"how do you figure out when its not an emergency when you have emergency symptoms all the time?"
Aster also talks about how she decided to confront her friend about her antisemitic art. She thinks that if she simply cut contact, her friend would tell on her to Monique. So, Aster has to tell her she's problematic to protect herself.
Aster is allergic to Cavilon. Her port wound doesn't seem infected.
Aster seethes that she was told her spleen/nutcracker syndrome/kidney pain was actually just muscle strain.
Aster doesn't get enough dressing for her food, so she orders some from Walmart.
Her wound has pus-like discharge.
And she wants to get it cultured.
Aster is ashamed of how she was when she was 19
Aster finds a new label: "stone femme."
More port worries
Aster goes back to the emergency room on July 4th and takes some bathroom selfies.
Another port picture. Aster complains about the wound being left unbandaged in the "open er air," but takes the opportunity to take a selfie.
Aster gets IV antibiotics
Aster reacts to the Doctor's gloves
She thinks they're gonna pull the line
And feels neglected
Aster is excited for her first-ever overnight hospital stay (if you don't count the psych ward)
Aster accuses a nurse of reusing a needle and messing up her veins
Aster wants to kill herself but gets food and feels better
She starts wheezing after eating and pees many times. She says she has bladder retention.
Aster gets bedbug bites from her headphones and pees even more. She takes off her mask because she doesn't like wearing it.
Aster's mom doesn't want to visit her at the hospital because they're celebrating 4th of July with Sunny's father. This is her hurting Sunny.
Aster has a bad time
And wants to kill herself
Both Aster and her body have BPD
Aster is woken up many times throughout the night by hospital staff. It doesn't require water being poured on her.
Aster uses a tourniquet as a hair tie
Aster gets deemed a fall risk
But the nursing assistant knows she isn't and says she can use the bathroom "in secret"
Aster gets pills stuck in her esophagus and apologizes for being whiny
Aster texts her roommates and asks them to buy her stuff from Walmart
One agrees to do it.
Aster is upset that they won't let her order food before her surgery
Her nurse tells her she'll "figure it out"
Aster gives up on having her roommate bring her critical supplies
Aster comes out of surgery and is hungry. Her head hurts and she decides it's a migraine.
Aster is glad that she's being taken seriously
Aster "just realizes" she might have a cerebrospinalfluid leak (despite speculating about this at the end of May).
The nurse doesn't outright reject Aster's speculation, and says they might be able to do a nose swab.
Aster's heartrate is freaking out. She posts many pictures, but they're boring and I don't screencap them.
She tells the hospital staff, and they simply disconnect the monitors.
Aster thinks she has a blood clot
She gets a new IV. She's going to stay in the hospital for a little bit.
Aster is excited about breakfast.
Aster's incontinence is acting up
Aster's roommate brings her toiletries. Aster is unsatisfied with their performance.
Aster still has a migraine and posts about being unable to look at her phone anymore. Fifty-five minutes later, she's posting again.
She eats breakfast and is looking forward to lunch.
Aster googles her antibiotic
The hospital staff finds staph. Aster gets migraine meds.
Her family comes.
The staph is in the port as well. Aster brags about how unhealthy she looks.
Aster thinks about her recent hospital experiences.
Aster explains why she hasn't been larping. (Her system "abandoned" her.)
Aster feels neglected
Aster wants a "don't be ableist" shirt. The nurse refuses to take a look at her side, and tells her it's probably gas.
Aster considers asking her mom to bring her a hat if she's still at the hospital in 2 days.
Aster wakes up. Her port hurts and she is
completely unable to pee.
The doctor thinks she does not have an infection and that the wound is just colonized.
Aster gets catheterized and pees 500 mL. She's sure that her bladder is constantly retaining more than that ALL the time.
Still can't pee
And she wants to ask for IV saline but knows that looks silly, so she asks her followers to affirm her.
She can also barely walk.
Aster decides not being able to pee is going to be a Thing.
Aster thinks that something is wrong with her kidneys or that she has nutcracker syndrome.
Aster lightens her skin emoji. Her head hurts.
Aster can't pee and can barely poop. She talks about how she feels in her heart that she is faking her symptoms. But her logical mind wins and tells her that nobody would ever fake this.
Monique threatens to not visit if Aster doesn't shower. Guess the roommate brought her shower supplies for nothing.
