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Finding myself mad at the internet over obvious bait. Mostly just thinking about it, not posting. I read these threads and go “are people really this retarded? Or am I the retard?” Both are strong possibilities. I check the new threads here, and see an obvious bait thread get tons of replies. Seriously, everything on the internet is just rage bait or pure retardation. I seriously need to leave the internet. There was some (alleged) story about a guy who was described as “terminally offline” and man I wanna be like that guy. Living life, touching grass, being there for people, ignorant of online lobotomites. I need to learn this power. But alas I’m still addicted.
 
Dizzyuntildeath said:
What front desk position is so stressful that the bar for entry is a psych evaluation to see how far you can be pushed before you snap?
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I could see using a test like this to screen out worthless cuck losers not worth hiring. I.e. if they actually do the test they're worthless, and if they tell me to go fuck myself, they're hired.
 
Chiang Kai-shek said:
Finding myself mad at the internet over obvious bait. Mostly just thinking about it, not posting. I read these threads and go “are people really this retarded? Or am I the retard?” Both are strong possibilities. I check the new threads here, and see an obvious bait thread get tons of replies. Seriously, everything on the internet is just rage bait or pure retardation. I seriously need to leave the internet. There was some (alleged) story about a guy who was described as “terminally offline” and man I wanna be like that guy. Living life, touching grass, being there for people, ignorant of online lobotomites. I need to learn this power. But alas I’m still addicted.
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You know, there's something to that addiction concept. So maybe look into ways or support for treating it like an addiction - figuring out what it is that draws you & when, and creating different routines (future habits) to change what you reach for when you feel that pull. A coach or cbt therapist might be helpful.

You already know that it feels unfulfilling and maybe worse for you to be online, which is a really good indicator that it truly is. You're not alone. None of the rage bait or other lures really matter, so if you can find better things to spend time on, all the better for you. You don't necessarily need to cut down the internet (right away), but maybe going for a walk (or whatever) without your phone, then doing that a few times a week, etc., will help start to break that dependency/ easy hit. Or some people might respond better to having a commitment at a certain time/day that at least gives them some experience with other things that might ultimately win out. Or 10 things, ymmv, but starting with one might be good.
 
Bowl of Ramen said:
haven’t seen any homeless
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You mostly won't, in residential areas, except maybe for a stray passing through. Where I live we have a really visible citywide problem with them, which I hope your area does not. I'm aware of it mostly from my workplace, and once you know the tells, you can spot individuals and spot where they congregate/camp pretty easily. I hesitate to make the comparison, but it's like bugs. You have bugs in your house, but they mind their own business and stay hidden in daylight -- but you DO have bugs. Maybe not many, but you do. Even really nice houses do, it's just not obvious.

The neighborhood where I live is slowly-gentrifying but still urban and a bit patchy. I wouldn't leave anything out that wasn't locked, too heavy. or somehow bolted to the ground. Bastards took my little sleeping cat statue from my backyard. Admittedly the only yard is partially fenced and this summer it was a bit neglected, but still, it was something that wasn't a throwaway. I'm still pissed off about it.
 
I'm doing okay so far.

My trip to the Pokémon World Championships back in August was a mixed bag, while I liked being around that many Pokémon fans I kind of half-assed it a bit and I couldn't really play in any of the side events present. That said it was a learning opportunity for next year's event which I hope will do better.

A friend of mine convinced me to get a Disneyland Magic Key (specifically their Enchant Key) after months of badgering about it, I do miss going to Disneyland even though I've become a bit iffy about the company in general. And while I'm not a big fan of being a SoCal resident for obvious reasons I'm thankful that it makes the pass' eye-watering $974 price tag a bit easier to swallow thanks to their SoCal-exclusive monthly payment plans. I'll be sure to try and go at least once a month or so to justify the cost.

Oh, and said friend has also invited me (and a couple of others) to a "farewell to summer" trip to one of SoCal's local water parks. I haven't been to one since I was an Archen and most of the memories I have of 'em are good (barring one time I caught strep throat at a water park in the Eastern US). Said friend also asked me to do some research on rash guards and if you can wear 'em on tubeless water slides since one person in our group gets sunburn easily.

On the family front Papa Archeops has mostly recovered from his spinal disk surgery, he's now walking around without assistance from a walker or cane but he still needs some assistance with certain tasks. Mama Archeops has flown the roost to Canada for family-related things and won't be back for another week.
 
I am on a streak of bad luck and this makes me triple anxious about doing anything. I feel like falling asleep for several days in hopes of waiting this shit out. On the other hand, even if it ends what comes after? Another calm before the storm. "Good times for a change", eh?
 
Chiang Kai-shek said:
I check the new threads here, and see an obvious bait thread get tons of replies. Seriously, everything on the internet is just rage bait or pure retardation. I seriously need to leave the internet.
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I usually just stick them a dumb sticker and move on,those accounts usually don't last long in kf.

Edit : Forget what I said,I'm caught off guard by just how vile some of the shit were in the the Charlie Kirk's thread. Most of it’s from old users too.
 
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Feels like every day, no matter how many victories I pull at work, I end up with a feeling of some tiny little thing nagging at me. I replaced someone who has been here for a year, so all the internal people I deal with basically go "we used to-" instead of.. explaining it. As in expecting I'll be here going forward. I'm basically learning tardwrangling from the ground up with no instructions. Death by a thousand cuts.

