Hey guys, how has everyone been?

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I had an audition today for a chorus for a music festival. I haven't really auditioned for much in the outside world (ie something not for school), so even though it was just a choral thing (idk the chances for solos), it was a little nerve wracking. My etiquette was a little off since they deviated from standard audition routine. Who needs to introduce themselves anyway? Right? RIGHT? Blah. At least my name was on everything.

That said, the panel picked the song I was hoping for and I think the actual singing went pretty well! And I didn't look like a complete hot mess, which is also nice. I'll hear about it in a week, they said.
 
My day was mostly good. Got a B+ on a biology lab quiz and on a religious studies exam and a C on a computer repair quiz. I did however find out from a voice mail I got yesterday that the bronchitis I thought I had yesterday is really pneumonia. As long as I take my meds and check back with the doctor on Monday, I should be good.
 
I've been doing poorly at keeping my spergery in check recently. Better stop coming on here for a while.

I've thinking about taking a few months or even more off form the forums now that Deagle Nation is over with being "real". These past few months I've been getting a lot of anxiety form the forums and being a person with an anxiety disorder, I really don't think this was good environment for me to be in the first place. I always end up worry about what I post and the reaction I will get from it to the point and I finding myself constantly checking the forums for new alerts. So I think it's best I leave the forums for a while because I'm just not finding the fun anymore, but also IRL stuff has been hitting me pretty hard of late. I don't know whether making this post was really necessary, but I feel getting this out will help bring a the closure to help give peace to my mind.
OH LOL, right after I had finished typing the above, I read your post. I have terrible anxiety issues as well. I hope things turn out well for you and that you feel much better once you come back!
 
Today's the day of my Frozen play!

Already did the matinee, and now we're going to the cast party at 4:30, but first I'm having a bowl I shouldn't be having now because I'm going right back out, but too late. *yawn*
 
Bad day at work, drinking more than I should on a work night. Annoyed that Saturday is Monday for me. Can't take much more of this shitty manager. He's retiring sometime within the next few months but I'm putting in applications elsewhere anyway. The entire company has shitty policies and incompetent management.

At least spring is almost here.
 
Now that my life is calming down and I'm finding more free time and spare cash, I've been considering getting back into doing strange sorts of things I used to enjoy doing.
Still need to give it a bit more time before I start blowing money and piling projects on myself though, I suppose.
 
not so great.

yesterday was...interesting

so i cut down on drinking and then on just a bit of alcohol (relatively, for me), i feel REALLY drunk. something's not right. and i start feeling really shitty so i just go lie down and wait. i didn't sober up at any point. in fact it got worse.

then i started hallucinating. under normal circumstances i might have audio hallucinations before or just after sleep - here i was having lots of visual and olfactory hallucinations. i got startled several times but i calmed down when i figured i wasn't going get any screamers or anything.

actually it was pretty cool, but unnerving since this never really happened to me before. i'd smell a dozen different things like raspberry sherbert or something random like that, on occasion i thought someone in the living room was yelling something, but he claimed he didn't make a sound, the walls were bulging, in darkness i'd see patterns and textures, machinery, weird contraptions, and the faces of people and animals (not looking too distorted or scary or anything).

i'd close my eyes and my eyelids would seem like they were becoming transparent and i'd be looking at someone's dining room or something like that.

if i were walking, to get more water or something, i'd have a REALLY hard time with it. even when i'm near-blackout drunk i can at least walk kinda straight, but i wasn't even drunk and i felt really shitty and the room was spinning. then i'd go collapse on the bed again and have a very vivid dream with gross annoying shit thrown in and i'd be incredibly incompetent and my short term memory wouldn't work.

i'm not the only one who's sick today, but while i'm feeling pretty shit i'm not seeing stuff. might have heard some shit earlier, but nothing right now.

i'm just glad to return to chris cocks to make my day go better.

overall

it was a strange last night. i guess it balanced out to be neutral in the end.
 
My Frozen play is over, and it was a smash hit. People were loving my performance as Marshmallow. The costume ended up being primitive, but I'm damn good at making dramatic entrances, and I jumped on stage and screamed my "GO AWAY! LEAVE! DON'T COME BACK!" like a real monster. I was also one of the henchmen who chased down the Queen, and I was so agile on stage, and threatening with my performance, it seemed I made a baby in the audience cry with my scary, threatening voice. What can I say? I'm a method actor.

On my way back to the nighttime performance, I stopped at the gas station for some chocolate and people done been hearing about the matinee. The whole thing was so enjoyable.

Now its back to work and… Oh no! ITS SPRING BREAK MONTH! Wooooooooooooooooo!
 
Going back to the doctor today to see how my pneumonia is doing. After that, I'm gonna study a bit of statistics and finish the cheat sheet my professor allowed the class to have for the statistics exam I have tomorrow. I'm sure I can do well so long as I study and use the sheet to remember how some problems are when worded.
 
Broke a tooth last night, and was in agony most of the day I was able to get in to my dentist quite sharpish and have a lovely pile of painkillers and a appointment for the dental hospital next week to get it removed.
 
After two days of my voice seemingly returning to normal, it's back to a hoarse croak and my throat hurts like a bitch. Fuck it, I'm making another doctors appointment.
 
Had my statistics exam today. I feel I did alright but if I actually did bad then eh, I deserve it for not studying enough and understanding key concepts. Also felt that after taking the exam, I kinda realize I'm starting to sort of dry up in what I should try to take next semester to be full-time aside from classes I know I want for a major. Also starting to feel much better with less wheezing thanks to a sort of inhaler my doctor prescribed for the pneumonia. Still got a bit but if I keep taking the inhaler, I should kick the pneumonia out of my system.
 
Starting to get a cold which isn't the best thing, but manageable. On the bright side, I found out that Vanilla Pespi is back when I was just looking for ginger ale this morning. I love Vanilla Pespi back years ago so seeing it again made me the happiest person today.
 
Even though it feels pretty busy, and it is, it is still dead around the small island. After a decent night of work on Monday night, I was so eager to get off so I can go to karaoke. I drove all the way into town to find karaoke completely dead. The person who runs it told me the Tourist season still hasn't fully kicked off… Ehh..

But time on these islands passes quick, and hundreds of people are always passing. Things could be much different for tomorrow night. Every Full Moon on the island called Lubbers (and that is its name) they do the Full Moon Party. Which is my favorite thing to do around here.

And I am off for it. AUGH YEAH
 
yesterday i got shitfaced before work to see if i could get away with it. i passed with flying colors. in fact, my bosses and coworkers were DELIGHTED to see my drunk ass and made it a point to tell me they missed me!

some backstory- few months ago, they cut costs and didn't call in a whole ton of the staff. as a direct result of not giving me work, the place was a complete disaster. i know, i visited. it was awful. i thought "why the hell am i not making money??" and was looking for another job at the time. i actually brought this up. my scheduler laughed and didn't have a direct answer but said something about how they realized their stupid mistake.

don't give me work = your establisment will be a disaster.

after all, i'm the best damn cleaner on staff.

i wonder if they knew i was drunk on more than 7 shots of vodka. i could navigate a half-broken cart through a narrow, cluttered passageway several times, without any accidents or bumping into anything. not like i'm going to get behind a wheel or anything, no, but i even impressed myself!

i was really stressed out a LOT over not having any work. thank god that won't be an issue anymore! they learned to appreciate me.

:smug:
 
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