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Sometimes I forget how insane Tilly is until I once again see several posts of her at once.
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I can't stop laughing, this is like watching someone on fire keep touching things and running to new places, hoping there will be less fire there. "Maybe the grass was already on fire before I got there?" "Please Venmo $700 so I can pack up all my still-burning belongings and cart them to my new unburnt airbnb." "It's so abusive that mom sprays me with a hose every time I visit."Aster has infested yet another AirBnB with bedbugs. But maybe they were already there?
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Alexandra takes a break from her medical school/new job drama for a solo-travel adventure to the Pacific Islands.
It was around 3rd April when she posted these. The escape from Australia was full of dramatics. On her old twitter she has Uber complaints along the same line. I really don't know why you'd keep using Uber rather than calling the local taxi company and explaining your access requirements. Yet another example of Alexandra's lack of proactivity to advocate for herself and her needs.
Following her elective where she did no work (remember her response to the r/doctorsuk drama happened whilst she was still in Australia and she said it ruined her plans to spend the day on the beach because she was curled up crying?) she goes to the Cook Islands to continue lounging on a beach to do no work. This is a fairly normal thing for medical students to wind down at the end often five long years of studying so it was part of her original travel plans but I am always disgruntled when someone who has grifted £27,816 for homelessness in 2020 ends up here six years later:
Cook Islands has no Uber provision (they have Kuber locally!) so here they have forced her hand.
She does a lot of photography and filming nice scenic views which is not a hobby out of the ordinary for low vision people (can see photos close up better). Even up to yesterday she was still posting photos and video clips to her Instagram story, but she also posted this montage of things she did.
But wait, Alexandra hears you ask, how does she get in the water without her oxygen on? I seem to recall this being discussed previously and so does Alexandra so she makes a debunking video about it. It's an incredibly inaccesible video to anyone with a sensory impairment with text and music superimposed with no captions.
Really makes me wonder about all those years she was training to be a paralympic swimmer and she didn't need it.
Something that strikes me is how dreadfully unfulfilling her solo travel must feel. She spends 20 minutes doing a water-based activity before just...lounging on the beach? It really is just her and being consumed about thoughts about what makes good content. Like outdoor showering for her story:
She also shares to her story how she makes an 'ei, the Cook Island version of a lei. The voiceover tells us how she uses tactile clues to do this but avoids telling us why with every stitch she brings it close to her eyes so clearly she is just doing this visually.
And she takes a tour on a kayak but a huge downpour ruined her day. Miraculously her hair is completely dry. She credits her survival to herself but I imagine it was a tour guide. Can you imagine Alexandra throwing a coconut up a tree to knock down another coconut
She is now back in the UK for the final month of medical school. Antipodeans celebrate for she has finally departed.
It was around 3rd April when she posted these. The escape from Australia was full of dramatics. On her old twitter she has Uber complaints along the same line. I really don't know why you'd keep using Uber rather than calling the local taxi company and explaining your access requirements. Yet another example of Alexandra's lack of proactivity to advocate for herself and her needs.
Following her elective where she did no work (remember her response to the r/doctorsuk drama happened whilst she was still in Australia and she said it ruined her plans to spend the day on the beach because she was curled up crying?) she goes to the Cook Islands to continue lounging on a beach to do no work. This is a fairly normal thing for medical students to wind down at the end of
Cook Islands has no Uber provision (they have Kuber locally!) so here they have forced her hand.
She does a lot of photography and filming nice scenic views which is not a hobby out of the ordinary for low vision people (can see photos close up better). Even up to yesterday she was still posting photos and video clips to her Instagram story, but she also posted this montage of things she did.
𝐈𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦, 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐫, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐬𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐛𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐭-𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 - 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐬, 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐞-𝐢𝐧-𝐚-𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬.
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I finally stopped pondering and recently booked my dream solo trip whilst still Down Under, to celebrate my upcoming doctor graduation. It’s been a dream (and very far-off one!) to visit the Cook Islands in the midst of the Pacific for a long time - as far away as I can possibly get from the toxicities and stresses of everyday life, for a week of living like a real-life Moana.
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As a deafblind person on oxygen, traveling solo requires A LOT of planning: medical, routing, back-up plans, risk-assessing. A lot of those frustrations I don’t always share, but I can assure you it’s not something you want to encounter. But it doesn’t mean it makes traveling solo impossible. Nor does it scare me. Once I have a plan and an idea, I will forever be on a mission until I make it a reality!
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It’s been a break full of coconuts, coral, fruit and flowers, lagoons, squeaky white sandbars and every form of watersport I could wish for. Plus sunrise dips and sunset swims, island hikes and hammocks. I don’t know if or when I’ll ever get the chance to do this again - I certainly know it’ll be a while til my next break with the start of FY1 doctoring approaching fast on the horizon.
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The first day I arrived, there was a rainbow out at sea. If you’ve followed my story for a long time you’ll know this has been a significant ‘symbol’ for me, particularly in the hard times (remembering that woven rainbow I had hung on one of the drip-stands during my 17-month hospital admission). There are always rainbows after the wildest storms.
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I guess another wild ride is on its way, but hopefully in a good, exciting sense. At least I’m more refreshed to take on the next big challenge. Next stop - home to the UK for the last ever month of med school! Hard work really does pay off, after all.
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#medicine #doctor #disability #travel #content
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I finally stopped pondering and recently booked my dream solo trip whilst still Down Under, to celebrate my upcoming doctor graduation. It’s been a dream (and very far-off one!) to visit the Cook Islands in the midst of the Pacific for a long time - as far away as I can possibly get from the toxicities and stresses of everyday life, for a week of living like a real-life Moana.
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As a deafblind person on oxygen, traveling solo requires A LOT of planning: medical, routing, back-up plans, risk-assessing. A lot of those frustrations I don’t always share, but I can assure you it’s not something you want to encounter. But it doesn’t mean it makes traveling solo impossible. Nor does it scare me. Once I have a plan and an idea, I will forever be on a mission until I make it a reality!
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It’s been a break full of coconuts, coral, fruit and flowers, lagoons, squeaky white sandbars and every form of watersport I could wish for. Plus sunrise dips and sunset swims, island hikes and hammocks. I don’t know if or when I’ll ever get the chance to do this again - I certainly know it’ll be a while til my next break with the start of FY1 doctoring approaching fast on the horizon.
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The first day I arrived, there was a rainbow out at sea. If you’ve followed my story for a long time you’ll know this has been a significant ‘symbol’ for me, particularly in the hard times (remembering that woven rainbow I had hung on one of the drip-stands during my 17-month hospital admission). There are always rainbows after the wildest storms.
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I guess another wild ride is on its way, but hopefully in a good, exciting sense. At least I’m more refreshed to take on the next big challenge. Next stop - home to the UK for the last ever month of med school! Hard work really does pay off, after all.
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#medicine #doctor #disability #travel #content
Myths and Misconceptions: holiday abroad version. How do you do water sports as a solo traveller who is also deafblind and on oxygen? Come with me to find out. Despite disability, I personally love to solo travel. It gives me the freedom to be independent but to also enjoy a new place at a very sensory level. It just requires an extra bit of planning and also some creativity in order to make sure that I am safe and prepared.
So today we are going to go paddle boarding and this is my view from my room. So I'm just going to go and get set up. I'm going to get the paddle board into place and we're going to get onto the water and we're going to go and have a paddle around. Firstly, I get familiar with my surroundings to ensure that I don't go tripping over anything like boats and kayaks.
The second thing is to create a really visible landmark. Now as someone who does have colour vision, I make sure that I put something out that's really brightly coloured so that I don't get lost and I can find my way back. So here I'm tying my brightly coloured pink sarong onto the staircase so that I can see it when I come back on the paddle board. You can also use towels or umbrellas. In my case here, there were also some really fragrant flowers in the bush near to where I was paddle boarding so I could smell my way back.
Next is to actually get the paddle board out onto the water. I must admit that this was very hard work and required a lot of attempts and a bit of a break before I then got out onto the paddle board. So I can tell which end of the paddle board I need to be facing and sitting down on based on the feel of each side. So the pointy end is the front and at the back it will have a strap that you then tie around your foot just in case you fall in.
Now to remove the hearing aid and the oxygen. When I take my hearing aids out, I'm completely deaf so I need to make sure that I have an alternative queue just in case for whatever reason I do need to come back in. I also remove my oxygen for no more than 20 minutes. This is just a rough timing but I know from years' experience that I'm generally asymptomatic for 20 minutes. I then come back in and put the oxygen straight back on and also check my saturations with a pulse oximeter. It's important that I store the oxygen nearby so that it's easily accessible but also in the shade, away from sand and away from water. These same rules apply for anything that I do that requires me to go into the water. That could be swimming, snorkelling or even taking a shower.
Now to make sure that I get the right paddle. I know that it's a single paddle for paddle boarding. As someone who cannot see the detail on the floor, reef shoes are so important so that I don't step on anything sharp that I haven't come across. And of course securing myself to the paddle board with the strap.
Let's go! Now if I'm going kayaking or canoeing, I am able to take my oxygen with me. I'll put it into a waterproof bag so that it doesn't get wet. I just don't feel comfortable doing that with my lack of balance on a paddle board. However having said that in the past, I have used an inflatable pool float to put a canister in which you can see from here was quite handy. So there are all sorts of ways, it just depends on the person. I know that obviously using a longer nasal cannula is also helpful if you just want to go into the swimming pool for instance.
So here I've been able to identify the pink beyond the green and the blue which means that I'm back at my place. Dragging the paddle board back in and that's that. From here oxygen goes straight back on. I check my saturation with my pulse oximeter and yes I have a well earned break and breather before going back to the beach.
More content soon!
So today we are going to go paddle boarding and this is my view from my room. So I'm just going to go and get set up. I'm going to get the paddle board into place and we're going to get onto the water and we're going to go and have a paddle around. Firstly, I get familiar with my surroundings to ensure that I don't go tripping over anything like boats and kayaks.
The second thing is to create a really visible landmark. Now as someone who does have colour vision, I make sure that I put something out that's really brightly coloured so that I don't get lost and I can find my way back. So here I'm tying my brightly coloured pink sarong onto the staircase so that I can see it when I come back on the paddle board. You can also use towels or umbrellas. In my case here, there were also some really fragrant flowers in the bush near to where I was paddle boarding so I could smell my way back.
Next is to actually get the paddle board out onto the water. I must admit that this was very hard work and required a lot of attempts and a bit of a break before I then got out onto the paddle board. So I can tell which end of the paddle board I need to be facing and sitting down on based on the feel of each side. So the pointy end is the front and at the back it will have a strap that you then tie around your foot just in case you fall in.
