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- Dec 6, 2020
In the end it is just a cope. He's humiliated himself to such an extreme, psyche-shattering degree that all he can do is pretend its part of his persona. To be brutally honest, I was like that when I was a teenager and in my 20s. I wanted to just do hard drugs, drink, and sleep with skeezers, so I would justify it with gay-nihilistic beliefs and an edgelord self-destructive attitude, pretending it was the result of some life-philosphy rather than chasing dopamine cooms. Luckily I hit bottom pretty hard (not as hard as Ralph tbh) and was so exhausted and embarrassed that all I wanted was a peaceful, normal life as a participant in society rather than some subterranean ghoul.Somebody pointed out that Ralph is posting these pictures because he may be developing some sort of Narcissistic Personality Disorder, and in this case sees himself as some sort of Joker-Driver esque misunderstood badass that is living life by his own rules. I originally pushed that theory off because I considered "Common, how can someone like that not live with huge amounts of self loathing masking it with exaggerated boasting." But I'm coming to terms that it may be true. When he compared himself to a Greek god I figured something was up. But to post this pics without shame is making me suspect it's true. I'm not psychologist, so if you wanna take a swing on what Ralph is developing I'm open to any explanation.
Life is so much better now, I seriously can't believe it somedays, but that moment of self-reflection when I realized just how awful I was and how I looked to other people was pretty intense and unpleasant. I definitely fought it for as long as possible. Ralph has sunk to a much lower bottom than I did, and its all extremely public. I would have a panic attack thinking about how I was viewed by just my social circle, Ralph is exposing his innards to tens of thousands of people live. I don't think he can have a moment of self-reflection because it would be like trying to grab a hot coal and hold it for an hour, its just way too painful and mind-rending to suddenly think, "Oh yea I'm the guy who left my mom to die alone in a hospital, impregnated an 18 year old, released a porn of her, shit myself on stream, etc.".
I know he's a turbo-wigger, but its easy to forget he had a semblance of a brain back in the IBS days and had some stuff to contribute to his streams as a host. He's deteriorated from booze, pills, and lifestyle, but there's definitely still a voice in that corpulent head of his screaming in horror 24/7.
TL;dr Ralph has no mouth and he must sneed.
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