🪦 Deceased Joe Winko - THE GAYMASTER/Lol-Bvll / Self admitted Gay Hawaiian Ricardo Milos Cosplayer/Uploaded his consciousness to the Sims/Ed Wood of Machinima

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My unprofessional opinion is that this autistic fellow was incurably terminally online and had end stage attention seeking with some major clout chasing. Such ailments usually result in a lolcow turning their own suicide into a spectacle, and in some cases, committing mass shootings, such as the Minnesota troon church shooting.

Kill the servers, save the young!
This seems naïve somehow. Some people are just so consistently obsessed with death for so long that there's no "helping" or "saving" them. It's not even that they want to die or that they're in pain but that the idea of controlling how and why they'll die is the only thing they live for at that point. It goes beyond just being a "mental illness" or something that can be addressed in any real way and turns into a core facet of their personality once that tipping point is reached.
 
He’s throwing up blood on himself and convulsing in what appears to be pain for around 15 minutes, he tries to get up multiple times and is too weak. This is easily one of the worst death videos I’ve seen, I’d prefer seeing someone shoot themselves.
There is no easy way out. It's sad that this stuff whatever it is, is considered the easy option for people. As far as shooting yourself goes, you make a mess of your face even though it's most likely instant, which it often really isn't. I watched a whole documentary on this product and the guy selling it on the suicide forum he's running. Chances are Joe Winko was groomed the exact same way hundreds of men and women were on this forum. Never knew this guy, but he seems in some form of deep pain. I don't believe in heaven, but I hope he's at peace.

Also, what's the correlation with like Nintendo black guys and suicide?
 
There is no easy way out. It's sad that this stuff whatever it is, is considered the easy option for people. As far as shooting yourself goes, you make a mess of your face even though it's most likely instant, which it often really isn't. I watched a whole documentary on this product and the guy selling it on the suicide forum he's running. Chances are Joe Winko was groomed the exact same way hundreds of men and women were on this forum. Never knew this guy, but he seems in some form of deep pain. I don't believe in heaven, but I hope he's at peace.

Also, what's the correlation with like Nintendo black guys and suicide?
There definitely are medications that are actually an easy way out. They just aren't available for sale.

I mean wouldn't an overdose of heroin or several other kinds of medication effectively be totally painless?

I know there's some medications that manufacturers stopped making/selling because prisons in the US were buying them and they didn't want to be associated with execution.

But let's at least not pretend there is "no" easy way out. There were barbiturate medications from the 60s and 70s that stopped getting made and sold because people painlessly died from them too much.
 
I mean wouldn't an overdose of heroin or several other kinds of medication effectively be totally painless?
Maybe, but if anyone were to try it, they would just love the drug more than wanting to die anymore. It's notorious for making you not care about anything. When the pain is all gone, you have no reason to kill yourself. It's also not easy to get heroin like you might think. That's why all these people, Joe included buy this poison instead. It's promoted to them when they join suicide forums.
 
Maybe, but if anyone were to try it, they would just love the drug more than wanting to die anymore. It's notorious for making you not care about anything. When the pain is all gone, you have no reason to kill yourself. It's also not easy to get heroin like you might think. That's why all these people, Joe included buy this poison instead. It's promoted to them when they join suicide forums.
Well that part is true that people buy this shitty medication because they can't find other shit that does the same thing but better.
But it's 100% wrong to say there is no painless/easy way out. There's hundreds of medications that can do it but most are illegal to manufacture anymore.

There are even meds that can do it a lot less painfully than that shitty med that they all use.
 
Apparently he uses insulin for his diabetes and he did not care at all that he would die without it

All and all some weird ass story going on
It's all really interesting. But then it's all par for the course for people that have mental illness and unregulated diabetes. The comorbidity is probably astronomical with that combo, And then the fact that he says that he had to get some alcohol to get his courage up to go through with it... I really don't blame this guy for being as depressed as he apparently was but it's all such a waste.

The entire situation just reeks of the Charles Freck suicide attempt from a scanner darkly. When your mind is just shot, be it from illness, addiction, et cetera, you get guys like this. They mentally are dead so they want to die; then they research the best way to kill their completely healthy body. The slow burn for these kinds of guys usually involves just booze and generally not taking care of themselves. Lol F Cobes.

