Not great.
So whenever a semester ends I feel really down/antsy, like the world is ending (because a familiar routine is interrupted and I stop seeing the same people), but generally not that bad. But lately I've also been dealing with severe mood disorder anyways. I was on antidepressants/anxiolytics and it seemed to have cured me, but then like everything I do, it just up and stopped working for the most part. So I do still feel better than I had, but the problems have come back in force. It didn't help that it was raining constantly for days.
And while the break has started, I just feel exhausted and no motivation, lay around all day. I still make myself go and do things. People throw around "tough grass" and "exercise" and shit like that, but exercise itself makes me feel tired, come back from swimming and be drained the rest of the day.
I'm also antsy because there's an undergraduate - I'm a graduate student, not far in age from them - that I want to ask out, but I have to wait for the professor to take his sweet time finalizing the grades before I'm allowed to, which is already several days past when we were originally told. And the longer it is past the end of class, the less likely it is that a student's just going to be checking their email.
