I think it's more the feeling of wet ass after. I've never used a bidet but if I feel it's needed I'll use a wet wipe, or just jump in the shower. I've thought of putting in a bidet but there's only one outlet and of course it's nowhere near the toilet, so I don't think it's possible to have one installed without ripping open the wall or leaving a power cable across the counter top. If I had one I absolutely cannot have one that might shoot cold water. I already wont sit on a cold seat, I'm not cleaning myself with ice.
I forgot to send the positive I was gonna bring up! Weather's shit for painting because winter but I found not one but TWO hobby/art stores that aren't chain place by me and as a result found some neat acrylic paints and spraypaints that aren't the normal brands I've used for this kind of thing but show potential. One of the places carries some paint brand that seems to be a company that SOLELY puts out various metallic acrylic hobby paints and one of them that I got to test out is a really neat iridescent color. I'm not sure if it's purple or dark pink. Closest thing I could compare the color to is if you turned that kind of oily iridescence in water that's got chemicals in it into a tangible thing you can use. That or that one mineral i can't remember the name of right now. There were others I aim to get and test at some point but i spent like an hour browsing the paints yesterday while trying to get the thing separated by shaking the shit out of that one and two others but only aimed to/was able to comfortably afford one at the time.
This reminds me that I still have a half finished Caommander Farsight model on a bookshelf that I haven't painted in maybe a year. I have all this hobby paint that's been sitting around. I've tried to make it enjoyable but I just can't. My brother bought me a Space Marine model for Christmas so now I'm obligated. I hope my stuff's still good. Around here, other than maybe a Hobby Lobby or Michaels, the few stores that carry hobby paint mostly just carry Citadel. These stores don't even offer any discounts so may as well shop online and save the trip.
Shipping tends to rack up price really fast if you're buying from online., epescially when places don't have certain colors in stock. Places around here used to carry stuff people would reccomend me for acrylic stuff like mr. hobby and tamiya stuff before corona hit but like for some reason all the places that did either shut down or moved JUST SLIGHTLY too far north or south for it to be a viable casual trip. Also some places and companies upcharge to ridiculous degrees post-rona so it's better finding ways to get stuff in person. I fyou want say a 3 to 6 dollar small pot of paint that used to be 2 to 4 dollars depending on brand, you factor in the fact you can't compare color in person and there's no returns AND the shipping is almost ALWAYS 10 by default now with prices climbing by item rather than by the actual weight, yeah shit gets pricey fast if you don't got "spend 170 dollars for free shipping!" levels of money.
I've spent the last few years looking for a decent way to get transparent acrylic for cheap, hobby shop and art supply store had both but it was a brand I never heard of before for one that's seemingly made solely for minis and liquitex paint marker for another that doesn't say transparent unless you look at the little stats they have on the side.
I'm not expert on this kind of stuff and my entire model kit experience is basically snap together kits and painting warhammer necrons sometime during the 2000s when I was like 12and they were more affordable. "oh wow 6-50 is a lot for a model kit parts bundle to play a game!" Haha... god I wish GW weren't such greedy fucks.
They used to have physical stores everywhere by me with staff that weren't pushy and just really loved hobby shit, but they shut down during the early 2010s, likely due to GW management deciding it rather than them going out of business. Vivid memories of going inside there every few months each year and there being some new EXTREMELY REALISTIC TINY ENVIRONMENTS in-store game board diorama one of the guys working there made and a display area where you could pick up and look at the miniatures from the different games they had at the time.
I genuinely do not think I would ever have gotten into warhammer at all if it wasn't for the experience of seeing the cool shit other people made and wanting to try and make it myself.
ANYWAYS I got a lot of snap together shit from the last 6-7 years now since 2019 was now seven years ago (jesus) I've been trying to find time to put together. A lot of it is stuff that was produced in 2009-2010 so that's even longer ago now than when I got it... fuck.
For context on that they're all bandai and kotobukiya shit (before US stores started upcharging the kotobukiya kits to the 80s-100s like online scalpers do)
Cat #2 might be having kidney issues.
Spent a lot of money on tests and I'm still waiting for the results, they will be ready this Friday. I am glad I am able to afford my cat's healthcare, they are the most precious things I have.
She's being her quiet sweet self, but not drinking enough water. I am trying my best to keep her hydrated.
Taking a networking cert exam in 3 hours. Already failed it once (due to bruteforcing it and also coming in hungover on 3 hours of sleep) so pray for me lads.
I only failed by 5~ questions last time in my fucked up state so I think its in the bag, just nervous because if I fuck up now I gotta pay for it out of my own pocket lol.
Woke up today to find the car got repoessed like 2am in the morning.
We missed a payment on Dec 23rd and its the first missed payment on this car. I thought it was paid and husband is like "oops I forgot"
Thankfully family has pitched in so we can pay up. This season has been rough as husband lost work - he found something by November- but as a result we ended up behind on the mortgage and thats been a major stress to catch up on.
