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I'd look into St. John's Wort for anybody looking into SSRIs but terrified. It is one of the most legit supplements in terms of actually doing things. This includes the risk of serotonin syndrome and withdrawals, so don't cold turkey it, don't massively vary your dosages, etc, but the side effect profile is way way better imo vs. all 1st line antidepressants. It is nature's SSRI. Avoiding the doctors who randomly ups your dosage and will never entertain the idea of lowering it or discontinuing treatment is half the benefit, too imo. Use that saved copay money on something that will actually improve your life.

I'm a big fan of NAC but it definitely is less universally applicable. Some people have strong responses, other people have none.

HTP-5 apparently is also really effective but I have no experience there.


I know, I know, it's a tough pill to swallow, but regular exercise is better than any SSRI.
Have some boomer memes from a racist, fruity crippleman.

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I'm done with Motherfucker's situation since I learned the husband was a tranny when they got together. She can't be blind. She doesn't need people to go "Omg that's abusive!" for a 50th time. Whatever factors in that situation need to change for her to get out of it, are beyond the scope of this thread and this forum.

She reminds me so much of my coworker I wondered for a while if it was her.
 
I'd look into St. John's Wort for anybody looking into SSRIs but terrified. It is one of the most legit supplements in terms of actually doing things. This includes the risk of serotonin syndrome and withdrawals, so don't cold turkey it, don't massively vary your dosages, etc, but the side effect profile is way way better imo vs. all 1st line antidepressants. It is nature's SSRI. Avoiding the doctors who randomly ups your dosage and will never entertain the idea of lowering it or discontinuing treatment is half the benefit, too imo. Use that saved copay money on something that will actually improve your life.

I'm a big fan of NAC but it definitely is less universally applicable. Some people have strong responses, other people have none.

HTP-5 apparently is also really effective but I have no experience there.


I know, I know, it's a tough pill to swallow, but regular exercise is better than any SSRI.
Have some boomer memes from a racist, fruity cripplem


I'm done with Motherfucker's situation since I learned the husband was a tranny when they got together. She can't be blind. She doesn't need people to go "Omg that's abusive!" for a 50th time. Whatever factors in that situation need to change for her to get out of it, are beyond the scope of this thread and this forum.

She reminds me so much of my coworker I wondered for a while if it was her.

I understand, and I understand this is not the forum for this and it's disturbing so I've taken it out. I am not looking for sympathy that's not the point, if it was, I would have posted in the fem section, I'm working on a very tough situation and vent.
 
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I've been meaning to get my hands on a book about SSRIs and what happens to your brain before/after you've stopped taking them. I'm like 99% certain this is the book in english, it's called something else in Danish but it's the only other title under the author's name on Amazon. It's available as an e-book on danish libraries, although I doubt that's of much use to you if you don't speak the language.

For real.
I started exhibiting depressive behaviour as a teenager and I'm not sure exactly WHEN I was put on anti-depressants, but my first encounter with psychiatric care was in '06. I have been on medication for longer than I've simply existed, unmedicated. None of my doctors have questioned why I'm still medicated or why I've gone through the amount of different drugs that I have with little to no improvements. As I've aged, I've come to accept that my depression is a symptom of what I would eventually get diagnosed with - a personality disorder, but it's not the root cause of my misery so why am I only being treated with medication?
It's actually frightening how many literal children are on drugs to help alleviate psychiatric issues, and just drugs in general. We overmedicate. Simple as.
My ticket to the Pharma Train got punched when I started second grade, so age 7 ('01). Almost my entire existence has been perceived through the haze of something, but we're not allowed to make those kinds of connections. And of course, the solution must be more of the same. It really is amazing how you can get away with practically anything as long as you pick the proper target and have the correct authority.
 
I was recommended Zoloft
Out of all the SSRIs on the market, Zoloft has to be the one with the worst reputation and I am astounded that it's still available and being prescribed to anyone.
The only anti-depressant i was put on that legit made me want to kill myself. Next to paroxetine and fluoxetine the absolute worst experience with any psych med i've ever taken and i've been on quite a few at one time or another. Zero benefit from it, quit it cold turkey like all my other psych meds and while the discontinuation symptoms weren't as bad as with Paroxetine (this stuff is made by the devil himself, over 6 months of pure hell while coming off that shit, so much worse effects than from quitting any street drug i've ever taken, it's ridiculous) they certainly weren't nice and they took forever to completely go away. My experience with Zoloft pretty much mirrors what @Ventrue posted. I agree with him/her that while it did not work for me it might work for you, there's tons of psych meds out there where even the doctors prescribing you the stuff can't tell you why or why not a medication works for/on you.
As I've aged, I've come to accept that my depression is a symptom of what I would eventually get diagnosed with - a personality disorder, but it's not the root cause of my misery so why am I only being treated with medication?
I've long ago accepted that depression, my main diagnosis (or rather, the extremely retardedly sounding "Double Depression"), and most of my other mental problems that are not self-inflicted via substance abuse are the normal reaction a person has to the circumstances i've been living in for most of my life. Felt like reading the Gospels for the first time again after i realized and really internalized that fact, it took such a huge load of my shoulders. Of course i still struggle with the bullshit but everything feels much less hopeless than before, took me way too long to get to this point. Medication and prolonged "treatment" certainly did not help me to come to this conclusion.
 
