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Motherf*cker said:
This morning I was finally finishing my breakfast after doing some chores. And he comes and asks me this in front of my folks.
"Hurr the bathroom smelled ripe this morning..heh heh..did you poop like overnight...heehehh? It is like really stinky...heeehheeh.
"Yea, well my stomach hasn't been too good overnight and yes."
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ive no words.

that being said, idk. i mean..if i were you, at this point i would just get my own place, away from my parents, and away from this dipshit...it sounds like a bunch of codependent petty slapfighting, 24/7. just burn it all to the ground, start over and salvage what you can from all of this. it cant be healthy living this way.
not like im the pinnacle of mental health and happiness over here, but the stress of fighting with someone day after day cant be good.
it doesnt sound like he brings anything to the table, either.
who makes crude remarks like that anyway, like that is so unbelievable crass. :stress:
 
I can't imagine being set up with someone by like, a friend or coworker. I've only had one bad experience there but it was enough. And more importantly it puts you in an awkward position with them if it doesn't pan out.

She was noticeably bigger than her photos (I'm not Timothee Chalamet or whatever, but my weight starts with a 1, is in the three digits, and I can comfortably jog a couple miles), told me she was in the middle of converting to Conservative Judaism, then when we were grabbing a bite to eat she asked me what podcasts I like and autistically googled each one plus "problematic" in front of me. If it was an app date I would've walked out at that part
 
Troon Petty and the 41ers said:
I can't imagine being set up with someone by like, a friend or coworker. I've only had one bad experience there but it was enough. And more importantly it puts you in an awkward position with them if it doesn't pan out.

She was noticeably bigger than her photos (I'm not Timothee Chalamet or whatever, but my weight starts with a 1, is in the three digits, and I can comfortably jog a couple miles), told me she was in the middle of converting to Conservative Judaism, then when we were grabbing a bite to eat she asked me what podcasts I like and autistically googled each one plus "problematic" in front of me. If it was an app date I would've walked out at that part
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Run away as fast as you can from whoever set you up with that woman. They're no friend of yours. JFC.
 
PetiteFeet said:
Run away as fast as you can from whoever set you up with that woman. They're no friend of yours. JFC.
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He's always sperging out about Something on Instagram, so I keep him at arms' length. This was like five years ago and probably nobody remembers anyway :oops:. And FWIW the problematic podcast was Andrew Huberman of things. I don't religiously listen to it, I just like when he has people on to talk about working out or mental health. Or the Tony Hawk episode. If I became a famous podcaster and had a chance to hang out with like Tony Hawk, I would jump at it.
 
⋖ cørdion ⋗ said:
All-women spaces are hell,
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Amen to that. My previous company needed me to quit (Japanese owners hated firing people even in the states). To make my life a living hell, they put me, an electrical engineer that goes into the field, inside of HR, with a stereotype of a faggot in charge of me.

There is something surreal about having to appear on a teams meeting a 1am local time because the HR cat ladies need to have an all hands meeting over how the office is going to get decorated.

Every single one of these obese, muumuu wearing cows fucking hated each other. It was unreal how easily they could act like best friends to each other and immediately be talking shit the moment the other person was out of sight.

Literally the only person I could stand was the butch lesbian in charge of safety. She was quite literally the only person that wasn't full of shit and catty.
 
JustStopDude said:
Amen to that. My previous company needed me to quit (Japanese owners hated firing people even in the states). To make my life a living hell, they put me, an electrical engineer that goes into the field, inside of HR, with a stereotype of a faggot in charge of me.

There is something surreal about having to appear on a teams meeting a 1am local time because the HR cat ladies need to have an all hands meeting over how the office is going to get decorated.

Every single one of these obese, muumuu wearing cows fucking hated each other. It was unreal how easily they could act like best friends to each other and immediately be talking shit the moment the other person was out of sight.

