so idk what came over me today, but i'm still getting less sick and more productive, and i'll have work to do real soon. I've decided to try to entera long (decade i hope.I HOPE) of pretty much nonstop grinding, study taking stuff in and pooping out art and just not caring too much about anything besides improving myself and feeding my rusty imagination. After 10 years or so of depression you just get tired of that shit. Doing nothig but moping and feeling sorry for yourself while everyone else gets on with their lives.
I've been missing the hell out of a certain few people and all i can hope for is they live long and productive, happy lives since i accept they forgot me entirely , and i've given upon actively seeking replacements for them because -dont mean to sound snobbish- but lets face it, facebook, twitter,and tumblr are signs of society being eaten by add/adhd, lets put it that way. my own attention spain aint what it used to be. working on it.
i get lonely as hell for just honest to god platonic friendship, but people my age and older are legit too busy for me and i understand, and people younger than me (millenials) arent worth my time because add/adhd. to be really honest sometimes i see what douchebags like loveshies are getting at, but in my case its about platonic friendship and replace "feminism ruined wife material" with "add/adhd ruined friend material", or everything has to be about sex today or something and some friendships would fall apart because i'm strictly "no benefits" only a platonic friend.
and more whining goes here
guessi'll try to replace loneliness with drawing and studying.