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I'm going to get fired from my job in the near future. It's not like I want to be at this job any longer. But then again I'll have to contend with:

1. A shitty job market
2. How my family is going to react to all this
3. How my short tenure will reflect in job applications going forward
4. What if this happens again at my next job?

All that said I no longer plan on working in banking and finance anymore like I have since graduation and will instead aim to pivot towards working in data analytics for hospitals and university research.
 
Exercise is an answer I suppose? Did 20m rowing yesterday...watched a race while doing it. Just need 15-20m of movement daily is what I hear? Will try that. Tylenol PM works wonders but I can't take it everynight and the hangover from a regular dose lingers a bit too long to be a good idea.
My nigga! Rowing is based. Top tier form of cardio for sure.
Edit: Since I've been on a daily cardio grind, my sleep has been amazing. Definitely should have jumped on the cardio grind much earlier, but I'm lazy and I kind of hated it. You can definitely feel the difference if you are consistent with it for weeks.
 
Well after waking up and having a coughing fit so loud that mother texted me, I have declared this a lay-in day. It's going as well as expected, told husband and he's like but you need to do to [X] today. I expect my declared day off to end in catching up on all the dishes which can't quite make their way into the dishwasher, it's a step too far. can they fuck off--one day-- just please fuck off.

My nigga! Rowing is based. Top tier form of cardio for sure.
Edit: Since I've been on a daily cardio grind, my sleep has been amazing. Definitely should have jumped on the cardio grind much earlier, but I'm lazy and I kind of hated it. You can definitely feel the difference if you are consistent with it for weeks.
Rowing is an excellent form of exercise, on top of core muscles you target pectorals, glutes and abs.

That's not a bad idea, I miss my rowing machine.
 
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I've been prescribed Abilify at a 5mg dosage, as well as some melatonin to help me readjust my sleeping pattern.
I feel somewhat hopeful, all of a sudden, even if I'm not looking forward to taking more meds. If possible, I would actually prefer not being on meds any more, or at least in the future.
I think people with mental health issues are the only group who are shamed for taking medication to treat their illnesses. You never see anyone shaming people with diabetes for needing insulin but if you need prescription medication to treat depression you’re a wuss.

Just focus on getting better. Use any means possible to improve your health and your life. If meds make that possible then so be it.

kind of concerned that some eau de parfum got delivered to me despite me not ordering anything online recently.

Am I going to be raped soon?
Yay free gift! Did it smell decent at least?
 
So about a post ago I said I was getting all excited for what the pay would be going forward. I've yet to see concrete numbers, but thanks to an over-zealous coach, he all but crushed my optimistic momentum. Began the night with those god-awfully stupid robotic machines people ages ago were fearing that'd 'replace them'.

They started that shit early, breaking standard that it was supposed to be 30 minutes before store closing. I should know by now that my store is anything but abiding by standards and respecting routine. So this threw me off and irked me, to which when I brought it up, one of the dipshit maintenance crews muttered how he "didn't care. there's 3 of us." Hey asshole, even if there were a full team of you, you somehow do a shitty job either way, so I can't tell.

I tried moving on through the night, I was dumped about 7 departments and that felt morally discouraging to deal with. Needless to say, I didn't make it, I made it about half of that.

But the highlight of the night was when I was in the back and bald-bastard of a coach approaches me to check on me. I tell him how far I've come, only for him to retort in a disappointingly bewildered fashion "that's it? I'm paying you to do your job" because it didn't occur to me that we're all stealing this guy's savings to work nights, news to me.

And that just shit all over more of what I was doing. So I took a point by taking off tonight because he can go fuck himself. He can figure out how to get everything done without me, put those useless niggers there to work for their earnings, since all I see them mostly do is be on their damn phones. They can't get shit done on their own, they gotta invite their shitty friends/family niggers to help them.
 
I have been working two jobs, a recent 9 to 5 and another on the weekends. I just gave my two weeks for the weekend one. Kind of wish I didn't. My boss is cool and it has become a routine. But, I can't manage both at the same time
 
Someone just made me lift something far too heavy for me and it’s made something pop in my pelvis and it really hurts.
 
I have been working two jobs, a recent 9 to 5 and another on the weekends. I just gave my two weeks for the weekend one. Kind of wish I didn't. My boss is cool and it has become a routine. But, I can't manage both at the same time
I try not to work more than 40 hours a week. You will make yourself sick and have to pay for it later on in life. You will not get ahead! If you get another job do something easy like selling shit online on the weekends.
 
I have been working two jobs, a recent 9 to 5 and another on the weekends. I just gave my two weeks for the weekend one. Kind of wish I didn't. My boss is cool and it has become a routine. But, I can't manage both at the same time
Nobody should have to work two or more jobs in this day and age. But, here we are. That's just quickening your life into an early grave from all of the wear, tear and stress from so much work.
 
It's my birthday.

Thanks, KF and frens, for being a sounding board for all my misgivings with modern society.
Thanks for tolerating me when I was not at my best.
Thanks for being a place where I could meet other women kinda like me.
 
I think I'm starting to improve at least a little bit, a lot of getting out of a situation like mine requires acceptance, I fully admit I am not a people person, and to a big extent I can be a fucking asshole over the slightest annoyance, even here, I have come to see the ability to avoid annoying shit as a virtue, and as a person with a family history of mental health problems its literally far better to do less, like my daily life is usually some combination vidya,watching tv, going for a walk or riding my bike if its nice out, working on my novel,and making an occasional post on GWD here, I do think not reaching normal milestones previous people typically enjoyed (IRL Friends,Dating,Marriage,etc.) sucks but its good to remember that im not the only one here and im probably a common case among 25-30 year olds, past 3 weeks have been 2/10 whereas this week feels close to a 7-8/10 so its progress
 
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