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Slobmaxxing by eating leftover food straight out of the pan, pan placed in my lap, KF open on my laptop. You niggas wish you could be on my level.
Edit: At least i am sitting in the kitchen, i am not a total animal.
Edit: At least i am sitting in the kitchen, i am not a total animal.
Your husband sounds like a right cunt, no offense. This is is some legit abusive and extremely manipulative behaviour.
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It's never too late to say "I'm sorry". You don't have to become best friends again but at the very least you could mend the bridge enough that you can be polite and civil if you happen to encounter him again. Admitting your faults enables you to work on yourself and become a better person.
Something something teachings of Christ.
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You need to ditch this guy.
urgh I know. I had a chance to use a really cool old bit of machinery last week. The end stage was pulling a lever and I struggled to do it. Was a bit of an eye opener and I need to go lift some weights I think.
can you pinpoint what triggered the feeling? Was it something said, or done? Or an aspect of the meeting? Or just the weather?
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I'm imagining an otter hanging from a giant lever going "MOVE, DAMN IT".
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That’s pretty much how it went down.
I had to get my friend to help me, she’s a fair bit taller, but really I should have been able to move it through the whole swing myself, and I need to go pump done (very small bits of) iron and be less shamefully weak.
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Poorly. Currently I'm on my first week of recovering from back surgery, and I have another 5 until I'm allowed to live on my own. While I am glad my back pain will be gone and my quality of life will increase, feeling like a cripple and being an opiate-elemental is really destroying my self worth and sanity. I know everything will be okay and I have to stay positive, but living on a cycle of pain killers, muscle relaxers, and sleep is awful (how the fuck do junkies do it!?), especially since all I can do is lay or stand, I can't even sit upright yet.
Take care of your backs, kiwis.
Take care of your backs, kiwis.
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Yeah, I know exactly what's the issue - any time I discus or try to work on my feelings and triggers, my entire system is left triggered for the rest of the day even if nothing bad happened. Our meeting was actually really constructive, I just feel everything for hours after the fact.
I guess it could be considered ruminating and overthinking, but I don't see a way through all of this without actually working on it. You can't avoid this if you want to move past it, right?
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No I don’t think you can avoid it. It’s painful, and your brain and body tend to want to avoid that so they’re doing this to you. They’re making you feel bad so you avoid the larger pain of digging deeper. It’s just like the ‘urgh, I don’t want to work out’ feeling.
Would it help to think of it like that? Like aversion to excercise or eating your broccoli? You don’t want to but it’s good for you.
You’re also right at the start of the process, and I suspect that as you start being more intense with it you’ll feel a bit worse BUT then it’ll start to turn into relief after emotional work?
What you’re feeling is very normal and understandable and part of the process.
Can’t say I like Winston Churchill much but the following advice is valid: when you’re going through hell, keep going.
You’re going through an intense but time limited process, and it’ll have some nasty emotional lows but hopefully as a whole it will help you. Talk to your therapist about coping strategies when this happens perhaps?
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I will. I'm seeing her tomorrow.
I realise it's my AvPD that rears its ugly head any time something could be seen as "criticism" even though it's just a harmless attempt at mentalisation therapy. I agree that I need to keep going even if it triggers me right now. It will get better and easier.
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And honestly, even without such a diagnosis it’s very normal to feel like that. Digging into emotional stuff is hard. Be kind to yourself over this, just let yourself feel it and tell yourself it’s part of the process.
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I'm having another post-day off hangover. Gotta go in tonight and several more nights, trying to appease these tan, brown immigrant fuckers the moment I step through the doors. "Hyab' heud blehdu bleh" whatever the fuck they're saying and I'm supposed to understand it all.
This damn weather has been insulting me and making me regret my decision to pull out a PAL loan to get winter tires with. We've only had 3 entire days of snow when it was at its worst. But for the past two and a half weeks now, it's been 30 ~ 45 degree weather, some days hitting 50. Partly Cloudy, Rain, Cloudy, Partly Sunny .etc
I've spent so much to get these tires and to put them on, it was such a wasted investment, I should've just stuck to my all-seasons to carry me over, that haven't been poorly performing if I knew the weather was going to be this consistent. So now I'm stuck until May, having $88 more subtracted from my paychecks when I could've just started to save more like I want myself to this year.
Fuck.
This damn weather has been insulting me and making me regret my decision to pull out a PAL loan to get winter tires with. We've only had 3 entire days of snow when it was at its worst. But for the past two and a half weeks now, it's been 30 ~ 45 degree weather, some days hitting 50. Partly Cloudy, Rain, Cloudy, Partly Sunny .etc
I've spent so much to get these tires and to put them on, it was such a wasted investment, I should've just stuck to my all-seasons to carry me over, that haven't been poorly performing if I knew the weather was going to be this consistent. So now I'm stuck until May, having $88 more subtracted from my paychecks when I could've just started to save more like I want myself to this year.