Now to remove the hearing aid and the oxygen. When I take my hearing aids out, I'm completely deaf so I need to make sure that I have an alternative queue just in case for whatever reason I do need to come back in. I also remove my oxygen for no more than 20 minutes. This is just a rough timing but I know from years' experience that I'm generally asymptomatic for 20 minutes. I then come back in and put the oxygen straight back on and also check my saturations with a pulse oximeter. It's important that I store the oxygen nearby so that it's easily accessible but also in the shade, away from sand and away from water. These same rules apply for anything that I do that requires me to go into the water. That could be swimming, snorkelling or even taking a shower.
Now to make sure that I get the right paddle. I know that it's a single paddle for paddle boarding. As someone who cannot see the detail on the floor, reef shoes are so important so that I don't step on anything sharp that I haven't come across. And of course securing myself to the paddle board with the strap.
Let's go! Now if I'm going kayaking or canoeing, I am able to take my oxygen with me. I'll put it into a waterproof bag so that it doesn't get wet. I just don't feel comfortable doing that with my lack of balance on a paddle board. However having said that in the past, I have used an inflatable pool float to put a canister in which you can see from here was quite handy. So there are all sorts of ways, it just depends on the person. I know that obviously using a longer nasal cannula is also helpful if you just want to go into the swimming pool for instance.
So here I've been able to identify the pink beyond the green and the blue which means that I'm back at my place. Dragging the paddle board back in and that's that. From here oxygen goes straight back on. I check my saturation with my pulse oximeter and yes I have a well earned break and breather before going back to the beach.
More content soon!
𝐒𝐨𝐥𝐨 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐬-𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐟𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐱𝐲𝐠𝐞𝐧 - 𝐚 𝐛𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐛𝐮𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧.
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I’m currently spending a solo break in my dream bucket-list destination to celebrate my soon-to-be graduation as a doctor. Away from all the stresses and realities of life, I’m honestly in my ‘Moana’ element. For those of you who know me will know that I grew up around water, spending a chunk of my earlier life as a swimmer on the GB team and taking any and every opportunity to do a bit of synchronised girly-twirly fishy swimming every time I hit water. But how do I do this when traveling alone, an abyss of ocean at my tipsy toes, deafblind, and on oxygen? Well I thought it’d be a good excuse to switch up the (usually medical/career related) mythbusting series a bit.
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The lagoon here means that it is so calm for doing watersports. I explain in this video how I go paddle boarding, though the same adaptations apply for anything on or in water: creating recognisable landmarks so I don’t get lost at sea (literally) - whether that’s via colourful blobs or nearby smells, how I store and transport my oxygen machine (or, if needing to go without, how I ensure I’m doing this safely whilst being equipped with how to monitor and respond to symptom changes), and how I learn how to do all this using alternative tactile methods as someone who cannot hear or see so well.
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I personally love solo traveling and I wouldn’t change it for the world. It gives me a sense of unique independence, where I have the time and space to experience new places at an especially sensory level, all at my own pace. I also love to discover new ways of adapting to a world that isn’t always so accessible.
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It won’t be long til I’ll have to leave this beautiful place. But one thing I know for sure - I’ll be returning, and,I’ll be buying a paddleboard for home - wherever I end up working as a doctor. Update on [sic - she literally leaves this incomplete. Did she skip a module on proofreading during the creative writing degree?]
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I’m currently spending a solo break in my dream bucket-list destination to celebrate my soon-to-be graduation as a doctor. Away from all the stresses and realities of life, I’m honestly in my ‘Moana’ element. For those of you who know me will know that I grew up around water, spending a chunk of my earlier life as a swimmer on the GB team and taking any and every opportunity to do a bit of synchronised girly-twirly fishy swimming every time I hit water. But how do I do this when traveling alone, an abyss of ocean at my tipsy toes, deafblind, and on oxygen? Well I thought it’d be a good excuse to switch up the (usually medical/career related) mythbusting series a bit.
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The lagoon here means that it is so calm for doing watersports. I explain in this video how I go paddle boarding, though the same adaptations apply for anything on or in water: creating recognisable landmarks so I don’t get lost at sea (literally) - whether that’s via colourful blobs or nearby smells, how I store and transport my oxygen machine (or, if needing to go without, how I ensure I’m doing this safely whilst being equipped with how to monitor and respond to symptom changes), and how I learn how to do all this using alternative tactile methods as someone who cannot hear or see so well.
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I personally love solo traveling and I wouldn’t change it for the world. It gives me a sense of unique independence, where I have the time and space to experience new places at an especially sensory level, all at my own pace. I also love to discover new ways of adapting to a world that isn’t always so accessible.
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It won’t be long til I’ll have to leave this beautiful place. But one thing I know for sure - I’ll be returning, and,I’ll be buying a paddleboard for home - wherever I end up working as a doctor. Update on [sic - she literally leaves this incomplete. Did she skip a module on proofreading during the creative writing degree?]
Something that strikes me is how dreadfully unfulfilling her solo travel must feel. She spends 20 minutes doing a water-based activity before just...lounging on the beach? It really is just her and being consumed about thoughts about what makes good content. Like outdoor showering for her story:
She also shares to her story how she makes an 'ei, the Cook Island version of a lei. The voiceover tells us how she uses tactile clues to do this but avoids telling us why with every stitch she brings it close to her eyes so clearly she is just doing this visually.
And she takes a tour on a kayak but a huge downpour ruined her day. Miraculously her hair is completely dry. She credits her survival to herself but I imagine it was a tour guide. Can you imagine Alexandra throwing a coconut up a tree to knock down another coconut
She is now back in the UK for the final month of medical school. Antipodeans celebrate for she has finally departed.
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Kinda understandable to me though. There are real stories of women not getting diagnosed with labs being way off. And munchies are lunatics who think they are just like those poor women.
I'm thinking she has to be such a pain to the deanery, because all those breaks during studies create red tape, that deanery handles. I'm starting to feel sorry for her deanery and you must now in Poland we're never sorry for the deanery.
I'm thinking they had to employ another worker just to handle Alexandra's problems lol. Unless she's actually not a student anymore because she was kicked out and now she's just lying to all of us and in 2-3 years she will have understood that doctor's job is exhausting and she will have awakened to switch to something easier.
She has a very good handwriting for somebody WHO'S BEEN BLIND THEIR ENTIRE LIFE. If she was honest she'd prefer Braille. Braille is of course a lot of fucking with the machine, but it's more convenient for somebody who is blind even if she has some remaining vision.
Tinfoil hat: she had some surgery on her eyes and now she's not that blind.
Stupid question but in contrast to other munchies she's not using a wheelchair, so what is her problem? Her oxygen tank is small, so she just needs someone blind accessible in my opinion.
I want auto translation from Polish to English to be flawless so that I can show you my lolcow and she does very similar thing. She has a decent job allegedly and she brags about it and then she grifts money and then she wastes grifted money on bullshit.
Whyyyyyyyyyyyyy is she travelling solo if she's truly disabled? If we assume for a moment she's not munching, then she's a fucking brainless retard. Like Alex Dacy is an intelligent person compared to Alexandra seriously. She has bad vision and bad hearing and she uses some machines. What if her oxygen tank breaks down and she can't read labels or whatever in order to fix it up? So she's traveling to locations that probably don't have doctors with much experience in patients like her. She can very easily end up in a very tragic situation.
Yes, oxygen-dependent people can survive like 20 minutes without the oxygen tank, but let's be honest it's more likely she doesn't need an oxygen tank lol. But what if she leaves the tank on the beach and somebody steals it? You know people aren't saints right? Or someone might just move it a couple of meters and she won't find it (she's blind) and then what? She's gonna faint.
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Ugh. Unless that water is above 80F she wouldn't be able to swim in it without cramping/myotonia, I don't care how much mexiletine you're on. If her O2 use is bc of SCN4a (Or 5 or 2 and their subtypes), there is no way she could be in that water and not cramp for more than about 5 minutes. Certainly if she needs O2 on land she needs it with the additional water pressure while swimming, that just makes it harder for her lungs to inflate muscularly which is supposedly the problem. The fuck, Alexandra?
If myotonia were to occur while she was swimming, she'd die if she were alone. Full stop.
I agree with everyone that she shouldn't practice because she's (ahem) disabled, but also she shouldn't practice because she can't even fake this shit right. I'm extremely disappointed, Alexandra. I expected someone able to get through some med school to be a little smarter than our usual girls, but alas.
Also, and this is purely anecdotal, but: people with health issues in medicine and research tend to gravitate towards studying their health issues because of course they do. There are two labs in Scotland doing SCN work, one of them world-class, and she hasn't mentioned either of them ONCE. Not a visit, not a 'thank you for your groundbreaking work', not even an allusion to their existence. I wonder why that is? Would they want her genetic results? Make sure she's in an N group? Because she certainly has an exceptional presentation.
If myotonia were to occur while she was swimming, she'd die if she were alone. Full stop.
I agree with everyone that she shouldn't practice because she's (ahem) disabled, but also she shouldn't practice because she can't even fake this shit right. I'm extremely disappointed, Alexandra. I expected someone able to get through some med school to be a little smarter than our usual girls, but alas.
Also, and this is purely anecdotal, but: people with health issues in medicine and research tend to gravitate towards studying their health issues because of course they do. There are two labs in Scotland doing SCN work, one of them world-class, and she hasn't mentioned either of them ONCE. Not a visit, not a 'thank you for your groundbreaking work', not even an allusion to their existence. I wonder why that is? Would they want her genetic results? Make sure she's in an N group? Because she certainly has an exceptional presentation.
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The fuck, Alexandra claiming that she identifies the paddle board by touch?
Seriously, if she's so frikkin blind she can't see the difference between a pointy end and a rounded one she would not be able to identify any kind of landmarks.
I have no experience whatsoever with paddle boards but simply googled and it should not be a problem to see which end is which even in the cases where they are mostly the same in shape, the colouring would be enough to tell her.
She's so shitty at making things sound believable.
Yeah sure you could see a coconut well enough to throw another coconut at it and hit it but big objects are not discernible to you.
Seriously, if she's so frikkin blind she can't see the difference between a pointy end and a rounded one she would not be able to identify any kind of landmarks.
I have no experience whatsoever with paddle boards but simply googled and it should not be a problem to see which end is which even in the cases where they are mostly the same in shape, the colouring would be enough to tell her.
She's so shitty at making things sound believable.
Yeah sure you could see a coconut well enough to throw another coconut at it and hit it but big objects are not discernible to you.
