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My holocaust has ended. 200->169lbs, 27->16% bodyfat.

Time for a proper lean bulk this time instead of drinking liquor and not working out.
 
Wujime said:
Tried to kill myself today, didn't have the courage. But it's gonna happen soon.
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Others have said it much better than I could, but consider this: Chris Chan exists and he is alive. Is your life truly worse than a trooned out 40 something year old autistic manma'am who allegedly fucked his own mother? If he can live with all the fucked up things he's been through and he's done, then surely you can overcome whatever plagues you! Also DSP, never let Chris Chan and DSP outlive you!
 
Wujime said:
Tried to kill myself today, didn't have the courage. But it's gonna happen soon.
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I'm not going to tell you to not kill yourself. Honestly, it's not my problem. You can kill yourself if you want to.

So let me ask you a more constructive question: have you considered an alternative method if the means you chose didn't seem appropriate?
 
D-X-G-X said:
I'm not going to tell you to not kill yourself. Honestly, it's not my problem. You can kill yourself if you want to.

So let me ask you a more constructive question: have you considered an alternative method if the means you chose didn't seem appropriate?
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what the hell is wrong with you? is your desire to be edgy that important? come on.

long waters said:
but consider this: Chris Chan exists and he is alive. Is your life truly worse than a trooned out 40 something year old autistic manma'am who allegedly fucked his own mother? If he can live with all the fucked up things he's been through and he's done, then surely you can overcome whatever plagues you!
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i love this place so much, seriously :heart-full:
 
Wujime said:
Tried to kill myself today, didn't have the courage. But it's gonna happen soon.
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Don’t. Aside from what everyone else said, a huge number of attempts fail and leave people in a really nasty state of injury.
You don’t want to be a vegetable, that’d be worse.
Just don’t do it today, tell yourself that today and all the next days. Life can change surprisingly fast, give things a chance.
Life can suck quite badly, I get that, but unless you’re dying in pain from something very unpleasant, there’s always the chance this can look up. It’s ok to feel really down, sometimes things are shit.
 
Pray that this snow day makes enough people call off so work is cancelled for the day, the snow is at that perfect time of not ending till work starts. Not like I'm really worried about work but my partner has MLK day off and I'd like to chill with them lol. All I have to say about negative stuff is just how damn loud a cat's bell sounds like in the middle of the night. It might as well be a jet engine
 
Made myself spaghetti bolognese with nice juicy chestnut mushrooms. I've been browsing the dox your cats thread and honestly I'm jealous. Looking after a cat must take a lot of effort and money, going to the veterinarian, making sure he doesn't get lost, ect. Maybe I'll get a cat in the future, fingers crossed.
 
The past few nights I've been annoyed by the sound of something crawling into my walls from the roofline. I didn't hear it last night, and a perimeter check this morning revealed a dead mouse frozen to the ground along the offending wall.

The corpse has been placed on the snackrificial stump for less invasive wildlife to munch and my sleep is no longer disturbed. It's a good morning.
 
Today was probably the closest I've had to an uneventful day at work. I got a lot done, a few new tasks, not too much ranting from my coworkers. I feel stressed about my tasks but I mean.. I could just extend them. They're without a deadline but I put one for myself to get through it. I think I need to reel it back and be realistic sometimes. The temp coworker will literally go "Oh I can't do that, I'm busy, maybe in 2 weeks" and obviously nobody berates them cause.. it's a random task. I need to chill out, dawg.
long waters said:
Chris Chan exists and he is alive. Is your life truly worse than a trooned out 40 something year old autistic manma'am who allegedly fucked his own mother?
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I'm just hanging around to see Gen Z and all the troons realize they ruined their lives and kys before I kms. Shit, stay alive to watch the next iteration of some capeslop movie. Stay alive for literally any reason, cause the alternative is death and that's worse than anything. It's funny how these suicidal mf'ers never have the balls to take out a huge loan, fuck off to japan, fuck some flatchested girls and then kill themselves. I bet they fear getting passion for life again and now being deep in debt, but even if they were, they'd be better off than many people.

Reminds me of this jumpcut video of a german going to Japan to do exactly that: Bald uncharismatic asocial looking loser, but he parties, does drugs, hangs with yakuza, does blow with hookers, piss on one of them, stumble home, all in this amazing 3 minute video. That's what suicidal mf'ers should do: Experience life.
 
I dunno why it took me so long to talk to you fartknockers, but I appreciate you.
 
BacklTrack said:
Suicide is gay dont do that. If you actually feel like ending things you may as well take out as many loans as you can then take a flight to a cheap place with good food and nice weather.
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Hearing this response to suicide has always reaffirmed to me that I'm irredeemably broken and I can never relate to other people because this sounds like something I would do to make sure I jump. "No, once you experience the joy of life, you won't want to die anymore!" I used to be gripped by the compulsion that if I just explain better, maybe people will understand. Futile and foolish. You can't convince people of something they don't want to believe. Yes, I realize the irony and seemingly unselfaware nature of this statement in this context.
 
Banquet Meal said:
i have literally nothing to say today except that i am bored shitless :gunt:
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Do Psych statistics. Be bored shitless and ironically unproductive while doing work.
HA!
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