How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[long waters]

And then you think for a moment and realize these family gatherings are nothing more than "U have baby? u looking forward to baby? y no baby? no baby no life...". Look any of these 'achievers' in they dead eyes and ask "what good have you done for society? will your community remember you, if you died?". I doubt The Farms would notice any of us disappearing, but at least you've reached out and interacted with people beyond your proximity. Yet, I also yearn to have some local ties with people of equal age and interests. But then comes the whole 'gotta be okay with them being retards' and other such associations. As a kid I had a 'friend' constantly come over to play my PS2. It was fun until it wasn't and then it became a whole thing to cut those ties.

Nah, in my case, I don't feel that negatively about them at all... But yeah, sucks to be alone and such. As they say, sucks to suck. I just have to git gud and suck less I guess.

 

[Unnecessary Surgery Land]

Drove for a long time and I can’t sleep cuz everything feels like it’s moving when I lay down which is normal for me after I drive a long time but I fucking hate it let me sleep I’m tired

The body is stupid and weird when it comes to balance. The inner ear is a crazy cunt.

 

[PetiteFeet]

Reality is that you shouldn't need to alter yourself in either case around people who do care about you.

I want that. I don't have that outside my immediate family, and even then I sometimes have intrusive thoughts that they don't.
I know the solution is to be away from my home and actually interacting with people but damnit if that isn't a Herculean task of its own.

 

[AnOminous]

I am in a state of absolute madness.