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POC (Pooner of Color) suffers racist attack, takes action.

Oh, it's this fucking yo-yo again. I've come across this li'l dood a couple of different times on r/TMPOC, but always under a different username as for some reason she likes to account-hop. Since you've gone to trouble to share her post, please allow me to provide more context dug up from ancient pickle burial grounds (as these accounts and posts have long since been wiped). Posts will be in a chronological order, and I'll add her comments to help illuminate missing details.

Under u/Ecstatic_Demand_3366 on 2025-12-21, in which she originally named the NP as one Simon Taylor who is the individual featured in @Pho Real's post:
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a warning about a Seattle area nurse who’s preventing trans PoCs from accessing hormones (Simon Taylor)​

Saw this person at their new clinic (Reclaiming Our Bodies) for some routine testing and a referral. They began shouting insults about my body during the first conversation about hormones while chuckling and smirking at me, mocked my voice, and began pushing me to taper off testosterone permanently. Despite the fact that I don’t have ovaries anymore, and it felt way too early to be considering that (I’m in my late 30s). No other doctor had ever told me that either, and Simon never gave me a medical reason for it either. I think they thought they could just tell me anything and I would believe it, given that they spoke to me the entire time like I was a small animal. I sincerely think this person didn’t see me as a human being at all. I never went back. (obviously) But they sent a bunch of expensive false claims to my insurance (who refused to pay, as the appt was just a simple follow-up on my test results) and when I demanded a breakdown of the charges from Simon, they went no-contact.

I also remembered that this wasn’t the first time I’d seen Simon. Years ago, I’d seen them for T & testing back at Capitol Hill Medical (an LGBTQIA clinic in Seattle) where they used to work, and they had done the same thing. Lowkey accusations that I was abusing T (despite me having years of normal test results) and, again, pushing me to slash my T dose. By half. No reason given. They were crowing that “it looks like we’ll have to cut it again!” It was weird. They like were happy about it or they had ‘caught’ me or something. They never even told me my exact test results. I had to call the clinic to get the exact results, and a member of clinic’s care team told me straight out that everything was fine.

When I couldn’t get any answers from them about the insurance claims, I showed up at the building their office was located in, sat somewhere on a different floor than the clinic, and left a voicemail for Simon telling them we needed to have a discussion finally when they could.

They called the authorities on me. No warning. Just cops rolling in. Simon was talking to them over the phone, it was (loudly) broadcast thru one of the cop’s radios. They were spilling details about me, personal & medical, trying to claim that I was “hormonally imbalanced” (something no other doctor has ever dx’d me with or since). The cops literally were telling them “you’re breaking hipaa, stop” and “this person isn’t being violent in any way” and I could hear them shouting “he has another side!” and it really seems they were trying to incite them to violence against me.

It really fucked with me. I’m a Black & Native trans guy and a two-spirit, and I can’t help but feel targeted. I’m leaving a warning here about Simon Taylor. They seem to almost fetishize taking away/imperiling a PoC’s source of hormones, it’s really weird. I’ve never been able to receive safe healthcare from them.

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This person was trying to sic the cops on me over some dodgy insurance claims. Tbh, I’m worried about more reprisal from Simon. And I don’t know how I’d prove anything now. After the incident with the cops, they dropped the insurance claims suddenly. I wasn’t recording either appt, so I’m not sure what leg I’d have to stand on.

This just kept eating me up, so I hoped posting this here would get it out of my system at least. And I wanted to give people who might receive the same treatment some kind of warning
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Tbh I didn’t intend to go further. The footage may exist, but names weren’t taken, as CARE officers were technically called but there weren’t any available so cops showed up instead. I checked with CARE, and they don’t take names. A part of me is kinda relieved by that tbh. I really don’t want to engage this person in any way, their actions have felt malicious and the clinic is in the same area that I live in. I’m honestly concerned about reprisal from this person, there’s been some evidence of that in the medical records at RoB: after I requested that my Elation account w/ the clinic be closed following their actions, I suddenly noticed that ‘hormonal imbalance’ was added to my medical history despite my normal test results

I’m not really sure I want to do something more. I still feel messed up saying this stuff about a LGBTQ clinic run by someone who’s trans, even someone who acts this way. I don’t think I want their license, I wish they could provide safe healthcare to those who come to them, particularly since they’re offering a service that’s really badly needed.

I’m not of one mind about the situation. I just wanted people to have a heads up. Maybe I’ll feel different later, but I wanted to say I’m thankful for the kind responses here. For a while, I almost felt like I had brought the whole situation on or deserved to be treated like that. Not talking about this had me almost rationalizing what happened so I could move past it. Thank you for listening

Under u/InstanceOdd5397 on 2025-12-24:
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a warning about a Seattle clinic preventing trans PoCs from safely accessing hormones (Reclaiming Our Bodies)​

You may have seen this post a couple days ago on r/tmpoc and r/ftm. I decided to consolidate the multiple threads into a single post. To do this I had to omit the name of the RN who runs this clinic (due to the rules of some subreddits) but this clinic only has a single practitioner.

