How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Jimmy Dean Bowl]

Amid the serious posts, I offer some nonsense.
I drank today for the first time in years, and one cocktail knocked me on my ass so bad I had to go to bed at 3pm.
Tolerance = gone. I'm going to be a cheap date

 

[PetiteFeet]

I only wish BPD wasn't the default setting for the majority of women.

Hey now, some of us come preprogrammed with other personality disorders

 

[DenseDeerFather]

Hey now, some of us come preprogrammed with other personality disorders

Suppose the lizard men didn't notice occasional system errors in the human replica factories.

Oh, but alas!

 

[PetiteFeet]

Suppose the lizard men didn't notice occasional system errors in the human replica factories.

Oh, but alas!

 

[Orphaned Punk]

I was gifted plants to look after. I thought this was a joke, a caretaking test, or a white elephant, but I'm actually really enjoying it.
My ginger plant is growing nicely. It’s already reached the top of the windowsill.
I’ve also been given a mystery plant to wash; for all I know, it could be plastic.

I'm feeling the burn in my heart when she smiles. Fuck.

I'm gonna get this one for her in return, the biggest one they have, that, and socks.

Did you know microwavable plushies for period cramps exist? I didn't! Now I do!

Portions of my life are being put into perspective. An early life wasted picking pubes out of my teeth.
I’m applying to nursing; I’m going to get in, and in six to eight years, I’m going to fuck off to my own version of paradise- the best laid plans of mice and men.

 

[James Brown]

Don’t know if this counts as blackpilling,but it feels like the world in general has lost all its moral compass these days. It wouldn’t surprise me if someone rapes a kid in public and people will just looked the other way.

100% agree with the last sentence. Something is very off and violent right now, made worse by the masses' timidity and the powers that be focusing on Israeli dicksucking. Going to certain places feels like I need to be prepared for a nigger a schizophrenic a troonshine mutant someone to lunge at me. The worst part is knowing no one will help you anymore, just film. Im planning to see a family member soon in a semi-shitty area they've lived in for decades and actually feel on edge for the first time - especially because its full blue on self-defense.

 

[McMitch]

Despite the fact it is fucking winter and the ground is fucking frozen, the faggot retard civil planners have decided to completely shut down the road I take from work for construction, which means I can either route a) to the interstate which runs downtown during fucking rush hour or b) through the town that tickets you for going 1 mph over.

 

[Squanto Airi]

It sounded more like one of these wanted to make it more than a friendship (read: penis in vagina) and the other didn't. This being practically the norm in mixed gender friendships i stopped being friends with women. The only women i regularly hang out with are the girlfriends and wives of my male friends. With those the friendship is great because both sides know right of the bat anything else but pure friendship is off the table.

pretty much how intergender friendships turn out 99/100 times

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

Cock. and. Ball. Torture

Girlfriend was looking into CBT for a while and telling me all about it and i made that dumb joke every single time Pretty sure she still hates me for it

 

[Eric Blair's Footnote]

With posts that are somewhat longer than average, you're supposed to highlight the text you want to quote.

Ahh okay, ty.

I don't get too much into the theory of it, but from my experience an amount of CBT can be helpful, because some things do need to be challenged, but I have met people who use CBT to essentially repress things, by conditioning themselves to challenge thoughts and trauma to the extent they don't admit them to themselves. Not to say this is commonplace. I've just witnessed it.

Unfortunately it's hard to build regimes that help people, because everyone's process and traumas are different. Good luck working on yourself for yourself.

 

[Nick Bockwinkel's Belt]

from my experience an amount of CBT can be helpful, because some things do need to be challenged, but I have met people who use CBT to essentially repress things, by conditioning themselves to challenge thoughts and trauma to the extent they don't admit them to themselves.

This is why CBT has never worked for me. To me, CBT is attempting to gaslight myself into thinking my shitty life isn't really shitty, and the trauma I've experienced wasn't really that bad. To my surprise, when I explained this to my therapist she agreed with me, and hasn't tried to push that BS on me since.

 

[Zak_McKrackepidemic]

Got a really bad concussion back in late November. Got knocked out for few minutes and when I woke up I was temporarily blind, had an incredibly loud ringing in my ears, and was uncontrollably shaking.

Went to the urgent care a couple hours later once I was feeling better and they just let me go with some painkillers and anti-nausea meds.

Now, a couple days ago, I got a $341 bill from the UC office despite the fact that I have health insurance. Called the insurance company and they told me that the bill should've been completely covered. Now I've gotta call the UC office and tell them they fucked up.

 

[Mr.Bucket]

Tldr: lonely, depressed, feel like I'm coming down with something, losing seemingly good friends over something I have no control over, absolutely exhausted from brutally long work hours. 90% of work is done and gone for retooling but my area probably has to stay all this week and possibly into next week. Dad wants to take me out on my birthday but I'll probably be working. Been doing 50-64 hour weeks since before thanksgiving. And I'm out of liquor so I can't even drown my sorrows when I finally get out of this hellhole for the night in ~two hours. Really could use a lady to talk to other than my cat. She doesn't say much and pukes a lot.

Sorry for the incoherent rambling.