Fuck.
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I randomly re-add people on Steam from years ago, shoot the shit, see a spark of chance to re-socialize, then, no fucking matter how much of a lifeless neet they are, it falls through. You truly just grow apart but man even if the stars align they just don't want to put the work in. The only reason returning to your hometown to hang out with your old childhood friends work is because you're physically present and can show up and demand all of their attention (if they aren't glued to their phone). You need to be in a severely isolated state online to just open up to a good friend returning, but it can happen. And that's why it's addictive. And yet, I'm never on the receiving end of it. If someone re-added me years later I'd at least give it a shot.
"Should I tell my one night stand's bf that they're cheating on them? UwU". The fact adult people struggle with this notion is why there's so much asshattery in relationships. If people were sober for a second now and then, we'd have no Hallmark xmas movie tropes.
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Man I hate being so miserable. I've come to really dislike my job lately. I just feel tired and dour when I show up. I was so gung ho about it but now I can feel myself be like "I don't give a fuck, I don't give a fuck, fuck it. Just put the toilet brush there, who cares if they don't have a price tag yet. It's the same class of store numbers anyway and they seem allergic to train people so whatever, not my problem"
Which is not a healthy mindset for your workplace.
I can't really quit either. Though it's unpaid, I am obligated to show up per government fuckery.
Maybe if I get paid, it'll change? Maybe it's the heavy snow fucking my mood. I feel a little burnt out at the moment, which was the thing I feared the most.
I suppose it's part of the human experiment, hating your job.
Oh wait, nevermind. Might be a mental crash outright. Aaaah and suddenly it's 2021 again,
Which is not a healthy mindset for your workplace.
I can't really quit either. Though it's unpaid, I am obligated to show up per government fuckery.
Maybe if I get paid, it'll change? Maybe it's the heavy snow fucking my mood. I feel a little burnt out at the moment, which was the thing I feared the most.
I suppose it's part of the human experiment, hating your job.
Oh wait, nevermind. Might be a mental crash outright. Aaaah and suddenly it's 2021 again,
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Yellow Rose Of Texas
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I’ve been going back and forth for months now with a libtard I used to chat. It started out okay at first but it quickly devolved into a petty insult match.
At this point, I wouldn’t be surprised if he blocks me. Won't be the first won't be the last. Funny how every friendship I made after covid fell apart, while the ones from before are still going strong.
At this point, I wouldn’t be surprised if he blocks me. Won't be the first won't be the last. Funny how every friendship I made after covid fell apart, while the ones from before are still going strong.
Shit like these really makes you paranoid on how many people you can trust,one wrong word and they'll want you dead.
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On the topic of steam friends, I have a lot of people I'd like to reconnect with that I met through the internet. Besides being a fuck-up NEET with zero things going on in my life, I think I have gotten legitimate braindamage at some point in my adult life. I made a ton of friends via Gamespot back in 2008-2010 and still have some of them on my steam friendslist, but the scary thing is that some of them I can't remember the names, faces or even personalities of. Thanks to my mental health bullshit in general, I have large gaps in my memory, but it isn't just restricted to moments in time where I felt emotionally vulnerable. They're random and don't discriminate. Just total VOID.
So even IF I had the courage to want to catch up and I could ignore my embarrassment at my life in general, I can't remember them and I'm afraid to say "Hey, hi, sorry, I don't exactly remember who you are but I want to reconnect."
I don't care to reconnect with childhood friends who backstabbed me or told to me that they hated me or pitied me, they don't take up space in my every day life in any way, shape or form. But the people that I have a hunch that I used to like and don't recall any falling out with? Vanished from my memorybanks.
It's scary.
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Today would have been an ok day to paint because it was int he 50s and not windy. I didn't know this becuase it's winter and the last whole week has just been cold windy and humid on the forecast.
So I wasted my one good day again, yeesh.
So I wasted my one good day again, yeesh.
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It's Steam. I think it's not that big of a deal to send that kind of message in this context. I've added randos from TF2 or whatever because I thought they had a funny name.
Maybe slight PL, but I'm old enough and have lived in the same town for long enough that I'll run into someone I've met at a neighbor's party or the gym or something pretty often. When I don't remember who they are I feel embarrassed. Then I begin to wonder if they think I'm snubbing them, and feel more embarrassed. Your situation is really NBD.
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I don't like my co-workers, the co-workers on my previous job were better. The job is not the way of making friends but for me it's the only working option.
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Thank you, and agreed but since I'm not in danger, It's all a waiting game where I am making my plans for a smooth transition. i appreciate you fuckers telling me that I am worth better, I have never believed it until recently
Im shit at quoting posts and I'm drinking tonight so fuck it to high hell.