"Gayboy" is a very on the nose nickname for Jordy, that got a chuckle out of me.
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She doesn't need the money. It's about the attention and validation.
One of the things that has always fascinated me about anorexics who are deep into their disorder is how it really does seem like there is a monster inside of their head that never goes away and never stops talking.
I recently watched the documentary that had been posted here in the thread not too far back called "Emma wants to live". It's about forty five minutes long, and it is worth the watch.
One of the scenes in there shows a moment where she's not far off from when she's gonna pass away, but she is still trying to bargain and compromise about eating food and drinking juice. She wouldn't let herself lie down to sleep because she burned more calories sitting up. That's how much she let her demons get a hold of her. Even if she did want to live (and I'm not entirely convinced she did at the end) the monster in her head was louder and stronger. In a way, it's like willpower spun out of control into something pathological. These women and girls become so good at using willpower to deny themselves that eventually the willpower and the stubbornness takes over, even if they're at the point where they want to try and get better.
How loud is Eugenia's demon? And has she ever had a moment where she actually wanted to fight back? I think she's scared, but I'm not convinced she wants to get better. I'm not convinced that she even understands there's a problem, I go back and forth on how much self awareness she has about her situation and her health.