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Kinda iffy. My saturday has been completely devoid of effort, my energy or lack thereof perfectly matched with the weather. I think I ate a bad egg yesterday, which tasted and smelled fine but just gave me eggy burps and a mildly upset stomach, so I might just blame it on that being what caused me to sleep poorly as I have no other excuses or explanations otherwise.

Family dinner was fine. My father made lasagna, which was awesome minus him deciding to randomly chuck in a sweet red pepper (not a bell pepper) and I really dislike the taste of those. I made apple crumble, but it was lacklustre and bland compared to my usual standard. I really just can't cook or bake anything properly right now, it seems, even if I follow recipes that I know by heart.

I was informed yesterday that my appointments with the psych hospital have been made; four appointments total spread over march and april. Hope they can help me because I'm just done feeling like a waste of space.
 
I think I'm losing the tiny bit of my mind that I didn't even know I still had (to paraphrase an old Onion article back from when it was still funny).
Everytime i feel like this i take a hard look at the world and realize that I'M right and THEY'RE wrong

I really just can't cook or bake anything properly right now, it seems, even if I follow recipes that I know by heart.
There are times that shit simply go wrong. I fumbled fucking mayonaise this days. How the fuck does one fumble mayonaise (it's a rhetoric question, i was being a retard that's why)
 
Fuck me. Started my taxes and realized at least one of my kids no longer qualifies as a dependent for tax purposes. Not that I could or would have done anything differently if I'd realized that before now, but I am just so tax-screwed. I have got to figure out a way to make more money.
 
Talked with my cousin today, which was good.
Also found out his wife's name wasnt the one I had on my prayer list, so hopefully the random lady I've been praying for has felt some form of grace.
 
Still not doing the greatest and drinking too much. Had a tard moment and posted a TMI post in a thread the other day.

But in other news I bought a cool hat and it came in today and I can't stop wearing it around the house, which is nice. And it was on sale, too. Bonus.


Fuck me. Started my taxes and realized at least one of my kids no longer qualifies as a dependent for tax purposes. Not that I could or would have done anything differently if I'd realized that before now, but I am just so tax-screwed. I have got to figure out a way to make more money.

I still vividly remember the first time my dad did taxes after I wasn't a dependent anymore. "Fuck"
 
The first Sunday of the Spring, the first day of tre Spring. Time of my life. Took a cold but feel unusually vigorous. Visited a church. Things get better, I'm inspired for the future, I'm optimistic about it. I hope, nothing distracts me from it.
Edit: went to a concert today, it was absolutely fantastic, I haven't had such fun for a long time.
 
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I'm doing okay, I think. Pets are doing good and the millipedes I got a few weeks ago seem to have settled right in. Eating well, are okay with being handled on short occasions - even the quiet one I was worried about going into moult when it hadn't been able to do at the pet shop. On the other hand, I'm not doing so well lately, nothing major but dealing with constant sore throats and
coughing up nasty white tonsil stones.
, so I'm wondering if maybe I should get that checked out and see if it's actually something that needs to be dealt with. I hate the thought of having rotten breath and people being too polite to say anything when I floss, brush and rinse twice daily.
 
I'm doing okay, I think. Pets are doing good and the millipedes I got a few weeks ago seem to have settled right in. Eating well, are okay with being handled on short occasions - even the quiet one I was worried about going into moult when it hadn't been able to do at the pet shop. On the other hand, I'm not doing so well lately, nothing major but dealing with constant sore throats and
coughing up nasty white tonsil stones.
, so I'm wondering if maybe I should get that checked out and see if it's actually something that needs to be dealt with. I hate the thought of having rotten breath and people being too polite to say anything when I floss, brush and rinse twice daily.
Yeah, go see a doctor before this develops to full blown amigdalitis
 
I catch myself trying to justify why I don't like someone, even if there is no actual reason except a physical disgust.
I sometimes just immediately hate someone on sight. I have no reason for it, just seeing them makes me hate their guts.

Am I the asshole? I don't need to ask that, yes, I probably am.

But I've never been wrong.
nasty white tonsil stones.
I had a couple of these like ten years ago. They're horrifying. They smell like death. They're absolutely ghastly.

They went away though. Thank God. Good luck with that.
 
Just getting through a rough period. Husband got a better job, but his current one sacked him pretty much as soon as he put the 2 week notice in & we didnt have the savings. Took some time off so he could do Uber & Lyft work + asked family for some help. not proud of it but....really hoping things ease off once his new gig starts.

In the meantime the baby is starting to stand and babble more meaningfully at us like he wants to convey something.

Sis in law is a coal burner - got pregnant by the current boyfriend shortly after we announced. Shes already got one kid by a deadbeat dad who forced her thru courts for visitation. Kid is barely 5 months old and dad has already thrown the towel in - but is (for now) apparently playing his part in taking the baby every few days at least. But of course she lives with MiL and basically torpedoed her chances to get her own place and is in the middle of a 2 week depression session about her lot...

But apparently I'm the "weak" mom for getting a head cold and asking MiL to take the baby for a few hours after being home from work to care for him most of this week 🙃
 
nobody got me anything for my birthday. not even my own family. :(
Happy birthday then!

I stopped celebrating some years ago, to me it's a date like any other, we're ephemeral beings after all and i don't enjoy being reminded that i'm getting old
 
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