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I'm doing alright, mostly furious at numerous factors which are outside of my control but I've been through and have survived much worse. It's not worth getting too wound up at them because there is absolutely nothing within my control that I can do about them.

I think it's just a shitty Monday + Daylight Savings happening make it a nasty combo.
 
My life is, again, mixed. IRL, things are going decently well; health's good, job is doing alright - even if the tranny and other issues keep pissing me off - and I got a family trip coming up that I'm looking forward to. On the writing side of things... things are both forwards and backwards, I've got some decent writing stuff down, but there's a certain... issue that's been cropping up again and again that's been preventing me from making any real progress, and I officially need to get it handled before the end of the month. Tried talking to someone about it, but he has yet to get back to me despite saying otherwise.

So, yeah. This is my life.
 
I wish I never decided to major in engineering. Man.
TRUTH NUKE I’m a Wildlife Science major myself and for some reason they have me taking a chemistry class. As I’ve griped to everyone else the only reason I passed Chemistry the first time around in high school was because Covid saved me
 
Got back this afternoon from visiting my parents for a couple days. It was nice, and they had a little party on Saturday. Dad ended up drunk and somehow hurting his arm.
Also currently waiting for midnight to change my name cause I'm a retard and waited far too long to change it for spooky season.
 
TRUTH NUKE I’m a Wildlife Science major myself and for some reason they have me taking a chemistry class. As I’ve griped to everyone else the only reason I passed Chemistry the first time around in high school was because Covid saved me
I'm really glad my military transcript knocked out all the pre reqs when I went to college. I only passed high school chemistry because the teacher had a soft spot for anyone who would talk football with him before class. Didn't pass a single test in his class, but he always manually kept my grade at a 70. I definitely would have failed college chemistry, discrete math and computer architecture made me study my ass off/rage enough. Best of luck to you!
 
Who is the sick fuck that made it so that appliances like dishwashers/drying machines/etc don't actually have power cables and you have to wrap exposed copper wires together in a conversion kit? Once I figured out what to do it didn't take long but JFC, completely unnecessary.
There can be a significantly larger contact resistance in the socket&plug connection (let alone more of them, like through a power-strip (!)), especially if the last revision of the socket was, like, never. Which can trip the breakers all the time or even cause a fire. A drying machine is a particularly demanding appliance energy-wise, as it creates both heat & rotary movement. Hardwiring the machine makes a larger and more secure contact area and is safer.
That said, if you made a cable with a plug at one end and wired it to the machine, it's against the very reason it comes without a cable.

To provide some tax, I hate that my scope of work is all office and no trades these weeks. It makes me feel all weak, frustrated and fidgety.
 
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There can be a significantly larger contact resistance in the socket&plug connection (let alone more of them, like through a power-strip (!)), especially if the last revision of the socket was, like, never. Which can trip the breakers all the time or even cause a fire. A drying machine is a particularly demanding appliance energy-wise, as it creates both heat & rotary movement. Hardwiring the machine makes a larger and more secure contact area and is safer.
That said, if you made a cable with a plug at one end and wired it to the machine, it's against the very reason it comes without a cable.
This almost sounds like BS to me because in Europe all home dryers and washing machines come with a normal Schuko plug. But perhaps there could really be an issue with contact resistance since US homes are wired for 120V AC instead of 230V AC, so the amperage would be higher at the same power as an EU device? Still, while I don't know about US plugs, Schuko ones are rated for 16A. This means almost ~3.5KW. At 120V that would only be 1.75KW, but surely that's enough?

Ok, I wrote all that but now I looked up actual power consumptions, here we mostly use heat pump dryers which run at about 1KWh max. However, vented/condenser units seem to use 3-5KWh. So that would be very bad if you are using a standard 16A plug that wouldn't even handle half the required power. So replacing the junction box with a plug would be a VERY BAD IDEA on a vented/condenser dryer!

Thread tax: idk man, good in some ways bad in others, winter time and loneliness are always a bad mix, but such is life and I have plenty of things to keep me busy. I'll just keep on keeping on.
 
This almost sounds like BS to me because in Europe all home dryers and washing machines come with a normal Schuko plug. But perhaps there could really be an issue with contact resistance since US homes are wired for 120V AC instead of 230V AC, so the amperage would be higher at the same power as an EU device? Still, while I don't know about US plugs, Schuko ones are rated for 16A. This means almost ~3.5KW. At 120V that would only be 1.75KW, but surely that's enough?

Ok, I wrote all that but now I looked up actual power consumptions, here we mostly use heat pump dryers which run at about 1KWh max. However, vented/condenser units seem to use 3-5KWh. So that would be very bad if you are using a standard 16A plug that wouldn't even handle half the required power. So replacing the junction box with a plug would be a VERY BAD IDEA on a vented/condenser dryer!

Thread tax: idk man, good in some ways bad in others, winter time and loneliness are always a bad mix, but such is life and I have plenty of things to keep me busy. I'll just keep on keeping on.
Personally I've come too many times to a normal EU standard portable heater plugged overnight in some shitty power strip that was almost melting, and that's engineers I work with. I've even attached a warning to the cord, and brought it up several times, but it was like talking into a hollow oak.
If a cable not being there is what makes such people call a specialized guy, so one link from the chain of stupidity is removed and the building doesn't burn down, then I see the point.
 