Anyway, I went to Reclaiming Our Bodies (a new LGBTQIA clinic in Seattle) this past summer for routine testing and a referral. During the first conversation about hormones, they began shouting insults about my body at me and slapping their desk. They then began to pressure me to taper off testosterone early, something no other doctor has ever suggested to me at this point. (I’m in my late 30s for reference) Only this person. There was a lot of weirdly aggressive behavior, they would keep pushing boundaries and then pointedly looking at me, like they were looking for a reaction. And when I looked at them shocked at how they were acting, they just started angrily staring me down. They acted like testosterone was a lost cause for me, despite me being on it for a decade.

I never went back, obviously. But they sent a bunch of expensive false claims to my insurance, who refused to pay because my appointment had just been a follow-up on my results. When I demanded a breakdown of the charges, they went no-contact for a couple months. So I eventually went down to the building their clinic was in (building manager let me in), sat in an empty room on a different floor than the clinic and left a voicemail to Simon that we needed to have a discussion about the charges, and what happened.

They called the authorities on me. No warning they were coming, just cops rolling in. Over one of their radios, I heard the clinic on the phone (loudly) spilling my info, to the point that a cop actually pointed out that HIPAA existed, and asked them to stop. They didn’t. Cop literally had to cut the volume on the radio. The cops kept telling the clinic I wasn’t violent or aggressive, and I heard them say “he has another side!” and began claiming that I had a ‘hormonal imbalance’, something they never previously mentioned I had, and something that I’ve never been dx’d with by any other doc or since) I think they were trying to incite the police against me. After that, the police started bunching up blocking the door and I was so freaked out that I just begged to leave and apologized profusely. I just wanted the whole situation to disappear. Afterwards, Simon dropped the insurance claims. So I told myself to drop it all. I wanted to pretend the whole thing never happened and move on.

But this wasn’t the first time I’d seen this RN. I’d seen them at Capitol Hill Medical (another lgbtq clinic here) 6-7 years ago. Then, they also told me I’d be off testosterone early, no reason given. They also were pressuring me to cut my dose by half, acted like my levels were too high but never told me the exact level. I had years of normal test results, but they treated me like I was a known abuser of T. They said “and it looks like we’ll need to cut it again!” after telling me to cut my dose, like they were happy and had ‘caught’ me or something. I later called the clinic about my exact results and a member of their care team straight up told me things were normal and needed no adjustments. It had been so many years I hadn’t connected that this was the same person until they started acting a fool during my appt.

I had a lot of mixed feelings posting this about a clinic run by a member of the community that’s also serving the community, during a time when trans care is under threat. But this person seems malicious and to be targeting people, and they’re actively exploiting people. I noticed that when I told the clinic that I needed to close my Elation account because I wasn’t comfortable coming back, they ignored the request, and ‘hormonal imbalance’ suddenly popped up on the patient portal for me like over a month after my last appt/tests. My tests were (still) all normal. There’s something going on at this place. I’ve seen this RN a handful of times over the years, and I’ve never been able to receive safe healthcare from them.

That said, I don’t think I’ll be taking this further. I’m worried about reprisal just from posting this if it eventually gets back to this RN. I know that sounds paranoid, but this person tried to sic the cops on me because I asked about them defrauding my insurance (and me). Maybe it sounds cowardly, and maybe it is passing the buck, but I feel like posting this warning is the best route for me. Ultimately, I do want to put this in the rear view. I never want to think about that incident with the cops again.

if this RN is reading this then: Please don’t contact me, please don’t try to sabotage my healthcare any further, please respect the privacy of my personal & medical data. I do not know you, nor do I care to, and you are an utter stranger to me. The way you become emotionally invested in trying to dissuade me from taking T was inappropriate and deeply uncomfortable. The insults you made about my body to try and convince me to back down just made you sound like a gross chaser who was mad they didn’t get what they wanted. I didn’t transition for you. And you being trans too never means that I have to justify myself to you. My life is mine, as is my body. It’s funny how you pretend to champion that kind of thinking until someone who’s a PoC is sayin’ it. Deal with your racism, it’s only unfixable if you decide it is.

Under u/LuckDifferent5198 on 2026-01-28:
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An RN tried to pressure me to go off hormones for no reason, got belligerent when I asked about T, called cops on me​

Simon Taylor at Reclaiming Our Bodies openly mocked my appearance and voice while laughing at me, began badgering me to go off hormones without reason, and told me hormones wouldn’t have any effect on me. No other medical professional I’ve seen has ever told me something like this. They repeatedly made accusations that I was abusing hormones, and asked me leading questions trying to make me sound like I was.

When I told Simon their behavior made me feel unsafe in my appointment, they diagnosed me with a hormonal imbalance without any blood testing and the clinic went silent. I eventually went down to the clinic, spoke to Alan the building manager, and he allowed me to sit in an empty conference room on a different floor than the clinic. I left a voicemail asking the clinic to please discuss what was going on with me.