Literally the only person I could stand was the butch lesbian in charge of safety. She was quite literally the only person that wasn't full of shit and catty.
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Very funny that I'm seeing the birth of this at work right now, they hired nearly all women in the past 8 or so new hires and they all love to group up. I usually like to be alone at work but had to do a group job with them for a few hours and my god was it just shit talking about which ever women got up to use the bathroom or whichever employee wasn't at work that day. Really sours my milk knowing some of them have tried to be friendly to me but most likely talk shit when I walk off to do the hard independent work none of them wanna do. They do their work fine but my god do they expect the few men to pick up the slack or to do all the hard shit. I have no problem doing the not so fun stuff but I am really tired of the slowly forming power tripping I'm seeing after one of them got employee of the month kek.
 
Yellow Rose Of Texas said:
Had a pretty bad doom pilling episode yesterday,its really hard to stay sane or upright when constant misery is right in your face both online and offline.
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I hope you stay strong. The only way out is through.

TotalNematodeDeath said:
they hired nearly all women in the past 8 or so new hires and they all love to group up.
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That's something that is going on at the factory. Rank-and-file female workers don't care much for this but all management/executive female employees are deep in this grouping up "girlboss" thing, where they "lift each other up" (scheme to snatch all advancement opportunities). Of course, only bad apples benefit from this.


Sadly, not much news on the health front: Blood tests are still shit, my GP is pissed (rightfully so), I just need to get my shit together sooner rather than later.

Had some talks at work about my future, while they are not taking my request to be transferred to a factory closer to my family (not at the other side of the country would be a good start) very well, they seem rather open to the idea of me focusing more on corporate stuff (collaborations with other factories, training other workers...). I feel we're a bit stuck with each other so I'll take what I can get. A formal meeting will take place next week.

Things with my previous apartment's rental housing gearing up. They want to go to court while continuing to withhold details and proof about what I'm supposed to owe them. While they seem to be to have a record in court only second to Rekieta's tickets, I feel that I'm going in above my head and contacted a lawyer.
 
I had a turbo shitty first day of work that if I get into the details, it just actually enrages me with the lack of notice from them to me and lack of willing to work with me as I am with them. I don't know how the fuck am I going to do these 12-hour long days (4 round trip commute, the basic 8 there) for 3 months, but I guess I have to grin and bear it as long as my back pain in this demanding probationary period doesn't kill me. It could certainly be worse, but I could be better. Eh on the bright side as long as I stick to it this bullshit crises will turn into a golden ticket.
 
BABANGUIDE64 said:
Some of my co-workers are just irritating, I can't stand being near those people.
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Texting me about some stuff after the end of the day, when these things could be discussed before that, it doesn't show your good work ethics, it shows your disrespect to other people's time and that you can't get the job done in time. Some people enjoy wasting others' time so much.
I like being angry, it moves me forward and it distracts me from how much of a nothing I am. All men are known by their friends and I have none.
 
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Squanto Airi said:
If they are no longer normal, why do you hang out with them still?
I had a friend that was normal too, but took both the ledfty path and the troon path. I ended up ghosting him, which is shitty in hindsight, but that was the only way to cut contact. Ill pray for ya.
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I moved, I only deal with them online thankfully. If it was irl, I'd be way less tolerant.
 
Do you know the feeling when you're on a Metro train and you can feel that you're close to your stop even if you don't look at the map? I feel that way right now.

It's entirely possible that one day this week or this month I end it all. Years of torment and grasping for things to live for and here I am grovelling in bed looking at tranny feet on a thread here. I'm just 22 but feel like I'm 45 and a divorced alcoholic or something, I have so little to actually live for. No one I know will care about me until I die, and I don't want to make them sad by doing that.

Depression and trauma win, I'm done putting up a fight. I feel oddly at peace knowing that I've made my mind up about this, like everything I've ever stressed over no longer exists.
 
this is gonna sound edgy as fuck but tomorrow will mark 10 years since the closest i got to killing myself and it wasnt even a good method anyway

worst decision i ever made was to not finish the fucking job. 10 years of this bullshit has only proven this to me again and again. and i wanted to use these 10 years to really see if anything's different or to see if i somehow magically get better but no

things have only gotten worse, but i dont have the fucking balls to become an hero and get it over with even though its the most logical thing to do.
 
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