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Today is my 15th wedding anniversary and my wife and I will go out for a nice meal together tonight. Its hard to believe how fast the time has flown by but I thank the Lord for the patience and love my wife has given me through the years despite my many failings. Im doing very well today!
 
Today is my 15th wedding anniversary and my wife and I will go out for a nice meal together tonight. Its hard to believe how fast the time has flown by but I thank the Lord for the patience and love my wife has given me through the years despite my many failings. Im doing very well today!
Congrats! Wishing you and your wife a nice dinner, and another 15 years of enjoying each others company.
 
For three nights now I've had intense nightmares, and I don't know how to stop them. Today I had a dream that my teeth were falling out. Fucking scary as shit, and I was so grateful when I finally woke up and realized I still had all of my teeth.
 
For three nights now I've had intense nightmares, and I don't know how to stop them. Today I had a dream that my teeth were falling out. Fucking scary as shit, and I was so grateful when I finally woke up and realized I still had all of my teeth.
Nightmares can be caused by low quality of sleep, I get them when I go to sleep at unusual time, was not physically tired enough, had a heavy dinner, room is too warm, damp or even moldy, too much noise around, or there is physical discomfort (sickness)
There is not many kinds of dreams really - the falling out teeth one is scary alright, but common, because that's what already happened IRL before to nearly everyone who is now adult.
 
College is sadly not going to happen for me anytime soon, the community college I planned on going to lied by omission by not accurately showing how many books+supplies were actually needed on the main website (I planned on getting a computer support tech certification, alot of what's required for the course is paid software). They have a separate website to buy books and supplies from that showed how much was actually required for the course I was taking. It would be drastically more expensive than I originally thought.
I don't know much about your situation, but consider Western Governor's University, assuming you're in the US and looking for some tech bachelor's or master's. It's fully accredited, largely asynchronous, fully online college (you take proctored tests.) You pay by 6mo term rather than credit hour, but it's a flat rate. In general it's extremely affordable if you can dedicate enough time to take classes fulltime, and you can still get full normal student aid. About 4k/semester tuition for bachelor's. I'm not in tech but my understanding is that all the WGU bachelor's include various industry certs/trainings for free, or if you already have your bachelor's, you can take just the certifications.

A lot of people also do Sophia to transfer in their gen eds. I'm not doing Sophia because the credits eventually may not be considered towards CPA requirements, but especially in the field of tech it's an easy way to shave thousands off, if you can transfer in even a few credits. If your community college and whatever else you plan do to does allow credits from Sophia, you can at least spend a semester knocking out a few gen eds. Sophia afaik is still about 100/mo (with no extra book fees etc) and I don't know much about it, I don't have experience there. If you plan to get special licensures down the line I'd double and triple check that they'll be okay with Sophia, but if you're just trying to get like, Bachelor's in IT, Sophia is a really wise way to go about it. If you already have some community college credits but not a full degree, reverse transfers are also a thing (completing the last portion via Sophia or WGU, but getting the degree from the community college.)

WGU has been extremely affordable AND accommodating to me. Online schools like this CAN get a bad rap because obviously you get what you put in. But personally I find my retention is actually a lot better with the self-paced curriculum and in many ways I've found it's higher quality than my community college was. All the bullshit is stripped away. No spending two weeks of class on Getting To Know One another. If you can complete a project in 3 days instead of 3 weeks, then you just do that, get it graded, and start on the next project or next class, even.

When you're coming out of high school and there's value in "the college experience" and the "networking" present in going off to Local Big University, I guess the premium can be worth it. And a local community college can offer those sorts of things too. So I'm not anti- those things. But I do think people discount online colleges. People care less and less, esp. as you get older, where the degree comes from, and networking is more about your current existing jobs.

However obviously WGU requires a fulltime commitment and you have to be capable of working largely independently. Sophia is a lot lower stakes. Some people do pay the 100/mo with the intention of cramming in a lot of gen eds to save thousands, but you could also take like 2 gen eds in 6 months and you'd still save money compared to even a community college.

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If you're in the right position in life, you can get a fully accredited bachelor's in two years for like 16k or less, while still working. Basically what I'm up to.

My community college also totally scammed me in the same way once. I really, really hated it. Not only could I not just purchase the textbook myself secondhand, they REQUIRED you to buy online access to a "workbook companion" and the homework was largely completed inside this bullshit horribly formatted online portal thing.... I still passed that awful class, but I didn't continue at my local community college.



I have been actually writing a lot lately. I have about a 40 page rough draft and I don't plan on stopping. Both sites where I used to workshop writing have now hard-pivoted into AI stuff, and in general I wouldn't know where to turn to talk to humans anymore. Kinda sucks.
 
