Seasonal summer depression vs. getting a haircut. It's unreal. I wonder how women with long hair go about it. I feel so fucking free just chopping that shit off. Then again, men love tomboys. Maybe short hair is the secret to life and that's why women get pixie cuts at their worst.
Speaking of mental wellness: Picking up extra shifts cause literally nobody gives a shit whether I'm available, let alone in my own timezone when all my 'friends' are sleeping, so who cares honestly. Instead of cutting up my arms I'm working more than healthy.
This was my biggest issue in college. I took an online class once and never again because I was the classmate everyone hates. I did literally nothing because all assignments were group assignments and no one ever reached out to me about them. I realized that the only possible way I could ever get work done was that day in the computer labs. I went right from class to a quiet room and I didn't leave until it was done.
I just read Stoner; a book about a farmer throw into academia and he doesn't exactly excel at it, but the fact he had no distractions or other passions made him good at it. Imagine then coming home and having an archaic way of studying compete with a billion-dollar doomscrolling industry. I tell myself now "I'd totally study and do well if I went back to school", but I doubt it at this point, no matter how burned out I am from gaming. That's why I hoped my uni experience would be the same as the campus life of the US. Live and breathe your education 24/7. Here, university is closer to public school than high school. Meet, be there, go home immediately. No hanging around, no clubs no nothing.
Thread tax: I really should stay away from the health & fitness side of the farms. It's embarrassing that I have to stay away from a side of a website, but I just gotta make peace with the fact that those are the cards I've been dealt in life.
I had this classmate who was behind and generally dumb but one weekend he just locked the fuck in. Showed up knowing how to tackle every problem and it got him great grades in the last semester. If you truly, truly, truly want something, you can change shit overnight. You can literally cure insomnia in ~10 days if you follow the general advice to a T. But we don't. We sneak in a lil cellphone and a lil doomer mentality as a treat. Pull the plug on your PC 2 hours before bed, don't drink after dinner, don't focus on things you can't change. Working out? 3-4x 2 hours after work, on the fucking dot. Go for a walk 30 mins before bed. Fast every other day if not daily. Lock the fuck in and you'd thank yourself for it- but instead we do a few good things and slack on others. I myself struggle because I like the challenge of changing my lifestyle but ask myself why? Who am I making my life longer for? Not a wife or kids, that's for sure.
I’d imagine you feel rather as if you went I to an industry hoping to use genetics to cure hideous genetic disorders that kill and cripple children and then saw the infrastructure used to push the Covid madness and troonism and general pharmaceutical Evil.
The cure for cancer is out there and it's not being choked to death by evil pharma, but rather the practices and fees to get anything through the system. I saw an interview with someone who helped develop the covid vaccine and they basically had a bunch of other 'first' cures but they straight up didn't have the funds. It's crazy, but on the other hand, a little bit of natural death is a good thing maybe. I work in the psych ward and half the beds are permanent residents who'd be better off with a bullet. All those people, just in this thread, saying they'd kill for a one-time visit to get a few pills and guidance. Nah, we need to keep "Frank" the homeless schizo alive.