Simon called the police without any warning. I could hear them on the phone with the cops (the call was on speaker) and they were telling them my personal & medical info. The cops assessed me as not a danger and told them they were breaking HIPAA. I heard Simon say “he has another side!” They then told the cops I had a hormonal imbalance, and the cops seemed to believe them. They bunched up around the door blocking it and took on an aggressive posture like they were anticipating something. This was really terrifying to me, particularly as a Black & Native transmasc. I begged the cops to leave peacefully and just left. I think Simon was trying to incite the cops against me so they’d get rid of me.

It is really hard not to think about how they easily could’ve gotten me killed over nothing. I never reported them. It’s not easy to explain why. Trans care is under fire, and it feels horrible to speak out against a clinic that is offering something that’s direly needed in the community. But I’ve never been able to receive safe healthcare from Simon Taylor. Now or in the past. After what happened at Reclaiming Our Bodies, I recalled that I had seen Simon once before at Capitol Hill Medical some years back.

Back then, there was a lot of the same behavior, lowkey accusations that I was abusing testosterone, etc. But they were also pushing me to halve dosage, implying my levels were too high but refused to tell me the exact level. They were weirdly exuberant about it all, crowing “and it looks like we’ll need to cut it again!” while grinning at me. I had to call the clinic to get any info, and a member of their care team told me that my levels were fine and didn’t need adjusting.

I think Simon Taylor takes some pleasure in threatening a trans POC’s access to hormones, and is trying to drive people of color in our community off hormones and away from gender affirming care. I want to speak up so people have fair warning. I want to speak up because what happened was wrong, and when I stayed silent I just wound up blaming myself. I don’t want their license, I don’t want a witch hunt, I don’t want to tear down any good their clinic might be doing for others. But I’m deeply disturbed by the implications of what happened and don’t want them to target other people of color in our community.

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The last time I posted this I believed there was something underhanded about the insurance claims the clinic had made and was suspicious (imo justifiably) particularly when the clinic refused to send me a breakdown of the charges after the claims were refused by my insurance. While there were definitely strange things going on with the clinic’s billing (Simon would request more time for an appointment than go silent, or slooowly read things like my emergency contacts..?) I can’t say with any certainty that there was insurance fraud, and I regret making this accusation earlier. When I first posted about this, I was upset from holding this inside for months and I just wanted to let it all out. I haven’t felt like I could even talk about this with a therapist.

I also want to make it clear that I’m not demanding anyone believe me without proof, or to feel pressured to cancel an appointment with this clinic. Ultimately, I want people to have a heads up in case they wind up there. The relative scarcity of trans care means that you sometimes have few options depending on your insurance(or lack thereof)/location/etc. The last thing I want is for someone to delay their transition or feel like they ‘have’ to cancel an appointment for something important to them. But this did happen to me, and I don’t want it to happen to other people. I just want people to have fair warning so they’ll recognize the warning signs I overlooked. Realistically, I know I’m not the only person they’ve treated this way.

Thank you all for your kind words when I first posted this. I deleted it because I didn’t know how to deal with it all. It’s like I had emotions whiplash, I went from feeling like I had brought this on myself to actually growing a backbone and realizing just how fucked up the situation was.
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They’ve refused to send me a breakdown of the insurance claims, or a copy of my medical records. The only response I’ve received from them told me I’d have to make another appointment with them to discuss anything further.

Their behavior was really accusatory and weird, they said “you know, we [healthcare professionals I guess?] talk…” like I had a reputation or something? But I didn’t know wtf they were talking about. I have a lot of apprehension about seeing doctors after some bad experiences, so I rarely go to the doctor unless it’s a necessity like my hormones. Then they started asking me whether I ‘back stashes’ of medication. I think there’s something really scummy about this person, it just seems so obvious what they were doing.

They began the appointment telling me they’d be taking me off hormones in my 40s period. I’m not sure if that’s standard, but I thought it was really weird they were bringing that up before even talking about like my current test results. Then they offered to talk about a dose increase all of sudden??? I initially said no (they said it very strangely, like they were saying something tempting to me?) but agreed to discuss since they brought it up.

They asked me “what do you think it’ll even do?” Each time they pushed boundaries, they’d do this weird pause and stare at my face hard with this gross smirk, like they were looking for a reaction. I mentioned having ADHD on my paperwork, I think they thought I wouldn’t be able to pick up on how they were treating me? But I don’t really react to people trying to escalate shit, so I think Simon thought they were getting away with this.

Anyway, I told them that I just wanted more virilization. Apparently I was incorrect about something I’d said, because Simon just pounced and said “I don’t think it’ll help with ANY of that” and started listing off the things I’d gotten wrong, but it started going past that quickly. It turned into this weird read of my body and they made it sound like I shouldn’t even be taking T at all. They were slapping their desk and shouting, and they ended the rant with telling me not to expect anything from T at all. They were still chuckling and smirking.

