thin and this is where it all led up.


You know, there is nothing worse than being an introvert and then thinking you "got it". What is "it" ? That place, with those people that you think "get" you. You are like them and they're like you and you believe that your search for acceptance is finally over. The world might be shit and getting shittier but as long as you got them, you're happy and willing to put it through everything. And you are willing to also do everything for them because, hey, "we gotta stick together" and its how you envisioned idealized friendships being like, right?

But then "it" happens. What is "it" ? When it all goes to shit, usually at the snap of a fucking finger and boom, you're alone once again and that loneliness comes back and that shit hurts so much the second time because now that you had a taste of the "good stuff", it just makes the lack of it sting a whole lot harder. And thats a black pill that just...gets to you.

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Oh well, I got a bit of it out of my chest, like, 70% of it. Doesnt make me feel BETTER but it at least squeezes some of the poison out. Thanks for reading either way, believe it or not, I appreciate it.

If you are curious about anything to this mess, just ask, I promise to give an honest answer (and yes, that involves asking about my own fuck ups)





*no offense to car salesmen farmers, you guys are great.
 
Lingering butter taste said:
Panicking a bit. I had my first psychiatry session in a while 1like you all told me to. I could tell that she was a bit perplexed and disturbed by my issues but she was very respectful. What’s making me panic is that I thought I’d have a bit before I go on meds, but she said “Ok usually I don’t do meds in th first session, but because you’ve been on these before and judging by what you’ve described you’re currently very unstable, I’ll prescribe you some low doses”.

I’m not worried about my health or whatever, it’s that I’ve lurked a lot of the farms and SSRI’s are looked down upon. I’m going to look like a leftie dork on Prozac. “SSRI fried” as 0 they call them. I’m very very scared to go pick it up, I don’t want to look like a loser dork who can’t manage her problems without the help of a pill. Though I guess judging by my earlier posts I am exactly that.
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  1. STOP listening to uneducated doomer shitposters on the internet. And if you must listen to them, remember they are uneducated doomer shitposters on the internet and discount their uneducated doomer shit posts accordingly. And specifically remember that many parts of KF have a sort of intentional or reflexive anti-everything approach (which may be how they really feel or may be just posturing or exaggerating for the fun of it). These should not guide you in your self-image and ESPECIALLY not in medical decisions.
  2. No one knows what meds you are on unless you tell them.
  3. No one thinks meds are "dorky.". If they do, they're dorks.
  4. Meds aren't left-wing or right-wing. And your politics are what you believe, not what someone else thinks of you (or what you think they think of you).
  5. Meds that help you are not things to be ashamed of. It's not "behind closed doors.". It's a rational, medically-advised, prudent and personal decision.
  6. Who cares what random shitposters on the internet think? They are not your friends. And many of them don't think or care about any impact they might have on someone - though of course it's your responsibility to filter them properly and not take that to heart.
  7. Your health - mental, physical, all of it - is your top priority and your highest responsibility. You're doing that, so keep doing it.
 
Lingering butter taste said:
Ya, but it’s the guilt knowing I am on it. Like sure no one has to know, but I still feel guilty doing it behind closed doors.
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Unless you're a Christian Scientist or something, there's no reason to feel "guilty" about taking medicine when you are sick. Do you feel guilty for taking antibiotics when you get a UTI? Do you feel guilty about taking cough medicine when you have the flu? Do you feel guilty taking pepto or imodium if you get explosive diarrhea? Would you feel guilty taking a painkiller if you were grievously injured with broken bones? Would you feel guilty getting chemo if you were diagnosed with cancer? As long as you are under the care of a DOCTOR who is monitoring you for side effects and results, there's nothing to feel guilty about. Tell the DOCTOR about the things you are scared of and make sure she is taking you seriously.
 
The handsome tard said:
5- There is a channel dedicated to "rants" and oh boy, thats practically this dude's turf because he goes on long and long rants about literally everything, And yes, him complaining about my "vitriolic" is peak "pot calling the cattle black". I never minded his long rants and I even joined in some. God help you if its religion related. All the niggas on the server acting like we are all "brothers in Christ" but clearly nobody wants to act like it. I wish I still had access to them just to show some screenshots, shit was wild and he loved the sound of his own voice.
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I've experienced this Discord dynamic several times. There's always a Dear Leader local celebrity streamer and everyone else is a subject, there's always a place for them to virtue signal and jerk off on each other about how goodthink they are. The second anyone harshes their echo chamber's degenerate signal they ban them and then gossip about it.

It hurts, but this is a blessing in disguise and once the pain of rejection passes you'll see it. They were never your real friends and they were never good people worth being around. The part you described where they banned a pleasant man for the gall of being an alcoholic is the most telling thing you could have said about them. Does a brother in Christ ostracize and evict people for being sick? Does a brother in Christ dangle inclusion in a church over a sick man's head under conditions and demand they beg their way back in? No. You know what you just got evicted from?

You got evicted from a behavior sink, a parasocial black hole where they peel off Christ's skin and wear it as a mask as they dance around in a cave. They wear the aesthetics of Christianity to performatively virtue signal about how heckin based they are as they judge people for being anxious or sick. When you showed a consistent moral core, when you talked back to Dear Cult Leader, you showed that you were not a tool to feed the buzzing locust noise of Beezlebub in their parasocial echo chamber. So what did they do? The same thing they did to the alcoholic dude, they circled up and ritually slaughtered you. You know what a group is where they talk the talk of righteousness while being completely anti-Christ in action? A synagogue of Satan. You just got kicked out of a little slice of Hell. They are spiritual trannies, sitting on Horseshoe Theory right next to the rainbow hair stinkditches.

