People have broken down your sorry book line by line, telling you exactly what's wrong with it. Instead of appreciating their effort and trying to improve yourself, you just whine about how terrible your life is. It's clear you don't want to make any change in your life.
I have no intention of doing that!
Of "doing" that? You did that.
Except it does happen every time. Why?
I disagree with this, but you've been throwing a really big hissy fit lately, and what it sounds like is you're not doing anything with your life. You act overly self-important because you're "writing a novel" but nobody cares about the process just the product. Once you've written a good novel you may be a big deal, but you haven't so we don't care about the fit you throw when we give you advice.
You haven't changed at all. You say you're in the process of changing but you haven't. Don't act like you have. It's not an overnight thing, so don't act like things have suddenly changed.
An autistic who lives with his parents at 19 years old, has been writing a novel for about 5 years (and hasn't finished it.) is only taking one class at a time in college and doesn't really do anything else. So yeah, we might not know about what you've done, but we know the shit you're doing now.
Chris has said this several times, and every time when people meet him they normally think he is the same as he is online or worse. I'm going to assume you're about the same because you've been pretty spaztastic and haven't really tried to change.
We won't know whether you truly choose to change or not unless your behavior changes. We'll be watching.
Its kind of hard to divorce yourself from your past when you've left a LARGE internet footprint that will never go away. You can try to move on from it, but you'll never be able to live it down if you keep repeating the same behavior like you've been doing.
I'm not going for a pity party, Uzumaki. This thread has been on my mind for the past several days, and it has really been bothering my conscience.
They are defined by their past and their present. You've been the same in the past as you are in the present. They aren't defined by their future because we don't know their future. The only thing we can define them by is their past and how they act in the present.
What does this even mean?
Could you elaborate on this? How is it bothering your conscience?
You know what should be on your conscience? Your life. How anyone can stand to inflict this upon himself is beyond me. You've utterly failed to see any good in your life, and expect us to feel sorry for you. Do you know how lucky you are? Some people actually have to work hard in school and pay their way through college.
I want to help myself. I want to succeed, even if it means I'll lose happiness and sleep trying to do so. I know that I might fail, but fuck it, I'm going to try anyways. True, I have a defeatist, pessimistic attitude that will not benefit me in the long run, but I can change it. It takes time, willpower, and effort.
I have been almost physically sickened by the fact that I have left such a significant Internet footprint that I have become the subject of my own thread on a forum dedicated to the borderline-cyberstalking of lolcows.
Don't you feel its a little hypocritical of you to say that when you were a normal member before all this? I don't think you can really act like laughing at spergs is below you.