- Joined
- Nov 13, 2019
He's sorry now. It was his mentuls.Sjam streamed.
When I came in he looked at the chat and ended the steam. I downloaded it and when I refreshed....
It seems like someone is fucking with his passwords?
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Live Hey Hey-1.mp4
I apologize to my loyal viewers for my behavior on Live, but I have been pushed to my BREAKING POINT!!! I AM A HUMAN BEING I can only handle so much before I totally explode as you all saw. I have been very badly struggling mentally this last week I absolutely had my heart broken into a million pieces by someone I love with all my heart I have been trying to ignore the pain and keep myself together for the sake of my new job. It was wrong of me to say the things I did to others regardless of what they are doing to me, I struggle to deal with things in a healthy way and suppress things until I have a complete breakdown. I knew it was coming I've had 12 hrs of sleep since Sunday, I've hardly eaten in a week I have been severely struggling mentally and dealing with bad addiction issues which fuels my meltdowns to a point I just see red and start spewing terrible things from my mouth and I apologize but I'm so fed up being harassed, humiliated and embarrassed by disgusting women who want to tear me down! My personal sexual video was shown in a LIVE STREAM ON YOUTUBE!! WHICH YOUTUBE DID NOTHING ABOUT!! GO AHEAD AND JUDGE ME AND SAY MY MASK SLIPPED OR IM A TERRIBLE PERSON. I HAVE BEEN HARRASSED TIRELESSLY BY PEOPLE ON HERE EXPOSING EVERY ASPECT OF MY LIFE YET IM EXPECTED NOT TO RAGE AND BE KIND AND RESPECTFULL TO EVERYONE!! Everyone sees the real me. Unfortunately my personal issues are getting the best of me and I feel I am two different people. This horrible side of me has been created by my situation and addictions and I certainly am not proud of myself. But again I am human and I have been pushed way too far. I've been manipulated and used by many on here taking advantage of my openness to humiliate me publicly. My mental health is very bad currently and I'm being kicked while I'm down. All I want to do is have a good time on here and socialize with my viewers. Every part of my life has been picked apart and thrown in my face. You don't like me than dissappear it's so gross going into chats and reading comments from the SAME PEOPLE EVERYDAY SAYING THE SAME STUFF you hate me so much but u feel the need to talk about me EVERYDAY! I am not leaving YouTube. I refuse to let these sick people control my life. So congrats you pushed me beyond what I could handle and I lost my shi* I'm not apologizing for being human. I would love to see others keep it together when you have to deal with this kind of stress. I realize I have some significant issues to work on. Basically this post is to say I'm sorry to the good people and for people to understand again that I am human and am dealing with struggles outside of YouTube. I know I need to work on healthy ways of dealing with my stress and struggles instead of always avoiding them until I explode and make a fool of myself. I appreciate those who stand by me and see the real me through my struggles and mental issues currently.