I couldn’t ignore how fucking disturbing this was. From the way the clinic described itself (socially aware, body positive, and it legit tagged itself w/ racial equity in some listings) I really didn’t expect this to happen. I didn’t want it to be happening. I know this sounds weak, but I started to dissociate. I had come to their clinic because they had advertised trauma informed care. I was attacked years back, and since then someone screaming in my face just locks me up. I had shared this (at Simon’s behest) during the intake. It was so weird that they asked me about that in retrospect, but I initially thought the clinic was just trying to accommodate people with major triggers.

I just prioritized getting through the appointment. I don’t have ovaries anymore, so hormones are a necessity for me. I just wanted to get through it, so I said “yyyeeeeaaahh. okay” and when I did they VERY blatantly started laughing at me. I just started saying “whatever you’re comfortable with” again and again.

They kept pressuring me to come back to them, instead of the endocrinologist I’d gone to RoB to get a referral too. I think they thought they could do anything to me. I am fucking worried they may have driven others in the community off hormones w/o reason. I’m legit worried about someone vulnerable being targeted by this person. I need to put this behind me (it happened mid last year) but the more I talk about this the more disturbing it is
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They absolutely are, at least for some people. They very clearly were enjoying making me feel uncomfortable, acted like my body was inferior or ‘unworthy’ of T, were laughing and mocking me. It’s wild in retrospect. I don’t know what exactly this person targeted me over, but they were deadset on convincing me that T wasn’t for me
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I read, and believe me I’ve been sus of that too, especially after you and others have pointed this out. I was p. depressed when this happened so I immediately just felt it was a judgement of me, like I wasn’t “trans enough” or something (despite the years I’ve already spent on T, changing my documentation, presenting as a guy…)

Tbh it’s been ping-ponging in my head since the first time I posted this back in December and someone called them crypto-terfy. It was a big reason I wound up reposting this. I know these aren’t any kind of bonafides, but I did a project in college about ex-gay movements and there were some similar tactics (the NP initiated a conversation about T and a possible increase literally saying “there’s room for an increase”, then acted like I was crazy for even having a conversation about it and I was totally unsuited for it, like they didn’t bring it up in the first place)

The weirdest thing is that it was just a point-one increase, and it was a dose I’d been on prior and tested at normal levels at. It was really weird
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I’ve never been able to get any kind of answer from them about what was going on. At one they even seemed to realize maybe they’d gone too far, cuz they started apologizing when I asked them outright if they were telling me to go off T. Because they told me at the start of the appointment they were going to take me off T permanently at 45 (is that normal? They never gave a medical reason for me to stop) and then said (I’m in my 30s) “but we can start that early.” No doctor has ever told to go off T, let alone early. And when I told them I was going keep continuing w/ T they got really emotionally stricken, and then made another comment implying I was abusing it.

I dunno. A part of me thinks white supremacy has inundated so much of society rn and this stuff is kind’ve a manifestation of it. What was really gross is that the whole thing felt so much like racist objectification at its worst. This person couldn’t keep themselves from making comments about my body to make it sound like I was idk just too busted for T to be worthwhile? Like if they couldn’t fetishize my body, then I obviously couldn’t be trans?? Despite me being on hormones always, having had surgery, changing my ID, etc…

Nope, white trans doc just decides your life is a fraud and you need to ‘corrected.’ I know there’s bigger stuff going on in the world, but it just felt way too gross to me
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I just received a letter from this NP that’s threatening legal reprisal (albeit in a mild way). Is there anyway that an anonymous report could be used against me? This NP seems kinda manipulative, they were telling me they were starting to fear for themselves (because I asked about records a month ago in a civil voicemail?)

I dunno. They tried to explain by saying they’d never called the cops or spoken to them, but I literally saw otherwise that day. The cops had them on the phone (on speaker, loud af, definitely their voice) to tell them I wasn’t angry or a danger, I saw the cops having to warn them that whey were breaking HIPAA, I can still remember them trying to goad the cops against me (“he has another side!”)

I know they’re just trying to gaslight me, but it confirms so much to me. This was deliberate I think. But they’ve successfully scared me off. I’m not deleting anything I’ve written here though, I stand by all of it.

Under u/Nervous_Read_8659 on 2026-03-30:
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There’s a clinic in Seattle that’s targeting trans PoC​

When I went to Reclaiming Our Bodies, an LGBTQIA clinic in Seattle, Simon Taylor (the NP that practices there and runs the place) kept making comments and asking leading questions implying that I was abusing testosterone and my other medications. Openly asking me if I had “back stashes” of past prescriptions.

Simon encouraged me to go off testosterone before even telling me where my levels were at. They said, “hormones stop period at 45, but we can start sooner.” I’m in my 30s, and no other doctor I’ve seen has ever tried to convince me to go off early. They asked me, “what do you think testosterone will even do?” and then twisted my reasons for asking for T, trying to make me sound like I wasn’t trans or something. That’s the impression I got. Simon then went off on a shouting rant telling me not to expect anything from testosterone and making it sound like it was useless for me. Like my body was just too inferior or busted for T. I literally had to ask them, “are you saying it does nothing for me? There’s no point to me doing any of this?” It was bizarre. And when I looked visibly shocked, they just stared me down and laughed, saying “YEAH.” This was funny to them.