Today I had a dream that my teeth were falling out
I've had that one many times, as recently as a week or two ago. It's an anxiety thing.

We had a warm day, and now we're getting a rapid freeze overnight. I'm looking forward to everything being covered in ice in the morning. Not looking forward to the inevitable water main breaks.
 
Two days ago i threw my back out again, while doing the oh-so-strenouos task of getting out of bad. Contrary to the other two times i mrssed up my back this year it didn't clear up after a day or two of not walking. I'm laying in the hospital right now and probably will stay here over the holidays. Had pain so bad yesterday i screamed and shouted, easy 10 out of 10. Eventually called an ambulance, they hooked me up with bona fide fentanyl and something else that made me dissociate, had a genuine out of body experience and some strong visuals while riding the amberlamps. Only cool thing about this whole ordeal so far.

To my surprise i haven't seen a single indian yet, just got woken up for breakfast by a nubian princess and some chinese girl with a strong accent, german girls and new-german guys are here too but so far no jeets.
 
My community college also totally scammed me in the same way once. I really, really hated it. Not only could I not just purchase the textbook myself secondhand, they REQUIRED you to buy online access to a "workbook companion" and the homework was largely completed inside this bullshit horribly formatted online portal thing.... I still passed that awful class, but I didn't continue at my local community college.
Enlighten me (the uneducated barbarian), but do community colleges even confer university degrees? To my knowledge, it's all associate degrees which are basically vocational school following the ISCED & EQF tier systems. It seems strange to pay discount university prices for something that isn't even equivalent to a university bachelor's. Those degrees simply aren't accredited bachelor's degrees and I struggle to see any value in acquiring them.
 
"Being able to see is so overhyped bro, just be happy you're blind."

Basically the experience of talking with friends (at least I like to think of them as that) about struggles in life because of my fucking broken ass brain

I just want to experience adult life, the good and the bad (and the ugly lol ecksdee).

Autism fucking sucks. I'm fucking lonely as shit and constantly drained.
 
For three nights now I've had intense nightmares, and I don't know how to stop them. Today I had a dream that my teeth were falling out. Fucking scary as shit, and I was so grateful when I finally woke up and realized I still had all of my teeth.
I'm gonna be the voice of woo nonsense - tooth related dreams are often rooted (teehee) in stress. If you're going through something particularly stressful, which wouldn't be weird because it is the holidays after all, that might be why.

Practicing good sleep hygiene in general is very important.
Wind down for bedtime around 1h-30m before you plan on actually sleeping; read a book, take a shower, drink a cup of tea without caffeine in (so, rooibos or herbal tea, not green tea or anything with tea leaves in).
Keep electronics out of your bed/bedroom: no doomscrolling, no checking emails on your phone, no tv.
If you suffer from a lot of weird dreams or nightmares, keeping a dream journal as well as a regular journal can help illuminate patterns of behaviour that you can then take steps towards avoiding or fixing.
 
Enlighten me (the uneducated barbarian), but do community colleges even confer university degrees? To my knowledge, it's all associate degrees which are basically vocational school following the ISCED & EQF tier systems. It seems strange to pay discount university prices for something that isn't even equivalent to a university bachelor's. Those degrees simply aren't accredited bachelor's degrees and I struggle to see any value in acquiring them.
I basically agree. It kinda depends on your situation. In some fields (and assuming a person is too broke to go to "big college"), a 2yr degree still meaningfully puts them above people without degrees. And for a lot of people, the 2yr community college is a way to make eventually getting a bachelor's cheaper- but in practice I kinda doubt the number of people who go on to get bachelor's after community college. But most universities will transfer in credit and degrees from the local community colleges. They have giant billboards in my area advertising how easy it is to transfer from the community college to the universities and that you'll save 10s of thousands.

I have already been put in situations where ANY degree at all would have automatically qualified me for raises and promotions. I have already gone through job applications where it was a combination of points from education and work experience, and anybody with a 2yr Music degree and no job experience had more points than someone with two years experience at the actual job.

A lot of people are also switching careers and need something like a cert or 2yr degree to get their foot in the door and help them compete, but I'll be honest and say I've known more people who gave up than successful ones.

But with the rise of online, fully accreditated bachelors, and cheaper ways to go about the whole thing, community college looks like a shitty deal more and more. At least in my analysis.

Community college also generally qualifies people for student apartments. At least in my area, it's more of a lifestyle decision to go to community college after high school than an educational one.... If you don't get into a good university, you still have a path to move out of the house with student loans or grants. You can still "go away to college."

