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Visited parents for new years'. Drank a beer, half a glass of wine, and a couple of glasses of champagne and I feel incredibly tipsy. Now I'm home. Hope everyone has a good one, happy new year!
 
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Endless Blabbery said:
I like the concept of composting because you're literally reusing your food scraps to later feed your plants and that's a whole spiritual-like life-cycle fuckery going on that I really enjoy engaging in. But I'm having trouble:
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Have you considered worm composting? You can allegedly do that in a small bucket under your kitchen sink and I've heard you can do vermiculture relatively smell-free even in a small apartment. It's something I'd wanted to go to a class on because I think it's an interesting concept and I want to get into gardening, I have a comfy little garden that I want to maximise the potential of.

on topic: I spent a couple of hours of my birthday at the doctor's office, then at the emergency watch at the hospital, all because I have a golf-ball sized lump under the skin near my buttock. I had not one, not two but three different doctors look at it. No fever, no signs of a cyst ready to be popped, so now I'm on a 5-7 day anti biotic regimen. Yay.
At least it isn't ass cancer.
The panna cotta I had made for my birthday dessert was hilariously, spectacularly awful. I guess you can't thaw frozen cream over low heat and expect it acts like non-frozen cream. It separated in two weird layers in the final product, with all of the milk fats as the top layer and then I guess the watery milk in a separate layer below. It didn't help that I didn't have a full litre but only 900ml to the gelatine I added, according to the recipe (because I can't math down 6 sheets of gelatine to 1l of cream to fit the 900ml I had to work with. I am dum.)
Ah well, at least my christmas honey cake that I'd worked harder for tasted better. I'll have to try that again for next christmas. Prepared properly 3 months in advance.

Trying to start being more responsible with my tugboat because I actually want to have money on the side for unforeseen stuff, or just a puppy fund for when my 10 year old dog isn't by my side anymore.
Still looking forward to my january in-patient thingie, although I can't deny that anxiety and neurotic thought patterns about it has reared their ugly heads again but this time I am informed, and prepared for the stay.
 
Happy New Year fellow Kiwis. Hope you all get to have a fantastic 2026 and that it goes far smoother than 2025 has for you all. Never been one for New Years resolutions, but I'm hoping I still get a chance to make a few more cherished memories with my family and friends, and that I can continue to shitpost with you all for a bit longer :)
 
Personally, I find New Years a little unnerving. It's a reminder that time is continuing on, always moving a little bit faster than you expected it would...

 
i hope all of my fellow niggerfaggots have a wonderful new years eve, and an even better 2026!!
i know we are all dealing with our own difficulties, and my wish for all of us is that we get through it somehow, some way, and come out better on the other side :heart-full:

 
WASR96 said:
Happy New Year fellow Kiwis. Hope you all get to have a fantastic 2026 and that it goes far smoother than 2025 has for you all. Never been one for New Years resolutions, but I'm hoping I still get a chance to make a few more cherished memories with my family and friends, and that I can continue to shitpost with you all for a bit longer :)
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Hope we get to see you in another New Year thread.
 
I'm glad this year is over TBH. On a personal level, it's been shit with a few positive developments. I lost a relationship, my DND group went full politisperg and I had to quietly dip, KingcobraJFS fucking died, I got in a fender bender at work (kept my job though, thankfully) and Fishtank got put on a long term hiatus. In a way it was like one blow after another. I also realized that I only attract crazy chicks and it makes me want to cuss out my parents for making me this way and swear off dating forever more.

BUT, there is a bright side. I moved into my first apartment and while it's had its ups and downs, living alone kicks ass and I never, ever want to deal with roommates again. And because I moved here, I found a stray kitten over the summer and eventually brought him inside to be my indoor cat. I've always wanted a cat and now I have one. I've rediscovered old hobbies too, from airsoft to coin collecting and I hope to keep the momentum going into 2026. Might as well spend my free time doing the things I enjoy since life sent me my own way.

I enter 2026 facing an uncertain, but cautiously optimistic future and no matter what happens, there will always be stupid shit on the internet to laugh at. At least I'm not Ian Johma.
 
I ended up failing my first semester of college pretty bad, half of my classes got a big fat F on the gradebook. Not that I'm surprised. I am disappointed though.

Now my plan is to work for a while and live with my parents (paying a small chunk of rent, but that's okay) until I can go back with my own money and a fresh start. If I'm being honest I knew things were over from the first day in August. I hated the building, the people, the atmosphere, not even just classwork and assignments. Even high school was better because I had people to talk to. I guess that's what you've gotta expect from a community college (lmao) but yeah. Anyway, I'll do a post-mortem for people I never answered.
Friend of Dorothy Parker said:
I have questions. Why don't you feel motivation to get things done? Is it bc your classes are a lot of general classes/ do you know what you want to focus on & do you have goals?