Plus stuck with bills from babys birth earlier in the year. We earn too much to get any sort of payment plan. Ugh
I know we gotta buck up and figure the finances out. But fuuuuuck
At an ER with my mom. 5 hours no doctor yet to talk to us. I think she's just dehydrated but at 96 we need to go early rather than later. Just realized it was flu season as we were sitting in the waiting room next to some little Spanish speaking man who was coughing. I have (unspecific) health condition that makes me more susceptible to contagious shit like the flu. One pickled egg for breakfast and that's it for food and it's after 6 pm. I'm a little stir crazy sorry.
Amazon is usually pretty good with their supply, and since I'm already paying for prime it's frequently free shipping. Sometimes there's just no choice when your local shop is always out of the same colors. I assume modeling supplies are low on their list to re-order. I would occasionally visit one of them to try to give them my business, but it was never worth the trip.
My area is really bad for Wargaming. The stores always have people playing yugioh or magic, but there isn't a store that I know will have people playing. It seems like their discords are equally dead, showing months typically go by before anyone is requesting a game that went unanswered half the time. I used to visit my brother when he was only a few hours away, and he had a Warhammer store. That at least gave me some encouragement to stick with the hobby, but now he's no where close enough to visit so those trips will be once maybe twice a year at most.
Game stores are really about the only place I can think of that is like a third space, somewhere you explicitly are going to hang out with random people. It'd be nice to at least try to get out and make some new friends. Unfortunately it seems around here you're either into TCGs or you're hoping someone on discord will eventually be open to schedule a game. Even the TTRPG crowd seems pretty barren. If there is a local community I don't know where to find it.
I've been in something of a nostalgic mood as of late; been reminiscing about a number of games that I used to play. Unfortunately, all four have been having a number of issues over the past few years:
- First one's an MMO; one of the two games that hammered in my love of swords, classical heroism, and taught me to always rely on melee combat - because arrows and spells were of limited quantity, you see. Unfortunately, it went woke AF some years back; in-game pride parades, story's gone from classic fantasy to some deconstructionist crap, the whole 9 yards.
- Second one is an online solo RPG; it too game me a love for melee combat, for similar reasons. While it never shoved any woke crap into it as far as I can tell - the only "real world" stuff it put in were homages and subjects that were treated rather respectfully - the game's been slowly fading from public consensus for a while now. Bit afraid it'll vanish soon, given just how much I did with it; still got my OG account.
- Third was another MMO, this one about playing a wizard. It's gotten something of a revival recently, so it's still going fairly strong as of now, but... several of the OG VAs for the characters have passed away over the past few years, and... well, it's decidedly not helped by their final words in-game being loving farewells that have some outright heartbreaking subtext. I think this one I spent the most time on back in the day, surprisingly.
- Lastly was a live-action game. Was pretty popular and fun back in the day, still got most of my original peripherals that I used to play, even. Sadly, some corpos have gotten ahold of it and have been essentially destroying the original game in favor of a (still admittedly fun) inferior version, which... isn't helped by just how alarmingly toxic and self-defeating the community for it.
Brought these up, because I was thinking about trying to homage them with my writings somehow; not entirely sure what to do, though. What details to focus on, characters to allude towards, even how to set up the world and the cast of characters... it's all difficult. Should I try to homage all four in some way with a singular MC, or split them between a party? And in what way(s)? What about the world and story?
Caught one of my terror rodents who ate through his enclosure base and got out in the room. Have now Moved him and his brother to a metal (very spacious and still deep base) enclosure now.
He’s not very happy with me for taking him out of the drawer he found on his adventure. Though I’m going to get him a little drawer that can be be hung up on the cage for him to sleep in, as he seemed to like it
Whether this is a good idea or not not will depend on a few things;
- how much it’ll cost you
-what you study Most crucially - what kind of pathway to a career is it? A well structured course with job placements and networking and a route to employment is a positive. Just studying for the sake of it isn’t (although in an ideal world we’d all be able to…)
I just read about spinal implants after reading your post and not being sure if you were serious. Sounds quite interesting, never even knew a procedure and device like this existed. A link for the curious:
Yeah it’s only recently they have approved me as before they thought it was risky with how much work I’ve had on my spine
But thankfully after many many many years they are saying it’s worth a shot as otherwise the only other option is another very big surgery. So I’m hyped about it. Having a battery in a buttcheek will be a fun little ice breaker
I’m hoping this means I can work longer hours. As well as potentially being able to increase the amount of animals I can rescue/adopt. Only do so on a small scale right now. I plan on a starting a official small “exotics” sanctuary at some point in the future though (the animals wouldn’t be up for adoption, they would stay with me permanently unless they are a species that would thrive elsewhere)
I am such an out of shape piece of shit it is disgraceful. Tried to do my old calisthenics routine to get back on track, absolutely no dice. It's not even due to the back pain, i am just weak (my numb arm plays a role though). Can't do a single chin up or pull up anymore, like not at all. Struggling with press-ups, for God's sake. I knew i neglected my training last year but come on! Just ordered a set of resistance bands and olympic rings (to hang on my wall-mounted pull up bar, gonna cry when i realize i can't do a single dip anymore, already know it).
