I've been thinking about the things I said, the things I said after that, the response to both, and how I felt about it.
I'm starting to wonder that even if I did continue to make comics about my personal experiences, then even in the best-case scenario where they would from then-on be received positively, that it would still be bad if the feelings themselves are the problem. Because if the goal is to feel better, then the fact I am talking about what I am upset about means I am still thinking about the issues instead of thinking of something else less upsetting. Or it could cement actually bad beliefs that should not be reinforced if I receive praise for them.
I even thought about giving even more context to the old relationship, because I can't help swiveling back and forth between blaming myself completely and thinking that I should accept my view of relationships is wrong, and trying to do more justice to my feelings by telling people what I see as the real core reason I was angry at him that I didn't mention or make clear enough because I was too worked up to do anything but simplify to the point of obfuscating the issues. But even if I try to admit that even the real reason wasn't a reason to get angry, that's possibly still a bad idea. If it's wrong for me to do that and more context will do nothing but makes things worse, because they look like lies or like even if it happened I was still in the wrong anyway, then the temptation to do that again may become worse if I let myself be motivated by validation to make comics.
Just to be clear, I'm on this sub instead of the other one because the mods removed one of the most important comments that I referenced in the original, leaving that part without clear context. There was a lot of discussion overall from people about how they ended up removing a lot of what people thought were valid criticisms, so I'm hoping that doesn't happen in this sub.
