I’m completely checked out — how can I change?

[timewave0]

I’m checked out of basically everything in my life at the moment — my career, my relationships, health, politics, everything. Even the quality of my posts on this silly website has declined precipitously. Fuck, even writing that last sentence I had to take a moment to think of whether it should be “has” or “have,” something I never would’ve needed to do before.

What can I do to change this? My usual approach of avoiding any kind of therapy/counseling while making fun of people on the internet until I feel better doesn’t seem to be cutting it this time.

 

[Alligator Alcatraz]

Just focus on yourself for a while and pursue your hobbies. To help depression, I decided to do some things i've put off for a while like bike riding or exploring my state's haunted places.

 

[rel=alternate]

Yeah you're probably right, though I've never found it easy to meet people outside of a school/work setting. I have plenty of people around me, but basically no one who I can interact with honestly, like not having to hide what I find funny, etc.. I've essentially ghosted all of my oldest friends, and not out of lack of care or a desire to talk to them. It's hard to explain and extremely pathological, but when I've failed to respond to someone after a certain amount of time I feel really bad, so I just put it out of my mind and never respond. So retarded.

I have this same exact issue, so you're not alone. One thing I can say is don't start drinking. It will just make it way worse.

I unfortunately have no other good advice to give.

 

[The Repeated Meme]

Sucks to be you.

 

[JethroTullamore]

Pick up a hobby, maybe become a furry or something.