You can just only hope that sometime in the future we can maybe figure out ripping these useless assholes mentally out of their perfectly good bodies so we can put some poor fucker that didn't deserve to be physically disabled back in there.

 
I am a bit confused. Joe was 29 and was a T1 diabetic. How was he able to afford his medications?
Late reply but you can get insulin from any Walmart pharmacy in Florida for about $25 a vial, and the syringes are maybe $20 for a box of 100. No perscription necessary, and this is the cost without insurance.
Type 1s need both a long term and a fast acting insulin so that would be 2 vials, and syringes can be reused if youre limited on options. If you limit your carb intake and reuse syringes you can make this $70 of supply last maybe 2 months.
For test strips if he was too broke he mightve skipped them and just tried to feel it out. A more affordable one I know of was $25 for 100 count of strips which would last maybe a month if you limit testing frequency. Lancets can be reused and are maybe $10 for 100 of them.
Im sure there are programs where you can apply for free strips or meters but thats all beyond my knowledge.
He probably felt like shit a lot if he had poorly managed type 1. It hurts your body but it also messes with your mind.
 
The Florida gay community should be absolutely relieved that Joe Winko is dead. Imagine a parallel universe where Jeffery Dahmer got the impulse to kill himself before he went on to kill anyone else. Florida gays just got this lucky break because Joe Winko had all the ingredients to become a serial killer; the extreme narcissism, the rage towards gay men who saw he was damaged goods and rightfully rejected him, the obsession with death and the occult.

If he didn't have the suicidal impulse, eventually there would be a collection of severed heads of elderly gay men in his refrigerator to give him the hours of endless blowjobs he always wanted and he will imagine their ghosts as the obsessive never leaving adoring fan he always wanted. Dahmer had the exact same issues with abandonment, but wanted a brain dead sex zombie instead.

I never saw any redeeming qualities in this sick freak. He was not a harmless schizophrenic. He had constant fantasies of using his occult powers via magick spells to enact mass death and revenge on his perceived enemies. His narcissism would preclude him for getting any treatment. He told his critics on this thread to kill themselves with sodium nitrite. He could have just as easily spiked the drink of one of his gay sugar daddies with it the moment he thought they were going to give him the boot.

If the farms somehow goaded him into killing himself online, to use his own words SO MOTE IT BE. He was eventually going to kill somebody, good thing it was himself and not anyone else.
I had similar thoughts, albeit not as harsh. I stumbled upon Joe via the feature so I really have no genuine idea about what kind of person he was, so it's not for me to say confidently, however I really believe the possibility for him to cause harm to a hookup was there. At the very least, the relationship he wished for would have most likely crumbled under the weight of his co-dependency and mental illness which may have possibly shattered him more, or shattered the person who got close to him when he finally did kill himself.

That said, I don't believe for a moment he would have been a serial killer, but I can imagine him committing a homicide, whether it be in an arguably psychotic state or just for the thrill of it. I think it's reasonable to balance between compassionate empathy and cautionary realism when examining the kind of person Joe was and accepting "que sera, sera."

C'est la vie.
 
Feel like a bit of a pedant here, but there's sodium nitrate, and then there's sodium nitrite. Two very different substances. When third parties have discussed his methods, they have almost exclusively said "Sodium nitrate" which isn't the chemical he used.

Anyway, rest well Joe, one of the worst things is a bad start in very early life, and it looks like he had a pretty terrible time there as a kid.
 
Feel like a bit of a pedant here, but there's sodium nitrate, and then there's sodium nitrite. Two very different substances. When third parties have discussed his methods, they have almost exclusively said "Sodium nitrate" which isn't the chemical he used.

Anyway, rest well Joe, one of the worst things is a bad start in very early life, and it looks like he had a pretty terrible time there as a kid.
It's actually pronounce.
"sow-dee-um Neigh-Tur-rah-teh"
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I clearly don't know how being touched by the 'tism truly feels.
Trying to justify how abusive your adoptive parents are because.... They would only go to cracker barrel on a road trip is insane.

I didn't get "road trips" let alone one's filled with sit-down dining. Makes me respect the sauce-sandwich gobbling cows that much more.
obviously there's ton of mental illness to unpack here but even the rage from the adoptive parent "not teaching me things" is sad. He himself needs to learn but can't see and/or empathize his adoptive parents did too.
 