That commute is fairly long, which is tiring if you're not used to it (and often even if you are). Do you have classes everyday? Do you stay on campus to study or just gtfo after class? What about extracurriculars?
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I don't even have the motivation to play video games and slack off some days. I sleep until noon a lot and don't get out of bed until the dread becomes too much. But to answer your question, the only classes I passed were the ones not related to my major. Funny how that works. I never had any goals, my father just wanted me to go to school and I went along with it. I have no idea what I want to do in life even though it's been several years since HS ended. Usually I'd GTFO after class, yes. The place was really uninviting, I felt like I was being stared at for just being present. I'm not even fat or a tranny!
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Don't you have any classes you enjoy and find interesting? It's been a while, but I remember I had a few teachers in uni that really captivated my attention. Others plain sucked and it made me hate the subject matter too... Maybe it has something to do with that for you too?
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I did have one, my English Composition class, which I passed with flying colors. The professor was a very liberal and progressive type of guy but he was also understanding and I genuinely think he had some good insights when things weren't about politics. My final essay was about shilling nuclear power and I got a 90 on it along with a lot of nice thoughtful comments from him.
Other than that, one of my professors could barely speak English (some Chinese lady who was late by 15 minutes at least once a week) and the others were just meh. I think you're right though, the person teaching the course actually matters a lot more than I first thought.
 
I'm so burnt out in a weird way. Up early, to bed late, very productive yet once I sit down am ready to do something, I just don't. I've got a lot of games and books I wanna experience but I just can't sit down to do any of it. I get bored enough of trying to find a game that I read, which is to say I read a lot, but it doesn't feel like a real hobby or as useful. It's more of a "I've read that book" than "I experienced and enjoyed it".
William F. Clinton said:
Personally, I find New Years a little unnerving. It's a reminder that time is continuing on, always moving a little bit faster than you expected it would...
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For once I've no deadline for a new job, no ticking timer to get out of a terrible market lest I get stuck for life. Somehow I avoided the usual feeling of "people are out there experiencing life unlike me". I did see some younguns waddle around drunk at 11, probably on their way to a party. I still have the juvenile perception of parties; "wow, new year's! Start of a new life; dope a baddie, move to a new country, wahoo!". Reality is that most people just dine it in and go back to work.
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Even high school was better because I had people to talk to. I guess that's what you've gotta expect from a community college (lmao) but yeah.
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I went into uni thinking it'd be the american fairytale: 100% of my time put into it, engage in clubs, legacy, lecturers. Nah, it was closer to public school than high school. People met, studied, went home. They already had their friends and family. Those of us who moved to study, uprooting from everything, were basically fucked. No wonder I feel isolated, not having moved back. It's rough as shit starting from zero, because your best chance is to be adopted into a social circle or find other people who have no one else, and they're likely in that position for a reason.
 
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PetiteFeet said:
Have you considered worm composting?
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Yeah, but I don't know where I'd have to go to find worms. Still, I eat a significant amount of oranges per day, which acid would irritate their skin.
There's the fermentation approach, which results in a semi-digested product as opposed to compost, but I somehow don't trust that. It's a gut feeling, honestly.
 
⋖ cørdion ⋗ said:
I went into uni thinking it'd be the american fairytale: 100% of my time put into it, engage in clubs, legacy, lecturers. Nah, it was closer to public school than high school. People met, studied, went home. They already had their friends and family.
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This is close to what happened to me. Everyone would come out of the classroom practically running to take the bus home. I would stay in uni talking to people for a while before they would ask me the same thing repeatedly: "Do you have class later?," to which I'd reply no; "Wait, if you don't have class why don't you go home?" Right.
 
Had no guests for the 31st, but in the words of Arnold "What can stop me? Nobody will stop me!", so I made a nice set of meals for me alone and spent evening watching traditional New Year's movies. And you know what? That was the biggest piece of holiday cheer I've had in a while.

In 2026 I wish you to not waste your soul on something bad, like anger or hatred and save it for good things instead. They are here, you just gotta notice them. Happy New Year everyone!
 
Venezuelan neighbor played loud spanish music all night apparently. I understand fireworks and some music until like 2 am since this is New Year's, but I got woken up at 7 am and they were still going... Woke up multiple times until I gave up on sleeping around 11 am and they were STILL going. Around noon I walked by her house and she was smoking by the window STILL PLAYING MUSIC. They played shitty spanish music with the windows open for this entire time. Not a good start to my year...

