The best and most productive job I've ever had was the one that paid me the least (it's why I'm not still doing it) was the one where everyone pulled weight, everyone put in effort, everyone helped each other out, and, it held onto the notion that the team was the family (I know, I know, but thing is, the business was started by a husband and wife couple, and the husband's bestie, and everyone treated the business like family was important - yes, the business had set hours, but if you had a kid and the kid needed picking up from school, you pick up the kid and move on with the day).
I can relate. A big part of our mental health is who we surround ourselves with. Surround ourselves with the mentally unwell or the dishonest or cruel, it can bring us down. Good luck on changing the work environment. And I hope it helps with whatever you're going through personally.
I feel your pain. I'm home until Thursday, but my immune system is nonexistent so I'm not allowed to even go anywhere. I'll have to redo every vaccine since childhood as well after this 2nd round since it wipes everything out to the point that I'm considered to have no prior immunity, so that's going to be annoying. I wish you luck and hope your docs can figure this thing out.
Volunteer with animals? Or some kind of gardening/ cleanup/ de-weeding/de-invasive plant thing? Minimal interaction with people with those.
I feel you on that one. Not so long ago I told one of the view friends I still have that it deeply saddens me to live for so long without being understood and he... didn't understand what I meant. Ironic. I wish I had my pack, not even as a group of friends, but a bunch of people who have the same values, that I wouldn't need to like personally, but with whom I'd feel that I belong. Like even if people told us "you are a bunch of stupid niggers wasting your lives" and we didn't care since we had the same goal. I'd say being an alcoholic or a junkie fits this description, but I am not into those things.
I thought about it since I love cats and they seem to love me, but we all know what happens with animals who are unable to find owners. Even if it is just "serene eternal sleep", I can't do this. Also I've read a story of one owner who got a cat who spent several years in a volunteer shelter, because she was aggressive and people could not handle her for more than a couple of weeks. I mean, obviously she had a shit life before the shelter, but I have to wonder how it was there since she turned out to be extremely sick, to the point of having sepsis in her mouth. That is very neglectful.
Thank you for the ideas. I feel a little silly for being so dramatic last night, even if I really felt it, so that’s reassuring. I specifically want to help people, so it frustrates me to not be much of a people person. But I think service is a good way to get outside your own head, so I’ll try that before I do anything stupid.
I get it. Finding my people has never been easy, and I’m always on guard and keeping things to myself even with the friends I do find. Perhaps if you figure out your goal first and start pursuing it, the tribe will follow. Easier said than done of course, but I think having a goal of any kind is the key to getting through the day.
QFT (quoted for truth, do younguns still say that on forums?) Sometimes when I am doing very long rowing sessions I have days when my right forearm feels "off" and I have to stop after an hour lest I mess myself up for the next week...
So, I talked the lady at the practice that was recommended.
Do you have insurance for this or something? Do they really expect anybody to pay for that much useless yapping?
Insurance, yes, but the setup for the group therapy alone (doesn't even pay for the one-on-ones) came to over $2k.