If you couldn't get into traditional uni, community college was your best way. Some people also like to take classes very slowly, but unless you're close to finishing your degree, idk it never really seems to work out. I meet very few people who do the "work fulltime and take two classes" who ever actually graduate.

WGU isn't a community college and only offers bachelor's and masters (and standalone certs), and is a fulltime program. I'll be honest and say like 10yrs ago they were probably too sketchy for me, but especially post-pandemic, everybody is on board with the concept of fully online college. It counts for CPA accreditation, what more can I want?

I need to get a rug under a bunch of heavy furniture and I've just been procrastinating moving everything around....
 
For three nights now I've had intense nightmares, and I don't know how to stop them. Today I had a dream that my teeth were falling out. Fucking scary as shit, and I was so grateful when I finally woke up and realized I still had all of my teeth.
I have had these teeth falling out dreams many times over the years and every time I wake up relieved that it was just a dream. I have read before that it is related to a very basic and primitive fear as in the animal world if you have no teeth you starve and die. So yes stress, anxiety insecurity all contribute to causing these teeth nightmares.
 
There’s this toy brand from my childhood I enjoy passively collecting, and I just got a massive lot I’m very excited for. I’m also scared people are going to think I’m a pedophile owning a girl’s toy set, but I think the fact that I am a girl and the fact that I grew up with these kinda excuses it. It’s a model I never had money for as a kid, so I used to just go over to a friend’s house to play with theirs, as much as they’d allow me. Good times. It’s nice to reflect on the good parts of childhood.

I’ve started meds and words can’t describe how much better I’ve been feeling. Not perfect, obviously, but I’m just slowly becoming less and less anxious and things I worried about before are slowly seeming more and more irrelevant and dumb. Strange enough though, although I’ve noticed I have been wanting to check the farms less and less. Whenever I try to check it, I get this wave of disgust that makes me go “What the fuck am I doing? This is no life to live.”. Idk. I hope it goes away, there was a thread I was wanting to read.
 
There’s this toy brand from my childhood I enjoy passively collecting, and I just got a massive lot I’m very excited for. I’m also scared people are going to think I’m a pedophile owning a girl’s toy set, but I think the fact that I am a girl and the fact that I grew up with these kinda excuses it. It’s a model I never had money for as a kid, so I used to just go over to a friend’s house to play with theirs, as much as they’d allow me. Good times. It’s nice to reflect on the good parts of childhood.

I’ve started meds and words can’t describe how much better I’ve been feeling. Not perfect, obviously, but I’m just slowly becoming less and less anxious and things I worried about before are slowly seeming more and more irrelevant and dumb. Strange enough though, although I’ve noticed I have been wanting to check the farms less and less. Whenever I try to check it, I get this wave of disgust that makes me go “What the fuck am I doing? This is no life to live.”. Idk. I hope it goes away, there was a thread I was wanting to read.
What's wrong with checking in on us? We're fucking delightful.
 

Who was the stupid cock sucking faggot, the fucking blackest gorilla NIGGER brained retard that has or will ever exist, that thought it was a good idea to use plastic clips to hold a car dashboard in? Plastic that is somehow both made of tissue paper and needs the strength of Thor's fucking hammer to remove.

USE SCREWS YOU SLANT-EYED JAP PIECE OF SHIT! GOD I HOPE YOUR ANCESTORS SUFFERED, TWO NUKES WEREN'T ENOUGH! FOR YOU. HATE. HATE.
 
What's wrong with checking in on us? We're fucking delightful.
Dunno how to describe it, the farms never made me happy but before it always felt like “Ya, this place makes me miserable, but I get a nice high when I check it so it’s worth it.” Now that high is gone, so all that’s left is the misery.

Before when it came to engaging in my hobbies, I put them on hold cause the high that checking the farms gave me was more important. Now I’m busy with them more, which is admittedly fun.
 
Dunno how to describe it, the farms never made me happy but before it always felt like “Ya, this place makes me miserable, but I get a nice high when I check it so it’s worth it.” Now that high is gone, so all that’s left is the misery.

Before when it came to engaging in my hobbies, I put them on hold cause the high that checking the farms gave me was more important. Now I’m busy with them more, which is admittedly fun.
I mean, you are the captain of your own ship. If you were going out of your own way to do things to make yourself miserable...there's threads on here that are a true joy to watch. I like the self sufficiency thread and the music thread.
 
I mean, you are the captain of your own ship. If you were going out of your own way to do things to make yourself miserable...there's threads on here that are a true joy to watch. I like the self sufficiency thread and the music thread.
I have doomscrolled the music thread. Never seen the self sufficiency thread though
 
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