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(((I am NOT a jew))) said:
She's pretty much the queen bee who took a decent workplace and fucked it up so she could relive her high school years with other mean girls.
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Oh, crap. I put up with two years of a supervisor pulling that shit. I am sorry. I hope (the others working in that department) don't play along, because it made an already pressured workplace into a living hell.
Personally, I would advise you not to go back. My own solution was finally spilling the whole story to her supervisor, who reported her supervisor, and... the bimbo got fired. A couple of other participants got reprimanded. It took a year to replace BimboBoss, but it's been like heaven since.
Good luck. Work sucks up so much of our time and attention that it shouldn't be so utterly miserable that you want to pull your own head off. Since I'm past retirement age but have to work, I didn't realistically have the option to hope I'd get hired elsewhere, although if I were you, I would not return. Good luck. ❤️
 
Tired, just tired at this point. The last few years have been unbearably stressful and I'm getting to the point of a nervous breakdown. Shit just keeps getting worse and worse. I've been dealing with my mom's death and taking care of her estate and it's just so overwhelming. My siblings have done absolutely nothing to help. I had to take care of an extremely demanding dying woman without any assistance whatsoever. I burned through all my savings keeping the house out of foreclosure and now I'm not sure it was worth it. There's a car of hers that doesn't run and I was storing somewhere. Well, without telling me or giving me any warning they had it towed and now the lien is worth more than the car. I can't pay to get it out and I'm gonna get a bunch of shit because I'm the executor. I just don't have any more money. And just to make things shittier, my car broke down. Fuck me I've had enough of this.
 
Mesh Gear Fox said:
I can't pay to get it out and I'm gonna get a bunch of shit because I'm the executor.
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Assuming it's still in Mom's name, let them keep it they(the towing company) can't do shit except file a claim with the estate, the executor has no personal financial responsibility for the debts of the estate. And tell the rest of them to fuck off.
 
JanuaryViolet said:
Oh, crap. I put up with two years of a supervisor pulling that shit. I am sorry. I hope (the others working in that department) don't play along, because it made an already pressured workplace into a living hell.
Personally, I would advise you not to go back. My own solution was finally spilling the whole story to her supervisor, who reported her supervisor, and... the bimbo got fired. A couple of other participants got reprimanded. It took a year to replace BimboBoss, but it's been like heaven since.
Good luck. Work sucks up so much of our time and attention that it shouldn't be so utterly miserable that you want to pull your own head off. Since I'm past retirement age but have to work, I didn't realistically have the option to hope I'd get hired elsewhere, although if I were you, I would not return. Good luck. ❤️
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Thank you so much!
She pretty much made it apparent that she did not want me back, so I don't have to worry about it. Thinking about it more with a clear head I do find it actually funny now, because I think the main problem was that I injured her ego when I left. She's acting like a vindictive girlfriend right now, especially considering a couple weeks before this conversation even happened my friend talked to her about me and he said she pretty much had mostly positive things to say and that she thinks wherever I'm at, I'm kicking ass at my job. I think it's just some BPD girlboss rage that the employee who used to kiss her ass actually disagreed with her once and then eventually left when we were in a bad place.
She hired a pet nigger not too long ago who'd been there three months who even the others hate instead of giving it to the actual nigga who worked his ass for the last three years there just because she knew he would basically be her bitch and snitch on everyone in the back. Place is absolute shit now.
I think there were two occasions where I just got to the "Fuck this" stage and that was when she literally started doing the silent treatment to the point even my friend pointed out how awkward it was. And the other was when our water started turning pitch black and she wanted to keep the place open and when I asked what we were going to do, she said with a straight face and I quote
"It's not sewer water. It's just well water."
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I have no belief that she's going to be fired since we have no HR, and she is friends with the owners. But I'm taking absolute euphoria in knowing they literally haven't been able to fill my position in two months when it's entry level. Place is obviously hurting and she's not budging. I know this isn't going to be some reddit divorce story where the place burns to the ground and the bitch dies of AIDS or anything... but I actually take pride in the fact that I know I kept that place afloat despite being the lowest position there and that they made the shocked pikachu face when I actually left after thinking they had me by the balls and not allowing any upwards mobility (didn't even want a raise, just wanted to try something new). I just think the place is going to continue getting worse. There's literally two people keeping that place maintained anymore. If they jump ship, I actually don't know what the fuck they're going to do.
I don't miss it. I was getting to be actively suicidal working there. I like that I made a decision for myself for once.
It did make me actually start thinking about the future though. I'm actively looking at freelance/seasonal jobs that sound cool instead of just working 9-5s for the rest of my life. I'm not ever working for a girl boss ever again.

Long rant but again, thank you!
 
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Hurting like hell. I got run over by a drunk driver 8 years ago and ever since then at least once or twice a year my right leg and/or foot will flare up in unholy amounts of pain for anywhere from a few days to a week. It’s my right foot doing it now and god damn the fucker hurts! I can’t call off work because I need the money, so I have to gimp-shuffle around nursing the damn thing looking like Igor walking. Tried taking painkillers, tried massaging it, tried alternating between heat and cold, nada. Just have to suck it up and hope it doesn’t last very long this time. Go fucking figure it had to start right after my days off too when I could have used the time to rest
 
Jason Wynn said:
Tried taking painkillers, tried massaging it, tried alternating between heat and cold, nada. Just have to suck it up and hope it doesn’t last very long this time.
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YMMV, but I've got a pal who has debilitating chronic pain from a spinal injury who swears by taking capsulated Kratom twice a day. It's technically a supplement so you can buy it online but afaik it's a mild opioid. Not that I'd recommend popping that shit like candy, but they haven't reported much in the way of physical dependance/withdrawals so if you need something stronger than OTC it might be an option.