Friend of Dorothy Parker said:
You know, there's something to that addiction concept. So maybe look into ways or support for treating it like an addiction - figuring out what it is that draws you & when, and creating different routines (future habits) to change what you reach for when you feel that pull. A coach or cbt therapist might be helpful.
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Bro has a bad habit, like most of us, and you immediately go to therapy. -Everything-, even mainstream news, go on ragebait. The world has never been more outrage-based and you'd take that to a therapist. You're a breasted individual, aren't you?

I face the same issue but rather in way of realizing how much a waste of time all of this is. Reading about strangers, posting about strangers, bothering with strangers. I've no issues spending 20 mins stuck on the couch with my cat or reading 30 pages of a 1990s novel. It's practically productive compared to whatever happens on the internet, especially foreign.
 
⋖ cørdion ⋗ said:
Feels like every day, no matter how many victories I pull at work, I end up with a feeling of some tiny little thing nagging at me. I replaced someone who has been here for a year, so all the internal people I deal with basically go "we used to-" instead of.. explaining it. As in expecting I'll be here going forward. I'm basically learning tardwrangling from the ground up with no instructions. Death by a thousand cuts.
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I feel your pain. I got hired by this company to do remote field commissioning on medium voltage stuff. I move all the way from the East Coast to the West Coast and my second day, they make me a project manager on a job that is six months behind, I have no idea what the status of things are, and this isn't what I signed up for.

Everything is on an old guy's computer. Every time I try to do something for the project, I got to check with this boomer three times to make sure I have the latest documentation. And he is a nightmare to get a hold of.

Literally got off the phone with the HQ manager after yet another disastrous meeting.

"We really need you to start focusing on this project. No one could even understand you over the background noise. It's really unprofessional"

"Yeah. I understand but I can't talk right now as I am in the middle of a rocket test. Can we talk around 9pm tonight?"

"This is a prime example of what I'm talking about about JSD. We need you to focus".

I sit in these meetings that he shows up for half the time. I'm supposed to be conducting these things while in a drive room in a completely different time zone.

I'm constantly getting blindsided by shit and it's obvious to everyone that even though I'm the PM, they can't get shit out of me so I'm getting bypassed all the time by suppliers and integrators. Like I missed an invoice to review and sign. I contact the boomer.

"Where is this invoice? It's not in the project server or was updated to the PO to send out an auto email to me and the rest of the team"

"Oh that shit is a pain. I got it on my hard drive."

This fucker literally just needs to click and drag a goddamn PDF into a folder.

I am so ready just to break my lease and move back east. This fucker is supposed to be training me and that consists of "it's complicated. I'll do it"
 
I'm doing slightly better now, but the warm season has ended, and just thinking about the upcoming weather makes me feel iffy. Might as well celebrate what this year provided.
 

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Today required beer and life long friends and am glad that I had both at the bar after work.


What happened to Charlie Kirk today has made me genuinely mentally destroyed and frustrated.
I wasn't even like a big fan of the guy but you could tell the moment the bullet hit him how all of the libshits were going to react and gravedance on him.

MoeAnguish said:
I'm doing slightly better now, but the warm season has ended, and just thinking about the upcoming weather makes me feel iffy. Might as well celebrate what this year provided.
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At least the fall colors is the best thing around except for when the flowers begin to bloom in spring.
 
⋖ cørdion ⋗ said:
Feels like every day, no matter how many victories I pull at work, I end up with a feeling of some tiny little thing nagging at me. I replaced someone who has been here for a year, so all the internal people I deal with basically go "we used to-" instead of.. explaining it. As in expecting I'll be here going forward. I'm basically learning tardwrangling from the ground up with no instructions. Death by a thousand cuts.


Bro has a bad habit, like most of us, and you immediately go to therapy. -Everything-, even mainstream news, go on ragebait. The world has never been more outrage-based and you'd take that to a therapist. You're a breasted individual, aren't you?
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I am both quite breasted and quite untherapied. But a bad habit's a bad habit, and there's nothing wrong with sourcing options that might help things stick.

I also note that I specifically said coach/ cbt therapist. Those are people who help people build better patterns of behavior, not necessarily explore why you scream at the sight of squirrels due to some infant trauma.


⋖ cørdion ⋗ said:
I face the same issue but rather in way of realizing how much a waste of time all of this is. Reading about strangers, posting about strangers, bothering with strangers. I've no issues spending 20 mins stuck on the couch with my cat or reading 30 pages of a 1990s novel. It's practically productive compared to whatever happens on the internet, especially foreign.
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And yes, the internet is largely an opportunity to waste time and not do deeper, better, more difficult, or more fulfilling things. Which is a good reason to disentangle from it if it's diverting from good things or a healthy mindset and orientation. As for strangers, personally, I like people, and I "bother with" strangers in real life and on the internet. I haven't found it wholly inconsistent with living a full life. Ymmv.

And as for your work situation, if you want to know how to do something, ask someone or figure it out. And just because it used to be done a way doesn't mean you can't make it better. I personally find that being able to cultivate good working relationships is critical (and enjoyable), and sitting around annoyed about being expected to take initiative rarely goes exceptionally well.
 
My right eye is having a dramatic meltdown today for no discernible reason. I'm giving it drops. It doesn't care. Every blink has a 25% chance of starting a minute-long, "was that your EYELID you closed over me or SANDPAPER?" It's been like this for a few hours, only now starting to calm down. Not a fan of those days when a body part decides to blow a gasket.
 
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