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Even with clinical findings it can be something you just have to deal with (I know you know this, as I gather you're a medfag, just pointing out for others).
If you have scarring confirmed by imaging on an organ for a known reason, to the extent that it impacts its function somewhat, in the UK you have an "abnormal, but expected" note next to any impacted biomarkers. All you have to do is try not to damage it any more, to the extent its in your hands- i.e. you can make lifestyle choices but if the scarring is due to a gnarly infection its not like you can just decide not to get another one. Presuming you're not a munchie who induced it on purpose at lest.
She's also advertising it publicly.
Having known a lot of shady people in a previous life, she's literally advertising herself as an easy target and providing her location.
Is there like a disabled persons version of the GPS emergency devices you use for solo hiking if you aren't a retard)? Or could such a device be registered such that- this person has x, y, and z disabilities so it might not be a search and rescue alert but a "solo disabled rettard needs help" one. I guess it would be country specific or require some sort of international. I know Apple watches have "it looks like you've had a fall, should I phone 999" options, no idea what they do if they shortly register your heart rate going to zero. So there is related tech.
Its probably an irrelevant musing because if Alexandra truly had an emergency on the Cook Islands, I'm not sure that a remote nation with population 25k would be able to provide the level of specialised medical care she required based on this very informative Wikipedia page (Its a list of hospitals in the Cook Islands, the list is empty).
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@glioblastoma multiforme I think you're describing an EPIRB. GPS makers like Garmin (theirs is called an InReach) and others market them for the backcountry people in the US/Canada. It's basically a satellite phone that connects you with the company who then notifies the emergency/SAR services necessary depending on where you are. There are other countries they're useful in, I am assuming most of Western Europe and parts of AUS/NZ. You can also use it to send/receive short, noncritical SMS messages to and from loved ones.
DO NOT attempt to bring one into India, they will accuse you of spying, confiscate it (they're like $500-$750) and then kick you out of the country (at least this was true back in 2023, maybe it's changed?).
E: I just caught the rest of your comment. Visiting a place with zero hospitals while O2 dependent is fucking insane.
DO NOT attempt to bring one into India, they will accuse you of spying, confiscate it (they're like $500-$750) and then kick you out of the country (at least this was true back in 2023, maybe it's changed?).
E: I just caught the rest of your comment. Visiting a place with zero hospitals while O2 dependent is fucking insane.
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For clarification this image was for illustrative purposes only. Alexandra did not write this.
Alexandra was never planning on letting an emergency getting in the way of her holidays, she's saving up for when times get tough and she needs an excuse to bow out. There are three high dependency unit beds for the whole country if she needs one though (and I think as a dependent state of New Zealand they just airlift anyone who needs ICU transfer if they don't die first).
It's about time I update you all on my doctor job allocations. Just over a month ago I shared my upset and my disappointment on where I had been allocated for my doctor job starting in the summer and it wasn't over somewhere that I necessarily wanted to be but rather somewhere that I needed to be due to my disabilities and my medical conditions. Instead of being sort of allocated somewhere that was near my medical team, my support network, somewhere that was accessible in terms of public transport, obviously being a registered blind person, I was instead allocated somewhere that was so far away from home, so far away from all my specialists and somewhere where the public transport isn't reliable given that it's slightly more rural than where I'd requested and I shared my upset online and the support I received was overwhelming and it's something that I'm incredibly incredibly grateful for.
A lot of you advised that I write to my MP, reach out to the BMA, the British Medical Association, get legal advice and so on and very quickly after sharing my news and receiving my news, I did start doing a lot of work behind the scenes to see if I could change things, see if I could amend things but yeah I very quickly realised that no matter what I try to do, unfortunately the system, the UKFPO, is not designed to meet the needs of people who have very individual circumstances and no matter how much you try and explain your requirements, they don't care, you know, computer says no, if you don't tick the box, you don't hit the box and I realised quite quickly that I had two choices, I could either sit on the floor and cry and be angry and upset at the situation but not change anything or I could just try and accept the situation and try and make the best out of something that's not ideal.
Now I spent a lifetime of having to fight and having to advocate for reasonable adjustments, equity and so on and although it hasn't always worked out, somehow I have always found a solution. It's not always been the most straightforward but with a little bit of innovation, patience and optimism, I have made it work. So I've decided that obviously I need to prioritise where I, particularly in my last few months of medical school, where I spend my mental energy. Obviously as a disabled person, already the amount of admin and fighting you have to do is 10 times more than the average person. Do I have the energy, the time and the resource to do that? I don't know.
So instead of fighting against the decision, I have ultimately decided that actually I think I'm at peace with the decision, I'm at peace with the fact that I have been allocated Dorset and instead I'm trying to now work with the local denary to see what can be done to support me and to ensure that I'm able to do my job and that feels really positive. I am going to be really far away from my medical teams, I'm going to be really far away from my support networks and honestly right now I don't know how I'm going to get around. Ultimately at the beginning I am going to have to commute for two and a half hours each way to work, so that's what five hours in total each day and I know that that's not sustainable, that's actually utterly ridiculous. But as I said the UKFPO don't care, you know, if you have to commute that amount of time to work then so be it. But hopefully this is only a short-term measure until I can get somewhere that's set up for all my accessibility needs, such as sort of installing the oxygen tanks in the house. Obviously this comes with very specific safety storage requirements and so on. So it's only a short-term measure hopefully, but yeah I've been on contract with the denary and they have been really lovely and that's not something I've often had throughout the course of my medical school journey. So to have a good vibe with the kindness and support via email communication is is a good start.
And today I've received my notification for my jobs that I will be doing and I'm really really excited. I've got a mixture of emergency medicine, acute and general med, but more importantly I've also got palliative medicine and geriatrics which are the two specialities that I really really want to do and really love. So I'm so happy that I've got these. I'm not going to share exactly where I'm going to be but I will say that I will be by the sea and having spent the last month or month or two in Australia by the sea I've realised how healing it can be to the soul.
So yeah I'm happy and at peace with things and just trying to look forwards now for what's to come. And yeah I don't know how it's going to work but like I've said I've somehow always found a solution to my less ideal situations and yeah hopefully over time I will find ways of getting around, getting to and from appointments, building a support network from scratch again and so on. So I'm very grateful for all of your your kind comments and messages of support.
It really has meant the world and yeah I'm just excited now to share the next chapter. For now I'm going to be heading home to the UK in the next few days to commence my very last block of medical school. Yeah and that just feels a very surreal thing given it's taken a decade of hard work to get to where I am. So yeah any recommendations of places to live, um things to do, how to get around, any friendly faces in the Dorset area which I know is quite a large area would be really welcomed and yeah, can't wait to share my journey.
A lot of you advised that I write to my MP, reach out to the BMA, the British Medical Association, get legal advice and so on and very quickly after sharing my news and receiving my news, I did start doing a lot of work behind the scenes to see if I could change things, see if I could amend things but yeah I very quickly realised that no matter what I try to do, unfortunately the system, the UKFPO, is not designed to meet the needs of people who have very individual circumstances and no matter how much you try and explain your requirements, they don't care, you know, computer says no, if you don't tick the box, you don't hit the box and I realised quite quickly that I had two choices, I could either sit on the floor and cry and be angry and upset at the situation but not change anything or I could just try and accept the situation and try and make the best out of something that's not ideal.
Now I spent a lifetime of having to fight and having to advocate for reasonable adjustments, equity and so on and although it hasn't always worked out, somehow I have always found a solution. It's not always been the most straightforward but with a little bit of innovation, patience and optimism, I have made it work. So I've decided that obviously I need to prioritise where I, particularly in my last few months of medical school, where I spend my mental energy. Obviously as a disabled person, already the amount of admin and fighting you have to do is 10 times more than the average person. Do I have the energy, the time and the resource to do that? I don't know.
So instead of fighting against the decision, I have ultimately decided that actually I think I'm at peace with the decision, I'm at peace with the fact that I have been allocated Dorset and instead I'm trying to now work with the local denary to see what can be done to support me and to ensure that I'm able to do my job and that feels really positive. I am going to be really far away from my medical teams, I'm going to be really far away from my support networks and honestly right now I don't know how I'm going to get around. Ultimately at the beginning I am going to have to commute for two and a half hours each way to work, so that's what five hours in total each day and I know that that's not sustainable, that's actually utterly ridiculous. But as I said the UKFPO don't care, you know, if you have to commute that amount of time to work then so be it. But hopefully this is only a short-term measure until I can get somewhere that's set up for all my accessibility needs, such as sort of installing the oxygen tanks in the house. Obviously this comes with very specific safety storage requirements and so on. So it's only a short-term measure hopefully, but yeah I've been on contract with the denary and they have been really lovely and that's not something I've often had throughout the course of my medical school journey. So to have a good vibe with the kindness and support via email communication is is a good start.
And today I've received my notification for my jobs that I will be doing and I'm really really excited. I've got a mixture of emergency medicine, acute and general med, but more importantly I've also got palliative medicine and geriatrics which are the two specialities that I really really want to do and really love. So I'm so happy that I've got these. I'm not going to share exactly where I'm going to be but I will say that I will be by the sea and having spent the last month or month or two in Australia by the sea I've realised how healing it can be to the soul.
So yeah I'm happy and at peace with things and just trying to look forwards now for what's to come. And yeah I don't know how it's going to work but like I've said I've somehow always found a solution to my less ideal situations and yeah hopefully over time I will find ways of getting around, getting to and from appointments, building a support network from scratch again and so on. So I'm very grateful for all of your your kind comments and messages of support.
It really has meant the world and yeah I'm just excited now to share the next chapter. For now I'm going to be heading home to the UK in the next few days to commence my very last block of medical school. Yeah and that just feels a very surreal thing given it's taken a decade of hard work to get to where I am. So yeah any recommendations of places to live, um things to do, how to get around, any friendly faces in the Dorset area which I know is quite a large area would be really welcomed and yeah, can't wait to share my journey.
The Dorset video is funny because it's exactly what everyone expected to happen. Something happens to Alexandra that she didn't want, she immediately kicks up a fuss in social media trying to play the disability card to get her own way, she realises that she can't and as she passes through the five stages of grief for yet another life change she makes a post about how she has accepted it and she is the most zen optimistic warrior who pushes through life even if it is not perfect, and she has succeeded before. And all of her orbiters will celebrate her for it, but she will never interact with the positive comments.
30 second summary for a seven minute video:
- It's all the UKFPO's fault for being unfit for purpose and inflexible (just like Alexandra) and she is going to start off with a 2.5 hour commute from wherever she is meant to live to her workplace at least until she has sorted out accessible accommodation. A major concern is safe storage of the oxygen tanks which is why renting isn't straightforward.