Trying to contact the clinic about this incident has resulted in them shifting blame to me immediately. “Hormonal imbalance” was added to my chart on Elation without any blood test or results. Simon themselves had told me my levels were fine during my final appointment. Even going to the clinic peacefully resulted in Simon calling the authorities without warning and trying to goad them against me when the cops told them I wasn’t angry or a threat. I heard Simon talking to the police and telling them the lie that I had a hormonal imbalance. I heard the police warning Simon they were breaking HIPAA. But they were still listening to them over me, and the cops began to bunch up around the door, blocking it. This was terrifying to me, I’m a Black/Native trans guy and I was starting to panic when the cops got involved. I begged to leave, and just left.

What really disturbs me is that this isn’t the first time this has happened with Simon. I realized I’d seen them once before at Capitol Hill Medical too some years back (and I confirmed it was the same person). Simon tried to encourage me off hormones there too. I distinctly remember them telling me they could start tapering me off hormones in my 30s, stopping them completely in my 40s. No, I didn’t bring it up in any way. Simon was also trying to push me to halve my dosage of T, and I remember them walking out of the appointment smiling and crowing, “and it looks like we’ll have to cut it again after that!” They literally didn’t even tell me where my levels were at during the appointment (they were speaking to a student and ignored me almost completely) and I had the clinic afterwards. They told me my levels were fine and didn’t need adjusting. I think Simon is fixated on taking or threatening someone’s access to hormones. Both at CHM and RoB, they would say this stuff with the weirdest smile on their face. I dunno. I got some TERF vibes from them tbh, after they tried to talk me into going off T twice. But I definitely think this is racially motivated.

I posted about this back in Feb on r/ftm, which got me a letter from Simon laying out how they’d frame my request for my medical records back in January as harassment and possibly legally escalate things. I don’t know if they truly could’ve done that, but it scared me enough to take everything down. After that I got a revised version of the letter telling me that they didn’t wish to escalate things further. I’ve never gotten any explanation about what happened.

I’m not comfortable disappearing everything. I do think people in our community need some warning about this person. You don’t have to believe me without evidence, but if you find yourself receiving healthcare from this person, these were the warning signs I saw.

Simon positioned themselves like they were my healthcare provider and then encouraged me to go off T, and seemed to enjoy threatening my access to it. They immediately assumed I couldn’t be trusted with hormones. I truly think they’re racist and are targeting us in the community. Yes, this is surreal and extremely disappointing to me too, and I never wanted to be writing this about someone providing a much needed service in our community. But what happened to me happened and it was creepy as fuck. I don’t want it to happen to anyone else.

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Hi again I’m hoping this doesn’t become a legal matter. Tbh I’m thinking of deleting this post and recreating it with “I think” in the title cuz I’m worried this person might escalate against me. I went to the No Kings march in Seattle a couple days ago and it just underlined to me that I don’t have any ire against this practitioner or clinic over what happened over half a year ago (and I never did, I felt so bad about myself at first I even blamed myself for it happening), I don’t want to “punish” someone in the community when it feels like the world’s on fire and the worst people on Earth are getting off scot-free. It’s just that what happened there scared me and it was just expected that I was supposed to put up with it. I don’t, and what happened wasn’t okay, and I have a right to speak out and warn others.

Under u/Optimal-Maize1772 on 2026-04-14:
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I’ve had two really bizarrely awful experiences with white trans docs (as a trans PoC) and it’s scaring me. One accused me of being a fraud, the other tried to pressure me off hormones and called the cops on me when I came to the clinic.​

This a vent post, not a callout.

In ‘22 I saw Dr. Madeline Deutsch at UCSF’s trans clinic. She spent the appointment accusing me of lying about being trans and accusing me of lying about the trans surgeries I had. She was full-on shouting, “SO YOU HAVEN’T EVEN HAD TOP SURGERY YET?!?!” I *had*, several years back. I only found out later that my medical records hadn’t fully transferred over. I wish she had asked me about that instead of immediately leaping to screaming that I was a fraud. She visibly face palmed when I told her I was a Two-Spirit (I live as and present as masc tho and pass as a man, and now refer to myself as trans guy primarily). Deutsch then acted like she was getting my medical/transition history, but kept pulling faces and sneering at me. She’d cut me off after a single word and twist what I said to make me sound like I wasn’t trans. When the appointment was over, Deutsch looked me up and down and looked straight at my abdomen and mocked my weight. There was no medical context to it, it wasn’t a discussion about my health or weight management, it was just a parting jab and she started laughing at me. She just kept telling me that I didn’t belong there, never giving me a reason why.