Aster loves her infectious disease doctor.
Aster's bladder hurts and she feels neglected. She's been waiting for two hours to get cathed.
She gets cathed and reports releasing 900 mL of urine. She finally takes a shower.
And gets her dressing wet
She's afraid to drink water in case the hospital staff "abandons" her again.
Aster wants a full neuro workup
And she loves the night shift nurse. (coincidentally, she happens to be black.)
Aster wants to get cathed a third time before bed
Aster wonders if her bladder is going to be broken forever. She thinks about her friend with a suprapubic catheter who deals with life-threatening superbugs every week.
Aster wakes up and still can't pee.
Aster apologizes for all the medical talk.
Aster complains about not sleeping well.
and complains some more
Aster wonders if she secretly wants to be sick and if her bladder failing in the hospital is
too convenient.
Aster gets foley'd
Aster thinks her doctor is annoying. He said that if her spinal issues were causing her bladder issues, she wouldn't be able to walk. But Aster knows better.
The foley hurties
And Aster gets a picc line and coughs and wheezes
Aster doesn't get hydroxyzine, but she does get albuterol.
Aster wants a bedframe for when she inevitably goes home with a foley catheter. They told her she can do her urodynamic testing outpatient.
She makes a dono post about the bedframe.
Even though the urologist said he was sending Aster home, the hospital keeps her.
Aster admires the view.
Aster washes her hands 1.1 times per minute for 10 minutes. The hospital bathroom has black mold.
Her catheter isn't draining
Aster has the spoons to write an image description of the sunset
Aster is in a writing mood and writes about being a baby.
Aster wants to bother the nurse about her bladder some more
The picc site doesn't look good, and Aster wants to write a memoir. But she knows her mother wouldn't like it.
Aster blames her migraine on the bathroom mold
Aster recalls her post about having a complex about not feeling validly disabled because she doesn't have medical devices.
Aster is really upset about the catheter
Actually, she's coming around it it.
The hospital is too "stingy" about IV saline
Aster uses the foley as an excuse to shop for dresses.
Aster refuses to walk to help the foley drain.
The meanie hospital staff won't give her saline or hydroxyzine or migraine meds.
Aster accuses the staff of medical malpractice. Then, Aster's nurse gives her a tiny bit of extra saline.
Aster asks for advice so that she can stand up as little as possible.
Aster thinks the nurses are ridiculous for thinking the catheter is temporary.
She is also worried about the picc line.
She uses the blanket that fell on the floor that she was concerned was dirty.
Aster's picc line is sore.
Aster needs a rollator for her catheter
And she does a TikTok dance
"I knew I needed to address that asap, but I thought I had time"
Aster rips her catheter leg lock thingy
It's nearly noon and Aster thinks she'll probably be spending another night. She decides to handwash a dress.
and she spills a tub of water all over the floor.
They're probably not sending her home tonight.
Aster takes a break and makes an educational post in the comments section of some fanfic. Someone takes the bait.
nonblacks gonna nonblack
Aster gets blood thinners
Her picc line hurts, and they page the doctor.
Aster breaks the catheter statlock for a 5th time and has bladder spasms
Aster's picc concerns are dismissed as soreness
Aster likes that she doesn't have to get up to pee. She goes to sleep.
The next morning, the medical staff gives in, and a doctor checks her picc out.
Aster cuts her pajama pants into shorts
Aster keeps hitting the call light and forgetting why she called. I'm sure the staff love her.
Aster loves her lazy eye. The ultrasound hurt a lot.
Aster needs a new hairbrush
Aster gets judged when she tells a staff member about her saline infusions
Aster did not choose this life
Aster is allergic to chlorhexidine
The CNA just uses soap and water instead. Aster gets used to the catheter.
Aster explains away the contradiction in being plural and not liking they/them pronouns.
Aster tells a joke
Aster calls a nurse because her picc line is bleeding a little. A CNA tells Aster that it looks like it's coming out.
False alarm.
Aster gets told, "I know every change is concerning to you but it's fine."
Aster is scared they'll think she's a munchie
Aster wants to go home
Aster shops for "tube friendly" dresses online
Aster wants other people to tell her how bottom-up processing applies to her.
It's definitely something she deals with
Aster spotted phlebitis on the ultrasound and her nurse didn't believe her. But she was right.
Aster gets discharged with the foley catheter
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