Would love some kind of advice or at least someone relating to this. Can't really play loud music to make her get the hint because that would bother the other neighbors, especially the elderly lady next to me that is super nice. I gave her the stink eye as I was walking past (I wasn't able to control my face, I truly feel so disgusted by this woman's existence) and I'm pretty sure she started insulting me in spanish, which LOL. I know the landlord so if this repeats after new years I'm gonna have a polite word with him. She also litters in front of her house and that's pretty gross, she's pretty gross in general. In appearance, in spirit, etc.
 
Mike Patton Official said:
Venezuelan neighbor played loud spanish music all night apparently. I understand fireworks and some music until like 2 am since this is New Year's, but I got woken up at 7 am and they were still going... Woke up multiple times until I gave up on sleeping around 11 am and they were STILL going. Around noon I walked by her house and she was smoking by the window STILL PLAYING MUSIC. They played shitty spanish music with the windows open for this entire time. Not a good start to my year...

Would love some kind of advice or at least someone relating to this. Can't really play loud music to make her get the hint because that would bother the other neighbors, especially the elderly lady next to me that is super nice. I gave her the stink eye as I was walking past (I wasn't able to control my face, I truly feel so disgusted by this woman's existence) and I'm pretty sure she started insulting me in spanish, which LOL. I know the landlord so if this repeats after new years I'm gonna have a polite word with him. She also litters in front of her house and that's pretty gross, she's pretty gross in general. In appearance, in spirit, etc.
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I once encountered a person like this when I rented a room for a month. I hate and despise disgusting beings like that with no self control. She rarely walked her dog, the female spitz, so sometimes there were dog doodies around the apartment. The smell of something resembling weed prevailed at night. I once woke up at 3am and heard her yelling some crazy bullshit on the phone.
That whole month felt like I was in some sort of a drug den. I'm glad it was long time ago.
 
U-107 said:
I don't even have the motivation to play video games and slack off some days. I sleep until noon a lot and don't get out of bed until the dread becomes too much
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⋖ cørdion ⋗ said:
I'm so burnt out in a weird way. Up early, to bed late, very productive yet once I sit down am ready to do something, I just don't. I've got a lot of games and books I wanna experience but I just can't sit down to do any of it. I get bored enough of trying to find a game that I read, which is to say I read a lot, but it doesn't feel like a real hobby or as useful. It's more of a "I've read that book" than "I experienced and enjoyed it".
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Can I recommend to the both of you, to detox from the internet and your devices as a whole? Anhedonia and burn out is something I'm intimately familiar with, and whenever I've taken a longer period of time away from a screen my energy and desire to do things I enjoy increases.
It's not a fix that will happen over night and it might not even be the root of your issues, but it won't be harmful to you to try.

I went to bed at like 5:40AM, after changing my bedsheets and taking a shower, and woke up at 11:something AM, got dressed and fed the dog, put her in her harness and then went for a walk. I put on Joon the King's idubbbz video to avoid my ever-present anxiety because keeping my attention on a voice and an interesting topic helps me ignore my thoughts. I didn't time our walk, but I'd wager we were gone for our usual 1-1.5 hour.
Made porridge after I'd wiped the dog down with a towel, true to the season it was rainy and wet out and I don't want wet dog prints in my fresh linens. I'm debating whether I should take a quick 30 minute nap and actually stick with it only being 30 minutes, I have a nasty habit of sleeping for an hour or two because my bed is just so comfy, but I know I'll be completely drained in around 5 hours time from now (it's 3PM in my timezone).

Laundry has been folded and put away, with the freshly washed laundry hanged to dry.
Mildly optimistic, but also got the pessimism bubbling in the back of my skull. I cannot deny that my patterns of behaviour are so ingrown that I could bet money on me failing to change not even 24 hours into the new year...
 
BABANGUIDE64 said:
I once encountered a person like this when I rented a room for a month. I hate and despise disgusting beings like that with no self control. She rarely walked her dog, the female spitz, so sometimes there were dog doodies around the apartment. The smell of something resembling weed prevailed at night. I once woke up at 3am and heard her yelling some crazy bullshit on the phone.
That whole month felt like I was in some sort of a drug den. I'm glad it was long time ago.
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Just sucks because this is my home like I'm not renting or anything, this is where I'm gonna stay hopefully forever. It was a very safe quiet street until a couple of years ago because it used to be just a bunch of old people and now they're all dying and being replaced with brazilians and now venezuelans apparently. Grim.
 
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