I had waited over 8 months for that appointment. I was (and still am) pursuing bottom surgery. I lived so close to Kaiser’s surgery center in Oakland. I thought it was really going to happen. I was really crushed, and was already depressed and feeling isolated after relocating during the pandemic. I tried to take my life, then moved away from CA. It really ate at me that I just sat there and took it. I didn’t know how to respond to her accusations and I felt like a deer in the headlights. I was attacked in ‘18 while working a solo night shift at a small hotel by someone who kept shouting slurs at me. Since then, I’ve really struggled with people shouting at me. It’s like I lock up, and my mind just wants to leave my body. I wish I would’ve defended myself better, or at *all*. I never deserved to be treated that way, but in the moment I remember feeling like I brought it all on myself.

In ‘25, I saw an NP named Simon Taylor at an LGBTQIA clinic in Seattle called Reclaiming Our Bodies. Simon almost immediately began asking me leading questions implying that I was abusing hormones and my other medication, asking me if I had “back stashes” of my testosterone and Ritalin. Simon encouraged me to go off testosterone before even telling me where my levels were at, and kept trying to convince me that I needed to come off T asap. Simon never gave me a reason why though. They literally told me: “Hormones stop period at 45, but we can start sooner than that.” I’m in my 30s, and no other doctor has told me to go them yet. When I didn’t agree, Simon became increasingly angry, and went on a belligerent rant telling me that testosterone would do nothing for me, going over my body and appearance like I was idk too busted for T to be of any use? They ended by shouting at me that I shouldn’t expect anything from testosterone, while smirking and chuckling at me. I literally had to ask them if they thought it was pointless for me to take testosterone at all. That felt wild to ask at a queer clinic run by a member of the community.

I realized after that appointment that I had seen Simon once before at Capitol Hill Medical some years back. It was absolutely them, they had the same weird fixation on stopping hormones and told me they could start tapering me off hormones permanently in just a few years. I had only been on T a few years then and had just had a total hysto. Simon pressured me to halve my dosage, crowing “and it looks like we’ll have to cut it again after that!” They were so weirdly exuberant and smug about it.

I told Reclaiming Our Bodies that Simon’s behavior made me uncomfortable, and “hormonal imbalance” was added to my medical chart with no blood test. The clinic went silent, no answers. There were some issues with the billing, and I thought something dodgy was going on and asked for a breakdown of the bill. Again, silence. I eventually went down to the building that housed the clinic (along with some other LGBTQIA orgs/businesses) and the building manager Alan allowed me to sit in an empty conference room on a different floor than the clinic. There I left a (civil) voicemail for the clinic asking to talk about what was going on.

Simon called the police on me. Alan confirmed this, as I had asked him who had afterwards. There was no warning, just cops rolling in. They said they were technically there as CARE officers, as none were available. The cops asked me why I was there, and I told them why. Simon was on the phone with cops (the call was on speaker, I could hear it was them) and Simon was spilling my personal and medical info to the cops. The cops warned Simon repeatedly that they were breaking HIPAA. The cops also told them I wasn’t angry or a threat, and I heard Simon say “he has another side!” Simon then began repeating the lie that I had a hormonal imbalance. The cops kept warning Simon, but they also seemed to be listening to them.

The police bunched up around the door, took on this aggro posture like they were preparing for something. I felt like I was having a panic attack. I’m Black & Native, and this was legit terrifying. I think Simon was trying to incite the cops against me. I just wanted an explanation, to see a copy of my medical records. Before Simon had gotten nasty, I had asked them for help with a referral to a trans-friendly endocrinologist. Maybe it was irrational, but I was so worried Simon had done something dodgy to the referral, like claim that I was delusional and not really trans. It’s only clear to me now that I was scared that I would into another appointment and have someone accuse me of being a fraud (again).

The cops let me leave. They told me it wasn’t a trespassing, I assume because they were there as CARE. I just left.

I’ve posted about these experiences before on different subreddits, usually deleting the posts within 24hrs. The one time I left a post about this up for nearly two weeks (about what happened with Reclaiming Our Bodies) the clinic got review-bombed, and I got a letter from Simon blaming me and telling me my request for my medical records was harassment. The letter felt like a thinly veiled threat that Simon would legally escalate things. I took everything down. I had mixed feelings about what happened anyway. I really resent that Simon tried to paint me as monster or a threat to them when I didn’t even feel comfortable reporting them. I just wanted answers.

It was hard not to blame myself again after what happened. I never reported either of them. I legit just blamed myself for existing. I never want this stuff to happen. And I don’t want to direct hate towards those in our community, particularly at this time. I just want to move forward with bottom surgery so badly it feels like it’s killing me. I know the reason this stuff is lingering on my mind so much is because these experiences have made me so fearful of being mistreated in the process. I’ve gone through trans surgeries before, I’ve had rough experiences with cis doctors. But seeing people in my own community come after me that way just because I came to them for healthcare was painful.

I’m not asking anyone to believe me. We all know that ICE has infiltrated social media. I’m absolutely not wanting for anyone to reach out to these doctors. And I don’t want anyone review bombed again. I don’t want to normalize the targeting or mistreating of others in our community. When I previously posted about what happened at Reclaiming Our Bodies, I didn’t mention what had happened in CA. Because it’s also why I never reported either of them. I’m worried about the scrutiny being turned on me. I’m worried about being declared a fraud by some doctor and being blocked from surgery. Maybe that’s a wild fear to have, but after what’s gone down, I know that all I want is safe access to surgery and to be treated like a human being during the process. I don’t care about the past as long as I can move forward to a future that I deeply want, and honestly need.