- She will start her career doing a two year placement that includes rotations emergency medicine, acute/general medicine, palliative care and geriatric medicine. There should be six total (including a general surgical rotation) so she hasn't mentioned them all but she's pleased she has geriatrics and palliative.
- She will not share where she is going but says it's in "the Dorset area" and is by the sea. I am always really surprised she says Dorset and not the name of the deanery Dorset is part of (Wessex). Now she only specifies Dorset which is really interesting because she could have kept it vaguer by just saying Wessex. For interest, that includes these hospitals (in yellow):
This should be the last one until Alexandra posts something interesting again.
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It doesn't have to be shady people. Just a bunch of 13 yo boys doing a prank on Alexandra. Or let's not be sexist, maybe some 16 years old girls will take her tank away to take some selfies. But yeah some guys might want to break into her airbnb at night when she's off her hearing aids. There is a myriad of things that can go wrong so in my opinion it's not worth it to travel solo to prove "WE DISABLED CAN TOO!!!". You can only travel solo from Poland to Czechia not from the UK to Oceania.
Or maybe she doesn't have a mate to travel with? Maybe nobody likes her? For example I don't like her cuz she's stupid.
We have a few apps of such kind not necessarily for the disabled people but maybe, and our highest mountain is merely 1.5 miles high, so I guess there could be something of that sort.
I'm interested in American (and Polish) travel advisories
travel advisories it says where it's safe to travel as an American and where it's not and I'm pretty sure the UK's version is rather similar. Some countries in the Oceania region have increased risk due to health concerns namely what glio said. Like one country had a summary along the lines "it's generally fine unless you need to be medically evacuated". I'm waiting for Alexandra to travel somewhere with high risk XD
Also it doesn't look like saving up to me. But what do I know I'm not a financial bro/bitch.
Oh okay nevertheless I don't believe Alexandra anyway
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Aster: Part 4
January 2023. Aster moves in with some roommates. Her spending and health anxiety/munchie/whatever problems start to get really out of hand.This part is a little slow. She shares a lot of her inner monologue, which is mind-bogglingly retarded and very repetitive. This part is mostly setup for the rest of her medical journey.
New Year, New Donation Post
Aster gets her lab results from her ER visit and feels her hip dislocate.
She googles her lab results and decides it's sepsis
Aster calls a nurse line and tells them all of her very alarming symptoms. They tell her to go to the ER
Aster makes a friend in the ER, but gets dismissed by doctors, even though her blood gases are "off like crazy."
Aster's black Uber driver asks Aster if she is Mexican. This devastates Aster.
Showing off her elbow joint
Aster brings up some old Tumblr drama. Being reminded of it gives her near heart attacks (psychological)
Aster gets milk tea and admires her fat tummy while waiting for an uber
Talks about seeing Orlando Bloom and known Lauryn Hill and her daughter Selah. Selah, a black woman, wore a "white lives matter" shirt once. Aster is appalled at the antiblack extremism.
Aster thinks about more celebrities. how can a white person call a black person racist? (ignore above post.)
Aster feels paranoid that haters are following her blog.
She wants to remake her blog or at least change the URL to escape her stalkers, but she's too attached to her cutsey usernames.
xe bullied me because i was more autistic than xer, even though xe was autistic xirself
Aster ruminates about the anonymous message she got in 2021. She now agrees with them fully, but thinks they were morally wrong for sending that message anyways.
Aster is certain she has chronic fatigue syndrome. Reminder that last year, someone on Discord patiently (and condescendingly) explained to her that it's a diagnosis of exclusion, and Aster pretended to agree with that.
Disagreeing with self-diagnosis is an INSTANT BLOCK
Aster doesn't know how to express negative emotion
Aster gets bored and starts making Picrews of her alters.
1) child alter 2) angry alter 3) Wednesday Addams alter 4) Aster-but-not-really
Aster reblogs a post that condemns fake-leftist "20-somethings with unnatural hair colors" and dumb LGBT pins who are uncomfortable around visibly mentally ill homeless people.
Reminder that just last year, she was posting about being upset that a homeless woman was sitting on a Walmart mobility scooter, preventing her from using it, and forcing her to eat McDonald's french fries while she waited for the other one to become available.
Aster is going to set up a GINORMOUS trash bin in her room so that it doesn't become a pigsty again.
September and December were traumatizing for her.
Aster reblogs a dono post from a woman who calls herself Dave with gastroparesis.
Pettway is her slave name.
She claims she is descended from Gee's Bend quilters. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quilts_of_Gee's_Bend
Aster complains about how her mom raised her. She claims that she
- was forced to become a surrogate parent to Sunny at 14
- was moved around the country too much
- was made to feel responsible for her mom's weed empire
- was taken to raves at age 3 and told not to accept candy from strangers
- was assaulted at a party her mom took her to at age 11
- had to move in with an abusive boyfriend to get away from her mom
Aster decides the issue that she went to the ER for was superventricular techycardia
Aster wants to turn on anons, but she can't because she has a stalker who would harass her. the only instances i know of someone harassing her anonymously are from the ScammerOrNot saga and the person who told her she needs more support than she has.
Aster has to wait 2 weeks for a cardiology appointment. She thinks she might die before then
Aster starts talking about how complex foods hurt her tummy, but luckily, lactose fixes is, and taco bell NEVER hurts her tummy.
Aster is moving back in with her mom and has bins and bins of bedbug-infested clothing that need to be washed at a laundromat. She considers tying them to the top of her mom's car. Aster's mom doesn't understand that her clothes are delicate and can't be run through the dryer on high for 80 minutes.
Aster ubers half a mile and buys an emergency powerbank and Walmart so she can attend remote therapy.
Aster has a rent emergency before even moving in to her new place
Aster copes with being misgendered by imagining she gets "she/her'd in a feminine man way"
Aster is PRO exaggerating disability!
Aster makes a donation post. In it, she complains that she has to put effort into making her donation posts extra dramatic so that they actually work. She frames this as if she's a circus animal being forced to perform.
Aster is upset that her therapist, who she is supposedly working on moral scrupulostiy OCD with, has challeneged her about confronting people over morals in group chats.
Aster thinks her mom is neglecting Sunny because she won't take her health advice.
Aster shit talks her mom to her dad. But she's not happy doing it because her dad shook her violently when she was three.
Aster is upset because Sunny sleeps in his own bed now, so she has to sleep on the floor. She is now feeling suicidal.
Aster has "no emotional object permanence." Whatever that means. This is prompted by her moving back in with her mom and remembering that she hates her mom.
Aster's mom thinks Aster is trying to guilt trip her.
Aster pivots to getting upset at people on Tumblr, and then pretends to switch to her Wednesday alter.
Wednesday wants to "
" Monique, but luckily, she's not very expressive, so she won't act on it. But Via would have!
...And that wraps up January 5th.
Five days of posts. And I only included a little over half of her posts.
I'm trying to cut stuff where I can, but I think the sheer volume of these is fascinating.
follow for more soft cripple
Aster miraculously makes it through a grocery shopping trip on her feet. She's trying to quit doordash.
Aster is going to buy her alters more cloth bullshit, even though she still has bedbugs.
Aster gets anxious about her Wednesday introject being problematic.
She decides to ignore the feeling and decorates her crutch with stickers instead.
Aster is pretty sure she has delusions and is schizoaffective. She doesn't elaborate on the delusions.
Aster makes a skibidi tiktok with her brother where she walks unassisted.
An hour later, she says that her crutch is the only reason she can walk safely today, and her poor balance caused her to break one of her mom's ceramic pieces.
Someone wants to donate to Aster, but wants to make sure she's not a scammer, so she asks for proof.
Aster does not like this.
Aster says that if the person wants proof, they should just buy her something on her wishlist instead.
The meltdown continues. Aster reasserts that she has lung damage from mold.
Aster provides proof - pictures of a dirty wall, her in a wheelchair, an airbnb receipt, and texts with her new landlord Nancy,
Aster posts a photo of the broken bone she got as a teenager that gave her a taste for the hospital life.
Aster is going to physical therapy even though her legs don't work AT ALL at the moment
Aster has been practicing controlled falls because she keeps nearly fainting.
Aster's rent goals get impacted by a storage autopayment
Aster wants to buy Doordash and new shoes, but her mom won't let her.
Aster's physical therapist assumes she's retarded. Aster skips her meds.
Aster thinks about her ankle movement too hard.
She buys herself bubblegum-flavored toothpaste to encourage her to brush longer.
Aster has infested her little brother's room with bedbugs. Aster doesn't want to tell her mom.
An anonymous Tumblr user is harassing random people on Tumblr posting about buying themselves things and telling them to go donate to Aster instead.
Seems like somebody is trying to frame Aster, but we never find out who it is. It doesn't sound like one of Aster's "alters" to me.
Aster needs $130 for the new shoes and orthotics she's not allowed to get.
Aster thinks she might have acidosis
Sunny pours water on Aster to wake her up.
This is apparently learned behavior from her mother, since Aster needs 12-16 hours of sleep and won't wake up unless water is poured on her.
Aster has chronic diarrhea. She wants bicarbonate infusions for the acidosis she definitely has.
Aster's mom tries to bond with her daughter over goth music, but Aster thinks Siouxsie is problematic.
Aster's mom, who is twice as native as Aster, doesn't see the problem. Aster thinks that her mom is less qualified to talk about this than her, since she hasn't tried hard enough to reconnect with her native side. Whatever that means.
Monique just posts about it on Facebook instead. Her friends think it's cool and don't try to start fights with her for no reason.
Aster doordashes Pad Thai while her family is out.
Aster approves of her little brother chewing on his fingers so much he has calluses
Aster thinks "little" communities are gross, and dislikes that they make her look like a fetishist when she roleplays as a child. Not screencapped because it doesn't read well, but she changes her little blog's icon in order to surprise her little the next time she fronts.
Monique finds out that Aster ordered DoorDash and gets mad. This makes Aster start talking about her suicide plans. But Aster doesn't enact it because she doesn't have enough money to do so.
Aster's roommate covers the security deposit for her. Aster will pay her back, but first she needs a bed, a shower chair, more clothes, a new phone, and more.
Aster shifts her generous weight from side-to-side while swinging her cane around.
Aster gets autocharged for a $103 yearly PDF-filing program. The refund will take a little while.
Aster posts about ignoring her tooth abscess. Someone tells her she should really get that fixed. This makes Aster mad.
Monique tries to take away Aster's phone so that she'll stop faking a hip injury and do her laundry. Aster is afraid of being physically attacked.