Like ass. Recently had to drop out of college to work because otherwise we'll lose the house. It's suffocating to feel like I'm the only person in this family willing to take care of my disabled family member. At this rate I don't think I'll ever get out of here.
 
Hentai-Semitism said:
Not very well. I'm middle aged and I'm basically waiting to die of old age or boredom, whichever comes first. I'm not even complaining. It's just that the only strong feeling I've left is extreme irritation with human rudeness and a few of my pet peeves. Feels weird, man.
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I can't imagine losing all hope and joy from life. I would legit kill myself if I was you.
 
I lost weight but it's the kind where my fat clothes are now huge on me and the clothes that didn't fit are somehow still tight in the same way.
 
Señora Airi said:
Another downer is that I think one of my longtime discord friends trooned out. This would be the 2nd one. God help me.
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Was coping that it was a fever dream, then made the mistake of finding his xitter account.
Yep he's trooning out.

WhoBusTank69 said:
I lost weight but it's the kind where my fat clothes are now huge on me and the clothes that didn't fit are somehow still tight in the same way.
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Would it be possible to find a relatively inexpensive alteration location to get the fat clothes to fit on you better?
 
Foxymophandlemama said:
Found out that someone that I am very fond of doesn't like me.
I'm absolutely crushed because I've known them for years and they would never decline an invitation to hang out, go to the club, etc.
Not the first time it has happened, but still hurts nonetheless.
I suppose it happens more as you age, you start finding out who's a true friend or not and your group starts getting smaller and smaller. Quality over quantity.
I will try not to dwell in those feelings and just let them come and go. I still have to work and play in a D&D session afterwards. I can't let this ruin my day.

But it feels like I will never stop feeling like a lonely girl in middle school.
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That sucks,hope you'll get over it soon.
 
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I made a horrible choice in the midst of an occupational burnout, that has put a further massive burden on me and has forced me into a situation I fund extrenely uncomfortable and from which getting out would still be extremely painful. It's only been a few days and I regret everything. I pusged through it only because I thought it would all be easy once the deed was done, but now I feel like any minute more will crush me. I have not eaten since this morning due to extreme stress and can barely get out of my room. I feel imprisoned.
 
My laptop has been freezing and crashing more often lately, doesn't seem to be malware. I've had this thing for a few years so it might just be getting old. I don't want to have to buy a new one.
 
I got my CT scan done and now I’m just waiting for the results that will be here either Monday or Tuesday so I’m still super anxious as I wait for that. But on a more positive note a girl told me I was beautiful and it made my whole day just a little bit brighter
I spend so much time doomscrolling and ruminating on negative thoughts that I forget not every stranger out there is an absolute asshole lol
 
Foxymophandlemama said:
Found out that someone that I am very fond of doesn't like me.
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It's actually hard for me to truly connect with people because I never feel like I'm being understood. I don't know how to explain it well, but it feels like I am speaking a language people can barely understand.
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I've had similar things happen to me, including one or two very recently. What I've learned is to stop internalizing it.

People really have way more baggage sometimes than we give them credit for. A lot of the times people drop out or leave for non-reasons that I think if you're semi-sane you're not supposed to understand. I think it's also a more modern thing where people always think they have infinite options and think life must cater to them at all times.

Just speaking of experience, I think your possible problem is you put stock in other people too much. You have the humble reaction of when someone leaves, you assume it's because of a weakness on your part. I'm the same way, especially when it comes to people who seem to have more going for themselves financially/socially. It makes sense but truthfully, I think a lot of people are just fucked up now.

What I'm learning to do is just learn to spend time with myself and go after the things I want. I think the rest comes with that. If you truly devote a really hard, long stretch of time to recognizing why you put importance on other people and truly thinking of some of the things you want to do in the future that doesn't include them... it will be the hardest but ultimately most fulfilling thing you ever do. That's not me saying some wu shit like "Love yourself". But learning to respect yourself a bit and say "Fuck em" when people still act like it's still highschool will help you a lot more.

I know it gets hard when you see people out in public in large groups and you feel left behind. It bothered me a lot more a year or two ago. But when you think about those couple you got in your corner, that's worth it's weight in gold.
 
Canoodler said:
My laptop has been freezing and crashing more often lately, doesn't seem to be malware. I've had this thing for a few years so it might just be getting old. I don't want to have to buy a new one.
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I'm terrified that I might have to buy a new one in less than 2 years,especially how fast tech moves these days.
 
Like SHIT! I got rid of TV today. Goodbye to the biggest source of mind-poison in the world. Never watch it anyway, but glad to get rid of a couple hundred bucks a month of funding this evil. FUCK YOU MSNPC. None of my money goes to you any more.
 
AnOminous said:
Like SHIT! I got rid of TV today. Goodbye to the biggest source of mind-poison in the world. Never watch it anyway, but glad to get rid of a couple hundred bucks a month of funding this evil. FUCK YOU MSNPC. None of my money goes to you any more.
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Finally convinced my parents to let me cancel that shit for them a few months ago. Ripped all the seasons of American Pickers for my Dad and a couple of my moms shows so they've been happy with not paying for 180 other channels of brain rot bullshit since.
 
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