I regret writing a callout post about Reclaiming Our Bodies back in February, cuz this feels so much bigger than just a handle of incidents with jerk doctors. This feels like the active erasure of our (trans PoC) identities, communities, history, and most of all lives. I think both of these doctors wanted me to end myself and thought we all would be better if I was dead or nonexistent. If another trans PoC is reading this, please never doubt that there is an active effort in our culture to alienate you from who you are and what you want, and what you need. I don’t know the best response to this, but I think a good part of it is just staying focused on validating who you are and what you need from life and transition. And most importantly, find people who’ll support you in that. Particularly if you feel disconnected from your community. I know it sounds cheesy and a lil trite, but one thing I really regret is allowing others to make me feel like my own needs were lesser, or suspect, or that I needed to be thankful for being offered (but not even given) the bare minimum. Both of this doctor and this NP are in the community. And both of them felt entitled to take my money and demand the most private details about my body, posed as though they were my healthcare provider, then mistreated me and tried to work against me and my transition. That hurt, and I’m allowed to say it did. I shouldn’t have to worry about people in my own community trying to escalate because I spoke out.

The implications of what happened are also really scaring me. Simon said some strange things like “those of us in queer healthcare talk, you know”, like I had a “reputation” or something. It didn’t add up, as I’ve been avoiding doctors as much as I possibly can these days. I only have stable healthcare now because of telemedicine. It was so weird. It’s so obvious I was being targeted from the beginning.

It’s just racism. It’s just racism all the way down. I don’t see what they saw. I see a mixed guy-shaped person with a full beard and a deep voice wearing men’s clothes, using masculine pronouns, with short hair, etc. It really gets to me how Simon apparently decided that me being a Two-Spirit was just a bridge too far. With Deutsch I got that she transitioned in a different era, but I didn’t expect that telling Simon, a yt nb, that I was a 2S would results in a target on my back. It’s just racism. Since then, I’ve been so careful to phrase my gender specifically as man/male to any doctor I see. Until I have bottom surgery, it just feels too risky.

It’s all so fucking frustrating.

Spoiler: Comments.

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This NP made it very clear in the letter they were going to paint me as a harasser if I persisted. They only walked back the threat after I took my post down. (I received a revised version of the letter in late march stating “they didn’t want to escalate”) In the original letter I got they were claiming to be “fearing for their life” because I had left a bad review and posted something here and on TMPOC…

TBH, I’m getting very manipulative vibes from this person. Maybe I shouldn’t say this, but I’m concerned this person may have some TERF stuff going on. Maybe it’s just racism, but this person mocked me wanting to look more masculine and virilize my body.

I remember the crazy legal battles/threats that one TERF lawyer put trans orgs/people thru, and I’m worried about being in this person’s crosshairs. There’s so much good advice I received from the prior threads that I didn’t follow up on cuz this person seems to be crossing major boundaries (they even contacted people listed in my emergency contacts about me).

This is all scary, and I just really want to move on. I just don’t want anyone else to go thru this.

Honestly, OP sounds like a complete yahoo to me, but if you court attention from these psychopaths you can't be shocked when they wind up getting dangerous fixations on you, so I can't feel bad for any of the staff involved.

 

[Sean Andalou]

... judging by the provider in question’s

Picture of a white person, presumably a racist? Because white, you know.

Honestly, OP sounds like a complete yahoo to me, but if you court attention from these psychopaths you can't be shocked when they wind up getting dangerous fixations on you, so I can't feel bad for any of the staff involved.

Lots of information to flesh out the whole sad story.
But no selfie. I want to see her selfie, dammit!

 

[Lord Of Shit]

Gonna press doubt on the whole story, or at least the ‘attack’ version. Pooner-on-pooner violence through maybe legit medical advice. Or both parties are equally insane, judging by the provider in question’s welcome page (archive).
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Hey, quit posting lazy AI-slop; that person cannot possibly exist as such a stereoty... oh, who am I kidding, Imma go get drunk and weep softly for a while.

 

[Billy Hargrove]

Honestly, OP sounds like a complete yahoo to me, but if you court attention from these psychopaths you can't be shocked when they wind up getting dangerous fixations on you, so I can't feel bad for any of the staff involved.

Ran all this through AI to try to figure out what happened, dunno if I buy the cop hipaa stuff or the “past trauma from medical appointment” but overall seems alright

Spoiler

Stripping away the emotion and looking strictly at the mechanics of the medical system, the police protocols, and the psychology of severe PTSD, here is the objective, step-by-step breakdown of what actually happened.

### Phase 1: The Paperwork Failure (The 2022 UCSF Trigger)

The entire saga was set in motion by a routine administrative error.

