If say you're around a family member or three who are lolcows or flawed in some way and you are an ethnic minority in your area, it's easy to get more and more embarrassed about your race/ethnicity, especially if those members of your family only associate with other deadbeats and lolocows. Gays and religious minorities experience something similar when their local community is a shit show they consider just opting out because the group they belong to is fucking annoying/embarrassing. Getting to new areas with a greater variety of people of your race/ethnicity helps, along with finally being away from family. It happens, it's all good to go through the cultural cringe as long as you recognize it.
The other thing, Kiwi Farms: there was a user in the LGBT Kiwi thread asking the kiwis there why they were openly gay on a site that mostly hated them (lmao it doesn't lmao). The answer was "I couldn't give a fuck what some basement dweller who doesn't go outside says. You are an articles and happenings retard and there's a reason you're fucking quarantined even on this site. Fuck off." Remember, kiwis who group on here and yell about NIGGERS all day are either people really confined to a bad part of town/city where that actually does happen, or are fighting against imaginary enemies because they don't go outside as much and are scared of Tyrone. Or worse, they are also fucking brown like half the fucking wignats seem to be nowadays. Hell, most Kiwis are "pro-black people, anti-nigger behavior" types, and like to judt say slurs because it still makes them giggle to be naughty. We'll always have the site posts the worst of black people since null allows people to drop N-bombs freely, but we'll have the site post the worst of other races because we're a drama site. A lot of it can go back to the toaster problem of being a circlejerk of negativity instead of fetishism and smaller circles of users can just 2 minutes of hate themselves in a frenzy. Remember, you are a person. You know other people offline. You can find more people who look like you and aren't bad - they just don't get talked about as much because drama causers are always in the news. Normal people of all races exist. Teachers, bikers, writers, football fans, nerds, plumbers, customer service workers, amazon wage slaves, cheese enthusiasts* - all these appear in every race. You just have to find your people. And if you can't, you have to become the best version of yourself like all other people of every shade ever do since you are you, and you control yourself. You got this, habibi.
*lactose intolerance notwithstanding. Even the shits don't always stop cheese lovers.