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Gap Hag said:
How deep? how wide? anti biotics/septics? padding? gauze roll?
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Didn't measure it but it turned into a skin flap, a couple square centimeters of area at least. I imagine most of that skin will die. Don't know exactly how deep because most of the injury was underneath the flap and I didn't want to disturb it, but it bled fucking everywhere, it was absolutely pouring out. Went to urgent care and they superglued it shut and told me to put fresh bandages on a few times a day and use triple antibiotics each time.
 
You ever have a day where you tried really hard despite a low mood, only for every single negative thing (as sparse as they may have been) outshine the positives completely.

I meal prepped, I walked the dog, I even socialised a bit. Yet the goblin on my shoulder refuses to let me take pride or find satisfaction in what I got done.
I wasn't in the mood to make dinner, so I ordered a banh mi and a salad. Both of my drinks were forgotten, so either the DoorDash guy is enjoying homemade lemonade rn or the restaurant was busy closing for the evening that they didn't remember. I was so looking forward to the lemonade in particular, too.
My head feels like it did on the regular when I was prescribed adderall - brain fuzz/zaps. I hate it. Thankfully, it's not a common feeling anymore, unlike when I was on adderall but I can't narrow down whether it's because I took my meds later than I normally would or if it's simply "one of those days".

I need to find some podcasts that require little effort to listen to but I get so overwhelmed with what's available. I can't keep repeating lolcow podcasts, as much comfort as they bring me.
 
Gastritis' fucking me up and i can't lay off the coffee

Absolutely raped
 
Otterly said:
Have you been checked for h.pylori?

Also make sure you sleep on your left side.
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It's not h.pylori

My esophagus sphincter is pretty much gone at this point. My life is measured in coffee cups. Back when i worked office jobs i'd consume 3 or 4 jars of coffee. In college, coffee, coke, any caffeine drink i'd get my hands on

If i don't have coffee i get very very angry. I'm reaping my caffeinated sow is all
 
It's fun arguing with a stupid jeet who is charge of an app that is to tell me what my earnings are going to be through the pay period. Dumbass is trying to convince me "no, saar, you must go to your employer and ask them for the right information." Actually no, you streetshitter, my employer and I know exactly what we're working with as I see it on my work app every day of every week. Especially when you told me in your response, that you get information from my employer that tells you what to put into the app. I'm not doing shit for you.

Get off your lazy nigger ass and report my information correctly, you've been doing it wrong for 8 whole months. I've been on to you.

I'm eager to know what my new earnings will be considering I got a raise, so I'm into the 19 an hr range now. Working four days a week and getting back into making four digits, sounds like a win. Although that really will mean that I am most likely going to be worked to death, not like I have been for a while now and not like my store has an arbitrary bone to pick with me over the dumbest shit every other week.

So I guess I'll just keep my expectations a little low.
 
souschef said:
It's not h.pylori

My esophagus sphincter is pretty much gone at this point. My life is measured in coffee cups. Back when i worked office jobs i'd consume 3 or 4 jars of coffee. In college, coffee, coke, any caffeine drink i'd get my hands on

If i don't have coffee i get very very angry. I'm reaping my caffeinated sow is all
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Could you take caffeine supplements instead?
 
Otterly said:
That sucks. It’s not like you can never lie down. I’d say quit the coffee but that seems poor advice
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That's what the doc said to me when he was scolding me

You're drinking HOW MANY coffee cups a day?!

Hey fuck you doc, at least it ain't crack

Motherf*cker said:
I should give up coffee, because acid reflux and my stomach is a total mess but in this hellish elimination diet I've had to give up a lot of food and my one large mug of black coffee is my favourite.
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Yeah... If i don't have my coffee, i get migraines, if i get migraines i get angry, and i'm very very nasty when i'm angry

PetiteFeet said:
Could you take caffeine supplements instead?
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The caffeine itself is problem. It stimulates stomach acid production
 
Hauled my ass out of paralysis today and made some headway. More to do today but I might just pull off (most of) what needs doing this week/ month. I hope. But it's amazing how something that turns out to be just several dozen hours of engaged, intensive work has had me in knots off and on for months. I'm giving myself a C- on this project, but jfc, all I want at this point is not outright failure.

Separately, the amount of change and upheaval at my workplace is insane. I like change, and I like to drive change, but just constantly having to react and adapt to it* is a nightmare - and I especially hate having to do big lifts under pressure all the while knowing it's all going to be moot and will fundamentally & radically change in the next 2-12 months. Just put a pause on it if it's all going to flip. I swear to God, we spend more time and effort changing than functioning sometimes. I usually ride the waves, but the undertow is deadly rn.

* and don't get me started on how so very little is documented so that you could actually go and find out what has changed. Nope, you have to find out after the fact and through endless conversations to figure out how to redo everything just done.
 
After weeks calling back and forth between my doctor and the hospital I finally have an appointment with a specialist to try and tackle my exhaustion. I know depression also makes you really tired but I'm almost certain there's more to it. Of course the actual appointment wont be for another 6 months but I guess it's at least something. I really want to get this under control because I feel like everyday I'm only half conscious.It's a struggle to get out of bed, it's a struggle to focus, or even find the energy to do the things I want to do, let alone the things I need to do. There are times I'm nearly falling asleep while driving. While I don't mind if I get flattened in an accident I wont accept letting it hurt someone else. My hope is if I can stop feeling ready to pass out at any moment I can at least force myself to get over the lack of motivation to do things. Even if I'm motivated to play a new game or talk to my brother, there's only so much I can do when I'm struggling to even stay awake.

In an effort to be a little more responsible with my finances I've made the decision to get my first credit card. I hate borrowing money. I hate debt. I am currently debt free. That also comes with the consequence of having no credit score, which is frowned upon. So I got my first credit card and the plan is to maybe buy groceries with it once a month to build up a credit history. I started paying attention to my money far later than I should have. Better late than never I suppose.

This summer I'm going to Hawaii to visit a brother there. I'm going to spend two weeks. I've flown before but never that far or across time zones. Might be a bit off topic but anyone have any tips? Or least some things I need to do while I'm there?
 
Otterly said:
What sort of age gap are we talking about? I think it’s only an issue if it’s vast, and it’s bad if one of you is too young, eg a ten year gap 40/50 is not the same as 18/28. If both of you are adults, and roughly culturally aligned, and you like each other, give it a go. We do not find love very often in life, and you should take the chances offered to you
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10 years, I'm in my mid-30s and she's in her mid-40s. There's a lot to like and I'm giving this a shot. One of the aspect that surprises me is the balance for now (being both established professionals with similar needs and wants).
 
General Patton said:
I found out recently that someone who I once collaborated with for a group story thing, who fucked me over in our story later on, who ruined our story and villainized my character, has now been publicly exposed as a sexual predator who constantly manipulated, abused, and sexually harassed and tried to groom teenage gay boys, along with other people he worked with.

After many years of not being able to say anything about how much he fucked me over because he was well loved and had friends in high places, I'm glad to see that the public now knows just how much of an asshole this guy is.

It feels good, man.
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Congrats on outing yourself as a gay boy 😊👍💐
 
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