I am keeping my day job. I am not delusional. I am not positive that I can make a career on YouTube. However, it has been the only career that I have ever wanted in my life. My talent is as a writer. I don't have the free time to write books and people don't read many books nowadays, so the best avenue is through YouTube and making videos. I made my first video over a decade ago. I have been collecting friends on facebook in hopes that they would watch the videos that I make one day. Now, I plan to make videos because that makes me happy!
Why cozy up to Mel? Why not? She never did anything to me. I don't understand why you found my comment on her video creepy. My comment relayed my experience of also having a cat die and saying, "oh, it's tough to go through," or something like that.
Mel stopped responding to me anyway and I don't really care to be her friend or not. I just think it's interesting to keep contact with her.
After not texting for a while, I saw that she had asked if I was a certain user on YouTube like "Gothic Vampirate." I told her I was not. I said I was Nikkster and I linked my latest video. I told her it was a good time for her to make videos too. So then I guess she checked and saw that her video had over 700 views and deleted it.
I left a nice, positive, pertinent comment on her video as a gesture of goodwill. I don't operate with hate in my heart like some of you people. I don't have any reason to not be her friend. I still don't want Tarl to destroy himself. I don't want him to kill himself by his own hand or by cop. Mel was very good and never told me any information about him. He tells us much more information on X.