How much have you done and accumulated in stuff and still find yourself in the self doubt zone?!
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I'm bringing this up mainly because it's silly and funny. How on earth have I managed since last September to...
Buy well over 25 pairs of women's shoes (shoe collection did start a while ago) Tights. Dresses. Skirts. Tops. Jeans. Galore! I have raided the charity shops.
I've been getting laser IPL on my face, 5 or 6 sessions now. I've IPL'd with my own small machine all of my legs, arms, pits. My ears are pierced and I have a heap of jewellery. I've been to the Dr and got myself on the NHS list back in February. Since then I've been full time in women's clothes, at the very least I'll have a bra and breastforms on, barring a few exception guy mode days, usually for practicality. I'm out to everyone who knows me, friends have been more than accepting. I've even got myself some DIY Estrogel which I've been applying for the last three weeks and have started to notice some mild changes, body odours, itchy nipples... In general it's all been really positive and I've barely had that much grief from random members of the public.
...yet despite all this, somehow I still feel uncertain about the whole experience and whether I really want to commit to living as a woman for the rest of my days!
I guess I'm just impressed by how much I have committed to the whole thing and still managed to feel a degree of doubt, it's just daft. Especially since I've been thinking about life in the other shoes for well over 30 years. Bonkers. :3