Aster and her stuff get thrown out of the house.
She decides that instead of doing laundry, she's just going to put her clothes in her storage unit and stay in a hotel.
Aster realizes that she should have just done her laundry.
Aster puts all her stuff in her storage unit by herself.
And she goes back to her mom's place. Guess she wasn't really kicked out.
Aster confronts her mom after getting back home. She secretly wishes her mom will attack her.
Aster finds out that the place she signed a lease for is 5 hours away by bus.
Aster posts about having long covid on TIkTok
Aster's mom makes her a leggings crop top.
White people aren't allowed to kin anime characters
Aster's mom is upset at Aster for spending money at Walmart and asking her to drive her to her storage unit while she's trying to do her homework for her PhD. Aster learns to accept that her mom doesn't love her anymore.
Aster Ubers to storage instead, but then leaves her keys in the Uber. She decides to get high.
Aster and Monique bond over Sunny's funny stacking behavior. Aster complains that her mom understands Sunny's disabilities but thinks Aster is faking because she's jealous of Sunny.
Aster thinks about her and her mom's dynamic.
After staying up all night, Aster goes to Home Depot at 6 in the morning without a mobility aid to pick up bug spray
Aster moves in to her new place with her cat.
Aster forgets to schedule medical transport, so she'll have to pay for an Uber. She will do this dozens of time over the next five years.
She showed up too late and doesn't have time to unpack much. She shows off the air mattress and bedding she bought.
Aster cannot stop dipping into the fund she is building to pay her brand new roommate back.
She is now claiming she has Raynaud's.
Aster misses virtual therapy too many times and loses her therapist.
Aster wants to buy a $22 popsocket, but doesn't
Aster goes to Trader Joes with her new roommates and putts around in the free electric scooters.
Later that day, Aster urgently needs another popsocket
Aster elaborates on her Raynaud's.
Aster buys tampons and a new popsocket.
Aster cannot stop purchasing things
Aster now considers herself a serious fall risk
Aster has an ear infection
Aster sees a name she likes and invents an alter so that she can use the name
Aster infested her mom's house with bedbugs. Aster's mom calls to let her know. Aster takes the call in front of her roommates, and is afriad they can hear. They have also been getting bug bites.
Aster says in a dono post that the bugs must have come from her phone, and it's screen is cracked, so she needs to replace it. This ignores the fact that she brought binfuls of unwashed, bedbug-exposed clothes from her storage unit.
Aster tells this lie to her mom. Her mom seems to believe it and gets mad that Aster can't just keep her phone away from her.
Aster's new plan: Get a port, get more infusions, start physical therapy, get orthotics, replace her lost CPAP machine, and re-establish care with her neurologist
Aster tries to use her phone through a Ziploc bag
She puts off doing laundry again
Aster does makeup. Guess she bought that expensive makeup palette. This makes her notice that her left eye has just "given up on seeing."
Aster says she first lost control of her body to an Alter at a whitewashed voodoo group in New Orleans when she was 6 years old.
Aster looks in a mirror and does not like what she sees
Aster wants people on TIkTok to tell her to go to the ER
Aster reaffirms her chronic fatigue syndrome self-diagnosis
Aster hasn't had soda in a week because she can't afford it.
So, she doordashes a cherry limeade
Aster keeps forgetting to refill her lifesaving medication
Rent ($750) is due in 5 days, and she still owes her roommate.
Aster's air mattress gets moldy underneath.
Instead of cleaning it, Aster decides to buy a brand new one.
Aster thinks she has covid, so she's not going to go to the pharmacy
The next day, she bribes herself into going to the pharmacy with starbucks. She purchases a tea and a croissant, but forgets about the croissant.
Affirming self through affirming others. If you think it might not be a dislocation, yes, it IS a dislocation.
start sexualizing mobility aids!
Aster does an HEDS dance. She's clearly barely capable of walking and standing.
Aster goes to PT and remembers that she loves exercising
Aster gets her lab results from her ER visit and feels her hip dislocate.
She googles her lab results and decides it's sepsis
Aster calls a nurse line and tells them all of her very alarming symptoms. They tell her to go to the ER
Aster makes a friend in the ER, but gets dismissed by doctors, even though her blood gases are "off like crazy."
Aster's black Uber driver asks Aster if she is Mexican. This devastates Aster.
Showing off her elbow joint
Aster brings up some old Tumblr drama. Being reminded of it gives her near heart attacks (psychological)
Aster gets milk tea and admires her fat tummy while waiting for an uber
Talks about seeing Orlando Bloom and known Lauryn Hill and her daughter Selah. Selah, a black woman, wore a "white lives matter" shirt once. Aster is appalled at the antiblack extremism.
Aster thinks about more celebrities. how can a white person call a black person racist? (ignore above post.)
Aster feels paranoid that haters are following her blog.
She wants to remake her blog or at least change the URL to escape her stalkers, but she's too attached to her cutsey usernames.
xe bullied me because i was more autistic than xer, even though xe was autistic xirself
Aster ruminates about the anonymous message she got in 2021. She now agrees with them fully, but thinks they were morally wrong for sending that message anyways.
Aster is certain she has chronic fatigue syndrome. Reminder that last year, someone on Discord patiently (and condescendingly) explained to her that it's a diagnosis of exclusion, and Aster pretended to agree with that.
Disagreeing with self-diagnosis is an INSTANT BLOCK
Aster doesn't know how to express negative emotion
Aster gets bored and starts making Picrews of her alters.
1) child alter 2) angry alter 3) Wednesday Addams alter 4) Aster-but-not-really
Aster reblogs a post that condemns fake-leftist "20-somethings with unnatural hair colors" and dumb LGBT pins who are uncomfortable around visibly mentally ill homeless people.
Reminder that just last year, she was posting about being upset that a homeless woman was sitting on a Walmart mobility scooter, preventing her from using it, and forcing her to eat McDonald's french fries while she waited for the other one to become available.
Aster is going to set up a GINORMOUS trash bin in her room so that it doesn't become a pigsty again.
September and December were traumatizing for her.
Aster reblogs a dono post from a woman who calls herself Dave with gastroparesis.
Pettway is her slave name.
She claims she is descended from Gee's Bend quilters. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quilts_of_Gee's_Bend
Aster complains about how her mom raised her. She claims that she
- was forced to become a surrogate parent to Sunny at 14
- was moved around the country too much
- was made to feel responsible for her mom's weed empire
- was taken to raves at age 3 and told not to accept candy from strangers
- was assaulted at a party her mom took her to at age 11
- had to move in with an abusive boyfriend to get away from her mom
Aster decides the issue that she went to the ER for was superventricular techycardia
Aster wants to turn on anons, but she can't because she has a stalker who would harass her. the only instances i know of someone harassing her anonymously are from the ScammerOrNot saga and the person who told her she needs more support than she has.
Aster has to wait 2 weeks for a cardiology appointment. She thinks she might die before then
Aster starts talking about how complex foods hurt her tummy, but luckily, lactose fixes is, and taco bell NEVER hurts her tummy.
Aster is moving back in with her mom and has bins and bins of bedbug-infested clothing that need to be washed at a laundromat. She considers tying them to the top of her mom's car. Aster's mom doesn't understand that her clothes are delicate and can't be run through the dryer on high for 80 minutes.
Aster ubers half a mile and buys an emergency powerbank and Walmart so she can attend remote therapy.
Aster has a rent emergency before even moving in to her new place
Aster copes with being misgendered by imagining she gets "she/her'd in a feminine man way"
Aster is PRO exaggerating disability!
Aster makes a donation post. In it, she complains that she has to put effort into making her donation posts extra dramatic so that they actually work. She frames this as if she's a circus animal being forced to perform.
Aster is upset that her therapist, who she is supposedly working on moral scrupulostiy OCD with, has challeneged her about confronting people over morals in group chats.
Aster thinks her mom is neglecting Sunny because she won't take her health advice.
Aster shit talks her mom to her dad. But she's not happy doing it because her dad shook her violently when she was three.
Aster is upset because Sunny sleeps in his own bed now, so she has to sleep on the floor. She is now feeling suicidal.
Aster has "no emotional object permanence." Whatever that means. This is prompted by her moving back in with her mom and remembering that she hates her mom.
Aster's mom thinks Aster is trying to guilt trip her.
Aster pivots to getting upset at people on Tumblr, and then pretends to switch to her Wednesday alter.
Wednesday wants to "
" Monique, but luckily, she's not very expressive, so she won't act on it. But Via would have!
...And that wraps up January 5th.
Five days of posts. And I only included a little over half of her posts.
I'm trying to cut stuff where I can, but I think the sheer volume of these is fascinating.
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Aster miraculously makes it through a grocery shopping trip on her feet. She's trying to quit doordash.
Aster is going to buy her alters more cloth bullshit, even though she still has bedbugs.
Aster gets anxious about her Wednesday introject being problematic.
She decides to ignore the feeling and decorates her crutch with stickers instead.
Aster is pretty sure she has delusions and is schizoaffective. She doesn't elaborate on the delusions.
Aster makes a skibidi tiktok with her brother where she walks unassisted.
An hour later, she says that her crutch is the only reason she can walk safely today, and her poor balance caused her to break one of her mom's ceramic pieces.
Someone wants to donate to Aster, but wants to make sure she's not a scammer, so she asks for proof.
Aster does not like this.
Aster says that if the person wants proof, they should just buy her something on her wishlist instead.
The meltdown continues. Aster reasserts that she has lung damage from mold.
Aster provides proof - pictures of a dirty wall, her in a wheelchair, an airbnb receipt, and texts with her new landlord Nancy,
Aster posts a photo of the broken bone she got as a teenager that gave her a taste for the hospital life.
Aster is going to physical therapy even though her legs don't work AT ALL at the moment
Aster has been practicing controlled falls because she keeps nearly fainting.
Aster's rent goals get impacted by a storage autopayment
Aster wants to buy Doordash and new shoes, but her mom won't let her.
Aster's physical therapist assumes she's retarded. Aster skips her meds.
Aster thinks about her ankle movement too hard.
She buys herself bubblegum-flavored toothpaste to encourage her to brush longer.
Aster has infested her little brother's room with bedbugs. Aster doesn't want to tell her mom.
An anonymous Tumblr user is harassing random people on Tumblr posting about buying themselves things and telling them to go donate to Aster instead.
Seems like somebody is trying to frame Aster, but we never find out who it is. It doesn't sound like one of Aster's "alters" to me.
Aster needs $130 for the new shoes and orthotics she's not allowed to get.
Aster thinks she might have acidosis
Sunny pours water on Aster to wake her up.