You didn't even have to wean yourself off the parasocial addiction, they cut off the flow of poison for you! That's Providence. If you have light inside of you, if you have principles, if you have Providence, the world and people of the world will hate you. They will always try to make you feel alienated and sick because they are projecting the darkness inside of themselves, because that is all they are and all they have. You need to come to terms with your loneliness, you need to avoid these addicting parasocial hellholes like Discord and find validation from within. You don't need a tribe of empty freaks to feel good. Find one, just one person in real life that you can hang out with and rant your soul out and have them rant back and you accept the headaches you give each other. Find just one person who would go out of their way to visit you in the hospital. That's a spiritual brother. Once you have a brother you have a church, as small as it may be, and it gets easier from there. Godspeed man, I hope you get to feeling better.
 
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I've experienced this Discord dynamic several times. There's always a Dear Leader local celebrity streamer and everyone else is a subject, there's always a place for them to virtue signal and jerk off on each other about how goodthink they are. The second anyone harshes their echo chamber's degenerate signal they ban them and then gossip about it.
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This early wording here reminds me of how the aquaintences I've gained via coming across them livestreaming vidya with some socials linked all embody the direct opposite of this somehow. Maybe it's the mention of "dear leader local celebrity streamer". If I wasn't so burnt out in general these last few years I'd probably be communicating with those guys a lot more than I've been able to. Also please note that it's a fucking gamble if you do what I did there and you can and will sometimes end up with absolute nightmare people. You more or less have to kind of 'call it" based on how they interact with people in chat.
 
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This early wording here reminds me of how the aquaintences I've gained via coming across them livestreaming vidya with some socials linked somehow all embody the direct opposite of this somehow. Maybe it's the mention of "dear leader local celebrity streamer". If I wasn't so burnt out in general these last few years I'd probably be communicating with those guys a lot more than I've been able to. Also please note that it's a fucking gamble if you do what I did there and you can and will sometimes end up with absolute nightmare people. You more or less have to kind of 'call it" based on how they interact with people in chat.
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I mean, you're talking to the people that actually generate content, the ones who think and are trying to put on a show. My instincts, and ditching a friend group that did literally nothing but sit around the TV watching trannies play games, made me avoid streaming platforms entirely. But I could see how that could lead to interesting and fun relationships if they aren't egomaniacs and cult leaders. Discord makes it very easy for the egomaniacs to farm dopamine by moderating their personal fiefdoms and making echo chambers comprised purely of orbiter sycophants. It's attractive to cult leaders because it's private and they can just hide all the evidence that they're fragile babies until the point they're already popular.

In my case I haven't made a lasting Internet friend since 2016. None of the people I vibe with in real life game or use the Internet much at all. I don't run raid groups anymore, server based games with actual communities are dead, and everyone is just so feral, hostile, and shitty that the chance of getting scourged by some shithead vastly outweighs the chance of actually vibing. I just stick to single player games now and hit my buds up with 2 hour conversations every now and then. It's physically lonely and fucking sucks that I live in the middle of nowhere to take care of my parents but it sure beats sitting in alone in an apartment trying to dip my toes into parasocial waste dumps. I love computers, I love gaming, I love programming, but I hate cities and the people in tech and that makes my interests highly contradictory with the people I do like.
 
Lingering butter taste said:
I had my first psychiatry session in a while like you all told me to.
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This is Kiwi Farms, not the Mayo Clinic. The people here are shitposters, trolls, retarded spergs, and little kids who only post here because it's one of the few places remaining on the internet where you're allowed to say nigger and faggot without getting banned.

Some of them I'm sure are very nice people. But you will almost certainly be better off if you never listen to any advice anyone on this site gives you.
 
Lingering butter taste said:
Panicking a bit. I had my first psychiatry session in a while like you all told me to. I could tell that she was a bit perplexed and disturbed by my issues but she was very respectful. What’s making me panic is that I thought I’d have a bit before I go on meds, but she said “Ok usually I don’t do meds in th first session, but because you’ve been on these before and judging by what you’ve described you’re currently very unstable, I’ll prescribe you some low doses”.

I’m not worried about my health or whatever, it’s that I’ve lurked a lot of the farms and SSRI’s are looked down upon. I’m going to look like a leftie dork on Prozac. “SSRI fried” as they call them. I’m very very scared to go pick it up, I don’t want to look like a loser dork who can’t manage her problems without the help of a pill. Though I guess judging by my earlier posts I am exactly that.
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No one will care or be shocked about any person picking up medicine at the pharmacist/chemists. It's incredibly common (disturbingly so, IMO) to see people picking up all kinds of medicine used to treat or alleviate mental health issues.
As someone who has been on meds for more than 50% of my life, if the pills help you, then who gives a shit.
You are not a loser for your brain chemistry possibly needing a hand, if anything I think there is strength in asking for and getting the help you need, regardless of what that help is.
I really, really hope that you can get the help you need. You deserve stability and happiness, no matter what some stereotypical A&Nigger thinks about psychology and psychiatry.

What's funny to me is that majority of the people who "shame" prescriptions don't know what the fuck they're talking about. They think that adderall makes you into a junkie with the shakes because "it's amphetamine, it's actually WORSE than street amphetamine!" or that everyone on SSRI's become zombies with no moods outside of neutral to negative. Sure, medicine isn't a surefire fix, but if it helps, it helps. Whether it's placebo or not.

Meds should definitely not be taken without a single critical thought, but you can always come off of them if they don't help you. And if they do help you, think of them as a crutch for when your leg is broken. Your brain gets the break it needs to heal, while you work together with a therapist to learn new tools and how to apply them to make your daily life easier and more tolerable.
 
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