Update, found a vet within walking distance (which is good as to avoid subjecting dog to the getting into and out of cars, which he reacts to terribly) who's willing and able to do the surgical cleaning, and I can afford. Already took a test and we'll have the results tomorrow; if it's ok we'll do it, if not he says with the current treatment (plus some extra antibiotics for some hardier bacteria), he would most likely recover, it'll just take longer.

I'm less worried, and I hope everything goes alright tomorrow.
Results are in, too risky to sedate, blood tests show several alterations, could all be due to the accident, or preexisting. They've got him on fluids now to try to revert anemia (this is most likely because of the bleeding over all these days), will try to do an ultrasound to see what's going on inside the wounds, but the plan right now is a slow path to recovery by home treatment, medicine, maybe special food.

I'm super worried again, but one thing the doctor said that makes me a little optimistic was that since this happened on Wednesday, it's been several days and if the injury was truly dangerous, he'd be in a much worse condition by now. Still, worried, scared.
 
So I called my foster brother today. For once, it was not a mentally destructive conversation. I usually have a bad case of mental illness overload + emotional self-harm after speaking with him, but not today. I do however feel a little something different now.

Mainly because the family appears to have hit dire straits. Bro has been diagnosed with PTSD. Foster dad got a blood clot in the brain. Foster mom's health is failing. Everyone is stressing out.

And me, well I feel....idk. It's kinda hard to listen to and not feel something inside. They treated me awfully, and I resent them but I don't hate them. Filial love is one hell of a thing and it's deeply upsetting hearing about it.

Man, sometimes I wish I weren't a feeling person so I could be like "sucks to be you, bitches" but I can't. I suppose there's always gonna be a part of me that holds them in some regard because some kids just have that mentality towards parental figures. Hell, I had those feelings for my birthmom even though she beat the everloving piss out of me daily and let very bad people around me without a care.

It's not healthy at all, and I do tire of those damn emotions. It sort of feels like emotional cancer because it's so corrosive and potent, yet it fucking hurts. Especially when said bonds are super one-sided.

I have the feeling that when they actually kick the bucket, it will hurt, and I will be in mourning. I had sort of hoped that I could go about it with a detached sense of inevitability or have that weird feeling you get when someone you know dies but....
 
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This almost sounds like BS to me because in Europe all home dryers and washing machines come with a normal Schuko plug. But perhaps there could really be an issue with contact resistance since US homes are wired for 120V AC instead of 230V AC, so the amperage would be higher at the same power as an EU device? Still, while I don't know about US plugs, Schuko ones are rated for 16A. This means almost ~3.5KW. At 120V that would only be 1.75KW, but surely that's enough?
In the US all(98.6%?) clothes dryers are either gas or resistance electric. The electric ones universally use a plug and require a 240V circuit typically 30 amp. Heat pump dryers are pretty rare. Electric ranges, the freestanding kind, use a 240V 50A circuit with a plug connection. Cooktops and built-in(wall) ovens are hardwired.

The only houses that are 120V only would be those that exclusively use gas for cooking, laundry, water heating and house heating.
 
i'm in my own space, in therapy, and making (small) progress in getting better. turns out having such high perfectionist standards for myself and a desperate fear of not being enough is counterintuitive. who woulda thunk it?

feeling pretty crappy still, i won't lie. but i'm going to do better, little by little. feeling really cringe a lot of the time about being nice about myself in a non ironic way and opening up to the people i care about, but it has to be done. its easy to yap anonymously on the internet about how you feel but when its actually telling people 'i have hit possibly one of my lowest points and i feel like i'm falling apart and falling behind other people constantly' its kinda. cringy. it's gonna take one hell of a while, i think, but i'll be okay. eventually. i hope. i feel like i've been put through the fucking wringer. it would be nice to not hate myself constantly and be this depressed.

tldr naptime needs to stop bullying herself and actually start saying nice things and open up to the people she cares about. lame, honestly, but doctors orders. take your meds kids.
 
For the 3rd time in less than 2 months my car has had some sort of shitting the bed issue that stops me from driving it. I’ve taken it to an oreilleys to have them run a diagnostic test on it and both times it said something different but it seems to always revolve around an electrical issue
And now today when I went to start it up it didn’t turn over and a couple of warning lights on the dash lit up
At this point even if it turns on again I’m afraid to drive it anywhere and get potentially stranded with the kids in the car :roll:

I have an appointment to have it looked at by the dealership but didn’t expect to have this many issues in a car that’s less than 3 years old and less than 20k miles
I’ve flirted with the idea of trading it in but it’s almost paid off…
And yet you have clapped out 99 civics everywhere that seem indestructible, I don’t get it
 
A month ago I got bit by an animal hoarder's German Shepherd. I still experience fatigue and have to sleep for 12 hours to feel normal. I didn't go to a clinic until a week ago, but they didn't find anything wrong. I admit I'm scared.
Animal control called today and said the dog had a rabies vaccine, and before that I had two people tell me it couldn't have been rabies. I admit I still don't totally know what's going on, the doctor told me I had an above normal white blood cell count. Anyway I got on insurance so I at least have that.
 
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