Don't have anywhere to grieve... So I'll do it here.
I started watching Josh 10~ years ago. I was wasted, high, and crawling around in my own depression. Then I found him. It was an out of focus video/shot of his old white apartment wall/window at night and he was off camera conjuring a thunderstorm. It was ridiculous and unintentionally hilarious. And I was hooked. Something about his attitude. He simply refused to live life any other way than his own and he would not apologize for it. Cobes was living in a world of shit just like me, but he always seemed to be optimistic. Always willing to press on. And If the Boglim could overcome his problems, so could I. Every day I would check for new videos from him, or new compilations from "the trolls". There was a time when Josh tried making his own pizzas, he would take a tube of prepackaged dough, and instead of rolling it out he would smash it into a ball and try to flatten it, unaware you could unroll it out of the can, I spent weeks trying to get his attention on his streams and he eventually responded to me and actually corrected his mistake, and one of the last videos he made with that canned dough, he unrolled it just like I had asked him to try. I bought one of his original wands, before the shotgun casings, before the wooden lathe. It is one of my favorite most retarded memorabilia that I own now.
I won't pretend I had anything more than a parasocial relationship with him, but Josh was my friend. Over the years I got better, but Josh slowly got worse. I day dreamed about going to Casper and finding him. Trying to help him overcome his own demons just like he had inadvertantly helped me with mine. But we all know the true nature of the Boglim. I will never forget him. I don't want to forget. I hope there will be a KingCobraJFS Fest and we can all get together and play his classic videos and make drink combos and scream at the sky together.
I wish you would have said goodbye, but I'm glad you stayed as long as you could. I love you. FUCK SICKOS FUCK THE TROLLS LONG LIVE OZZY FUCKERS YEEAAAAAAAAAA