Not to get too involved in this type of conversation but he may have had very valid reasons for not wanting to use a gun ranging from just not liking it to not wanting to give anyone who found his body PTSD for the next 20 years. I have heard that the scene after a gunshot suicide is absolutely terrible for parents/family, medics and police to deal with.

Given how forward thinking his whole thing was I cannot imagine there wasn't a reason why he didn't use a gun and used the method(s) that he used. Considering he had tried various times before and whatever method he used actually worked I would say he did his reading on all of this.
I've come across two people I've known that have used firearms to kill themselves. I've also been on scene for many deceased people, overdoses to stabbings and gunshots.

For the responder or first person there a gsw suicide is absolutely horrible, in a vehicle moreso, it's very hard to get in the vehicle and try any sort of response without getting wet. I would say an overdose is far more tolerable but I've also dealt with so many of those my opinion might be skewed.

People on YouTube keep posting that you can't schedule posts only videos but I'm pretty damn sure he's dead.
 
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The "curing salt" method is somewhat popular because it's harder to get anything better in terms of accessibility, the general public have no chance in hell in obtaining what they use in Switzerland at their clinics for example. But from what I have read (out of curiosity, not of need), you need to take benzos and an antiemetic or it isn't so "peaceful".

The thing that got me was the mask hooked up to an aerosol can though. That wasn't needed, it felt to me like he did that as a backup, or he was missing a component.

If you want something less torturous, should have gone with nitrogen. Would have taken less time to carry it out. Plus it's a method starting to be used in executions.
 
I don't know you, but rest in peace. I hope you are in a better place without any pain or sadness. You were unique and didn't deserve whatever horrid treatment you got.
 
so.. he did it for science? if this suicide has one "positive" thing from it, maybe some researcher could use this as to say "hey don't put this shit in our food"
The "curing salt" method is somewhat popular because it's harder to get anything better in terms of accessibility, the general public have no chance in hell in obtaining what they use in Switzerland at their clinics for example. But from what I have read (out of curiosity, not of need), you need to take benzos and an antiemetic or it isn't so "peaceful".

The thing that got me was the mask hooked up to an aerosol can though. That wasn't needed, it felt to me like he did that as a backup, or he was missing a component.

If you want something less torturous, should have gone with nitrogen. Would have taken less time to carry it out. Plus it's a method starting to be used in executions.
or like carbon monoxide and heroin.
I don't know you, but rest in peace. I hope you are in a better place without any pain or sadness. You were unique and didn't deserve whatever horrid treatment you got.
he was a good person caught up in the bad crowd, multiple bad crowds really, a cocktail of awful social groups that destroy your life basically. Once again the fact that he turned out like this and not a serial killer cannibal thug is amazing. Deep down he just wanted to be loved.
 
People on YouTube keep posting that you can't schedule posts only videos but I'm pretty damn sure he's dead.
They're wrong. It's right under the "posts" tab on any account.
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I'm glad I haven't watched the video; it was upsetting enough to read the comments describing it. Always enjoyed lurking on this thread because his interactions with people on here were weirdly heartwarming for the most part, especially at the beginning. He seemed like a very genuine person, and it was refreshing to see the guy do his thing and be himself. That community feature was the last thing that I wanted to see. RIP
 
The Winko Rabbit hole Delivers once again
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https://youtube.com/watch?v=YlJL_VjO6cEI love how every straightfoward and blunt you are. Genius level strategy.
he unlisted this video sadly
 
The "curing salt" method is somewhat popular because it's harder to get anything better in terms of accessibility, the general public have no chance in hell in obtaining what they use in Switzerland at their clinics for example. But from what I have read (out of curiosity, not of need), you need to take benzos and an antiemetic or it isn't so "peaceful".

The thing that got me was the mask hooked up to an aerosol can though. That wasn't needed, it felt to me like he did that as a backup, or he was missing a component.

If you want something less torturous, should have gone with nitrogen. Would have taken less time to carry it out. Plus it's a method starting to be used in executions.
How many similar orders does it take until Amazon starts recommending the whole kit to people automatically?
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