This is apparently learned behavior from her mother, since Aster needs 12-16 hours of sleep and won't wake up unless water is poured on her.
Aster has chronic diarrhea. She wants bicarbonate infusions for the acidosis she definitely has.
Aster's mom tries to bond with her daughter over goth music, but Aster thinks Siouxsie is problematic.
Aster's mom, who is twice as native as Aster, doesn't see the problem. Aster thinks that her mom is less qualified to talk about this than her, since she hasn't tried hard enough to reconnect with her native side. Whatever that means.
Monique just posts about it on Facebook instead. Her friends think it's cool and don't try to start fights with her for no reason.
Aster doordashes Pad Thai while her family is out.
Aster approves of her little brother chewing on his fingers so much he has calluses
Aster thinks "little" communities are gross, and dislikes that they make her look like a fetishist when she roleplays as a child. Not screencapped because it doesn't read well, but she changes her little blog's icon in order to surprise her little the next time she fronts.
Monique finds out that Aster ordered DoorDash and gets mad. This makes Aster start talking about her suicide plans. But Aster doesn't enact it because she doesn't have enough money to do so.
Aster's roommate covers the security deposit for her. Aster will pay her back, but first she needs a bed, a shower chair, more clothes, a new phone, and more.
Aster shifts her generous weight from side-to-side while swinging her cane around.
Aster gets autocharged for a $103 yearly PDF-filing program. The refund will take a little while.
Aster posts about ignoring her tooth abscess. Someone tells her she should really get that fixed. This makes Aster mad.
Monique tries to take away Aster's phone so that she'll stop faking a hip injury and do her laundry. Aster is afraid of being physically attacked.
Aster and her stuff get thrown out of the house.
She decides that instead of doing laundry, she's just going to put her clothes in her storage unit and stay in a hotel.
Aster realizes that she should have just done her laundry.
Aster puts all her stuff in her storage unit by herself.
And she goes back to her mom's place. Guess she wasn't really kicked out.
Aster confronts her mom after getting back home. She secretly wishes her mom will attack her.
Aster finds out that the place she signed a lease for is 5 hours away by bus.
Aster posts about having long covid on TIkTok
Aster's mom makes her a leggings crop top.
White people aren't allowed to kin anime characters
Aster's mom is upset at Aster for spending money at Walmart and asking her to drive her to her storage unit while she's trying to do her homework for her PhD. Aster learns to accept that her mom doesn't love her anymore.
Aster Ubers to storage instead, but then leaves her keys in the Uber. She decides to get high.
Aster and Monique bond over Sunny's funny stacking behavior. Aster complains that her mom understands Sunny's disabilities but thinks Aster is faking because she's jealous of Sunny.
Aster thinks about her and her mom's dynamic.
After staying up all night, Aster goes to Home Depot at 6 in the morning without a mobility aid to pick up bug spray
Aster moves in to her new place with her cat.
Aster forgets to schedule medical transport, so she'll have to pay for an Uber. She will do this dozens of time over the next five years.
She showed up too late and doesn't have time to unpack much. She shows off the air mattress and bedding she bought.
Aster cannot stop dipping into the fund she is building to pay her brand new roommate back.
She is now claiming she has Raynaud's.
Aster misses virtual therapy too many times and loses her therapist.
Aster wants to buy a $22 popsocket, but doesn't
Aster goes to Trader Joes with her new roommates and putts around in the free electric scooters.
Later that day, Aster urgently needs another popsocket
Aster elaborates on her Raynaud's.
Aster buys tampons and a new popsocket.
Aster cannot stop purchasing things
Aster now considers herself a serious fall risk
Aster has an ear infection
Aster sees a name she likes and invents an alter so that she can use the name
Aster infested her mom's house with bedbugs. Aster's mom calls to let her know. Aster takes the call in front of her roommates, and is afriad they can hear. They have also been getting bug bites.
Aster says in a dono post that the bugs must have come from her phone, and it's screen is cracked, so she needs to replace it. This ignores the fact that she brought binfuls of unwashed, bedbug-exposed clothes from her storage unit.
Aster tells this lie to her mom. Her mom seems to believe it and gets mad that Aster can't just keep her phone away from her.
Aster's new plan: Get a port, get more infusions, start physical therapy, get orthotics, replace her lost CPAP machine, and re-establish care with her neurologist
Aster tries to use her phone through a Ziploc bag
She puts off doing laundry again
Aster does makeup. Guess she bought that expensive makeup palette. This makes her notice that her left eye has just "given up on seeing."
Aster says she first lost control of her body to an Alter at a whitewashed voodoo group in New Orleans when she was 6 years old.
Aster looks in a mirror and does not like what she sees
Aster wants people on TIkTok to tell her to go to the ER
Aster reaffirms her chronic fatigue syndrome self-diagnosis
Aster hasn't had soda in a week because she can't afford it.
So, she doordashes a cherry limeade
Aster keeps forgetting to refill her lifesaving medication
Rent ($750) is due in 5 days, and she still owes her roommate.
Aster's air mattress gets moldy underneath.
Instead of cleaning it, Aster decides to buy a brand new one.
Aster thinks she has covid, so she's not going to go to the pharmacy
The next day, she bribes herself into going to the pharmacy with starbucks. She purchases a tea and a croissant, but forgets about the croissant.
Affirming self through affirming others. If you think it might not be a dislocation, yes, it IS a dislocation.
start sexualizing mobility aids!
Aster does an HEDS dance. She's clearly barely capable of walking and standing.
Aster goes to PT and remembers that she loves exercising
February is kind of boring. More of the same insanity, with quite a few trips to the ER. But they're not very interesting.
Aster makes rent.
But Aster is tired from physical therapy. She calls this a post-exertional malaise crash.
Aster thinks she's being judged for wanting an exepnsive powerchair
The offensive comment:
Aster slept for 17 hours the night before and wants to cancel her therapy appointment.
Aster goes anyways. She doesn't like her new therapist.
Aster has given up on getting rid of the bugs
.
Lately, Aster has been enjoying pasta salad and not enjoying reading. This is evidence of DID.
Aster's fundraiser for a powerchair is a massive success. Aster orders it.
Aster starts worrying that her wheelchair isn't expensive enough.
Aster thinks she just bit into a bedbug that crawled into her mouth.
She washes it down with soda and decides to go buy things at walmart.
Aster buys $30 electrolyte powder and necessary non-grocery groceries, such as pepper spray
Aster reveals that she has photosensitivity
Aster has been sleeping 16-20 hours a day. In this video, she complains that one session of physical therapy sent her into a 5-day post-exertional malaise crash.
Aster loses her deodorant. Emergency trip to walmart.
Aster reblogs a fatigue scale. She's usually at an 8 or 9.
Aster is browsing Hot Topic's online storefront. She doesn't buy anything because she doesn't quality for Klarna.
Aster is upset that her name has gotten very popular with teenage FtMs, which makes her feel less special.
Aster doesn't remember watching a movie she probably watched high. This is complete dissociative amnesia.
Aster discovers she has a lisp. Her roommates get sick of her watching TikToks very loudly all the time, and ask her to stop. This makes Aster think she needs to get her hearing checked.
Aster reminds her audience that light eyes are a eurocentric beauty standard, and that all eyes are beautiful and special.
On Tumblr, Aster posts about how her eyes are more special than others'. In fact, she has heterochromia.
Aster's wheelchair arrives!
Aster uses afterpay to get a doordash gift card
Aster can't focus at a poetry workshop because she started a fight on TikTok.
She decides she is LGBT phobic against white LGBT people.
Aster worries that her friends hate her, but decides that this is probably a delusion
Aster posts a scornful TikTok. She puts a transcript in the desription. #tourettes #autizzy
Aster's teeth are falling apart. Aster wants to fix it by purchasing a funny-looking autobrusher device.
Aster can't do anything about the bedbugs because physical therapy is really tiring.
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Aster needs $70 for Torrid bras before the sale ends
Aster's new chair is ready!
Aster doordashes taco bell.
That same day, Aster doordashes a sandwich
Aster in the tags. She says that when she was 16, her psychiatrist didn't diagnose her with autism because he was racist and dismissed her problems as "maladjustment."
Someone buys Aster a wrist brace, which saves her from all-night wrist spasms
Aster's cat punctures her air mattress. Air mattresses wasted: 2
Aster sets up her new air mattress and puts diatomaceous earth in it to prevent mold. But now she thinks she's allergic.
Aster's mom vents to her about something. Aster reprimands her for perpetuating ableism towards people with narcissistic personality disorder.
Aster has debt collectors going after her.
Aster worries that physical therapy is making her unable to care for herself and wants to quit.
Aster tries to tell herself that her roommates probably already had bedbugs
Aster has "fucked up her chair" already
Aster experiences transabled euphoria because of her wheelchair. She is on lamictal.
Aster is uncomfortable that her TikTok mutual has an alter that is Ciel from Black Butler and believes that you can be a lesbian who experiences attraction to males. Unlike Aster, whose alters are different underaged fictional characters and who, i guess, has moved on from calling herself a lesbian.
Aster seethes about an old donation message
Aster almost misses her cardiology appointment, but the medical transport she scheduled wakes her up.
Showing off her mildly hypermobile pinky while in the cardiologist's office
The cardiologist says the EKG looks good, and there's no need for further testing. Aster thinks this is putting her life at risk.
The cardiologist at least gives Aster a port referral.
begging for money for ice cream after her cardiology appointment
Guess Aster felt really invalidated, because later that day, she walks to a nearby parking lot and calls an ambulance because she's experiencing seizure symptoms.
Asters roommates apparently had friends over around the time that was happening. She's proud of herself for not being ashamed of the filth in her room and leaving her door open.
Aster finds progressive T wave inversion in her test results.
Aster thinks dehydration headaches are migraines.
Aster participates in a retarded tiktok trend
Aster has some issues with a crosswalk.
Aster: "reddit is a disease"
Aster goes to the Zoo with her family in her electric wheelchair.
Aster makes February rent, despite the short notice. The fundraiser was a massive success - she even got rent for March and April as well.
Aster makes rent.
But Aster is tired from physical therapy. She calls this a post-exertional malaise crash.
Aster thinks she's being judged for wanting an exepnsive powerchair
The offensive comment:
Aster slept for 17 hours the night before and wants to cancel her therapy appointment.
Aster goes anyways. She doesn't like her new therapist.
Aster has given up on getting rid of the bugs
.
Lately, Aster has been enjoying pasta salad and not enjoying reading. This is evidence of DID.
Aster's fundraiser for a powerchair is a massive success. Aster orders it.