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The general "depression" I had suddenly became much easier to understand when I finally learned the chronic pain I had was not normal. I am fatigued a large majority of the time but I can say with some degree of certainty that depression isn't my constant. Depression is so co-morbid with nearly every kind of issue that it really is worth checking out if you have another more general issue that could be the cause. For me I'd get depressed when my body couldn't keep up, I figured I was just lazy and out of shape which caused me to spiral a bit. Now I understand I have limits and thus don't beat myself up nearly as badly over it.
 
I'd look into St. John's Wort for anybody looking into SSRIs but terrified.
Be aware that while yes it has activity, it also interacts with other medications. One is the contraceptive pill - it reduces its effectiveness.
THERE IS STILL A BIRD IN HERE!
What kind of bird? What’s the cat doing about all this? I need bird updates.
 
Looked at the first place and it was a Chen house. https://globalnews.ca/news/9918571/...neighbours-push-back-against-nightmare-house/
It was not as pictured, filled with people who could barely speak english, and the room was much much smaller basically the size of a walk in closet.

So I'm increasing my budget. which sucks hairy donkey balls as i'll need to get furniture and it'll cost more but I'll at least have my own place and be able to talk to the landlord face to face and not through whatsapp with a new york area code where he lies about his name.
 
Be aware that while yes it has activity, it also interacts with other medications. One is the contraceptive pill - it reduces its effectiveness.

What kind of bird? What’s the cat doing about all this? I need bird updates.
I think it's a boat-tailed grackle. I have informed the cat there's a bird in here. The cat displays no interest.

I have informed both animals that there is a bird in here and this is a matter of urgency.

Neither of them seem to care. Why doesn't this bird just leave?
 
Currently on a week long vacation.
Using it as my starting point to quit smoking.
Its been 3 days so far, no ciggies and aside from some light headaches it hasn't been too bad.
Praying for the willpower to keep it up once I'm back home.
 
Currently on a week long vacation.
Using it as my starting point to quit smoking.
Its been 3 days so far, no ciggies and aside from some light headaches it hasn't been too bad.
Praying for the willpower to keep it up once I'm back home.
Good job, keep it up. When you get back home remember there is no shame in using aides for this if you feel yourself slipping. Gum, Zyn, patches etc. Cold Turkey niggas are crazy people.
Being able to breathe (somewhat) normally again is a great reward, let me tell you.
 
I'd look into St. John's Wort for anybody looking into SSRIs but terrified. It is one of the most legit supplements in terms of actually doing things. This includes the risk of serotonin syndrome and withdrawals, so don't cold turkey it, don't massively vary your dosages, etc, but the side effect profile is way way better imo vs. all 1st line antidepressants. It is nature's SSRI. Avoiding the doctors who randomly ups your dosage and will never entertain the idea of lowering it or discontinuing treatment is half the benefit, too imo. Use that saved copay money on something that will actually improve your life.
Note of caution: you should not take SJW if you are on an SSRI, iirc.

Generally on SSRIs, my observation is that they are good for very difficult or critical situations, and often can then be tapered way down or off once stable and have done some other mental work. I've known a lot of people to avoid them for fear of being permanently on meds or for "flattening"bor hazing life, which they can do (and that's one reason they're good in crushing, critical situations). My perspective is use them to get out of a hole, but once you (if you) start being complacent or losing drive, it might be time to cut them down, and possibly to "off."

I do know some people who prefer/ feel value in staying on indefinitely, and for many of those it seems to work for them, but my perspective in them is ideally not forever, even if "not forever" still means years. Ymmv.

What's interesting about the wide range of experiences with zoloft is that it is often the first prescription recommended, unless you have previously had bad or "not helpful" experiences. It/ all of them should always be started at the lowest dosage, and go up (or to something different altogether) with a doc's approval from there. And if prescribed you MUST take it daily, ideally around the same time of day. Depending on dose/ sensitivity, missing a day or couple can make you feel weird.
I think it's a boat-tailed grackle. I have informed the cat there's a bird in here. The cat displays no interest.

I have informed both animals that there is a bird in here and this is a matter of urgency.

Neither of them seem to care. Why doesn't this bird just leave?
It likes you and would like to live with you. Or, it's very stupid and doesn't understand inside vs outside. Or, it's very smart and appreciates central heating, cat be damned.

You should get a pile of sticks and hay and thread and leaves and see if it builds a nest. Maybe you will have a whole family in a few months!
 
I think it's a boat-tailed grackle. I have informed the cat there's a bird in here. The cat displays no interest.

I have informed both animals that there is a bird in here and this is a matter of urgency.

Neither of them seem to care. Why doesn't this bird just leave?
That bird is HUGE. If I were your cat I would be scared.

Is it like just… vibing around in your house? We had this happen at work and solved it by closing the doors to the room it was in and opening all the windows fully. It’s probably hungry by now too so maybe put some crumbs for it to eat on the window sill and hope it flies out. Either that or come up with a name to your new family member lol.
 
The bird is around, I can't get it to leave. I'm feeding the bird oats. The bird is eating the oats.
 
So for the past eight to ten months, I’ve been (to varying degrees) having a nervous breakdown. Never a danger to myself or others beyond inconvenience and embarrassment, and on good days I’m pretty okay. Trying to see my doctor about checking my meds dosage but she quit and the office hasn’t assigned me a new one yet; only urgent care is available. It’s getting easier to rally on bad days and I’ve learned a lot of coping strategies.

Just had to say it somewhere that wasn’t to my (absolute saint of a supportive) wife.
 
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