Dismantled and gave away my home gym stuff years ago when i thought "Man, this hard drug addiction is much more worthwhile than being healthy and in shape", regretting it now, though the resistance band stuff is much more practical than a bench an free weights. No noise (GF is a long sleeper and i prefer to exercise in the morning), needs much less room etc. but there are exercises that are much more efficient to do on a bench. Lucked out and got a week of Prime for free again so the stuff arrives tomorrow.
Man, i think anyone who ever built a PC can relate to that I can still remember how i sliced up my hands trying to fit a CPU cooler in my very first build that was much larger than i expected, too.
I had a much older model, a Mugen 2 i think, but it looked basically the same.
Shouldn't have bought into Tau But for real, i wish i could get back to painting, found an old pic of a mini i posted in the 40k thread a couple of days ago and just got sad about not having painted since ~2017. Gave all my hobby stuff to my younger brother when i realized this shit is just too pricy for me, amongst other things.
I still get dreams from time to time about an old online game that i used to be into hardcore (Pangya!, the Wii has an antiquated version of it called Super Swing Golf) but all servers (except Thai i think) and virtually every forum is long dead by now. God, what fun i had with that game. I love arcade-y golf games and nothing comes anywhere close to Pangya, not even the Mario golf games.
So I get up to go to work today and have to decide between a late shit or warming up my car. I choose to shit at work and set off. On my drive a fucker decided to pull out of a coffee drive through and hang a left in front of me, I was going 50 and this dipshit was going like 5 mph. So I slam on my breaks, almost side swipe him, almost drive off the road, but for sure shit myself. I get to work and thank god I decided to wear gym shorts under my pants today because it didn't leak all the way to my car seat. Told my boss I shit myself and I packed up and went home. Can't believe almost ending my life was a good idea to some moron getting coffee. Just makes me so mad knowing saving 30 seconds of waiting is more important to some people than safe driving. (I also curse wingstop for giving me the shits but thats neither here nor there)
I've got a friend that's absolutely shit with money, and every time they have an emergency they're too broke to take care of it. I am a bit of a softie and a bit of an idiot so I try and help whenever they ask. And here's the thing. I try to give money with the the thought that I will never get it back, just so that I'm not lending anything I would hurt to lose and not getting so pissed off if I'm not paid back. I've loaned money to people in those circumstances, and was perfectly fine knowing it was basically a gift. But this friend isn't straight up with me. I'd honestly prefer it if they just told me it's not going to happen. Instead I get "I'll pay you next week" weeks go by and I have to ask about it. They can only give me back half. "As soon as I can! Next time I get paid!" Meanwhile they're posting about their trashy hobbies that definitely aren't free on social media thinking I don't see it. It's been months and I'm just going to give up on it. Maybe give up on the friend as well. It's not even about the money! I just think the behavior reflects on their values and general ability to bring anything positive to my life. I know it's almost entirely on me for being a pushover but hey, I like to be nice. This year I'm ditching people that take that for granted.
Feels like I get punished for trying to socialize or doing pretty much anything at work. I was almost cussed out for not leaving early if I meet early - having amassed 1 excess hour in our flexible system. The temp has 8 hours because they sit around for ages after work writing emails. Not a single comment on that though. At one point I threw my hands up and said I feel like I'm the only one getting constantly vibe-checked to which they almost acted offended. Haven't heard a single 'correction' going the temp's way. I'm not gonna silently quit but sure as shit pulling off the gas.
Thankfully family has pitched in so we can pay up. This season has been rough as husband lost work - he found something by November- but as a result we ended up behind on the mortgage and thats been a major stress to catch up on.
And this is the kind of shit that makes my issues seem trivial, but since I live in a decent country, I should rather relate to my peers than zoomers working 60 hours in America I guess. Still, puts things into perspective. Expensive cars, seeing nothing but at my workplace where people are paid peanuts. People sure love indebting themselves for a fucking car.
90% score.
I can still remember how i sliced up my hands trying to fit a CPU cooler in my very first build that was much larger than i expected, too.
But for real, i wish i could get back to painting, found an old pic of a mini i posted in the 40k thread a couple of days ago and just got sad about not having painted since ~2017. Gave all my hobby stuff to my younger brother when i realized this shit is just too pricy for me, amongst other things.