Aster starts worrying that her wheelchair isn't expensive enough.
Aster thinks she just bit into a bedbug that crawled into her mouth.
She washes it down with soda and decides to go buy things at walmart.
Aster buys $30 electrolyte powder and necessary non-grocery groceries, such as pepper spray
Aster reveals that she has photosensitivity
Aster has been sleeping 16-20 hours a day. In this video, she complains that one session of physical therapy sent her into a 5-day post-exertional malaise crash.
Aster loses her deodorant. Emergency trip to walmart.
Aster reblogs a fatigue scale. She's usually at an 8 or 9.
Aster is browsing Hot Topic's online storefront. She doesn't buy anything because she doesn't quality for Klarna.
Aster is upset that her name has gotten very popular with teenage FtMs, which makes her feel less special.
Aster doesn't remember watching a movie she probably watched high. This is complete dissociative amnesia.
Aster discovers she has a lisp. Her roommates get sick of her watching TikToks very loudly all the time, and ask her to stop. This makes Aster think she needs to get her hearing checked.
Aster reminds her audience that light eyes are a eurocentric beauty standard, and that all eyes are beautiful and special.
On Tumblr, Aster posts about how her eyes are more special than others'. In fact, she has heterochromia.
Aster's wheelchair arrives!
Aster uses afterpay to get a doordash gift card
Aster can't focus at a poetry workshop because she started a fight on TikTok.
She decides she is LGBT phobic against white LGBT people.
Aster worries that her friends hate her, but decides that this is probably a delusion
Aster posts a scornful TikTok. She puts a transcript in the desription. #tourettes #autizzy
Aster's teeth are falling apart. Aster wants to fix it by purchasing a funny-looking autobrusher device.
Aster can't do anything about the bedbugs because physical therapy is really tiring.
.
Aster needs $70 for Torrid bras before the sale ends
Aster's new chair is ready!
Aster doordashes taco bell.
That same day, Aster doordashes a sandwich
Aster in the tags. She says that when she was 16, her psychiatrist didn't diagnose her with autism because he was racist and dismissed her problems as "maladjustment."
Someone buys Aster a wrist brace, which saves her from all-night wrist spasms
Aster's cat punctures her air mattress. Air mattresses wasted: 2
Aster sets up her new air mattress and puts diatomaceous earth in it to prevent mold. But now she thinks she's allergic.
Aster's mom vents to her about something. Aster reprimands her for perpetuating ableism towards people with narcissistic personality disorder.
Aster has debt collectors going after her.
Aster worries that physical therapy is making her unable to care for herself and wants to quit.
Aster tries to tell herself that her roommates probably already had bedbugs
Aster has "fucked up her chair" already
Aster experiences transabled euphoria because of her wheelchair. She is on lamictal.
Aster is uncomfortable that her TikTok mutual has an alter that is Ciel from Black Butler and believes that you can be a lesbian who experiences attraction to males. Unlike Aster, whose alters are different underaged fictional characters and who, i guess, has moved on from calling herself a lesbian.
Aster seethes about an old donation message
Aster almost misses her cardiology appointment, but the medical transport she scheduled wakes her up.
Showing off her mildly hypermobile pinky while in the cardiologist's office
The cardiologist says the EKG looks good, and there's no need for further testing. Aster thinks this is putting her life at risk.
The cardiologist at least gives Aster a port referral.
begging for money for ice cream after her cardiology appointment
Guess Aster felt really invalidated, because later that day, she walks to a nearby parking lot and calls an ambulance because she's experiencing seizure symptoms.
Asters roommates apparently had friends over around the time that was happening. She's proud of herself for not being ashamed of the filth in her room and leaving her door open.
Aster finds progressive T wave inversion in her test results.
Aster thinks dehydration headaches are migraines.
Aster participates in a retarded tiktok trend
Aster has some issues with a crosswalk.
Aster: "reddit is a disease"
Aster goes to the Zoo with her family in her electric wheelchair.
Aster makes February rent, despite the short notice. The fundraiser was a massive success - she even got rent for March and April as well.
Aster decides to skip showering before using her wheelchair, even though she wanted to shower to reduce the possibility of bedbug contamination.
Now that she's rich, Aster orders a purple gem ring split and a bicycle poncho for her wheelchair.
Aster embarrasses herself by telling her rheumatologist she wants to be tested for myedoplastic syndromes. She cancels the appointment.
Aster sends her friends some of her dono money
Aster mentions a 2021 incident we didn't know about, where a toddler she was taking care of snuck into her room and "tried to eat" her meds, and she got taken to court. The charges were dropped.
She also wants to buy a Nintendo Switch.
Aster finally does something smart and pays most of her upcoming bills so she doesn't waste all the money on stupid bullshit.
She leaves one April bill unpaid and buys a $45 skirt
Aster Ubers 30 minutes to her preferred ER for a bowel impaction
This is so fucking gross
Aster has bought a bunch of medical equipment
How in the world is this an issue
Aster films her blue sclera, a symptom of HEDS. This filter offers a very accurate representaiton of the true color of her eyeballs.
Aster goes "days and days" without showering while on her heavy flow period. This makes her want a hysterectomy.
Aster makes a TikTok where she isn't pitching her voice up an annoying amount.
Aster's new lore is that 'Aster' was initially an alter that split off from 'Star,' but 'Star' is mostly dormant but comes back every once in a while.
Another reason she realized she was autistic. Going to public school for 2 months in 10th grade, and getting bullied because other kids found the homeschooled kid weird.
Aster says she has scars from her mom biting her
Aster's gums are bleeding randomly
Aster is in pain and goes to the ER.
Aster makes a video where she pretends to be retarded. Compare this to the last video.
Aster tries to give a urine sample. She forgets to put the pee in a cup. She thinks that they might give her IV saline so that she has to pee again sooner. (This does not happen.)
Aster is never going to this ER again.
Aster has a bad time in physical therapy.
Aster buys medically necessary sunglasses (she has photosensitivity, remember?)
Aster gets a cookie from the kitchen while completely naked, and her roommate sees it. This is surprising to her.
Aster nitpicks someone complimenting her skirt and pronouns
Aster reschedules an appointment with her case manager
Aster's back bends really far
Aster being irritable at people giving her advice again
Aster admires her blue sclera some more
Aster's bathtub is dirty, so she considers purchasing an LA fitness membership so she can use their baths instead.
Aster tries to destigmatize mental illness by posting her trash-filled room on TikTok.
Aster moves her trachea around.
The description kindly lets viewers know that this is NOT normal, and if your trachea moves like that, something is WRONG.
Another ER visit
She decides she's no longer going to tell her family when she goes to the ER.
Aster gets invalidated and wants to kill herself
dr google says this blood pressure warrants emergency care
Aster wants to go to another ER. Her room also smells like cat piss.
She finds another excuse to go! An infected bugbite
She says she has a skin infection that's leaking bloody pus.
The doctor says otherwise.
The next day, Aster crowdfunds for a new litter box. She hasn't cleaned up the cat pee yet, and her bank account is nearly empty.
Aster orders the wrong fitbit on ebay.
Aster briefly wonders if she has a type of EDS that hasn't been discovered yet.
She did in fact buy the expensive medical alert bracelet from earlier. But it triggers her sensory issues.
Aster blames her roommates for getting her sick all the time
Aster pops her wheelchair's tire. This is her roommates' fault.
Aster tests negative for covid, the flu, and strep. but she's never tested positive before, so she probably does have covid.
How she talks about her roommates on her public blog:
Versus the personal blog:
Says she wants a better chair anyways.
Aster has diagnosed her roommate with covid as well
Aster thinks she's developing gastroparesis
Aster thinks her cat is sick
Aster is upset that a commenter wants her to post another chapter of her fanfic
Aster has a pile of broken glass in her room that she is covering with something.
Aster asks for nice anonymous messages
Aster goes to online group therapy.
Aster takes pleasure in her roommate's illness
Aster shares some pill porn.
We already know she's on nadolol, lamictal, and risperdal.
The light green and dark green capsule is hydroxyzine. The light green one is fluoxetine. I'm unsure what the other pills are.
Aster goes to urgent care again
Aster has to eat her phone now
She also has changed her url to '2eepy,' indicating that she had decided to incorporate her worsening sleep issues into her identity.
Aster describes her uneven cognitive profile.
Aster buys a $9, 642 calorie smoothie.
Aster gets high and becomes an autism philosopher
Aster considers going to the ER, but whatever is wrong fixes itself
Aster is now rarely showering
Aster spills a large rotten drink all over her bedroom floor.
Port surgery tomorrow! It's happening pretty suddenly.
Tylenol is not sufficient for Aster's very high pain levels.
Aster is tempted to scratch her incision...
She has a bit of a problem with picking at her wounds, which is part of why her bug bites scars look so bad. She doesn't talk about this too much, though.
Aster starts infusions soon and wants to learn to access and deaccess her port
Despite spending literally all day posting on Tumblr and TikTok, writing descriptions of images is not accessible to her.
Old people don't understand what it's like to be disabled
Aster can't figure out how to use a smartwatch that someone bought for her. Oh well. Guess it's junk now.
Aster loves her saline and makes a bunch of cringeworthy memes about it
She also gets her wheelchair fixed.
Now that she's rich, Aster orders a purple gem ring split and a bicycle poncho for her wheelchair.
Aster embarrasses herself by telling her rheumatologist she wants to be tested for myedoplastic syndromes. She cancels the appointment.
Aster sends her friends some of her dono money
Aster mentions a 2021 incident we didn't know about, where a toddler she was taking care of snuck into her room and "tried to eat" her meds, and she got taken to court. The charges were dropped.
She also wants to buy a Nintendo Switch.
Aster finally does something smart and pays most of her upcoming bills so she doesn't waste all the money on stupid bullshit.
She leaves one April bill unpaid and buys a $45 skirt
Aster Ubers 30 minutes to her preferred ER for a bowel impaction
This is so fucking gross
Aster has bought a bunch of medical equipment
How in the world is this an issue
Aster films her blue sclera, a symptom of HEDS. This filter offers a very accurate representaiton of the true color of her eyeballs.
Aster goes "days and days" without showering while on her heavy flow period. This makes her want a hysterectomy.
Aster makes a TikTok where she isn't pitching her voice up an annoying amount.
Aster's new lore is that 'Aster' was initially an alter that split off from 'Star,' but 'Star' is mostly dormant but comes back every once in a while.
Another reason she realized she was autistic. Going to public school for 2 months in 10th grade, and getting bullied because other kids found the homeschooled kid weird.
