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Dizzyuntildeath said:
or talk to AnOminous about food, he seems to have an extensive knowledge about cooking, preserving, canning, etc.
I want to do some preserves and fermenting next year.
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Maybe. Maybe I won’t give up this site then. I was considering doing it since I‘ve noticed that whenever I go outside, I get this twitchy sinking need to bail on whatever I went outside for and spend the rest of the day on KF. But I guess that’s not bad if I’m bailing to talk about canning.

Really if I take your advice, that could recontextualize a lot of my issues, then I don’t have to give up the site. I’ve always felt bad for cutting off my friends mid conversation to scroll KF, but that’s not bad if I’m also replying to a DM on KF. It’s essentially just cutting them off to, ya, scroll. But also talk to someone else. I could go on but ya I think I get the point.

I’ve been scared to give up this site, cause I just have this big need for it, so I’m glad I don’t have to
 
Lingering butter taste said:
Maybe. Maybe I won’t give up this site then. I was considering doing it since I‘ve noticed that whenever I go outside, I get this twitchy sinking need to bail on whatever I went outside for and spend the rest of the day on KF. But I guess that’s not bad if I’m bailing to talk about canning.

Really if I take your advice, that could recontextualize a lot of my issues, then I don’t have to give up the site. I’ve always felt bad for cutting off my friends mid conversation to scroll KF, but that’s not bad if I’m also replying to a DM on KF. It’s essentially just cutting them off to, ya, scroll. But also talk to someone else. I could go on but ya I think I get the point.

I’ve been scared to give up this site, cause I just have this big need for it, so I’m glad I don’t have to
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Uh, that's a lot to unpack.
You sever friendships to read and post here?
 
Lingering butter taste said:
Oh.
Well, I’m still friends with them. We just don’t really talk as much. Or, usually I cut the conversation short or interrupt it to read and/or post. They don’t seem like they mind. I think.
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Are you seeing a counsellor or therapist? I'd bring this up. It's not the KF thing, KF is just a placeholder. There's an avoidance element in there.
 
Dizzyuntildeath said:
Are you seeing a counsellor or therapist? I'd bring this up. It's not the KF thing, KF is just a placeholder. There's an avoidance element in there.
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Oh, no, no, I genuinely enjoy talking to my friends! I’d hate to make them look like they’re bad, they’re amazing and I love them. It’s just that I can’t really function unless I check the site. I don’t like cutting them off, KF just feels more important, yknow? Whenever I’m not checking it, I get worried that I’m doing something KF would disapprove of. Like, for example, I was going out to see a movie the other week and I told my friend to hold on for a second cause I had to check to see if KF approved of the movie.

I have a psychiatrist, I gotta get a therapist though.
 
Lingering butter taste said:
Oh, no, no, I genuinely enjoy talking to my friends! I’d hate to make them look like they’re bad, they’re amazing and I love them. It’s just that I can’t really function unless I check the site. I don’t like cutting them off, KF just feels more important, yknow? Whenever I’m not checking it, I get worried that I’m doing something KF would disapprove of. Like, for example, I was going out to see a movie the other week and I told my friend to hold on for a second cause I had to check to see if KF approved of the movie.

I have a psychiatrist, I gotta get a therapist though.
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What compels you to permission seek from autistic strangers?
 
Dizzyuntildeath said:
No, thank you. That's not a personal attack, I just don't like the inherent lack of transparency that comes with DMs. Many a Farmer has found their downfall via leaked DMs.
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That’s fair. Well, I guess it’s technically on topic (the topic being user’s feelings) so I’ll answer your question here then.

I guess it’s cause I don’t trust myself to know right from wrong. There’s a lot I thought was right, but then I came across Kiwifarms and I realize it’s wrong. And I never would’ve thought it was wrong unless KF scared me straight. KF made me realize there’s real consequences to being wrong, such as social ostracization and public mocking. KF gave me a sense of shame beyond morality. Before, I’d only feel shame whenever I did something I felt was morally wrong. Now, I feel it even if what I’m doing isn’t necessarily bad imo, but in KF’s opinion. It makes me feel uncool. Before I just wanted to be myself, now I want to be cool. And KF is the best guide to being cool.

Think about it, there’s no other site on the internet that will teach you the way KF does. Everywhere else, you sorta just find “likeminded individuals”, on KF there’s a certain mold you gotta fit into, and if you don’t, you get bullied out. I saw someone on here once say that bullying causes social cohesion, and they’re right. KF is how you achieve that mold, and maybe it makes me stressed or unhappy or whatever, but it’s “right”.

Seeking permission to do something from KF is probably the best thing you could do for yourself, it’s not that far off from like podcasts or anything. You’ll live a boring life, but a righteous life.

There’s some that may want to contest what I am saying, there’s some that’ll say I need to learn to decide things for myself. But what about the people that “decide things for themselves” and decide to be furries? Or trans? Or some other bad thing? These people would benefit from scrolling the farms as much as I do. Checking my phone’s screentime, it’s the third most used application on my phone. Can you imagine all of the wrong decisions I have avoided?

Besides, where else would I get permission?
 
Lingering butter taste said:
Seeking permission to do something from KF is probably the best thing you could do for yourself, it’s not that far off from like podcasts or anything. You’ll live a boring life, but a righteous life.
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Hard disagree.
Lingering butter taste said:
Besides, where else would I get permission?
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Your moral compass should be internal, not external. It can be influenced from the outside, but making others make your choices for you will lead you to very scary and lonely places.

I submit into evidence all the KF users that became Halal and the Spergitory thread topics. KF is not the monolith, and you shouldn't fool yourself into thinking it is. KF users are also just humans like you, and we can also make mistakes or poor judgement calls. Consistently making other people make your choices for you is a sign of something bigger and far more troubling than a simple addiction.
Again. Ask your therapist.
 
I think it's really funny that your profile picture is Harold/The Internet Historian, I read all of this in his voice.

Lingering butter taste is our resident OCDfag who is going to ask for reassurances until the end of the world (or something in them changes.) That might be a cruel way to put it but I have a lot of sympathy for that situation and I kinda said my two cents on the vicious cycle of OCD in this thread a while ago.
 
bliblblblbbllb said:
Lingering butter taste is our resident OCDfag who is going to ask for reassurances until the end of the world (or something in them changes.) That might be a cruel way to put it but I have a lot of sympathy for that situation and I kinda said my two cents on the vicious cycle of OCD in this thread a while ago.
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Well, Dizzy said that using the site’s fine, so I hardly see a reason to change.
 
Dizzyuntildeath said:
or talk to AnOminous about food, he seems to have an extensive knowledge about cooking, preserving, canning, etc.
I want to do some preserves and fermenting next year.
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AnOminous is a font of hilarity and deep knowledge. His contributions to a multitude of threads I frequent, like the SteveMRE thread, are always fantastic.
Luv me old fags, luv me non-cow boards, simple as.
 
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