The poster's medical records from their previous surgeries failed to transfer to UCSF. Dr. Deutsch walked into the room looking at a chart that showed no history of top surgery, while the poster was there to request a referral for bottom surgery. When the doctor pointed out the discrepancy—likely with a blunt, rushed, or frustrated academic bedside manner—the poster’s 2018 assault trauma triggered a complete psychological freeze.

The poster interpreted standard clinical confusion as a screaming accusation of fraud. Because this appointment derailed their surgery timeline, it caused a severe mental health crisis, leading to a suicide attempt and a sudden flight to Seattle.

### Phase 2: The Red Flags on the Medical Chart (The 2025 Seattle Appointment)

When the poster established care at *Reclaiming Our Bodies* in Seattle, the Nurse Practitioner (NP) pulled up their electronic chart. Because modern medical systems use linked software (like Epic's Care Everywhere), the NP could likely see the clinical notes from UCSF, which almost certainly documented the poster's previous psychiatric crisis, conflict with staff, and erratic care history. This is what the NP meant by "those of us in queer healthcare talk."

Furthermore, the NP saw a patient in their 30s who had undergone a total hysterectomy years ago, was taking a high dose of testosterone, and was *also* prescribed Ritalin (a controlled stimulant).

Legally and medically, the NP had to address major red flags:

* **The Stimulant/T Mixture:** Mixing high-dose androgen therapy with amphetamines carries massive cardiovascular and psychiatric risks (including paranoia and severe anxiety).
* **The Age 45 Factor:** The NP tried to explain standard endocrine guidelines—that after a hysterectomy, a biological female's body naturally stops producing certain hormones around age 45, and maintaining maximum teenage/twenties levels of testosterone indefinitely into middle age spikes liver and heart risks.

The NP attempted a standard medical intervention: a temporary taper of the testosterone dose to establish a safer baseline, combined with a strict screening for medication hoarding ("back stashes").

Because the poster is fiercely protective of their hormone access and carries unhealed trauma from the UCSF incident, they viewed this standard medical gatekeeping as a racial and personal attack. They became hostile or completely shut down, prompting the NP to log the diagnostic code "hormonal imbalance" to document the clinical presentation and justify the altered treatment plan.

### Phase 3: The Trespassing Incident and the Police Call

Convinced the clinic was defrauding them over insurance and targeting their identity, the poster didn't just "leave a civil voicemail." They physically escalated the situation.

They drove down to the clinic's private medical building, bypassed security or used a pretext to get the building manager to let them into a closed room, and sat there on a different floor, refusing to leave until they got "answers."

To a small medical practice consisting of a single practitioner, a highly agitated patient staking out the building and leaving intense voicemails is an active security threat. The NP did what any business owner would do: they called 911 to report a disgruntled, trespassing patient loitering on the premises.

### Phase 4: The Tactical Escalation

When the Seattle police arrived, they brought a CARE team officer (a behavioral health specialist used for mental health crises).

The officers located the poster in the empty room and put the clinic on speakerphone to resolve the situation. The NP, terrified for their safety, tried to explain to the officers *why* they called—explaining the patient's medical history and unstable behavior ("he has another side!").

Because the NP was blurting out medical details to secular police officers, the cops strictly told the NP to stop talking ("you're breaking HIPAA") and focused on de-escalating the physical room. As the poster began having a massive panic attack, their physical behavior changed—pacing, hyperventilating, or shaking. In response, the police officers instinctively shifted into a tactical posture, bunching up near the exit to ensure the poster didn't lunge or become violent.

The police ultimately realized the poster was having a psychiatric break rather than committing a violent crime, so they let them leave without arresting them for trespassing.

### Phase 5: The Legal Shut-Down

The poster went home and began review-bombing the clinic and posting call-outs on Reddit.

Because the poster had already crossed a line by staking out the building, the clinic’s malpractice insurance or legal counsel stepped in immediately. They sent a formal Cease-and-Desist letter, stating clearly that the clinic had recorded evidence of harassment, security logs of the building invasion, and a police report, warning the poster that further online defamation would result in civil or criminal charges.

Terrified by actual legal consequences, the poster took the reviews down, but their mind could not accept that *they* were the ones who had escalated the situation into a police matter.

### The Bottom Line

To avoid the painful reality that their own unaddressed trauma caused them to act erratically, stake out a building, and get the cops called on them, the poster's brain rewrote the facts five different times. They transformed a routine medical disagreement about drug dosages and a standard business security response into a grand, multi-state conspiracy of racist, white doctors actively trying to drive them to suicide.

Summary:

A patient threw up major red flags regarding controlled medications, threw a hostile tantrum when the provider tried to lower their dose for safety, escalated the conflict by tracking the provider down at their clinic building, panicked when the police were called on them for trespassing, and then tried to ruin the provider's business online until a lawyer threatened them with a lawsuit.

 

[Synovial Relic]

which makes his suffering as a former /pol/tard ogre with a useless college education all the more amusing.

I'd say jesus christ but none of this incel shit is in the bible