Aster says she has scars from her mom biting her
Aster's gums are bleeding randomly
Aster is in pain and goes to the ER.
Aster makes a video where she pretends to be retarded. Compare this to the last video.
Aster tries to give a urine sample. She forgets to put the pee in a cup. She thinks that they might give her IV saline so that she has to pee again sooner. (This does not happen.)
Aster is never going to this ER again.
Aster has a bad time in physical therapy.
Aster buys medically necessary sunglasses (she has photosensitivity, remember?)
Aster gets a cookie from the kitchen while completely naked, and her roommate sees it. This is surprising to her.
Aster nitpicks someone complimenting her skirt and pronouns
Aster reschedules an appointment with her case manager
Aster's back bends really far
Aster being irritable at people giving her advice again
Aster admires her blue sclera some more
Aster's bathtub is dirty, so she considers purchasing an LA fitness membership so she can use their baths instead.
Aster tries to destigmatize mental illness by posting her trash-filled room on TikTok.
Aster moves her trachea around.
The description kindly lets viewers know that this is NOT normal, and if your trachea moves like that, something is WRONG.
Another ER visit
She decides she's no longer going to tell her family when she goes to the ER.
Aster gets invalidated and wants to kill herself
dr google says this blood pressure warrants emergency care
Aster wants to go to another ER. Her room also smells like cat piss.
She finds another excuse to go! An infected bugbite
She says she has a skin infection that's leaking bloody pus.
The doctor says otherwise.
The next day, Aster crowdfunds for a new litter box. She hasn't cleaned up the cat pee yet, and her bank account is nearly empty.
Aster orders the wrong fitbit on ebay.
Aster briefly wonders if she has a type of EDS that hasn't been discovered yet.
She did in fact buy the expensive medical alert bracelet from earlier. But it triggers her sensory issues.
Aster blames her roommates for getting her sick all the time
Aster pops her wheelchair's tire. This is her roommates' fault.
Aster tests negative for covid, the flu, and strep. but she's never tested positive before, so she probably does have covid.
How she talks about her roommates on her public blog:
Versus the personal blog:
Says she wants a better chair anyways.
Aster has diagnosed her roommate with covid as well
Aster thinks she's developing gastroparesis
Aster thinks her cat is sick
Aster is upset that a commenter wants her to post another chapter of her fanfic
Aster has a pile of broken glass in her room that she is covering with something.
Aster asks for nice anonymous messages
Aster goes to online group therapy.
Aster takes pleasure in her roommate's illness
Aster shares some pill porn.
We already know she's on nadolol, lamictal, and risperdal.
The light green and dark green capsule is hydroxyzine. The light green one is fluoxetine. I'm unsure what the other pills are.
Aster goes to urgent care again
Aster has to eat her phone now
She also has changed her url to '2eepy,' indicating that she had decided to incorporate her worsening sleep issues into her identity.
Aster describes her uneven cognitive profile.
Aster buys a $9, 642 calorie smoothie.
Aster gets high and becomes an autism philosopher
Aster considers going to the ER, but whatever is wrong fixes itself
Aster is now rarely showering
Aster spills a large rotten drink all over her bedroom floor.
Port surgery tomorrow! It's happening pretty suddenly.
Tylenol is not sufficient for Aster's very high pain levels.
Aster is tempted to scratch her incision...
She has a bit of a problem with picking at her wounds, which is part of why her bug bites scars look so bad. She doesn't talk about this too much, though.
Aster starts infusions soon and wants to learn to access and deaccess her port
Despite spending literally all day posting on Tumblr and TikTok, writing descriptions of images is not accessible to her.
Old people don't understand what it's like to be disabled
Aster can't figure out how to use a smartwatch that someone bought for her. Oh well. Guess it's junk now.
Aster loves her saline and makes a bunch of cringeworthy memes about it
She also gets her wheelchair fixed.
Aster moves in with roommates and is filthy and useless. She gives them bedbugs.
She goes to the ER like 10 times for various things. Her more legitimate problems are related to her saline infusions. She decides she absolutely needs the infusions and wants a port.
Aster spends donation money on an unbelievable amount of bullshit. She somehow manages to raise so much money that despite her spending habits, she's able to purchase another electric wheelchair and pay her living expenses through April.
She rotates through a few physical and regular therapists.
She gets a port placed.
She goes to the ER like 10 times for various things. Her more legitimate problems are related to her saline infusions. She decides she absolutely needs the infusions and wants a port.
Aster spends donation money on an unbelievable amount of bullshit. She somehow manages to raise so much money that despite her spending habits, she's able to purchase another electric wheelchair and pay her living expenses through April.
She rotates through a few physical and regular therapists.
She gets a port placed.
Aster jerry-rigs an IV pole for her port-a-cath saline infusions. It outlasts her port.
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For my fellow medfags here (any residents?), intern year is going to be tough. I cannot imagine working with someone like this. Expect her fellow first years to be furious about picking up the slack. Intern year is hard enough on it's own.
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She’s not going to inspire any confidence in her patients either. I’d be horrified if I was an inpatient (which means I need around the clock care) and ended up with a deaf blind, oxygen dependent doctor. So many diagnostic clues are visual or aural. She could fuck right off and not waste my time. At least in a hospital setting it’s usually the nurses sticking cannulas or catheters in you.
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tiffany got into a "serious accident" aka her wheelchair tipped over during transport. at first i thought she was full of shit, but she posted some pretty gnarly photos of her bruises today. she claims both of her arms and her head are fractured despite no casts, splints, scars, dressings or other proof of surgical intervention. she has now decided on hospice after the hospital refused to treat her pain, giving herself a ONE WEEK life expectancy. i won't lie, this does look pretty painful, but i can understand why they aren't giving additional narcotics to someone who has unlimited unsupervised access to a fuck ton of oxycodone.
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Nooooo WTF!!!! Her mom has every right to be furious at her. Bed bugs seem like they would drive anyone crazy, let alone a little boy with Down Syndrome who (according to Aster anyway) has sensory issues. For shame.
Glad to hear about Sunny's well-deserved revenge. Very nice.
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FUCK OFF WERE FULL ALEXANDRA
Alex's NGT always seems to be her left side, yet its not in this picture, it's on her right side, and then left interchangeably throughout her video. So that means she removed it, then replaced it, and obviously got an x-ray to confirm its placement as she wouldn't want to accidentally place it in her trachea rather than her oesophagus right???
I don't think she's every explained why she needs a NGT, nor have i even seen her use it once, but if it was just a prop to her, she obviously wouldn't ever be concerned with it being accidentally misplaced in her trachea right???
since some resort on a 3rd world island nation wasn't an issue i'm sure anything in the UK should be sufficiently "accessible" to her
I was really hope they would dump her on the isle of wright, she needs some actual struggle in her life
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A smart Kiwi has found where Alexandra will be working upon her return to the UK. They don't want to post themselves or be credited, so instead it is I who brings your their hard work:
On the Wessex health board site
there is a link to a spreadsheet (under Clinical Rotations for SFP programmes). This lists all of the job posts in Wessex and the rotations that come with it, which is all publicly accessible information. If you search for the four specialties Alexandra has mentioned you come across three options:
And now the only mystery is which rotation she will start on. Pray for the people of Bournemouth and Poole, I guess.
On the Wessex health board site
there is a link to a spreadsheet (under Clinical Rotations for SFP programmes). This lists all of the job posts in Wessex and the rotations that come with it, which is all publicly accessible information. If you search for the four specialties Alexandra has mentioned you come across three options:
And now the only mystery is which rotation she will start on. Pray for the people of Bournemouth and Poole, I guess.
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It's important to remember that British graduates are much younger than the rest of the world. If starting medical school as soon as they leave high school at 18 they'd be 23 at graduation after a five year course. With adjustments to the world of work + high stress job it's an understandable recipe for emotional lability. Even healthy baby doctors struggle with the intensity at the start. Alexandra is 32 but we know how she copes with her emotions; the pressure on her colleagues is going to be intense and won't be conducive to making friends at work. And everyone she reviews (particularly new patients in acute medicine) will have to be re-reviewed to make it safe, so it just doubles the workload. When she's provisionally registered (first year) the most independence she will get is "indirect supervision" with someone always contactable.
Some people for health or performance related reasons can be taken off out of hours shifts and essentially become supernumerary to the existing team but I think she's actually taking up a job space. She has also made her intentions clear about working full time, on top of a 2.5 hour commute. I know her relationship with the truth is complicated but if she were doing what she says it shows very poor insight into the toll this job is going to take on her physically and mentally.
It's a Ryles tube for drainage. If I can correctly gather from the information she's shared on social media a few years ago the tube on her ?venting gastrostomy dislodged or broke inside her but four hospitals refused to fix it. I don't believe this at all but her abdo is full of a lot of old weirdly placed stomas and then there's this blog post that says the drainage tube is staying. In her reddit comments she said that she was waiting on a further surgery to remove the Ryles but it would mean more time out so she was putting it off.
“Promise me you’ll be able to replace the tube as soon as there’s a surgery slot?” I said to the doctors. I was reassured that this would be the case, and I finally felt at ease. Safe and listened to. I was on continuous two-hourly morphine doses at this point. A week later, I developed a high fever and became septic. I had yet another infection, and was commenced on yet another course of intravenous antibiotics. And then the doctors – a new team, having changed around as they do on a weekly basis, came and broke the bad news the following day.
“We’ve decided not to do the surgery”. I would be left without the drainage tube that had kept me above water for so long; it would not be replaced. “…Because you don’t live in the catchment area of this hospital. We are not taking on any new patients outside of this geographical area”. Speechless. I had been admitted in emergency circumstances, prepared for surgery and strung along – Hospital C had one duty of care, all of which was ultimately dismissed, because it came down to politics and finances. I was going home without any action. Yet. Again.
“We’ve decided not to do the surgery”. I would be left without the drainage tube that had kept me above water for so long; it would not be replaced. “…Because you don’t live in the catchment area of this hospital. We are not taking on any new patients outside of this geographical area”. Speechless. I had been admitted in emergency circumstances, prepared for surgery and strung along – Hospital C had one duty of care, all of which was ultimately dismissed, because it came down to politics and finances. I was going home without any action. Yet. Again.
I can't trust "sides" in her photographs because a lot of the shots she wants to look candid are taken by herself. So I don't know whether she's using the front or back camera. Regardless, she could always just take it out and replace when needed. She doesn't feed through it, just drains, so she knows quickly once it's in place as yucky stuff comes up. In 2022 during the admission awaiting this surgery she posted about drinking a hot chocolate in hospital which immediately drained into the drainage bag to use as a hot water bottle on a cold winter night.