 

[Otterly]

Being friends with the opposite sex is something you either can do or you can’t. I seem to be OK at it, hopefully, but I have seen it go quite wrong a lot.
@WASR96 please report back on the tank driving, I’ve always wanted to have a go at this and am reliably informed that being short is no impediment at all to doing so (pls confirm or deny)
How men go for BPD women always puzzled me, like how women go for for absolute monsters. It probably took me until my early thirties to realise that it’s not just the sex and the dazzle, but also an intense beam of affection and love aimed their way, and we all want that. I think what all of us want is that profound connection to another, and not all of us find it in life. Maybe very few of us.
@Mr.Bucket will you get a chance for a rest over Christmas ? That kind of work intensity is brutal.

 

[TotalNematodeDeath]

Woke up and felt like the worst of my flu was over and I was ready for my day. Hour later and hell no (even if the doctors note cleared me for today) do I feel good enough for jack shit. I'm struggling to keep my breakfast down while I leak toxic tar from the other end. I'm shocked the urgent care doc expected me to work again after only 3 days of the flu.

 

[JustStopDude]

Still stuck in Texas, along the Mexican border, fixing shit for my previous employer that fired me.

On a positive, this warranty work is costing so much time I'm pretty sure they lost money selling the VFD's to my new company.

On the negative, I'm stuck in Brownsville Texas.

Also really disappointed I haven't spotted Tyree Sneed in his batman costume ranting on his phone to for his livestream.

 

[WASR96]

please report back on the tank driving, I’ve always wanted to have a go at this and am reliably informed that being short is no impediment at all to doing so (pls confirm or deny)

I can actually already confirm that not only is it not an impediment to be short, you'd actually be more comfortable being short rather than all of the tall guys. A lot of military weapons platforms are usually a lot easier to be in for the short guys. They even have a height cutoff (or at least they did when I was listing my jobs way back in the day) for certain jobs like Aerial Refueling since the boom pod is so small. I was also advised not to list HH-60 bases if I got Aerial Gunner since I'm tall and lanky. I was told my neck and knees would never be the same. I met and worked with a few different armor guys from the Army, the tank and bradley guys were all short except for one giant, brick built dude who definitely should have been a linebacker for the NFL instead of a 19K. I'm mostly going so I can shoot stuff the ATF says I'm not allowed to own, like the AA-12 and MG-42, but I'll double verify the leg space for you for a few different tanks

Brownsville Texas

Fuck. That. I'm so sorry. Will you be able to make it home for the holidays at least? Will you be flying out of a less shitty area when you get to get out of there? I can at least give you some amazing restaurant recommendations if you get up near a more civilized part of Texas.

 

[Otterly]

I'm mostly going so I can shoot stuff the ATF says I'm not allowed to own, like the AA-12 and MG-42, but I'll double verify the leg space for you for a few different tanks

Damn I really wish I could do this with you. It’d be great fun. Do report back! I think there’s somewhere down in England in Salisbury you can drive tanks around but they sure won’t let you blow stuff up. You yanks get all the fun.

 

[JustStopDude]

I can actually already confirm that not only is it not an impediment to be short, you'd actually be more comfortable being short rather than all of the tall guys. A lot of military weapons platforms are usually a lot easier to be in for the short guys.

Ain't that the fucking truth. I had to get a waiver for being too tall back in 2000 to enlist.

I always laugh when people act like tall people have the world on easy mode. I can't even buy shoes from a normal store, let alone cloths. If it wasn't for the VA, I wouldn't be able to easily get steel toe boots in my size at all. I'm probably going to die early because of my heart trying to pump through such a large body. Flying on a plane is a fucking nightmare if it's a puddle jumper. And I'll always get some obese person that acts like we are in the same boat. Um no. You can put down the fucking fork. I can't cut my legs off at the goddamn knees.

And dealing with cops is always fun because there is always one hard ass that has short man's disease and wants to kick my ass because I got a foot over them in height.

Seriously, once you are over like 6ft, the taller you are, the worse it is.

Fuck. That. I'm so sorry. Will you be able to make it home for the holidays at least? Will you be flying out of a less shitty area when you get to get out of there? I can at least give you some amazing restaurant recommendations if you get up near a more civilized part of Texas.

I'm trying to fly back either today or tomorrow. I can't wait for the freakout from my old company about how much they owe my new company.

 

[PetiteFeet]

Attempting to make ginger bread cookies, I say cookies because the cookie cutter I have that's allegedly "man" shaped doesn't look like that to me and I'll probably just do hearts, stars and Christmas trees instead. I'm nitpicky like that.
We don't really have a tradition of baking ginger bread, so it's my first time attempting it. My entire house smells of spices now, mostly cloves because I had to grind some in my spice mill. I'm not sure I mixed the dough for long enough but we shall see.

Weirdly, I am feeling pretty Christmassy. Normally I don't really get into the spirit of the season, I'm all Christmassed out before December 1st because the shops will have been playing Christmas music all through the ass end of October until December, but I think the lack of expectations from my family (the only children in the family, my nieces, are in Thailand with their parents, so I don't even have to worry about putting on a facade of Christmas whimsy for their sake) has allowed me to completely let go of the storm inside of me that I usually go through.
I'm actually shocked at how fast December has gone by already, and I can't wait for January.
The only hurdle between then and now is my birthday. I don't know what I want to do for my birthday dinner - for many years we've had a tradition of going to the same restaurant, a vietnamese place downtown, but I want to do something much more lowkey and cook instead. Anything but beef, we're having steak or a roast for new years.

Despite my shitty sleep schedule, I think I might actually be having a good day? Weird how that works.

ETA - gingerbread recipe is banger. I'll definitely make a second batch.